I'm jealous of who you used to kiss,
Wonder how many you've been with
I'm jealous of who you might look at,
When I'm not there with you...

I'm jealous you'll see,
That I'm not good enough for you,
I'm not even good enough for me...
Maybe you'll then leave me,
Alone and broken in half...

I'm jealous of everyone I find better than me,
Scared I'll never even compare
I'm jealous of girls with confidence,
Something I've lacked from the start
I'm jealous of those fearless girls,
Because I'm filled up with fear
I'm jealous of their success,
Because I'm still way behind,
Where I really want to be...

I don't hate them for it,
I believe they deserve all the good they can get

I'm not jealous and hateful,
I'm jealous and sad,
Jealous and scared,
Jealous and hopeless
Jealous of the life I want,
That I'm so far from
Jealous of it all,
But still stuck to the ground
Jealous and jealous
I'm simply jealous...

Will I ever be pleased?
Will I ever be proud?
Will I ever get my success?

How many beautiful girls does it take to **** a man?
Just one.
Just one heartbreak.
Just one lie.
Just one night.
Just one look.
Just one touch.
Just one hug.
Just one kiss.
Just one love.
Just one heart.
Just one soul.
Just one girl.
Just one.

I don't care about anyone,
or anything
You keep me safe and sound,
bring me joy and laughter

I like us better in private,
just being myself with you,
fulfills me
No worries,
no need to be scared

Just us two, no interruptions
So secure,
perfect as can be,
could stay like this forever,
no doubt in my mind

This moment,
right here,
right now,
no pain,
just love

It's all nonsense,
But it's still my thoughts
It's all selfdestructive,
But it's still in my mind
It's all sad,
But it's still a part of me
It's all I feel,
But it's also all I know...

You can try to run,
You can try to hide,
You can try to get liberated,
But it will only be in vain...

We will all die,
An inescapable fact,
Let's make the most of it,
While we're still alive...

Even if I feel dead,
I haven't yet died,
I'll carry on searching

I won't hold my breath and die,
I'll continue to keep myself alive...

I'm mad I bothered,
and I'm sorry I tried,
today I might leave you,
fallen behind.

I'm tired of smiling,
when you don't give a ****,
I'm sorry for caring,
when you never did at all

I'm done with being stamped on,
harder each time,
Your nest isn't safe...
It never was

Every second of the day,
my heart is still breaking
I'm leaving to save myself,
the small remains of my soul.

If I asked you to come with me,
travel overseas,
to a place where we could be who we wanted to be

where nobody put us down,
nobody told us "You can't make it,
be realistic,
and stop acting silly."

we could kiss all day,
make love all night,
be young,
and be free,
like fish in the sea

if I told you nobody could part us,
nobody could hurt us,
we could be ourselves,
nothing to be blamed

you could live your dreams,
and be with me,
how would it be?

If I told you "Let's go",
Would you take my hand,
come with me,
into this world...
For all eternity?

Let's go, my love

Life is just something temporary,
it doesn't last forever,
sometimes you might want it to be,
but other times that's the last thing you want.

Life is a strange thing,
and everyone that participates,
are in the same game as you,
some win, some lose and some never get to play.

Life can be unbearable,
other times extremely bearable,
filled with joy, happiness and laughter,
but it can fast change to anger, sadness and tears.

Life is uncontrollable,
when it comes to when it starts,
and when it ends.
Other than that,
you can control more than you think...

Hey there,  
the loneliness is here
It’s taking over my every breath
Till the point that I can’t breathe
No breathing in and out
Just existing
Living
While I’m choking on my last breath
Anytime it can stop
Anytime it can disappear
I can disappear
My heart can stop
Just like my soul already did
It stopped the moment you walked away
The second you left
The way it felt
It died
Just like the rest
Everything that’s beating in my chest
Nothing left
But loneliness
Loneliness survived
It just continues to climb
From top to toe, it fills my insides
The agenda is clear
To take over everything I am and everything I’ve been,
Wipe me away till loneliness is mine

I look outside,
See all the things that I'm missing,
I feel empty,
Too scared to still make the change,
I follow the same old pattern,
The pattern that kills me,
While I'm still breathing,
I'm choking myself slowly,
It's like a disease,
I'm supposed to live,
But I've given up,
Given up in slowmotion.

I have lost direction,
In every aspect of life,
In every part of my being,
My soul,
My heart,
My will.

I have lost it all trying to please
Everyone else but me,
Trying to do what they want from me,
And not what I want for me.

