Holding you tight in our final embrace

Kissing your forehead in silent goodbye

Searching for tears but feeling no pain

Leaving our home in a shattered dismay

A nurse so sweet
A skin of fair delight
With eyes so dark
You seemed a heaven sent;
An angel from the sky above.

The way you spoke
So timid; yet so nice
Your voice a gentle hum.

You led me to a patient’s room
Where in, as if I froze in time,
I dreamed of you.

Your eyes, your lips
Your ever ****** physic
I wanted you so free
On top and kissing me.

even after all this time
i’m still addicted
to the poison
dripping from your lips

Know you are worth everything you need.
You are, and always will be loved,
Specially when no one is around.
Love is internal.
         Never ending.
                    You are Love Itself.

All I wanted was a drink
Caught in circumstances of today
Trying to drink away tomorrow
Yet, still living in yesterday

Never saw you come
Barely heard you speak
Your lips and eyes
So red - so blue

Three shots deep and
Now we’re reminiscing over
Things we’ve long forgot
Drawing closer through the thoughts of lust

In the ocean of your blue eyes
I see us swimming through the night
Burning at the thoughts of
Your red lips, kiss and press to mine....

Into a pool of ecstasy we both fall
A moment of honesty as we both lose control
Souls intertwine morphing into one
Hallelujah on my lips and
No regrets as
We both fall victim to exuberant romance...

yes,

you are a chaos
a storm

a wild flower
covered in thorns

yet

gentle as waterfall mist
on a hot summer day

soft as a lover’s kiss
on a cold winter morning

yes,

you are poetry
in constant motion

a beautiful melody
enthralled in a whirlwind

Love is like a ****** - it hurts at first
Like a shooting pain from a needle that
****** the skin in a middle of your arm
Like a fire, floating through your veins as it
Burns it's way to a middle of your heart
Before it clouds your mind
You feel your body float as
Free as one will ever be
Unknowingly your mind slows and races
To unimagined peak of ecstasy.

Devil in a mirror imposing voices in your head, causing harm.
Seeds of painful past take root within your dying heart.
Every step you take had lead you closer to the edge - edge of self inflicted doubts.
Insecurities like knifes cutting deeper causing scars.
All alone, walls are closing in as you collapse fighting fear.
Light of truth fading faster as you fall into darkness of your mind.
Chaos building, twisting every memory and thought.
Falling into rabbit’s hole, deeper faster with no way out.
Psychosis taking over, soul is dying losing hope.
Thoughts of red lines up and down your inner thighs relieving pain.
Causing you to contemplate red lines across your wrist to **** it all.
One loud scream as you face yourself.
Devil in a mirror disappears as you close your eyes.
Mind is blank as you take a breath.
Smile across your face as you silence painful thoughts.
Strength is rising, realizing warmth of light is always creeping in through the cracks.

Burning through my life
Like a never ending match
Not wanting or caring for love.

Ending up in a shadow of a rotten hill
That was built of my own
Ever growing sadness and fear.

You appeared like shooting star
In a dark and moonless sky
To guide me with your blinding light.

The way you talk to me
The way you walk with me
Brightens every aspect of my life.

You are the friend I never had
Cause you take it all in stride
Even when I act a selfish fool.

I can write all day about you
And all the wonderful things you do
But the honest truth....

    Life is empty without a friend like you.

I don’t want to lose myself...
                              
                                 ­      loving you.

When I got a call from you
Girl you already knew that
It’s been two months since the one I loved
Left me lonesome with a broken heart

Your words were so enticing
The whispers of your thoughts
Telling me you got me
And I won’t be wasting time

Before I even knew what had happened
I was miles from my home
And on my way to you
Hoping to forget the one that cut me true

Cold hearted and a clouded mind
From your hand I took the pill
Chased it down with alcohol
Within that moment I began to float

On a dance floor to my favorite song
I felt your hips press and grid on mine
The sweetness of your lips
******* on my tongue

Another shot and I was ready for action
Another pill and you’ll get the full reaction
Patron and ecstasy ******* with my mind
****** up, floating on cloud nine

Next thing I see that you were dancing
With a girl whom you seem to know
Her hands feeling on your body
Acting like she could read my ***** mind

In a back seat if your car
She was kissing, *******
Near **** blowing the one I loved
Out my ******* mind

How sweet it felt
As you both were giving me head
In silk covered, unmade bed
How ******* hot

****, how you kiss and bite
How you caress and touch my ***
Ah the way she pulled me in
And squeezed me with her thighs

In a way you face me
As she ate you out
In a way she moaned
As I pushed myself deep inside her

On a floor and you’re on top
Sliding, gliding near **** braking me in half
You felt so warm so tight
As I felt you coming, squeezing me so tight

Standing in a shower
Feeling your friend’s touch
The way she pinned my body
Against the shower wall

