Have you seen my son
He was to return before the dawn
He told me that he loved me
But there was fighting left to be done
His eyes are hazel burning bright
His hair as dark as ravens night
that is perched on yonder tree
His croaks say that your son is gone
And again you will never see
But still the misty morn she walks
With crystals rolling down her cheeks
Cold and gone
is how she found the sun this morning

Im
Going going
Back back
To sally sally

Im ******* *******
On the back back
Of sally sally

Now im
Going going
To nap nap
And rally rally

Do you ever get the feeling
Of great malaise
Right from birth
Feeling displaced
Of being born
At an ill time and place
Waiting only
For our place in the dirt

In a darkened room
I whispered the evening blooming
Like a winter rose Or summer love
Here but for only a moment
And on waking
*It passed into dreams

~                Peter peter pants aflame
     Danced around while screaming names
               As he stumbled faltered fell
      Went through earth and down to hell
            Now its there he blindly dwells
                            All for a ****
                       that burned to well

Expecting a different outcome
                      *I try
            just one last time

I wouldn't trade who i am for anyone
And i hate myself
So what do you think i feel of you

Ever get the feeling that theres no point
All this pain and hardship
Is it just a long road to nowhere

We are born of blood and rain
*Heirs to madness and pain

Laugh through the pain
Scream with the rain
Love like the wind
*Here then gone again

Time is a face on the water
Seemingly concrete
Until the waves come to wash it away

I know it looks shallow
But when your drowning
*You'll realize the depth of your mistake

I was whole
                        Not broken
                                              Before my soul
                                                                          Took this body
                                                                                                      For its own

Entropy becomes me
As i drift to sleep
*Fare well

I am the fool on the hill
*Watching the moonrise

I dreamt of her.
I dream of her name and her eyes.
on waking i feel a vague sense of loss and sorrow.
Perhaps its from a past life.
My heart calls out for her,
As though I've always known her.
Yet my head knows I've never met her.
I dreamt of you,*
And woke with tears on my cheek.

The
        haunting
                         distinction
                                             between
*What
            is
                and
                       what
                                 has
                                       passed

I slipped into her ocean
And rode upon her sea
In the midst of all our love
We mingled egg with seed
I climbed her highest mountain
And Gave her all of me
As i peaked her final wave
*She shuddered and came all over me

Its not that your a ****** person
You just seem that way
Your by no means stupid
Your just oblivious
And you are very beautiful
I just hate the personality attached to your face

Abandon all hope ye who enter here.
Thats what she tattooed just above her *****.
Seems at least a little disconcerting....
Eh **** it.

How could we expect Righteousness to prevail
When there are none willing to make sacrifices
Such a gorgeous sunny day and i have to go
Yet what does my death matter
If it will incite the masses to rise to action

I saw her beauty by the pool
As wind caressed her cheek

The frawns of a willow tree
Shrouded her mystery

She listened quite intently
To the weeping of the tree

It was almost like it spoke to her
Through softly rustling leaves

Such beauty lay beside the pool
With evening in her hair

I wish i'd known how sad she was
to pass with the autumn air

Now she only lives in dreams
*And will always be there

The end came gently
i must go out
The fog
*the fog is rising

There will be dreams
There will come pain
There will be love
There will come sadness


Yet there will be wonder
As great as anything
There will be tears
And there will come rain
But thats only to wash them away


There will be hope
There will come mourning
There will be joy
There will come loss


There may be redemption
As long as we don't stop
There will be life

~                                              Preaching hate
        The audacity
                                   To say
                              in gods name
                                                          T­hat yours
    is the only truth
                                That way
                             *Lies madness

Pick up
To stick up
And sit down
*To stone

I feel it
               All of it
                             Everything
   All at once
                                                 Pain and hatred
                         Love and beauty
        War and death
                                                          Peace and prosperity
            It all fills me
                                     Sometimes
                    Its to much
                                                        And i feel
      My mind
                                        Begin to
             Tare at the seams
                                              And the tears
                                                           Roll down my face
         I have to recede
                               From myself
                                                      In hopes
                                    Of keeping
                               my sanity whole

~                     *         In our hearts there is a lacking
                                       We made these boxes meant for stacking
To build our pyramids right to the top
                                 In hope to fill the hole
                                             But in truth we've no control
       In this stream of life were ascending
                         And we are all just pretending
                              To look full and whole to the rest of the world
       But maybe its just a tax
                         To these lives that where attached
         So that hole will be full
                                      once we've gone
                             Yet still I'm wrapped inside this coil
      That with it brings turmoil
               Though i am still young
                      I feel my soul is old and done
     So with what time i have left
                                              I will sit and take deep breaths
                             And listen gently to the falling rain

As the lights went up,
And consciousness creeped its way back in.
He found himself in a puddle of filth,
Mud, blood and other unspeakable things.
Trying to move brought a searing lance of agony,
Yet quite disconcertingly only through half his body.
Looking down he saw the shaft of an arrow,
Protruding from just below his navel.
Thats when he realized why he couldn't feel his legs.
Yet the more pressing matter was what seemed to be
A gaping hole in his chest, that slowly but steadily was leaking his life's blood into the earth. A bitter jolt of fear and panic gripped him, so tightly he could scant breathe. he couldn't remember where he was or what he may have done to come to this. He was young and had so much he would have liked to do with his life. A hitching gasp that turned to a sob escaped his chest as he remembered anne, he would never see her again. Yet as the cold of death crept into his body, he remembered.
Sunny days where he spent time on looking at clouds hand in hand with anne. the warm summer nights made all the warmer be their fire, and when the fires ebbed they lay intwined and would watch the stars as they made their slow steady way across the sky.these are the things that he clutched desperately to himself as he stepped into the darkness that comes to all living things. As the sun broke the horizon and sent its gentle rays floating across the meadow. the warm light found cooling skin, and on his face a small smile remained.

