A writer's
worst curse
comes in the
form
of apathy
and that my darlings
is the worst kind
of death

I feel like
I have lost
the battle
in a one-warrior
war

I am tired
of placing my heart
in places
where it should
not
be

Find yourself, they said
you will walk down unknown paths
with dragons and lava puddles
with a shield and an unbeatable armor

Find yourself, they said
you will face the biggest beasts
and find shelter in their ribcages
warming yourself with their hearts

Find yourself, they said
you will sleep in the meadow
with only the moon as your company
and the wolf howls as you sleep melodies

Find yourself, they said
you will dance naked
around a fire of cherry wood near the forest
of undiscovered creatures

Find yourself, they said
and you will bathe in infinite oceans
of comfort and color your skin
with the sunsets

Find yourself, they said
and you will be swept off your feet
by this deathly wave of what they call love

Find yourself, they said
strip every layer the society accumulated
on your center
and expose the skeleton that you harness
so shyly

Find yourself, they said
and you will find yourself
afloat on a cloud of comfort
shedding all sense of care

Find yourself, they said
and you will feast with Kings of confidence
and Queens of beauty
igniting forest fires of jealousy
amongst those who just don't know thee

Find yourself, they said
and all those birds will flock to your feather
even change their own patter to fit yours

Find yourself, they said
and you will treasures of self worth
that no
mirror
can
reflect

You know that thing
that lingers
in your mind
after you sleep
that burdens you
with heavy eye lids
and dark loud heart beats
that bulk of
"I don't know what"
in your throat..

Say it
for with words,
you have nothing to lose

Sleepless nights
prompt me
to spill the day's joys
and sorrows
to the stars that
sit there
staring back at me
shining with understanding

Thuds
I only knew
that I was a fool
when I left that bubble
and walked down a path of rubble

I asked my eyes
why they were so blind
I asked my mind
why his thinking was so behind

They refused to answer
and left one noise afloat
a beat that I know served as a moat
from all reason and logic
leaving me in a state so tragic

I heard a whisper
my mind said "listen"
sunken in tears I did
and I heard it beat with candid

"It was I oh silly soul
hang in there, I'll recover soon
I'll guild my cracks
with a new love so bright
and even fall in an abyss of fright

It's not my fault ask the powers above
for I myself am mysterious to the
game
of love" - heart

I went back in time today
and saw him standing there
the way I did before
but a lot more mature

Shoulders broader
hair darker,
maybe some white strands
and here I thought
never a chance

I went back in time today
and talked to him
he sounded older...

Will continue demain

If space and time
were to entwine
I'd loop through
the galaxies
with fantasies
infinite times
in my mind

Over stars and black holes
comets and planets
If only time and space
were to entwine
infinity would turn
into my everyday

Wasted time
waisted time
way still (ed) time
Weigh distilled wine
waited lines
till when?

Does maturity
dress itself
just to fit in
while your
raw
spirit
undresses it
every
single
time?

Leave me
basking in the chaos
of my unstable mind
drunk on my fantastical thoughts
high on my imagination
and slowly tripping
into feelings
I know I can
pin down
to reality
with the tip of my
pencil

Can I love you in ways
that would even make
Romeo question his?

They told me
"Your new lover
will make you forget
your last"

What they did not tell me
is that
this one
will make me
forget
myself

The sun
still rises
even
when the heart
is still
covered
in the darkness
of the night

... and that's a good thing!

Warping
Words
Wonderfully
Within

Knitting
Knights
in
nights

Falling
Fully
Awake

Her love
was a cocktail
too strong
to handle
too sweet
to ignore
too poisonous
to taste
yet too
colorful
to dissect

Truth knocked on my heart
it hurt to hear its noise
I knew if I opened
I would never
be the same
again

Foolish, faulty
         feathers of quill
                                     Create
         Dizzy, drunk,
                  doodles on paper
        
                                            Drizzling
               Intense, irreversible
                                                Ink
                                                        Spilling
                          Curious, chaotic
                                            chemical imbalances  
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                                                                                      d
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                                                                                            e
                                                                                               s
                                                                                                  s
                                                                                                    l
                                                                                                      y

I diluted a part of myself
that I could no longer
retrieve until
I let myself go
in the sun dehydrating
the toxic liquid that filled me
with so much fantasy

Your voice
b lll uuuuu rrrrr eeee dddddd my own
Be shhhhh(quiet)hhhhhh..
I am /ˈlɪs(ə)n/ing
there's a whole
track list I missed
that doesn't play
your name
over
and
over
and
over

I saw her under a different light
it bounced off of her pale white skin
delicate and porcelain like

I saw her under the blatant sunshine
it gilded her hair, turning her into a goddess
of beauty
full of mystique

I saw her under the silver stars
glow
on her sleeping eyes
showing me the woman within

I saw her under the dimming lights
of the bar, swaying her hair
carelessly, becoming one
with the music

I saw her under the sheets
of instincts
when her whole body
mounted me with confidence
telling me
"it's different"

that's when I saw her
she transcended from under a different light
to a different
world
my kind of
world

F
  a
l
  l
by all means do
Enjoy the chemical  
i        b     l         n            e
   m      a      a            c              s

"Who is
insane enough
to date you?" He asked

"Someone insane
enough to think" She said

The moment of truth
lies in the second
you end your poem
with an exhale
and you look
up

I looked ahead
and stepped into
the seductive unknown
heart blind
eyes wide open

I looked ahead
into "what can be"
and gave "what" its curiosity
"can" its strength
and "be" its confidence

I looked ahead
and took a deep breath
with fear in one hand
and courage in the other

I looked ahead
but when I wanted
to take a step further
I felt a tug
on the strings
of my heart

I hate how
blurred lines
never made for
clear plots
and left
you with
a lot
of nothing
ness

When they tell me
"we understand"
I take them seriously
because they will always
be under
the impression
that they know

Even the birds
asked me why
I am not using
my wings

Go ahead
undress your mind
my eyes
can't wait
to see ...
my skin
can't wait
to feel
and my
mind can't
wait to
play

Time
untimed
makes
things
timeless

The day you discover
your power
is the day
you unveil
your life's
true meaning,
kiss it with passion
and wedding it
to become
your life long partner

I used
to use
the use
of you's
for
your muses
..
used
to
use
till I abused it