Against the wall she had me
And I had her from behind
I heard her moan with pleasure
As she got me to ******

It must of been forever
I simple couldn’t tell
When finally I stumbled out the bathroom
I saw you kissing her

The way you kissed and touch her body
It seemed so gentle and so slow
They way you slid your tongue inside her
She shivered ready to explode

I laid beside you and kissed her
I’ve never heard a moan so profound
As she climaxed with you
Between her creamy thighs

At a sight of light I left you
Driving in my car
I’ve never felt so ******
This only caused a scar

The pain still hunts me
I’m full of psychological regrets
I know that I have used you
I’m dying of a cheaters heart

Because all night the one I loved
Has never left my thoughts
I knew that I still loved her
I was loaning for her touch

I will always remember
The night
When I reached out to
Kiss You
And
With that kiss
I
   made
              you
                      mine....

Isn’t it lovely
Pieces of my shattered heart
Like petals of a rose
Spread
Across our bedroom floor
Oh
     Hello
You’re never coming home

Everything and more that’s what I’ll be
We have all night yet still to go
So close your eyes and lose control
Bodies twisting, arching at a thought
Cause when I kiss your neck
I touch your soul
Sweat your body covers
Nails digging into flesh
Squeezing me so tightly
Never let me go
Closer still as one we grow
Falling deeper into yen
Minds dreaming of what’s next
Bodies acting in response
Dancing to the rhythm of our hearts
Folding, bending into lust’s decree
Slow and deep our bodies rise and fall
In your eyes I see my word liquefying into bliss
In the way you bite your lip and moan
As lust changing - morphing into
Something so unreal yet so profound...

The rain came down in sheets that night
Thunder, as lightning split the sky
In that flash of light I saw you at my door
Your tear filled eyes glistened in a dark.
You want it darker?

Whistles of the wind through wires as
Rain knocked agains the windows of my room
Glass of wine in candle’s dancing light
Drama of the one you left behind.
You want it darker?

Your story was so incredibly complexed
In the way of pain inflicted perfect storm
How the one you love - left you broken
Hurting, at my door, looking for revenge.
You want it darker?

With every kiss our friendship’s dying
With every teardrop revenge was growing hotter
No love can heal the pain we’re causing
As we fell lower our fury burnt brighter.
You want it darker?

Like stars on a cloudy night
My true feelings were hiding in a dark
I couldn’t even look you directly in your eyes
Cause through you I was making love to her.
You want it darker?

Agonizing pain of self Inflicted cuts
Hearts drained of passion, dying fast
We both knew that you’re in love with him
I’m still in love with fading light of her.
You want it darker?

Like waves crashing agains a shore
I felt your pain collide with mine
Eyes wide shut as we reached out to touch
In our minds we wanted the ones that we were not.
You want it darker?

Dying candles flicker in a rays of raising sun
Lifeless hearts, falling out of lovers grasp
I used the blood for ink to pen this poem as
Angels wept in sheets the night before.

You want it darker.....

Passion of this night is blooming into
What we would only know as love
Naked bodies clutching to each other
Satisfied, resuscitating from unison ******
Never thought that deepness of your eyes
Would convince me otherwise but
**** baby you got me falling
Throwing fear and caution to the wind
Never wanna lose the the rhythm of
Hearts beating as we lay chest to chest
Souls are morphing into one as
I feel your lips on mine
Taste so sweet so right
Never felt more real as I do with you
To you my dear I wish to say “Hello”
Cause in my heart I know that
With you is where my heart
My soul
        And
             My love
                    Belong.

Lay beside me darling and grab my hand
Close your eyes and try to visualize
Us rising, flying over the mountains and the clouds
Still rising higher, as we fly towards the galaxy above
Hold me tight as we dance across star filled skies
Still rising higher and higher past the darkness of your past
Towards broken sphere and frozen dust
Bringing fire to its soul
As it spins, burning, melting into solid core
Hold me tightly as my love brings to life this world within your broken heart

I watch you smile for the last time
Your fragile heart is growing still
With tear soaked eyes
I place my lips upon your brow to say goodbye
One final breath and then you’re gone
I look to the sky about to see you off
Across the line your soul has passed
Through darkness into light
You take your place in galaxy of stars
And it fills my heart with loving joy as
You ascend to Heaven’s Gates above

I love the way the night conceals
My lonely silent heart
I love the way you touch me
In the coldest moments of the night
I love the way you kiss me
When I’m longing for her love
And
I know
You love the way I hold you
As the sun blinds your tear filled eyes.

