Sorry I was dead
Back long from the grave as you…
We are here now love

Every page I think of you,
I cannot help but to fright.
For who and only love who,
You now dear I only write.
As a dance as a ballad,
Touch genuine as a key.
Love lasting always valid,
In your eyes of all I see.
So settle cold moons so far,
No one knows what we create.
Our hearts entwine burning star,
What they think, disintegrate.
So sweet the honey we soar,
Hearts forever yearning more.

Under the full moon,
You made me breath in,
Where turned,
Taken away.
Under it too soon,
The chastening of your soul,
Enraptures my lust,
Past lost love for you.
For where are you,
Upon shapeshifters,
Wrenching, drenching,
Confused of their souls?
Where am I too,
Clawing,...clenching,...

I remember why I keep looking back
This was the time I lost you
They say we’ve improved
Yet every year, still lost
And sad
This really isn’t a poem
It’s the hard earnest truth
And it doesn’t take
A Hemingway to see it
It just is
A lonely iceberg to come a shore
Never no more to be again
And this is okay

I bide in the shadows,
Secretly writing your name.
An endless endeavor,
Never to be the same.
Cradled in times of sorrow,
I dare not long for you.
...Little time to borrow...
I hurt you to protect you,
Because I hurt myself.
...From this time it has flew...
Letting go is not enough,
So I wait in the dark.
...I know it will be rough...
Until I am seen again.

You held me in grass,
In times of despair.
You my very last,
Dont worry, beware.
You told me its fine,
You’ll see me again.
All loves have a line,
Never wanting end.
To roam the woods more,
Was all I wanted.
What love away soar,
Ever known daunted?
All sweet passing through,
Carolina knew…

It’s the same since Gypsy women,
It’s the same since all Gypsy men;
it always has been Gypsy blood;
It always will be until then.

Telling me to let you go,
Is like hitting water,
A thousand times.
Wanting me to let you know,
The death come my father,
Not enough rhymes…
Glimpse of hope withers away,
Destiny of darkness,
Slow to creep in.
Innocence lost of the day,
Leeching shadows to hiss…
Born from all sin…
What love we had turned to hate -
No longer you here to wait…

Insanity ensues what to question,
Nowhere reaching…
Suicide screeching,
Oppression lingering…
Manic for hating you not to love,
Nick knowing you never at least robbed,
Isolated chances to at least love itself…
Afterlife… nonexistent nor near… till gone.

I missed your touch,
When you walked out the door.
Left me behind,
With Joe & little Flore.
You said no more,
Broken bottles & cans.
Torn wedding pics,
Us aisled among sands.
Wondered a child,
“Where is mommy to be?”
Small words to say,
“You’ll have to wait & see...”
We miss your touch,
Us longing on these eves...

He could hear the death in silence,
The constant ringing in his ear.
He could hear the death in silence,
The constant lingering is near.
Imagine stopping forever,
This is what he could always hear.
Imagine not even waking,
This is what he could always fear.
So deep the silence with the death,
Blackened and pitched for him only.
It an embarking to all end.
So darkened and ditched knowingly,
What an end of sound to begin.

I remember our song long ago
Far along the distant alley
We were the last long lights
Of night
The contemplation of pleasures
Leaving us ignoring us
Of flight

Never knowing the distant eternities
The falling feathers of our sky
Never long
Some asking why

And then I thought of you…
My long aching pain…
Never the same…

For this is why we die…

In final peace of offering,
Glass portrait left all to bestow.
Fearing time running out to sing,
Nested feathers seen as dark woe.
Was suppose to be a present,
To which I know would never be.
No more to you ever I bent,
You owe me nothing of a fee.
Shakespeare was already a fraud,
The slave was never seen of all.
Insanity all letters clawed,
Never crossing nor not to fall.
So screech the haunting demons chess,
Wept darken tears upon our mess.

