I wanted to live for you.
I wanted to sacrifice myself for you.
It's always you that I love.
I gave you more than just enough.
As I kept doing it,
The squall inside me became uncontrolled.
It caused me a lot of pain.
I only realize now,
I'm the one I should love in this world.
This precious soul of mine.
Not so perfect but so beautiful.

I hate it when my friends keep secrets on me.
I hate it when my friends plan something without me.
I hate it when they share something to others but not me.
I hate it when I feel like I'm not part of the group.
It's better to be alone,
Than being with someone who makes you feel alone.

Ikaw ang gusto ng aking puso,
Pero ang utak ko ay gusto kang maglaho.
Sila ay nag-aargumento ng parang na sa korte.
Kailan kaya kita maibabalewala,
Katulad ng pagbalewala mo sa mga ginawa ko.

Kinakalimutan ko na mahal kita,
Pero nung ngumiti ka,
Nahulog nanaman ako sayo.
Kailan kaya mananalo ang utak ko sa laban na ito?

In this sorrowful moment,
I just want everything to end.
My heart is about to break,
My brain
It hurts a lot,
But I know this is happening,
Because something good is coming.
I need someone.
Hug me please.
I need a hug and let all my tears out.
I need someone to help me get through this.
Hug me

I never told anyone about my secret.
Secrets, rather.
Some secrets should just stay hidden within you.
Never tell anyone all about you.

My secret? Very shocking.
Do I have a plan to tell them? No.
Not even my family knows.
Do you wanna know my secrets?
Shh
.
.
.
Secret.

I'm fine, just fine.
I'll let go of your hands now.
  I am my own salvation.
   I don't want to be sad anymore.
    Myself has forgotten to call you.
      Sadness and scars became an  
        old memory.
          Everyone knows your voice,
            I can smile now.
           But,
             I don't wanna be lonely.
            I'm trapped inside and I'm  
             dead.
           I want to wake up, I hate this  
           dream.
         I can't get a grip on myself.
        It is so dark.
      I knew that you are my salvation.
    Give me your hand.
Save me, save me.
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I should have let you go.
Real or not,
You're here or not,
It will always be the same.
I'm still lonely.
The fact that you are here changes nothing.

Siya? Crush na crush ko dati.
Ako? Hindi ako marunong lumandi.
Kaya lagi lang ako nasa isang tabi pinagmamasdan siya,
Na tumitingin habang nakangiti siya sa crush niya.
Parang boto nga pamilya niya sakin, pero di pwede maging kami kasi siya nga mismo sa iba nakatingin.
Hindi ako crush ng crush ko dati.
Hindi rin ako malungkot kasi hindi rin siya crush ng crush niya.
Patas lang diba?
Pero ngayon....
Iba na kasi ang sitwasyon.
Malungkot na ako.
Crush ko siya noon,
Mahal ko na ngayon....

I have close friends,
I don't have bestfriends.
I was never a bestfriend to anyone.
My only bestfriend is myself.

Sana napapansin mo na iniibig kita.
Sana marealize mo na ako ang laging nandito.
Sana hindi lang kaibigan ang tingin mo saakin.
Sana pagdumating ang araw na mahal mo na ako,
Mahal pa rin kita.

Ako ang nandito.
Bakit binabalewala mo?
Ano?
Ano ang dapat na gawin ko para ako ay mapansin mo?
Ano ang meron siya na wala ako?
Ano ang kailangan kong gawin para makita  mo na ako ang nagmamahal sayo?
Ilan?
Ilan na tula ang dapat kong gawin para mapahanga ka?
Ilan na taon pa ang kailangang lumipas para malaman mo na mahal kita?
Ilan beses ba dapat ako tumulong sayo para maliwanagan ka?
Ilan beses ba dapat ako masaktan para lang sayo?
Ilan beses ko ba dapat ipakita sayo na mahal kita?
Ilan beses ba dapat ako magpakatatag at lumaban sa isang pagmamahal na ako lang yung nagmamahal?

Hi tita,
Kamusta?
Alam niyo naman po na matalik na magkaibigan kami ng anak nyo.
Matalik na kaibigan mo rin ang nanay ko.
Pitong taon na nung nakilala ko anak niyo,
Gwapo at matalino siya,
Kaya hindi na ako nagtataka kung bakit maraming naghahabol sakanya.

Malapit pamilya niyo sa amin.
Tita, Thankful ako na inaalagaan mo ako.
Binibigyan mo ako ng regalo tuwing birthday ko.
Minsan inaayusan mo pa ako,
Iniintindi ko kasi wala kang anak na babae.
Kulang na nga lang pati *****'t bra ibigay mo saakin.

Ikaw pa ang bumigay saakin ng napkin nung first time ko magkaregla.
Ilang beses na rin ako nakasakay sa kotse niyo.
Sabi mo pa ako ang mata mo na nagbabantay sa anak mo pag may pasok.
Lagi ko pong tinutulungan anak niyo.