Give me one more shot of whiskey
And one more cigarette
Then i can leave this place
a pretty happy man

Gentle drops of crystal
Rain over
to wash me clean

This old circle
Stuck in circuit
Around the ball
And back again
Alpha
Omega
We've been here before and truly
*we will be here again

We had some times,
Didn't we.
We saw wonders,
And horrors.
We watched crystal sunrises,
And held hands as the evening devoured the sky.
We shared our lustful moments,
And in the silent times we shared our tears.
I don't know many things,
But i know this,
We danced.
Danced our whole lives long.
Even though where tired now,
We didn't stop until the end of the songs.
I remember how we danced.
if i take anything with me,
I will take our dance.
Smiling gone happily into the dark.

~                Hello hello hello hello
     Goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye
                    *And thats all there is

There are times in life
Times to run
Times to walk
Times to laugh
Times to cry
Times to love
Times to lie
Times to shiver on a winter night
Times to listen
Times to speak
Times when stillness will be achieved
Times for sleep in hope of dreams
Times to watch the falling leaves
Times to feel that summer breeze
Times for you and times for me
There is time to live
And we will all find the time to die
The time for our bodies to return to the light

So much emphasis on time.
We spend our lives counting time.
Rolling wheels to the next road sign.
Yet we sometimes forget.
*That its all in our minds

****
Everything
And
Run

Creeping excitement
As our eyes lock
Across a crowded room

Its kinda disconcerting ,
The hole in the sky.
Darkness seems to slither in,
As beauty withered up and died.
The stars that once lit the night,
Are now just silent prayers.
See the only light in the sky,
Is that scarlet staring eye.
As many as there where once stars.
The monsters begin their waltz.
It scary the holes where demons come,
Within the hearts of men.

You only call me when your drunk.
I think you might be crazy.
When you show up on my door around 3am or 4.
I have to work at 6.
So theres only a couple hours,
To **** and **** your ****.
Made you squirt a lot,
And i must say that was pretty ****** hot.
But now its off to work,
That really hit the spot.

I want to watch the sky with you,
To Watch the brilliant summer light.
the blue fades from the ocean,
As the day turns to the night.
I want to hold you near to me,
And watch the stars alight.
To see the diamonds heliographed,
The reflections in your eyes.

I used to think there was a secret room
In the dead space between
Full of whispered words
And secret things
Words that no one has ever heard
But then i grew
And thought i knew
That pipes filled those spaces
But now and then
I remember the spaces between
Sometimes As i drift to sleep  
I hear the whispered words
Of secret things that lie between

~                Return me to my place in the sand
                      Where i begin as where ill end
             We are born of blood with earth in hand
           Our mother birthed us from sand and bone
                 We'll someday die and turn to stone
                        Yet its alright it is our home

A restless eye across a weary room
A glazed look and I was on the road to ruin
The music played and played as we whirled without end
No hint, no word her honour to defend
I will, I will she sighed to my request
And then she tossed her mane while my resolve was put to the test
Then drowned in desire, our souls on fire
I lead the way to the funeral pyre
And without a thought of the consequence
I gave in to my decadence
One slip, and down the hole we fall
It seems to take no time at all
A momentary lapse of reason
That binds a life for life
A small regret, you won't forget,
There'll be no sleep in here tonight
Was it love, or was it the idea of being in love?
Or was it the hand of fate, that seemed to fit just like a glove?
The moment slipped by and soon the seeds were sown
The year grew late and neither one wanted to remain alone
One slip, and down the hole we fall
It seems to take no time at all
A momentary lapse of reason
That binds a life for life
A small regret, you won't forget,
There'll be no sleep in here tonight
One slip ... one slip

Like love
There is a time for everything
Feel the days passing nights
Inside your hands hope blooms again
Long face lost soul
keep smiling
Perhaps the times will change

Well the summer has come
As i wither in the sun
104 today at your door
Even the breeze
Doesn't give any ease
Where are the gentle rains
Ill have to wait for autumn again

I suppose id say I'm a **** up
All the things I've tried
They all withered up
And died
I guess some people
Are just born to cry
Lie on the side walk
And slowly die

The sound was bitter
As walked from faith
Saying to myself
Its better this way

That day was bitter cold
As the light fled the sky
The wind left streaks in earth
A depth of silence
So deep
You could hear love die
And the silent tears of the heart
Autumns passing bittersweet
And the gentle dreams of dying things

I hate that all the dating today is just one big game
All the ******* who capitalize they are all just the same
And its to bad because they give me a bad name
I guess I'm just too nice and sweet yet i have antigame
It works against me in almost every single way
Try to be honest and kind
But thats not what they are looking to find
They want someone to pull their hair and maybe beat them up
But honestly I've heard this all before and I'm getting real fed up
Maybe i should act the **** so i can not get ******
They say i should stay the same and the girls will see whats up
But being who i am gets me friendzoned and that just *****