Insanity ensues what to question,
Nowhere reaching…
Suicide screeching,
Oppression lingering…
Manic for hating you not to love,
Nick knowing you never at least robbed,
Isolated chances to at least love itself…
Afterlife… nonexistent nor near… till gone.

Security guard
sleeping on duty…

Let me die in your arms,
As I take my last breath.
So jovial of charms,
Like the first day we met.
True of time I missed you,
Nights crying of you gone.
My lost heart to you grew,
While angels cry a song.
Least not you forget me,
Your eyes knowing mine dark.
Feared above not to see,
Flying high a sad lark.
...Death close to your dear chest,
I will take my last breath...

I want you to shine…
Will be last sight,
I can no longer live to hurt you…

You were simply mine…
Will be last sight,
My spirit left of you all to find…

What I know is true…
Will be last sight,
So the sacrifice of dear lost time…

I hope I die…
So you’ll know why…

Sometimes I long to cut
the heart out from your chest
I feel yearning to know
What’s truly inside of you
Curious to even know if
We really do share the same blood
Of what’s inside of us
As an apricot has sprightful seeds
We know not to eat too much
Just as the drudging dark blood
We drink only to find in time we want
More of what’s inside of others knowing I can’t **** you maybe only to maim you longer

When you turned away from me,
I turned too walking back on.
The saddest thing of all time,
The secrets told between us.
It was then all I could see,
This was a battle not won.
I ask myself even why,
We have this love not so bold.
For now I know I must be,
Not your lover and no one.
Keep on walking with a sigh,
Knowing yourself to grow old.
Time not on your side with glee,
Knowing now I’m far and gone.

The seven walked in fury,
No more a land called their home.
Forced many miles dreary,
All for a place called their own.
In a searching journey on,
They seek lost treasures hidden.
Each land to step, cross and come,
These exiled souls forbidden.
A rescuing hero large,
He seeks to redeem himself.
Even if till a last charge,
Saving souls fighting their Hell.
Kingdoms to come together,
For peace and love forever.

She came to me with the unborn,
The devil’s look in the baby’s eye.
Small feet & hands all well too torn,
I to grab my own son dead & shy.
What I thought would be a blessing,
Would only begin life misery.
Long ago, I so obsessing,
Waiting for my heir of mystery.
Feeling his beating little heart,
Beat! Beating! No lungs grasping for air.
No more a mother, but a ****,
Dead eyes of her evil long lost care.
So, I killed her - life for a life -
Who knew - the prayer of a knife…

In so I have told,
False blessings laid hand.
Demented grown old,
They not chosen land.
Blessed marks above high,
Shed not Angel tears.
Instead, demons thigh.
For who dares gloves God,
Death soon always nears.
Intimacy dead,
Collars peeling skin.
Nothing left all said,
Restored souls begin.
Rage roar their brains flames,
Torn demons their names.

My last word of you was a summer’s seppuku,
The touching of an unknown soul.
As always love chased in life of everything:
Sing! The burning blade!
What more to grasp for,
Too late the tears or the fight.
Deadlings from the beginning to the end, who knew?
Rotting flesh & loose heads on pole,
Under a cherry tree steel to stomach shade.
The ships have all sailed,
War no long of more.
Loose & gone all of my might,
Before me lies the slain, the lost, what left to slew -
Inserted my tanto to hole…

A force of nature sound,
It will come in a black plague.
No burials left mound,
Bodies dismantled and vague.
Not much all suffering,
Some souls will want to go down.
No Heaven’s dish to bring,
Body after body pound.
Those who will see the blast,
Will live alive all to tell,
For whatever left last,
Will be alone left to dwell.
Come forth the wise to help,
Boiling madness to welp.

Can such a force cease fire,
When all is lost for help?
Forces to cease at all,
Where all the lost to dwell?
Firm water wells sought out,
With those above to quench.
All real and distorted,
They cast down the buckets.
What lies beneath are lies,
With no water pulled up.
Only a truth to see,
Masking the dirt below.
What such forces to cease,
Can they unstoppable?

How do you talk to others,
Dark past haunting knowing name.
Virus killing our brothers,
Do you dare tell blood the same?
No, you cower away ranks,
Afraid from confrontation.
Fear not, mere poems are pranks,
I don’t care your damnation.
Your eternal life is dead,
Absolved a long time ago.
Not Fleance, you’re poorly lead,
It took me this long to know.
Still waiting for a sorry,
My purgatory starry.