Pero tita alam niyo po ba ano ang masaklap?
7 billion ang tao dito sa mundo pero anak mo pa rin ang gusto ko.
Pero alam niyo po ba ano ang mas masaklap?
Anak mo ang gusto ko pero kahit kailan saakin ay hindi siya nagkagusto.

I don't wanna talk to you anymore.
But still,
You are my friend.
You care for me.
You love me.
You are always there for me.
You comfort me.
You worry about me.
When did I ever feel that,
You're not there for me.
I always felt that,
My bestfriend.
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Naalala ko nung umamin ako sayo,
Di ko alam na gusto mo rin pala ako.
Niligawan mo ako,
Sinagot kita.
Naging tayo nun.
Masaya ang relasyon natin,
Lagi pa tayong kumakain.
Ngayon ikakasal na tayo,
Tuwang tuwa ako kasi ikaw ang kasama ko kapag tatanda na tayo.
Pero bigla akong dumilat sa katotohanan.
Ikakasal kana ngayon,
Pero di ako ang babae na katabi mo sa altar ngayon.
Oo nga pala,
Di mo nga pala ako gusto.
Lahat nang yun ay kathang isip lamang.
Kathang isip lang nga ba iyon?
O sadya mo akong iniwan?

Tayo ay matalik na magkaibigan.
Malapit tayo sa isa't isa.
Marami kang alam tungkol sakin,
Ganun rin ako sayo.
Kilala ko lahat ng mga umamin na may gusto sayo pero di mo sila gusto.
Pero di mo alam na nasasaktan na ako.
Hindi mo naman kasalanan.
Kasalanan ko toh.
Tayo ay matalik na magkaibigan ngunit gusto ko tayo ay magka-ibigan.
Malapit tayo sa isa't isa ngunit malayo kang magkagusto sakin.
Marami kang alam tungkol sakin,
Ngunit di mo alam ang nararamdaman ko.
Marami din akong alam sayo, ngunit
Nagseselos ako sa mga babaeng nagustuhan mo.
Kilala ko lahat ng umamin sayo pero di mo sila gusto, ngunit ako ay di mo rin gusto kaya para san pa kung aamin ako?
Hindi mo toh kasalanan.
Kasalanan ko na minahal kita.
Alam ko kaibigan lang ang tingin mo saakin, tanggap ko yun.
Masakit rin na ang nararamdaman ko ay tinatago ko lang sa sarili ko. Medyo unfair kasi ako ang lagi nandito para sayo ngunit sa iba ka pa rin nakatingin.
Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan ngunit ikaw pa rin ang aking gugustuhin at pinakagwapo saaking paningin.

My father does things for me.
Even though he's tired, he still works just for me.
He does Everything for me.
Dad, You have a heart disease.
Please don't leave, I still need you.
My dream is for you to walk me in the altar to my future husband.
You have so many dreams for me.
Please be healthy.
I love you.
Happy Father's Day.

You don't wanna stay in this world.
You hate that you are you.
You hate the things you heard.
You want to disappear in this state your into.

It's okay to bleed, it's okay to exceed.
It's okay to feel fear, it's okay to ignore the things you hear.
Open your heart and think positive.
You have your own life just continue to live.

For you I could pretend that I'm happy even though I'm dying inside.
For you I could pretend that I'm strong even though I'm hurt all the time.

I thought I love you for a good cause.
I changed eveything for you.
I became quite unsure if who I was.
When I look at my reflection, I ask "Who are you?"

I don't even know myself, molded a pretty lie for you.
Love? What is love? It's untrue.
I'm so sick of this fake love.
I'm so sorry but it's fake love.

Am I not your bestfriend?
Why do I keep on missing things?
Do you know it hurts to pretend?
The feeling in my heart stings.
Let me know if I'm not a bestfriend to you,
So that I won't treat you like one.
Is this what you call one-sided friendship?

I don't understand how people cries over the same person,
But never laughs for the same joke.
Someone leaves because someone better comes.

There are persons who are not worthy of our tears.
We should not cry over someone who doesn't deserve our feelings.
If we have a chance to bring back all the tears we wasted for the wrong person,
Let's pour it all for the right one.

You know about my life,
Specifically, love.
You know my secrets,
I give you all my trust.

You always get sensitive about your eyebrows.
You don't even know how to put eyeshadows.
I don't know if you read this already.
But I wanna say my dear cousin, you are lovely.

When you look up,
You may have your hopes up.
It's okay to dream,
It's okay to to boost your self-esteem.

This creation of God,
Is the best thing we ever had.
When you look at the sky,
You should not cry, instead,
You should put up a smile.

I never wanted to be here.
I never wanted to go here.
I can't stand to be here for a day, what more for a year?

Everytime I have a first step,
A chain starts to surround my neck.
Each day that I spent,
The chain in my neck tightens.

I feel so suffocated that it kills me.
I need air, I don't belong here.
I wanna wake up in this nightmare even though it's the reality.
The chain only disappears,
When I get out of here.
I wanna go back to the place I belong, the place where I find no fear.