You are a messy soul
Wandering through life
What I offer is love
Too much for you to repay
Worry not, as I acknowledge that
Guilt is a toxin to the soul
I hope you can see that
A field of sunflowers
Waits for you everytime

Melihatmu melukis warna
Merah cerah dan jingga
Mengangkat kedua ujung bibir
Membawa bahagia dengan sihir
Namun kini bukanlah yang lalu
Melihatmu menyobek raga
Merah darah dan infeksi
Menggebuk harapan memfana
Mengenakan topeng yang berseri

Umur berpihak dengan raga
menahan gejolak membara jiwa
umur menggengam hati dan berdoa
"tuhan, jangan kau membuatnya buta
mengejar idealisme, terkekang fatamorgana.
kembalikanlah ia,
ke mana hidup menuruti realita."
umur makin takut melihatnya
mendobrak dinding bata
batasnya dengan dunia
"Tiada guna,
di luar sana
kau hanya akan binasa,
ku hanya memiliki cinta
dan ku tak ingin kau kecewa..."
"Bukan cinta bila tangisan
membanjiri mata,
bukan kasih jika wilayah ditempa
membatasi ruang bermuara
semua perilaku hina padaku tertimpa
ku terima dengan hati leluasa
tanpanya ku tak akan bermetamorfosa
jangan kau berlara-lara
melihat juangku yang remaja
kekacauan ini indah
membuatku merasakan untuk kali pertama
hidup tiada kesempatan kedua."

Ucapanmu membisukan
mengantar banyak tafsir secara simultan
membuat nalarku rentan
dengan sakaunya khayalan
Kepalaku dulu mengambang di tengah awan
dan kini kau meluncurkannya ke bulan

Tertera kah di alam
bahwa hati manusia tenggelam
tak mampu menghirup tenang,
mengambang, hanyut dalam tegang
membusuk takut
menjalani hidup

Ketika ku menumpahkan isi raga,
ku tak yakin ku membasahi manusia.
Setiap suara yang ku simak bukanlah mulut berbicara
melainkan insan memuntahkan sastra.

What am I to her?
I am emotionally defective
and physically secondhand.
You deserve luxury and excess
not thrifted vintage.

Langitku penjajah
Menghalangi hangatnya mentari
tubuhku diinjak, teriakanku dibantah
Air mataku mengalir, ketawanya nyaring
Dimana langitku dijunjung
Disana diriku ditindas

Where expectations are rooted
disappointments will grow
We either always forget this
Or are too stubborn

It's scary how life can change
For now, I witnessed the sky fall
As I float in those galactic eyes
Anchor me down will you?
To the core of your gravity
May I land gracefully in your earthly embrace to kiss those rosey cheeks?

Promise me just tonight
You will hold me ever so tight
It's for the best, I can't second guess
compared to leaving me restless

Seperti hembusan angin yang berlalu
selamanya kau tak akan
pernah kugenggam
seerat apapun ku bertahan
kau akan berlalu begitu saja
meninggalkan resah kontinu
"ke mana kau akan pergi?"

I get lonely, I forget my worth
I get lonely, I pretend it could be worse
I get lonely, I burn me to keep you warm
I get lonely, I hate that you are truly happy

Came to life as an alien,
And my skin palette is broader
try and hold me down while I'm breaking the border
Trumping over these walls, call me a dreamer

Ku menggigil
menatap rintikan hujan
Payungku terlalu kecil
Untukku dan sedihnya kenangan

When the sky was black and the earth was white,
your silhouette was the focus of my sight.
I walked closer, to where you were under
A trademark of romance, oh! it shocked my heart like thunder.
Warmth among the cold snow
Your face and it's beautiful glow
It was there that our lips met
a kiss not of love
but to bid me farewell
Under the mistletoe, I wished for us to grow
but it was "us", the present that you chose to throw

Melihatmu melangkah menjauh
"Aku pamit"
Ku terhembus mabuk
mendekati ruang hampa di sampingmu
Perjalanan beberapa tapak
menjadi hamparan samudra
dan ku tak sanggup berlayar

What you say
Makes me mute
you leave me hanging
on the ecstasy of uncertainty
My head was over the clouds
And now you shot me to the moon

Baby one of these days,
one of these years,
happiness will be the end of me.
Tell everybody that I'm sorry
and they needn't worry.
For their goal was my happiness,
but all I accumulated were reasons
for my farewell.
For their sadness and tears will fade overtime,
but my pursuit of happiness is just eternal torture.

While I try to be the best
your expectations mount like Everest
Truly, I can never rest
before I die of all this stress
and no one will hear my distress

Tiada salah membiarkan raga terluka
semakin dalam jarum jam menusuk Memang, tiada obat untuk semua derita
Tak salah menerima pilu dalam khusyuk

Skinny jeans, black cardi
Iphone 8 with that cracked screen
Eyebags from assignments overdue
Longing for a natural view
Outside the screens and books too
I need to ask "How do you do?"

