i did not
throw anything away

it was you
who threw me out

and i simply remained
where you left me

in shattering
myself
i shattered
you;
i always
considered
you
part of me
but i never
thought
i was
part of
you

the song
pulled out
my old heart
like a mighty
whale
resurfacing for air

huge, yet silent
creating ripples
in the surrounding surfaces

I SHOULD NOT
FEEL GUILTY
FOR SNAPPING
TWIGS
WITH HESITATION
WHILE YOU
CRUSH BONES
WITH EASE

she had been
stabbing herself
with her own knife
until he took it from her

and right as she believed
that he was trying to help
he handed her a larger one
and said,
"here, try this one"

sometimes
in the midst
of a power struggle
i miss him

when my head
and my heart
do not feel my
consciousness
bleed for him

walking away
isnt always giving up
sometimes
its realizing
that theres nothing left
to stay and fight for

it seems almost as if
you created the
world
because i find pieces of you
in everything
even though
i only
want to forget you

major waterways
are connected
for a reason

please do not
remain
in your own
stagnant pond

every word you speak of me
is mixed with poison,
but you created it
with your own tongue

when walking into
a house that is not yours
be cautious of
broken picture frames

you may cut yourself
on broken pieces
of someone elses past

i haven't decided
whether or not
happiness
is worth it
because it has
never
stayed with me
long enough
to be able
to tell

they said that
"what doesn't
**** you
makes you
stronger",

and even though
you didn't
**** me,
you sure
left me
feeling dead

i believed
in breathing
until i realized
every breath
i take
brings me
closer
to death

a pair of
combat boots
by my bed

a glass of rootbeer
on my nightstand

your toothbrush
on my bathroom sink

your hands
in my hair

these are all the ways
that you love me

these are all the ways
that you remain

i sat
in the
bathtub
staring
at the
broken
blood vessels
in my legs
and wondered
if they were
whole
before you left,
too.

a hex
a curse
a spell

im trapped
tormented
teased

i cannot escape
but i love it

please stay
and please
let me stay.

the one you
fell in love with
still lives,
she is just
well hidden
from monsters
like you.

you have your hand on my curtains
you wont let the light in

the only thing in my medicine cabinet is cough drops
maybe i should take all of them

you filled my bathtub with sand
and hid my dogs leash

you washed all of my clothes
and wasted all of my bleach

every utensil in my drawer has turned to plastic
and the channels on tv have all turned to static

so i sit in the corner and hold my breath
but you wont allow anything
to bring along my death

im cold
inside and out,
but at least
i wont get
burned

i slept inside of your ribcage
until you purposefully broke all of your ribs

you threw yourself down the stairs
and didnt cry until i disappeared

i tried to repair your broken bones
but all i had to my name was some dental floss

now my teeth are rotting out of my skull
because i stitched you back together

reading daily zodiac
at 4 a.m.

heavy lidded eyes
riddled by LED
heavily burdened hearts
riddled by the past

horoscopic solutions
to why our hearts
and minds fail

one star
slightly out of alignment
claims
all of the inner workings
of my body chemistry

year of the beast
ravaging all
of my relationships

house of mercury
in my bloodstream