I'm sick of playing games,
But it's hard to say game over,
When you don't know whether you win or you lose.
It's a 50/50 chance,
All or nothing,
The scariest of them all.

I have lost direction trying to keep myself from the fall,
I have lost direction trying to stay safe from the storm,
I have lost direction living for other beings than me,
I have lost direction by not being me.

Her soul is captured by the devil,
Her mind as dark as the night,
But her eyes they light up so bright,
Shine like the stars of the night,
They look so nice,
Like an angel in disguise.

She speaks with such terror,
But she looks innocent and pure,
Her smile is heroic,
Compared to every other smile I adored,
Guys fall like flies,
Whenever and wherever she walks by.

She'll have you in her nest,
Trick you like the rest,
You'll never know,
The beautiful sight has blinded your eyes,
And made you lose your mind.

Do you want to know me?
The real me
Can you see my soul?
Do you have what it takes to handle me unwrapped?

Will you see beyond my scars?
Will you love me regardless?
May I give you my all without being crushed?
May I bare myself at your feet?

If not...
Just go,
Leave me alone and move on
My heart has been through enough disappointment,
To last an entire lifetime on it's own...

Does love even exist?
I wonder...
Betrayal, lies, romance that never lasts,
and when it does...
Is it real or is it just convenience?
I question love's existence.

I want a city that always breathes,
Never sleeps
I want dancing all night long,
To be wild and ***** too

I want singing all day,
I want something new

Make me feel alive
Make me smile
Make me laugh
******* and make me glow

Endless nights,
Endless fun,
Endless kink,
Endless life

My heart longs for excitement,
I'm too young to settle down,
Watch out,
I'm simply untamable now...

I want a city that always breathes,
Never sleeps
I want dancing all night long,
To be wild and ***** too

I want singing all day,
I want something new

Make me feel alive
Make me smile
Make me laugh
******* and make me glow

Endless nights,
Endless fun,
Endless kink,
Endless life

My heart longs for excitement,
I'm too young to settle down,
Watch out,
I'm simply untamable now...

Some days nothing is right,
everything is wrong,
I don't even belong,
anywhere at all.

I've had many of those days,
so used with the frustration and pain,
confused of all the different emotions
that runs through my brain.

I long for the days,
when smile and laughter fills every second of the hour,
I forget everything that's wrong,
because you make everything alright.

You are filling every empty hole,
of my every being,
patching them up,
and giving me meaning.

The world makes me mad

Everything makes me mad,
You make me mad,
Everybody else makes me mad,
I make myself mad

Time makes me mad,
There's too little of it
Chores and obligations makes me mad,
There's too much of it

Life makes me mad,
You got things set up right in front of you,
But it's hard to change course from normality

This all makes me mad,
So I'm basically wasting my time being mad,
Leaving no time left to make myself happy...

Isn't it sad?
And you know what?
That makes me more mad than anything else...

Everywhere I go,
I see mindless people,
Everytime I listen,
I hear mindless voices,
Everytime I look around,
I see mindless behaviour,
Everytime I close my eyes,
I dream mindless dreams.

This world is filled with mindlessness,
is it ever going to change?

Just come here,
come here and break my spirit,
push me to the ground,
step on me while you're at it,
I know you'll love it, Mr. Evil, you'll love it.

Spit on my face and make me feel worthless,
isn't that your hobby and your passion?
You crush my happiness into bits and pieces,
you kiss me just to bite me,
you **** me just to hurt me.

Mr. Evil is pure evil,
he loves to give me a beating,
he hides in my closet and comes out at night,
to first wipe my tears but then to make me cry.

It's a vicious circle where he gives,
then takes,
takes it all away,
more than he gave,
I'm left with nothing,
nothing but more pain.

This is Mr.Evil's game and I don't really want to play.

The music's inside me,
It makes me want to move,
To dance,
To smile,
To live,
To laugh,
To never give up

I sometimes lose it when I'm down
Completely
Maybe even for a long time
But never completely
Because it's within me
It's programmed
It's destined
It's me

The music's inside me,
The biggest part of me,
It's untouchable,
It can never die,
Even when I feel like it,
It brings me back to life,
Makes me breathe,
Gives me hope,
Gives me love

When I can't seem to find myself,
I find myself in music

My compilation of confusion
I don’t know anything anymore,
I’ve lost myself in a life filled with faces,
unknown traces
I’m all around the place….
My heart is hidden, my soul is crushed and my eyes are closed,
My mind is confused of all these unknown feelings and wanting’s…
Who am I? What do I do? Who are you? Do I love you?
I don’t even know if I like you… let alone myself.

