Succumbing to ghosts of lustful past
Knowing that my soul will be the price
Falling further into beauty of our chaos

Baby, I love the way you take it slow
You are the angel at my door and
The devil within me, taking all control

We both know how this will end
Yet, we push on; falling victim to our past
Lonely ghosts reappearing on algid night.

I can see that look in your eyes
Bitting your lips
Confusing passion for lust.
Surrounded by havoc,
In a storm of
Secrets and lies.

I’ll keep all of your secrets,
You know all of my lies.
Caught in a storm
Havoc of
Secrets and lies.

I love the way you lie
Saying you’d kiss and lick
All of my scars
The ones underneath my skin
Across my heart.
Surrounded by
Havoc of
Secrets and lies.

Consuming your body,
In flickering light.
Succumbing to passion,
Falling in love.
Stuck with no answer
In a ghostly goodbye.
Surrounded by havoc
In a storm of
Secrets and lies.

Girl I know I’m not the only one you see
And I don’t care
Cause I do the same
I’ll let you close your eyes and
Through me you can make love to him
I can blow the candles out and
Turn up your favorite song
Because I don’t wanna see or hear the
Dying beating of your heart

Now tell me baby...

Do you want it darker still?

You offered me your heart
Long before I even realized it
Light years before I understood
What that even meant

I was blind to it’s beauty
Blind to it’s heat
You carried it so open
Yet I didn’t hear it’s beat

Bare, you laid it on my bed
Where in I laid with you
I felt it beat between us
Yet I didn’t see the truth

I fought against your passion
I was hiding from your love
And
Then
I watched you sleeping

      I knew I was in love with you...

Lusting for the skies above
Like a bird I yearn to fly
Close my eyes and feel the gust
Take the leap and hope to rise

Sky of blue within my grasp
On a cusp of taking flight
I could fall but I don’t care
Freedom of my soul the wind shall bear.

Time had passed, you started to realize that
We can’t change the past
Present moment **** the future we could have had
You say you’re happy with another
Acting like I’m the one who pushed you out the door
Like I’m the one who killed our present by stepping on your soul
Justifying that I’m the reason that you are gone
Yet, miss me when you are home alone

Baby we both know that I lacked the
words to make you stay
Cause you are the one who chose to go
If my action did not show you how I felt
My words could never change your mind
I care too much to make you stay in a place that might have caused you pain
So I release your love and promises you made.

A glass of wine.
           A kiss.
                
                And then it’s time to go.

I can play this game with you
Tell you all about the things I do
How my mind runs through wild thoughts
About the night of crazy lust
If you close your pretty eyes
You can feel it through the night
How I kiss you deep and soft
Lay you down and take control
Body shiver at my touch
Tearing clothes without a thought
Grab your hips and kiss your neck
Lick your lips and taste your soul
In a candle light - we toss and turn
Shadows dancing on a wall
Kiss my lips and **** my tongue
Feel the rhythm of your love
Kiss you sweet and lick you slow
Taste your passion
Won’t let go
Mouth to ******* and ******* too
Bite you gentle
Grip you firm
Between your thighs is where I want to be
Push and pull, succumbing to our lust
Bodies twisting - turning into one
Gonna make you shake and moan
Everything you need and want
Trust, I’ll be the one to give it all...

I realize that I miss your friendship on
A level of which I never knew before.
In the way we spent all day just talking
About things that mean something to only me and you.
As you worked all night, so you texted till I passed out.
As I woke, I’d texted you till you passed out too.
You were a true friend who didn’t need me to always reach out first cause you were true.
And I know why we had to say goodbye
Cause we were morphing into tragic story
Of wanting something we couldn’t have.
I know you’ll see this, know that what I feel is love; on a level of true friendship.
Never wanted to end like this, and I don’t want you reach out to say you miss me too, cause I know you do.
Just to say goodbye again.
In a world full of fake, know you were true and I love your spirit and miss your soul.

You asked me for an answer,
But the question was all wrong.
You were looking for confessor,
Just to validate your thoughts.

The truth has never mattered,
It mattered not to you.
You heard me speak it daily,
Yet you felt we were untrue.

You thought I was a cheater,
Always searching for the next.
Never seeing all the changes
I gladly made for you.

For you my heart is open,
There’s still our love with in.
I never chased another,
Because I WAS in love with you.

I know you’ll never know this
I shiver at this thought.
You are The One I wanted,
      I’m STILL in love with you.

I’m good when I play the lovers game
Like a Devil in disguise
Hazel eyes and my coy smile
Got you falling into fire
Choking on miasma of our lust
Heart is pounding with delight
Got you thinking that this might last
We just met but you already lost
Draw you in and drink you up
Taste your lips and feel your warmth
You fall deeper into world of my past
Eyes convey the coldness of my heart
As you straggle to keep me warm
Now you know
I’m not there to catch you as you fall
Your love becomes the payment and the
price
As we both return to burn in Devil’s Paradise...

Staring at you through a glass of
My self-inflicted barrier of thought
No matter what I say or do the
Message isn’t getting through

“Darling can’t you sense the pain of
  cuts upon your blood-soaked hands as
  you’re trying to assemble the pieces of
                            my shattered heart....”

Lips upon my tear-soaked eyes
As we spend our final night
Knowing that your tenet won’t come true
As I watch you struggle through affliction

“How can you try to mend it in the dark,
         specially when someone else has        
                     stolen some of it’s parts...”

You came and went like a shooting star, leaving no trail
      except a scar.

Never thought I’d see you
Never thought I would like this
You bared your body by
Sending me your naked pics

You showed your soul to total stranger
And covered me in bliss
It’s a shame I never got to touch you
I never got that kiss

I know I come across as crazy
It’s funny, so do you
With plans that we make often
Will never be the truth

Never thought I’d meet you
Never really did
But seeing you so naked
It really got me shook

I hope you one day know this
To me you meant much more
Your body I’ve always wanted second
Your soul was always first.

Why would I ever hurt you with lies...
    
         When the truth is already killing you.

Oh what a man to do,
When his lost in a thought of you?
Heart is loaning for an answer,
Yet, the mind knows it will never come.
With every breath my chest is caving,
Cause for you my heart is aching.
Oh what a man to do,
When all he wants to do
      is heal the pain he caused you...

Had to be years,
Since I’ve seen your face.
Had to be crazy ,
To meet you this way.
Had to take pills,
Just to numb the pain.
You had to be lonely,
To call on my name.