Whispering your name,
Blood serpenting out of me.
All wanting the same,
The heartache before.
Wasn’t like the first few stabs,
I longing some more.
We miss the old you,
The kind guy who made us cry…
Not this one to view.
Missed you when you asked,
“Is this okay to hold, too?”
For you know - of past.
Hearing your tears lined,
Dressing mixed blood of love fined.

He opens the grave,
Not to see the light.
What not can he save.
So simmered despite.
Simmering high flames,
The beast not in chains.
It’s the contempt, court,
Replaced tennis, brains.
Blasted are the aims!
Come time hacked discord…
For who fall the Duke,
From toilets to ****.
At what belief shook,
Did he die for it?

You held me in grass,
In times of despair.
You my very last,
Dont worry, beware.
You told me its fine,
You’ll see me again.
All loves have a line,
Never wanting end.
To roam the woods more,
Was all I wanted.
What love away soar,
Ever known daunted?
All sweet passing through,
Carolina knew…

They say it’s cold outside,
But my heart is colder.
The days are long and dark,
Of death getting bolder.
What light of love is left,
Cherished deep in my heart?
What light of love is kept,
Tearing me all apart?
For so all is given,
And so all is taken.
Can God be forgiven,
Love dead and awaken?
Pray not my love to die,
If only I knew why…

I would like to go there -
This place,
This somewhere anew.
It would be here,
My love,
My dear love with you.
O’, cherish me there home,
Our place,
For us young to rest.
Forever pure,
Heavened,
Laid upon God’s vest.
For I love you dearly,
My love...

He could hear the death in silence,
The constant ringing in his ear.
He could hear the death in silence,
The constant lingering is near.
Imagine stopping forever,
This is what he could always hear.
Imagine not even waking,
This is what he could always fear.
So deep the silence with the death,
Blackened and pitched for him only.
It an embarking to all end.
So darkened and ditched knowingly,
What an end of sound to begin.

I see you crystal clear,
A lover’s lust away…
For I dine with darkness,
Bidding you as your seer…
You shouldn’t have met me,
Playing with my dear blood…
All it takes is one spell,
Rising hell from the mud…
Fixed suns will bring famine,
All your love with starve out...
Begging God for mercy,
You will receive Mammon…
What love you have is lost,
Only for demons crossed…

They say let go & let God,
So here I am to sit down & think.
Lost love far away to sob,
His loneliness & himself to sink.
Times I chased him all before,
Opening my heart of love to soar.
Many times I cried ashore,
This I know no longer anymore.
My tears fall where he has drowned,
Days I wish I could’ve rescued him.
He’s far below of no sound,
I cry my love to come back & swim.
What will God say of me so,
Knowing I lost him & let him go?

I fear in this lifetime,
It may not be with you.
Flowers on a table,
Turning to a gun soon.
Wind chimes come at my door,
I believing its you.
The habit to answer,
No one is there & through.
The crimson sky to shine,
Telling me its my time.
The last & final thoughts,
All telling me a sign.
Will I ever get out,
This end of my lifeline?

Mom says, “You need a therapist,”
No need mama for trauma.
They can all drink ****,
Got no daddy drama.
God placed me under the shower,
So Devil can ***.
Forgiven hour,
A judgment beating drum.
Dance violent in my own dark,
Raising spirits of my own.
With demon called snark,
Other angel to pwn.
Souls to bleed and let out all sin,
Come Kingdom Come let it begin…

They turned him,
Shifted of His own lost doing…
And, he left,
For he left of His own choosing.
Many years,
Many years they strayed him from love.
Mouse to tears,
He dared not to attack love dove.
Turned they are,
Reaping the ones who all have hurt,
Ourts so far,
Repeating seizure demise worth,
Feral cat,
Stressed a’lat.

