ahem...
I am not a man of fear,
but you do scare me sometimes, beauty.
I know this latest plunge of yours was far
more difficult for you than you were letting on.
I also know that you were closer to the edge of
letting go than you have possibly ever been before.
Fear on my part only comes from the distance-created
inability that all but renders love, impotent.. but still, I feel..
and I knew, baby.. that if I didnt dig deeply into the earth's rich,
dark loam with all there is of me, able to believe for you on your
behalf-- within those.. the darkest of moments, that you might
possibly (out of the stifling fear of anyone close to you, to move
forward- into you in order to truly save you)..
--that you might
actually die..
and I cannot allow that.
We do what we have to do in love, babe. I was not going to let you
slip through the cracks, so I did what I did. Tend to that gorgeous
garden of yours passionately-- wildly-untethered within the
beautiful parameters of full-on abandon. Love is finding its
wonderful way into places and parts within you that have
previously remained alone and cold..
outside of its warm, healing light.
Your gorgeously nectar-laden body is a beautiful, fully trembling..
and at times, wonderfully gushing temple of worship, celebration
and praise of the fascinating, permeating.. and often
(as you so righteously well know)
a deeply and passionately-thrusting *******
of the Universe's finest and warmest ways--
even when done tenderly.
The beautiful nature of Love's full-on core ache will not let go of
you until it has fully coated every now deeply-craving cell within
that juice-filled, wildflower body of yours.. so yes.. come wildly
within it all, sweet girl. Your beautiful, deep, body-convulsing
******* are such a wonderfully-integral part of
what is
helping you, to become free.
They are not inappropriate or unloving or unfaithful to your
relational home-life.. if there is anything inappropriate, it is me..
for speaking to you this way. (lala)
But it has been so touch and go for you
that I now have no idea not to.
I will bite my tongue and withhold from you
the powerful effect it all is having
even right this moment, on me.
All's I can say right now is that I am glad that you
have made it through this latest plunge into the pit.
The thought of it all working out for you (so far)
truly does make me smile. :)
Keep feeling the comforting containment of the Wind, beauty.
xoxo (ping.)
lala.
~**** R
