Sometimes I get tired of writing about my mind and the awful stuff it can do to an unsuspecting me. Sometimes I wish I had just enough talent to articulate the beauty of a passing butterfly. My life always tends to focus on the negatives.
What do you do when you question life? Do you dwell on the past or do you look forward to the future? It's easy to remember the bad things we've been through but how often do we look back at the positive things and just smile? Remembering the negatives and focusing on the bad is hardly going to help. What if you embrace the now, live for today and remember tomorrow is a new day? Wouldn't that be a better way to live life? Life is too short to constantly think about regrets and what ifs. Do you want to be someone who's life is dictated by worry or do you want to take risks and enjoy life while you can? Do you let the best years of your life fly by or do you take control and lead the life you want to? There's only one pilot controlling your life. Make sure the journey is a memorable one.
i have a good feeling that if you put two pieces of paper in front of me and asked me to list negatives and positives about myself, not only would the negatives list be longer than the positives, i'd need more than one piece of paper
We find ourselves always stuck in the between- the middle of a breakdown, the middle of a fight, the middle of a decision. In the grey's instead of the blacks and whites of life. In the undeveloped part of the film; the damaged part of the film.
Have you ever sat in the middle of your living room with a bottle of wine and the windows slightly open in the middle of winter thinking about life? I have. Have you ever sat in the middle of the street in the middle of the night and wished silently to yourself this would all end if one car just turned that corner? I have.
There's that word again... "Middle" Which is such an ugly word the more I sit here and type it. I want to be at the beginning of something. I would even settle for the end of something just so I could restart again.
I have a hard time focusing on the present, which is also the middle of your life. I'm always stuck in the past or wishing for the future... Then again... I am the damaged part of the film.
I am the negatives that will not get developed for another couple years.
I wish I could double my hope like doubling the mount of Everest And seal the despair like sealing the sea with bunch of ices. I wish I could focus on the bulls' eye like focusing on my pimples. And hit it from far like hitting a nail into a wood. I wish I could delete the negatives in me like deleting files in my laptop. And get rid of my enemy like getting rid of viruses in my laptop. I wish I could complete this poem like writing alphabets from A to Z. I wish I could but I don't know when and how.