Sekian lama tak berjumpa
Duniaku berhenti, hampa
Seakan diriku dikarantina

Dream on!
Cause legends were fools who never ceased to stop
and nobodies were sages who hesitated to take a step

I'm up your mind flocking, like a bird
Menancing, dropping disses like a **** when you look up boy you better be concerned
Compared to your rhymes, it would be the flyest **** you ever heard

Will you stay
knowing that I am broken and lonely with you
will you stay
even though you will hear me whine and complain over the same things, the same feelings for god knows how long
will you stay
when I can't even capture the shape of my problems so I remember them in everything
will you stay
and hold on to a burden that does you no good

I remember you with every drop of rain.
Under my umbrella,
asking for another chance,
a remedy to our mistake.
Rejection was shot out of me.
it was a downpour of emotion,
and your tears were heavier than the rain.

Aku ingin bertemu tuhan
dengan tubuh kering berkafan
Bukan sebagai bangkai terurai
Di rumahku yang kini lautan

What can a smile do when you are sad?
It hides you from the world
it lies to you and others that you are fine
that the burden you carry is light on your shoulders
while your legs wear out out of sight
It's hard to admit that you are sad
It hurts to admit that you are not fine
but you deserve to feel the truth
and know that the world seeks you
to help you
to accompany you
to love you

When time strands us oceans apart
and the sky clouds up our future
my wish for you
is to never forget me

Ku merindukan kata-kata hangatmu
yang menembus dinginnya malam
menyelimuti raga yang gugup

Excessive apologies,
unreasonable reasons,
Clouding thoughts,
wasteful sadness.
All of that is just stressing you, dear.
"I don't love you."
It's as simple as that.

Hal terindah yang akan kau kesali
Sakit terperih yang akan kau rindui
Tragedi yang akan kau ulangi
Irama merdu yang akan kau benci
Buku suci yang akan kau nistai
Dosa besar yang akan kau tekuni
Logika yang akan kau tinggali
Emosi yang akan kau hamburi

Don't have to mope about you,
I got prettier lips to kiss
No need to keep all the pictures I drew
All you deserve is a meaner diss

Perutku meronta
Semangatku hampa
Tak berharta, tak berkerja
Olahmu hanya buka sel-sel penjara
dan menatap kamera penuh gaya
Kalau begini dirimu, persetan saja
Lebih baik aku mati karena korona

Tidurlah di sampingku
Dan izinkan aku memasuki mimpi indahmu
Karena ingin kutenggelam di dalamnya
Menghiasi ruang khayalmu selamanya

Meeting you was summer
Clashing waves of emotion,
Bright rays of hope
Knowing you was spring
Blooming love and soft fragrance of care
Loving you was autumn
The leaves of my heart fell by a whisper of your breeze
Missing you is winter
Because while you were in July
My heart is stuck in December

A sunny day
warm and clear
A hand that is near
caring and never to deny
but I am sorry dear
all you can do is try

No matter how colorful
all I see is black and white
no palette or aesthetic
will amuse my dull vision
the soft hums of nature
the noise of a bustling metropolis
are all too mundane. Boring.
The world is not my place,
not my home,
not my reason.
I bid you all farewell,
and gratitude.
For life in a monochrome,
you have tried to paint a spectrum on me.
colors of care, passion...love
It was beautiful
even if my tears wiped all spotless
It was beautiful
even if my sorrow numbed your kindness
It was beautiful
even if my departure was to you an attrocity

My dear,
I have been urging to write this well after our quarrel
it took a while, after my ego and mind had a battle
if you don't mind and have some time to spare
allow me to apologize and admit that I was unfair
I never bothered to wipe your flooding tears
or even to your worries lend my ears
my sympathy and care I held tight
while I let your misery take a bite
at your heart that was weathering already
that you found solace in another's company
I see that you are crowned with blissful joy
with more sincerity than when you were my toy
if it was regret to evoke within, you truly succeed
cause whenever you laugh, my heart bleeds indeed
but I need to face reality, you are now gone
I miss you and that's what I have to live with from now on

I am danger to men
I must cover up
Behave well and then
Pour my guests a cup
I am heaven to men
I must pamper up
Flirt well and then
Be lustful when I ****
I am hindrance to men
I must shut up
Suffer and when
I speak up and fight
There will be me no more after tonight

Our lips were
5 centimeters apart
but between our hearts
was the galaxy

You blossomed me to life
Blushed me shades of rose and cerise
Oh dear let me brush my care
but promise me I won't pale
to the crescent moon and
leave me to bloom

Whenever my heart pours it's content,
I believe it splashes not humans.
For every sound I capture is not speech
but people spewing literature.

What am I?
A walking collection
of slowly fading memories
It is certain that I would let
all the stories that made me
slip by and run far far away
and for that I hope that you
would do me a favor :
Would you please remember me ?

You are the mystery
that lays in every page of my novel
no matter how hard I try to solve
Your simplicity baffles me every single time

I'm slow dancing
to non-existent melodies,
loud thoughts that orbit me
never giving reason
to be compact
I'm alive because I can't die