I’m lost in a place filled with time,
Just too little of it
I only see the obstacles and not the opportunities…
I feel like a failure, how can I achieve anything?
You can achieve, but I can’t
Too afraid to try, too afraid to fly, too afraid to live,
At the same time afraid to die,
What does this mean?

Nothing makes sense,
We people just walk around here doing what society tells us to do,
I don’t feel happiness, I only feel emptiness and anger
Where is the justice? Little kids are starving and dying,
While we starve to be beautiful
Looks are everything, brains mean nothing
You dress to impress, not to be warm

Sometimes I wish everything could change,
I don’t know to what,
But to something else,
Something better.
Why make things so complicated…
Don’t we have the resources to help?
The resources to change the ways of the world,
What society finds important,
And how people interact?
I just give up, like I always do,
Give up on everything and myself,
But most of all…
I just give up on mankind.

Don't be so ******* yourself, little girl
You're only human
I know life is tough,
and you feel hopeless and alone
But remember I'm right here by your side,
holding your hand and keeping you warm
Please,
darling please,
never give up.

Stop looking around,
comparing yourself to everyone you find,
stop thinking you'd be better off as someone else,
when you are unique, beautiful and smart.
Please,
darling please,
love yourself.

Don't look back and always regret,
look forward with hope,
enjoy the ride,
and learn while you can
Please,
darling please,
don't be hindered by your past.

When your heart is crushed,
you're filled with pain
and tears fall down as you'll never win
Please,
darling please,
don't close the door on loving again.

Your dreams are there to be followed,
I'll always encourage you,
Don't let them just be dreams,
be true to yourself,
if you can dream it you can do it
I'll always have your back,
especially when you don't have your own
Please,
darling pleace,
go after your dreams with all that you have

When you're insecure and scared,
need guidance to find your way,
remember what I've told you,
remember that I'm there,
I'll never let you be alone
Please,
darling please,
remember that your mother is there

I'll love you from your birth till my grave,
and beyond that.
I'll cherish our moments and give you the best that I can.
I wish for you the best and all the happiness,
I look forward to meeting you one beautiful day.
I'll always love you, I've loved you even before you were born.

With love from your future mother <3

I'm just laying here
In the darkness I've created for myself
To feel something
But I end up feeling lost
It's what I always do
I shut the sun and the day out
Wait for the night to come
So I can get out of my cave
And finally feel something
Peace and clarity
This is where I belong
No big crowd, no people
Just me and my thoughts
Less stress, less anxiety, more calming
But never entirely
Is this how it feels to be doomed?
Have I created my own undoing?
Or am I just sentenced to it?
God only knows

You can take everything away from me,
But not my words,
My words are mine,
and only mine to keep

I can write, I can sing, I can dance
You can try to break my soul,
But you can't take it away from me

I'm still breathing,
I'm still in the game,
You haven't made me lose yet

I have a willpower within,
That will always overcome your hatred
My words make me win over you,
Because they're filled with my soul

You don't own a soul,
So you're words will never matter
You will always lose,
Over me,
And everything,
And everyone else
It's called karma for a reason...

I guess it's true what they say
"You reap what you sow"

My worn out eyes
stare through the crowd
no joy to be found

My worn out eyes
cry tears at night
nothing but pain around

My worn out eyes
are tired and dead
how they still stay up  
is a mystery unresolved

My worn out eyes
are just worn out eyes
nothing more
nothing less
just worn out.

I'm writing a poem now,
a poem I have yet to decide the meaning of,
I just wanted to write,
so I'm writing.

Does it always have to make sense?
Do I have to have something to say,
or can I just say nothing while I say something?

Life is filled with meaninglessness,
so if I write something with no meaning,
I'm just contributing to an existing factor,
that nothing really makes sense,
life doesn't,
my poem doesn't,
you don't,
noone does.

See what I did there?
I actually gave my poem a meaning,
by saying that nothing means anything,
so I also gave it a depressing meaning,
which is sad,
but life is sad sometimes,
actually all the time,
it's always sad for someone,
even when it's not sad for you.

I'm just rambling,
because I love to ramble,
I love to write,
and love writing nonsense.

Writing nonsense is better
than not writing at all, my friend.
But you ain't really my friend,
I don't even know you
and I don't know if I want to,
I don't know who you are or what you stand for,
I just know you're reading my poem.

Even if it intended to have no meaning at all, I hope it gave you meaning after all.