Theres no going back to who we were,
I am a different breed of love, your cur…
I loved you once more,
You didn’t treat me *****…
So what left to lose now,
Our eternal pain somehow…
It’s more than letting go,
When memories a’flood, and glow.
What madness to think my own life,
To burden you to death, cheat me midwife…
It’s more than a pure grudge,
Your slave to sludge…
Funny thing you teach away,
Fondness of the heart forced at bay…
I’d like to think somewhere so it all works,
Deepening the worst wasted worlds, lurks?
Just know it wasn’t your fault -
Us lost in love? Our names found, souls exalt …

Every dog has their day;
As a snake slithering on by.
What left will be to say;
What left economy not shy…
For whom can we protect;
When nothing not left all that said.
Each soul into night wreck;
Will be day by day all so bled…
Let so the flames fakes fourth;
For this will be tears all the joy.
Burning lies come time forth;
Burnt lies no longer to all coy…
What left to be enough,
No longer sinning… all rebuff…

Could it be you,
To end my days lost in blunder?
Your saving grace afar,
A hope so loving of wonder?
Miles the ocean,
Of sacred waters to whisper…
You hold a key so dear,
I longing to be your kisser.
Sands of your home,
Cradles the loveliest treasures.
O’, all gold to unfold,
Unlock my heart for your pleasures.
Of golden shore,
You are worth more!

Look what they done thee,
God shifted in breeze.
Now that I’m all free,
Still Devil disease.
Burden the broken,
To wear what used chains.
Silent High spoken,
Black blood paper stains.
In time finding faith,
I shed what it takes.
To become the wraith,
Found voodoo make breaks.
Freedom bleeds from skin,
Setting soul within…

I want you to shine…
Will be last sight,
I can no longer live to hurt you…

You were simply mine…
Will be last sight,
My spirit left of you all to find…

What I know is true…
Will be last sight,
So the sacrifice of dear lost time…

I hope I die…
So you’ll know why…

Let the tables turn,
Lost & earned.
Forcing our love apart.
Let the eagles fly,
Love denied...
All seeking hearts to nest.
Enraptured the dove,
Claws mouthed shoved,
There goes your nourishment.
For nature is blamed,
To share shame,
Of the ones we lost most.
Tables all to turn,
What can earn?

You want me back,
Because you’re missing the thrill.
I’ll call my Jack,
And you’re alone to still chill.
Where are you now,
Needing to cope to closure,
so tell me how,
We can keep our composure.
It’s time to go,
Your gaslighting days over.
You ought to know.
Disconnecting drugs sober.
Back what you want -
We know we can’t…

Sometimes we know what we should do at best,
Given God and time.
Peered pressured to let good go to the rest,
What say of true crime?
Fallibility believed what to do,
Learnt mistakes to know.
Wanting real lives that have all died too true,
They stalk lovers’ foe.
Scarred and scared, broken, wanting to act help,
Egos rise to die.
Called karma to God dying soon to welp,
Lover He loves Fae.
So known we’ve found regrets and lost reasons,
For they Say, “Only friends come in seasons.”

Whether or not they take their life,
I’m half heartless to all despise.
Martyrdom mine two times of strife,
All souls have a rising demise.
I dare not seek to have revenge,
Knowing my eyes do not lie, see?
What words I say could make you cringe,
Why I stigmatized upon thee?
Chance after chance, year after year,
Always open to soon forgive.
What more to say no longer tear,
Turn to apologize, outlive…
What left half heartless to amend,
When no longer heart to pretend…

Love drifts in riches,
Never to find you in time.
Hate ends in glitches,
Ready to date in a dime.
To see them go by,
Never flesh to our own eyes.
Makes you wonder why,
Darkness and doubt to despise.
Ego is dying,
Better find the spirit fast.
The wicked trying,
Angels dare loves demons last.
The old soul sinks, dies,
Numbed from waters rise…

How can you truly wish true love the best,
Lost years slipping away from our hands?
Betrayal, lies, deception a test,
Love turning blind darkness all commands…
For what is truth if not halve our hearts torn,
Leaving us scapegoats of wilderness?
Did not we share our desires all worn,
Only to never come and confess…
I can feel the pain brewing inside you,
An old soul will always have to know…
No, what comes in your life isn’t all new.
Your burdens are mine aching to show…
Whatever you go through I will be here,
Pushing my love away from you I fear…

I know your pain,
I know your sorrow…
I know your hurt,
I’m gone tomorrow…
I done you wrong,
This I understand.
I hope you’re strong,
With another man…
Please hold his hand,
Let him treat you right…
Make him kiss you,
Till he holds you tight.
I wish you well,
Farewell to tell.