I blow a kiss to my people,
Let them grow & fester in wealth.
I pray an angel comes to you,
Taking sickness from your mother’s breath.
Ashamed of my own soul to live,
Mine eyes have even seen of black.
I shan’t wonder how I’m alive,
God lay purity on your mom’s chest.
Pray to take my soul in exchange,
Graceless I am selfish of life,
Knowing my time will soon to pass.
Allah… if not you my dear God so -
Let it be so for others on…
Take me for the dear mother to live…

In final peace of offering,
Glass portrait left all to bestow.
Fearing time running out to sing,
Nested feathers seen as dark woe.
Was suppose to be a present,
To which I know would never be.
No more to you ever I bent,
You owe me nothing of a fee.
Shakespeare was already a fraud,
The slave was never seen of all.
Insanity all letters clawed,
Never crossing nor not to fall.
So screech the haunting demons chess,
Wept darken tears upon our mess.

They say if you really love them,
You have to let them go.
Nothing of the past to condemn,
Done here never to know.
No questions to be asked where to,
True love a sacrifice.
To always regret what we know,
I, ****** tasted from spice.
Yes, the high never worth the fall,
I know risk all too well.
Let my soul weaken not to brawl,
Shamed secret not to tell.
Say not my love to falter, won,
I dare not go back my tomb done…

I was very angry
So out the window
I didn’t care
Bet aware
Where does it all begin
Coming from my head
I wasn’t sure
Who was pure
Now to see the lost Light
Wasn’t waiting for
Comes a price
Keeping rumbles at heart
Not to watch someone
Lost to become
Very numb
Gripping out hanging teeth
Fearing to decay
Won nother day
To meet way
People lost their own wit
How to find out why
We quit to shy
To deny
Left hormonal our rage
To place us and save
What left to crave
Bones to path
So far wondered the wrath
Soul to conclave
Knight from the knave
Near to grave…

Every page I think of you,
I cannot help but to fright.
For who and only love who,
You now dear I only write.
As a dance as a ballad,
Touch genuine as a key.
Love lasting always valid,
In your eyes of all I see.
So settle cold moons so far,
No one knows what we create.
Our hearts entwine burning star,
What they think, disintegrate.
So sweet the honey we soar,
Hearts forever yearning more.

401(k)
Where is my place?
You are so gay.
I’m bi safe space.
Kanye was kray,
I am as well.
Neo all day,
The insane dwell.
Take five more years.
No worries fine.
You got your queers.
I’m quite Devine.
Keep umbrella,
I’m goth fella.

A staggering buck comes to life
But awakens to find
A tone of peace
It is something
To ease
The regrets and fights to come time
Will only come to past
Antlered in time
To last
Drinking from  the water of life
He stands tall to the sun
Fearing it down
Gets numb
Sometimes not knowing where to go
The forest all
Freedom to choose
His call

Whether or not they take their life,
I’m half heartless to all despise.
Martyrdom mine two times of strife,
All souls have a rising demise.
I dare not seek to have revenge,
Knowing my eyes do not lie, see?
What words I say could make you cringe,
Why I stigmatized upon thee?
Chance after chance, year after year,
Always open to soon forgive.
What more to say no longer tear,
Turn to apologize, outlive…
What left half heartless to amend,
When no longer heart to pretend…

Sleepless in change,
As time passes by.
Tell me my love,
Where are you to hide?
You left me here,
A bard of the night.
Longing for dreams,
Awoken by fright.
Still in silence,
I don’t wait for you.
What’s passed is gone,
An entity through.
Am I alive -
Haunted we will know.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
As time it feels
It never heals
Burning desires no longer
Regret swollen as my own skin
What left inside
No more their pride
I dare not begin speak my sin
Knowing the time I spent tasted
I have lost some
Becoming numb
Love no longer to be wasted
Say half my heart not given yet
Shy stricken pain
Dare not say name
Tortured as a soul lifelong pet
The heart telling me to love all
The hurt’s intense
What left condense
Not knowing your time when to fall
Lost in the wonder of falsehood
Death not my first
Living pain worst
What tried I have done all I could
So say it so
Time when to go
Heart letting go the past to rest

Will you grant me Home,
Safe passage to all your lands?
To taste divine grapes,
Embarking beautiful sands?
So afraid to hear,
Your voice soft & so sweet.
Angels guarding me,
Wandered ever will I meet.
Defeated sadness,
Sinks down below your abode.
Here found my gladness,
Finally breathing the codes.
Mysteries all found,
Yours & only Holy Home.