I wanted to be like everyone else,
So I partied to fit in,
Drank to interact with you,
Lost myself trying to find you,
Truth is I don't want you,
Don't need any of you,
You give me nothing...
Nothing but headaches and mistakes

The laughter fades as the time passes,
The time from the last drink,
Without the alcohol it's not the same,
It never is...
Talk gets more serious, more depressed,
More distant,
It's all an illusion

I used to want to be like everyone else,
Feel normal,
Popular,
Liked,
Now I don't care,
It's not me,
I want people who like me for me,
Not who I used to be,
Who they want me to be,
I'm not like you,
I'm like me.

My actions may not make sense to you,
my thoughts may disturb you.
Just because I'm a little crazy,
doesn't mean I'm psychotic.

I don't eat pills for breakfast,
or have trouble controlling myself.
I simply am who I am,
there's not more to it than that.

I am not mental,
just because I'm not like you.
I'm not stupid,
just because I don't think like you.

I'd rather be special, unique and strange,
than be a puppet on a string,
like everyone else...

I'm sitting here,
On a bench,
Contemplating my whole life,
Same place I've always been

I'm still young,
But I feel old,
So my age doesn't matter

Hurtful,
Yet beautiful
Sad,
Yet happy
Lost,
Yet found

But this isn't where I belong,
No matter what,
I live for the city,
For the late nights,
New exciting people,
Singing on a stage,
Dancing on the floor,
Smiling to the fullest,
Living for the moment...

This is the same old,
I want to feel brand new,
See beauty,
And live truly

I'm simply left on the bench...

If I was at the outside looking in,
I would see that this is a sin,
I'm not true to myself,
just true to everyone else.

The clock is ticking away,
as I'm wasting my life day after day,
scared to state my opinion,
open my mind
and fly to the sky.

It's painful to breathe,
It hurts to see,
My heart just bleeds,
It's a simple deed,
All I don't need...

It's all I know,
I always feel low,
I guess it show,
That I never glow...

I want to shine bright,
Reflect the light,
Of the stars in the night,
Feel so right...

As I sit naked on the kitchen floor
I want you to paint me,
paint my body blue,
because that's all I am,
without you.

People like you
Have left me insecure,
Reluctant,
Scared,
Mad,
Worried,
Empty,
Sad,
Crushed

B­ut does it really make you better?
Happier?
Tougher?
Fulfilled?
Lucky?
Carefree?

I bet it doesn't,
So what's the point?
Why crush an innocent soul
For a minute of superiority?
It fades away as fast as your own happiness,
But the scar you give away never fades
It stays put forever,
Never forgotten,
Never fully healed,
Always a reminder,
Always a weak spot.

People like you,
Never think,
Just act...
People like you,
Took away my smile,
Brought me to tears every night,
Did it ever cross your mind that your words ****?
**** every little ounce of joy that was left
Kills it all
Do you love to watch me die in silence?
You know I'll never scream
I won't even whisper

The truth is,
You probably never knew,
Never realized,
Never saw the hell you put me through
You couldn't see past your own pain
You just murdered a little girl

You murdered her shot at a normal life,
Confidence,
Thought pattern,
Ability to trust,
To love,
To feel,
To listen to herself
Did you forget?
Do you even know?

It's still imprinted within me,
In every inch of me,
From head to toe,
I'll never forget...
What hurts the most,
Is that you've probably forgotten,
You probably never gave me a second thought,
While it's with me year after year,
Isn't it clear?

A young girl,
And you made her dead,
Before she even started to live...

As I sit here and stare into nothingness,
I feel your warmth beside me,
Even if you're not here,
Even if you might not exist,
I feel your presence and it calms me down.
Your chest against mine,
my hands around your waist,
my lips on your lips,
and my heart intertwined with yours.
I may never have the pleasure to meet you,
I may never deserve to greet you,
but in my mind I can create my own faith,
and my faith lays with you, my princess in distress.
I want to help you mend,
give you time to heal,
and make you smile from the moment you wake till you fall sound asleep.
You're my everything, but I might always get nothing.
You're my dream, but dreams don't always come true.
You may not wait for me, I can't expect you too either
It might be too late, it might be my faulth.

When it's rough,
times are tough,
you keep on going,
no matter who,
no matter what,
that stands in your way,
you don't complain,
you push through,
you persevere,
you win.