So tired of this game we play
This chase of stop and go
Near every time I see you
You tend to be around your friends and
We have to play it cool
I know you want me darling
But around them we can never show
It's in the way you touch and kiss me
When we steal the time to get away
The way you lean against me
And whisper in my ear
That “This is wrong and we mustn't”
Cause it's hurting the one you left at home
I would love to say that I could be
Your one and only lover
But we both know that could never be
The ever changing circumstances of our lives
Could never let it happen
No matter how hard we want it darling
Even though the short time we spent together
I know I mustn't push it
But I just can't help it
As our time is spent in ecstasy of fear
Looking into your eyes
As you lean in to kiss me
It's worth the pain of sadness
As you push away to say goodbye

You shouldn’t be alone
I know your mind is racing as you’re pacing
To my will you’ll surrender all control
Forget the future and the past
Love couldn’t and it wouldn’t last
So take another shot and fall away into
Someone else’s bed and break their soul
Play the game of stupid love
Better them than you cause nothing lasts
Take another puff and lose your mind as
You disappear into nights of lust
Frozen to another’s touch
Cause darling you don’t want to hurt
Trust me take another pill and close your eyes
Life only lasts a moment and it’s worth loosing time playing games of causing scars.

Moment of this night,
         Succumbing to your touch.
The timing of the kiss,
         Consumed by wild thoughts.

Little after 2am, I was texting driving home
Time was slipping into mounds of sand
You were joking, playing games
Texting me that it was early and
You haven’t got your kiss
Texted you that anything was possible if
You came and brought Champagne
Mind fuzzy, lost in thought
Seemed my drive it took forever cause
Your reply, it never came
Parked my car and thought to call you
Just to see if you’re awake
Never got the chance to do it cause
I saw you at my door
Flames of red and curly hair
Freckles on your cheeks, smile on your lips
And in your hand a bottle of Champagne

I couldn’t see the end, yet
We STILL tried like we were true
In unfinished LOVE you let me go
Cause within your heart, YOU felt that I would cheat on you.

I thought I sensed you
Come into my room

I thought I felt
Your lips on mine

I thought I heard you
Whisper...
       Something....
That’s forever lost in time

Cause as always
I was too busy
Writing everything down.

Our love is easy...
          Like kisses over scars.

As flames of love begin to fade
I realize you mimic someone that I used to know...
        
              Whom now, I don’t remember.

Every cut,
     every fall,
          has lead me to this moment.

And I think...
        I’m ready to finally meet you.

The game you play is so **** sweet
Telling me you miss when you see me
The way you get on top and kiss me
Oh my god the way you lick and bite
The way you moan when I grab your thighs
Flip you over and kiss your lips
The lips between your hips
Flip and roll my tongue across your body
Lick your perfect ******* and kiss your neck
Work my way to nibble on your earlobe
Whisper that “I need you”
This is heaven, surrounded by the flames of hell
Only we know that it’s the sweetest place to be
This night is young
Gonna take my time and do it right
Rediscover your entire body
Burning into memory every moment of tonight
I can do it slow or I can do it fast
Close your eyes and let your body speak
Tell me if you want it soft or do you want it hard
Here, right here my dear
I’m gonna make you fall in love
Just remember that it’s our last time.

Rose petals on the floor
Rose petals on the bed
Your piercing eye and skintight dress
Music playing
Mind racing as you pull me in
Falling deeper into lustful thoughts  

Push me off
Turn the music up
Play it slow

Your hips bent and your *** shook
Your body twists and turns to the rhythm of this ******* song
Got me sweating at this privet show

Witness to your beauty
Victim to my lust
Feel no pity in our hearts
Reality is morphing into fruition of our thoughts...

Bite your lip and lick your neck....
        
         Take our time and do it right...
    
Want us laughing through the night

Cause we both know that in the end we gonna break each other’s hearts.

Laughter resonating through the night
In the darkest your lips searching finding mine
Time is slipping as we spend another night

You look at me as the water begins to wash me of your skin
Tear filled eyes as you look away
And we both know that what you feel for me just isn’t right within

One word will forever resonate within my mind
As you walked out the door, I know that it was not a lie
This time you truly meant it when you said “Goodbye”.

**** girl you act calm and say I'm crazy, yet I can see through your eyes that your mind is racing. You take another sip and play it cool, asking why all I do is ****, acting like everything about my life you already knew. Baby hold up, don't be judging, I know I've been on single seine sense 2000 and 6 And it ain't easy to just stop it, but baby you know I'm down to try it too. Try me, you never know, I might love coming home to you. Loving every night, talking problems through, laughing while holding your hand through any ******* too. And everything I'm telling you is so **** true but baby till love happens, remember... I get lonely too.

Even a falling start...
                  Shines brightly.

From a dream I wake
Where in I dreamt of you
Even thought we probably never meet
And we will never truly speak
              Know
                      That
I already miss you.

I can feel your heart bleeding,
Through our one connected soul.
I can feel the hurt I caused it,
Through the nights we spend alone.
I can feel the love you’re hiding,
Through the truth I feel from you.  
I can sense the pain can be subsided,
Through the love I feel for you.