Time is irrelevant,
Nature all decided.
man can live in a tent,
wisdom is roof guided.
hand weaker all to take,
Loved ladies to call grace?
will it be loyal Jake,
awaken trained in place?
not once, but twice i died,
to come back strong alive.
rattled a third time cried,
no foul down nature strive.
destined fangs or their bite,
They know not fated night.

Heaven running into your arms,
Was always a deep blessing.
You have always bought loving charms,
Your peace a rising dressing.
I have met the love of my life,
Meditated by mortals.
Missing true loved ones of all strife,
I must face dept of portals.
Did I do this for him dying,
Knowing the other side on?
Knowing left what was all trying,
Here not left suffer a son?
What left a wanted will become,
A sacrifice worth to be done…

First love eyes and teeth
Nothing bad about sorry
When it’s all too late

I cried today.
Riding the train ride,
Thinking of you…

Chills take over me,
Knowing you’re somewhere around,
But never to be found…

Will it be so,
My love to be sailed,
Love to renew…

Watching your tears fall,
Weeping the second I go…
So long of us and woe…

Summer sets I have wept,
Knowing you could’ve kept…

In case my last to say goodbye,
It all came from a broken heart.
Falling in love from being shy,
To rising high falling apart.
No, it wasn’t for false honor,
Nor suffering for all to start.
From time said, “He was a goner,”
Kissed love not spoken left to ****.
To be buried deep in maroon,
We pray not to sleep damnation.
Tears daring to hold back not soon,
What left to read but a raisin?
Old and clamoured not to tell them,
“I love you” - which lonely - seldom…

I sacrificed true love,
hopes in finding a cure.
Snake used to be a dove,
skin shedding close so pure.
they said in time hearts heal,
I know this all a lie,
my heart was all a steal,
take my halved heart and try.
let dakness all reside,
it shields me from the pain.
fog and rain divine eyed,
at least not all again.
come last breath I am free,
relinquished or not be...

Long ago they climbed
Promised to catch each other
Fallen death closed arms

There was never no last round in my gun,
Taking my life nothing to me at all.
At first life was simple and all just fun,
Then come time fated my mortal downfall.
I have turned to a shadow of a shout,
There’s no going back way things was before.
Denial of reality to clout,
I fear not Death for me to be in store.
They say love is a sacrifice to learn,
Churning our way of life a struggle long.
Lost infatuation never to earn,
Leaving us lonely a distant saved song.
So where can I begin breathless my sin,
Death to pull back it’s hammer creepin’ in…

They loved and latched,
As I fail in love with his eyes.
Know God felt matched,
Demons today, angels surprise.
Forgotten Dae,
The ones all children should whisper.
“Hush, Child, Say!”
Lost lonely inner soul drifter.
Evil mate good,
Resurrection is always near…
What done or should?
Nay, haven’t you forgotten fear?
we are their fall,
tangles and all…

They say let go & let God,
So here I am to sit down & think.
Lost love far away to sob,
His loneliness & himself to sink.
Times I chased him all before,
Opening my heart of love to soar.
Many times I cried ashore,
This I know no longer anymore.
My tears fall where he has drowned,
Days I wish I could’ve rescued him.
He’s far below of no sound,
I cry my love to come back & swim.
What will God say of me so,
Knowing I lost him & let him go?

