i know we all have a purpose
in this world
i know that you have to have darkness
in order to have light
but i’ve been in the dark for so long
if there’s one thing
i want to know
it’s if this suffering
will be worth it
because a life without meaning
isn’t what i’m living for

i hate feeling this way
but at least i’m still feeling something

i look around this town
and see the places i've spent hours with you
it all started at that fairground
in our own little world
laughing until the sun goes down

and as i see these places
i find myself smiling
because there is nothing to do in this town
but we always manage
to make something out of nothing

and as long as i have you
i have everything
in this boring old town

i almost like it better when i'm thinking too much
makes me feel like i'm alive and not some dead battery found in the trash when it can no longer be used
find peace in the swirling thoughts in my head like a toilet that wont flush
because it means i'm still alive
still able to comprehend what you're saying
still able to feel.
i will live another day and get caught on something new
and probably trip
and fall
back to that low feeling i'm used to
but that's okay
because hey, after all i'm alive
and right now that's good enough.

i’m a shooting star
i’ll burn so brightly
so much it hurts myself
in the end
i’ll burn out
but i’ll do it if it means
someone else could be happy
even if it’s for a second
i’ll do it if it means
someone could make a wish
come true

at first it was your appearance
that i was attracted to
because i didn’t know much else
about you
then at the fair
finally got to know you
you were so shy
and i don’t think you knew
i wanted to make you mine
as months go by
and i fall more for you
i realize you’re so much more
than that quiet girl under that bridge
that i wanted to make laugh
just to see her smile
no-
i’ve fallen for the time we share
the memories we’ve made
and the girl
i never thought
was ever gay

you've opened my eyes
to a bright new world that is so much clearer
you've opened my heart
and made myself feel welcome in my own body finally
you've opened my arms
and your body just fits so right

i hate receiving gifts
because i never seem to know
quite how to say thank you
but this year i've decided
the greatest gift i could ever receive
is your love

you are worth way more than their initial appraisal

i may not have it all together, but together, we have it all

the end goal is happiness
we all just have different ways of getting there

i have a good feeling that if you put two pieces of paper in front of me and asked me to list negatives and positives about myself, not only would the negatives list be longer than the positives, i'd need more than one piece of paper

you are a work of art
that words cannot begin
to lend appreciation to
so i just stare at you in awe

you're beautiful
and theres no one
quite like you out there

i could be the poorest person on earth
i could be homeless under a bridge
but dear as long as you're by my side
so long as my heart is fuller than my bank account
i may as well have won the lottery

i took my shot
though it was blind
i fell so hard
didn't fear the fall
i fell in love
with your beautiful mind
you've made me feel everything
when i didn't feel anything at all

stuff inside my head
only makes sense to me
so that's why it stays in there
that's why i daydream

stuff in the "real world"
doesn't make sense to me
so that's why it stays out there
that's why i daydream

you told me not everyone is mentally ill
and i stopped to think
i couldn't imagine what that feels like
do they wake up smiling
or is it just a facade
can they hold a conversation
without spacing out
do day to day tasks
without getting overwhelmed
it's just really hard to imagine
but then again
i don't even understand
my own mind

i want to believe this is just a nightmare yet i
can’t
wake
up

i can tell you're hurting
i can tell behind that forced smile
behind that phone screen
behind the poetry you're writing
i've been reading in between the lines
and i want you to know
you can lay it all on me
it makes my stomach churn
knowing you're still hurting
that there are wounds still healing
and i wonder
if i'll be enough to help
or is time the only healer

i just wish
that one day
i'll be able to walk this earth
and not constantly
compare myself
to other people
and not be trapped
and held captive
by my own
mind

be who you are
love who you want
we’re all just feeling
the same thing called love

some people just can't be helped
at least thats what you've told me
as ****** as it seems
you have to learn to let go
but what if you're the only thing i know
what if your hugs no longer heal me
what if i'm too far gone
some people just can't be helped
and what if i'm one of them

it is the saddest feeling, when others believe in you more than you believe in you, when others are more disappointed in your failures than you are

if you rush through life
only looking toward something inthe future
you’re going to find
that when that moment comes
the only thing you will feel
is regret

sometimes it’s too hard to think, maybe that’s why people drink

there’s nothing more frustrating than wanting to explain what’s on your mind, but not having the vocabulary to word your thoughts

take me back to those days at the fairground
where it was like our own playground
where your smile seemed to wrap around me
and in your arms i felt safe and sound
take me back to when we weren't so stressed
when we didn't have to worry about time
when we knew we would see each other the next day
and i didn't have a reason to say i miss you

it is the worst feeling
people still having faith in you
when you've given up on yourself
people believing in you
when you don't believe in yourself
it is the worst feeling
people still caring about you
when you couldn't care less about yourself
people asking for help
when most nights you can't even help yourself

there’s nothing quite like
a long open winding road
that forces you to think
more than you have ever thought
in the past 3 months

time seems to go by slow when you wish it wouldn't, and races when you want the moment to last

i love doing nothing as long as its with you. i'd spend hours with you in an empty room, and never get bored. just you, me, and our own little world. your heart beats against my ear as though it was a song. your arms hug my mind and tell me its going to be alright, never having to say any words.

seems like the more interesting the major you’re interested in is, the less jobs there is for it

-eat
-drink
-sleep
-try not to think

you make me feel young
even though my heart grows old
and tired
and weak
over years of taking a beating
you
the patient surgeon
took it in
and with steady hands
you mended it up
and stitched the wound
i never thought you
nor anyone
could

live not with regret, only memories and lessons learned in time

when you're with them take a step back and ask yourself "is there absolutely anywhere else i would want to be right now?"

your heart lies in the hands of the one you think about when you first wake up, and when you're laying down to go to sleep

i want to take away your pain
but then you won't be you anymore
because every part of you
even the bad parts
is all that i love about you

tell me everything you were
where you are now
where you wanna be
and i'll try to complete you
help you become
that masterpiece
you always knew you could be

i always have so many thoughts, yet i can never find the right words to say

time doesn't stop for anyone, it only moves forward, so to dread on the past is a pointless thing, yet we still find ourselves doing just that

as i look at the stars, which i have found more and more attractive everyday, just like you, i see how they align. how they form patterns called constellations, that i have come to find as a constant in my life. they're mysterious and beautiful, just like you. and i want to learn more and more about them, just like you. you see, i haven't always been this obsessed with stars, but i also just haven't got out of my own head enough to see the beauty of such a simple yet complex thing, thanks to you i do so. no matter how far away they are, no matter how hard you have to look, stars are always there, just like you.

here i go again i’m pretending that i’m okay
when honestly i don’t feel that way
don’t ask me i really can’t explain
just know there’s no one but me to blame
all these feelings won’t go away
certainly feels like i’ve been lead astray
in times like these i’d be looking for you to hold
but it’s because of you that i’m so cold

it’s possible to know what someone’s going through
but impossible to know
their exact feelings and emotions

how could i possibly be lonely
laying in bed at night
when the sound of silence
ringing in my ears
keeps me company
and the thoughts
are so loud
that i can hear them
as though
they're whispering
in my ear

it’s summer
so why do i feel so cold

it is impossible to be lonely
when we're all feeling the same thing

she is afraid she is not enough, yet too much, all at once

i feel like most days i'm just watching my life play out like a tv show or video game i used to like as a kid, but something about it just isn't that great anymore

you look upon the future
with fear and dread
because of what you already know
or at least what you think you know
is going to occur
whereas i look upon the future
with hope and careful consideration
because what you fear
is not set in stone
and the future
is not yet determined
and to me
so distant