Telling me to let you go,
Is like hitting water,
A thousand times.
Wanting me to let you know,
The death come my father,
Not enough rhymes…
Glimpse of hope withers away,
Destiny of darkness,
Slow to creep in.
Innocence lost of the day,
Leeching shadows to hiss…
Born from all sin…
What love we had turned to hate -
No longer you here to wait…

I hear the deserts of the singing,
Calling me,
Wandering forth tears of a Spirit.
For many walks I lessen my pride,
Wondering,
Is it You calling me to heareth?
Mad before, I have ransacked some woods,
Treasures lost…
Finally awoken to find worth.
I’m gonna give them all what they want,
Never found…
For them to realize this is all Earth.
Let them cry, love, heal - all to find way…
Here - I am a dead man anyway…

When I called, I loved you.
In thrill having it all!
Then love came so untrue,
I lost you through the fall.
Lost childhoods unfeed, dread…
We found our way by train,
God was all first to bled.
Things never been the same…
No hourglass on skin,
Could tell me otherwise.
Where grace and love begin.
No more cuts I despise.
Imperium our friend,
What used to be no end.

I walk the rain,
Till dusk & night.
I tossed & turned,
All full of fright.
I waited long,
All just for you.
I hate to say,
We’re done & through.
What will you know,
Come time to fix.
It’s not our fault,
Our love to mix.
Let rain to drop -
I love you much.

A leech ***** blood,
As much parasites see…
Left carcass mud,
Rising my soul to be…
Jealousy round,
They know I’m a has been…
Places I’ve found,
Only I know happened...
Let them all talk,
Their bite marks in my skin...
I’m bored, they’re chalk,
Let lessons all begin…
**** me away,
Phallus to stay…

I cried today.
Riding the train ride,
Thinking of you…

Chills take over me,
Knowing you’re somewhere around,
But never to be found…

Will it be so,
My love to be sailed,
Love to renew…

Watching your tears fall,
Weeping the second I go…
So long of us and woe…

Summer sets I have wept,
Knowing you could’ve kept…

Birds will always be,
To spread & fly their wings.
The glory of birth,
Dear nature’s mothers sing.
Art takes time to grow,
Us as flowers to bloom.
Bewildered the wild,
Here for us to consume.
So inspiring,
The winds for me to tell.
Grooming trees to talk,
Grown tall to wish you well.
Let the sun set on,
Always new tomorrow.

I sacrificed true love,
hopes in finding a cure.
Snake used to be a dove,
skin shedding close so pure.
they said in time hearts heal,
I know this all a lie,
my heart was all a steal,
take my halved heart and try.
let dakness all reside,
it shields me from the pain.
fog and rain divine eyed,
at least not all again.
come last breath I am free,
relinquished or not be...

When they say to you,
“You haven’t found true love.”
You’re a liar of love.
When you’re made out to be something you’re not, you’re no better than a dove.
You’re a liar of love.
When you’re always angry,
When you want to push, pull, tear,
Shove - shove - shove!
You’re a liar of love.
When you know you don’t normally hate.
When you know you don’t normally judge…You’re a liar of love.
When it seems you want closure,
But nothing moves closer…
You’re a liar of love…
And I’m starting to not like it…

Maybe then… we’re all liars of love…

I will never forget the times we had,
Yes, things could’ve been better, and further.
What more can I say no longer all sad,
A heart restored, broken on back burner.
The ones who warn will always sacrifice,
Willingly not knowing what to enter.
We sometimes don’t know what will come at price,
In loving you lone, I a dementer.
Your feelings are valid just as all I,
The shadows are here as I haunt know.
Lo and behold? I don’t want a goodbye,
Your purities never too much to show.
God! Rage you must the chills come time the spined?
Locked memories no one will ever find…

How can you truly wish true love the best,
Lost years slipping away from our hands?
Betrayal, lies, deception a test,
Love turning blind darkness all commands…
For what is truth if not halve our hearts torn,
Leaving us scapegoats of wilderness?
Did not we share our desires all worn,
Only to never come and confess…
I can feel the pain brewing inside you,
An old soul will always have to know…
No, what comes in your life isn’t all new.
Your burdens are mine aching to show…
Whatever you go through I will be here,
Pushing my love away from you I fear…