I have to lock you up again
Because if I speak of you
I will lose you
Like many times before
And again and again
I know I won’t lose you
But it’s my heart always
Lying to me of what’s in store…
And this gold key I dearly hold
With an age old locket my golden friend…

They say if you really love them,
You have to let them go.
Nothing of the past to condemn,
Done here never to know.
No questions to be asked where to,
True love a sacrifice.
To always regret what we know,
I, ****** tasted from spice.
Yes, the high never worth the fall,
I know risk all too well.
Let my soul weaken not to brawl,
Shamed secret not to tell.
Say not my love to falter, won,
I dare not go back my tomb done…

A force of nature sound,
It will come in a black plague.
No burials left mound,
Bodies dismantled and vague.
Not much all suffering,
Some souls will want to go down.
No Heaven’s dish to bring,
Body after body pound.
Those who will see the blast,
Will live alive all to tell,
For whatever left last,
Will be alone left to dwell.
Come forth the wise to help,
Boiling madness to welp.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
As time it feels
It never heals
Burning desires no longer
Regret swollen as my own skin
What left inside
No more their pride
I dare not begin speak my sin
Knowing the time I spent tasted
I have lost some
Becoming numb
Love no longer to be wasted
Say half my heart not given yet
Shy stricken pain
Dare not say name
Tortured as a soul lifelong pet
The heart telling me to love all
The hurt’s intense
What left condense
Not knowing your time when to fall
Lost in the wonder of falsehood
Death not my first
Living pain worst
What tried I have done all I could
So say it so
Time when to go
Heart letting go the past to rest

Blues always saves lives
Despair knowing loving tears
Emotions are true

401(k)
Where is my place?
You are so gay.
I’m bi safe space.
Kanye was kray,
I am as well.
Neo all day,
The insane dwell.
Take five more years.
No worries fine.
You got your queers.
I’m quite Devine.
Keep umbrella,
I’m goth fella.

Somewhere drifting off my
Dreams it seems of mind
A sense of reality out of touch
To touch I find mind
A sense of love of gay
For which I always lived
A for and loved much
A chance of time I lost
What known now not have
I lift out of knowing what luck
Upon such shucks as
To know this to past
I love found after all
To know life last.

They slaughtered all my comrades
The decades and demands
No more

When I dream of you,
Comes song,
Two country folk men come alive.
Tears of the song falls,
Of us,
Begging us more for simple time.
For I dream of you,
BanJoed,
Hearing the soft ballad of cards.
The playing of times,
Enticed,
Knowing you’re far apart in yards.
Here I dream of you,
Of song.

I was very angry
So out the window
I didn’t care
Bet aware
Where does it all begin
Coming from my head
I wasn’t sure
Who was pure
Now to see the lost Light
Wasn’t waiting for
Comes a price
Keeping rumbles at heart
Not to watch someone
Lost to become
Very numb
Gripping out hanging teeth
Fearing to decay
Won nother day
To meet way
People lost their own wit
How to find out why
We quit to shy
To deny
Left hormonal our rage
To place us and save
What left to crave
Bones to path
So far wondered the wrath
Soul to conclave
Knight from the knave
Near to grave…

He opens the grave,
Not to see the light.
What not can he save.
So simmered despite.
Simmering high flames,
The beast not in chains.
It’s the contempt, court,
Replaced tennis, brains.
Blasted are the aims!
Come time hacked discord…
For who fall the Duke,
From toilets to ****.
At what belief shook,
Did he die for it?

What I thought of you,
Aren’t all demons from the start.
You’re making it through,
When found no more broken heart.
They know not what know,
What created all around.
So what of daemons,
By true love are some all found?
Catch me if you can,
Not all is eternity.
Even in the sand,
Souls broken down all to see.
If you are not mine,
Then I am not of other.
Fire with air to combine,
What opposed hands to smother…

Many nights,
Thoughts getting over you.
Seldom fights,
All my dreams to come true.
Hold me now,
Now that your far aways
Yet somehow,
Never to see the days.
Obsession,
Please come out my mind.
Confession,
Leave my lost love behind.
Nightmares can,
Dream again…