Let's be real
Does that mean you really want to?
To know my deepest thoughts?
See my pain?
Feel my fear?
Are you even aware?
Let's be clear

The realization has comed for me,
For I have not been true,
I've been untrue and selfish,
Stupid and impatient,
Wasting hour after hour,
Simply to pass time,
Instead of being warm, nice and honest,
I've been a ******* drinking for hours

I've acted like a loose cannon,
Ashamed of my actions,
I realized the real reality for me,
To work for my dreams,
Listen to my gut,
And be true to my heart

I'm a sad, sad humanbeing
Wandering in the night
I'm not lost, I'm finding myself
In the forrest, in the wild, all alone
This is where I feel known

As I walked down the same road
I've walked a thousand times
Small town,
I have dreams, never seem to get out
I realized the stupidity of what I was doing
I'm avoiding life because I'm scared of living,
Not being true to myself,
In fear of failing as me
Insignificant people decide my destiny,
Their opinions are valued over my own

This is the road to hell
To selfhatred, regrets and pain
I always wind up ******* things up for myself,
Instead of listening to my gut,
Which I know have all the answers,
I'm just a coward

As I look at the beautiful sunset,
I know the truth is within me,
The power inside me
And the strength with me

I have to change,
Break the pattern,
I've said it from the beginning,
But I never seem to begin
Will I begin now or forever hide in despair?

It's killing me before my time,
I want to live,
But it's like I'm frozen,
Unmovable,
The same place as always,
In hell,
When my soul is made for heaven

Could it be worse?
It actually is,
Because the reason I'm in hell,
Is because I've put myself there,
And it's like the fear screams to me:
"You'll never make it",
"You're not worth it",
"You're stupid"
"You're ugly"
"Why are you even thinking about it?"
It silences me, keeps me stuck
My thoughts are the root of all the evilness
I'm putting myself through

I need to fight through all the sadness
And embrace my madness
The future is in my hands
Will I let it slip through,
or will I grab it by the hands and make it greet me?
It's up to me

Will my fear get the best of me,
Or will my best shine through?

Oh my, noone ever told me it would be this hard...
To be so in touch with your emotions,
Right from wrong,
But still choosing to do wrong.
Is it the selfish gene taking over,
Or is it the fear of the unknown?
Am I too caught up in the safety of this home,
To break through and be on my own?

I'm not perfect,
I know I'll never be.
I still strive for perfection,
Something I'll never have.

Society wants perfection,
Even when it says it doesn't.
Just look at ads,
Movies,
Even vegetables have to look good,
For stores to sell them.

How can anyone or anything ever be good enough when held up against something unachievable?
Something not even the seemingly perfect people have or are,
Something we all know is impossible,
But we have heard that everything is possible,
So some of us never give up,
It will never make us happy
And it will never happen.

The only way is to accept imperfections,
Accept not being perfect,
Accept being you,
Accept being different
And accept life as it is.

I'm not saying give up on your dreams,
I'm saying don't make yourself something you're not,
this ideal that you have in your head that is unattainable,
this person that's so perfect that moving towards it becomes an obsession and addiction towards unhappiness, low selfesteem, depression and never feeling good enough no matter what you do or how hard you try.

I know it's cliche, but love yourself!

Sometimes when I'm all alone,
I listen to my favourite song,
I close my eyes,
I get lost inside,
Inside my mind,
Inside my fantasies,
Inside my dreams.

I feel safe there,
It's my safe place.

In my safe place,
I find hope,
I restore my energy,
I patch my all so broken heart,
I find peace,
I smile,
I'm happy,
I'm myself...

Then reality kicks in,
Troubles,
Stress and worries,
Toxic people and environments,
Hopelessness,
Loss of faith,
Discouragment,
Sadness,
Hatred and guilt.

Guilt of everything I want to do,
But never do.
Everything I feel,
But never show.
Everything I dream for,
But never reach for.
Everything that's me,
That I suppress.
Everything I like,
That I replace.

All that I am,
Is living a lie,
Trying to get by,
Like everyone else,
Just to survive,
But never to live,
Because I'm afraid,
Of the thrill.

But more than all,
I am afraid of you,
Your judgement,
And your hatred.
You scare me more than a life not mine.
You scare me so much my life is yours.

That's the saddest part,
All my life I have been wanting to break out of my shell,
And all my life you are the one who keeps me inside it.
I let you control me,
When I should be controlling myself.
I let you decide my destiny,
Because I'm afraid to fight back.
You are my biggest fear of them all.
It's you I hate and you I have to impress.

I want to break free and just be me.
See what I can be,
Control my own destiny.
I'm lost within my own chains,
In my own selfmade prison,
I let you imprison me,
Because I'm too afraid to try.
Someone set me free,
Someone show me how.

What is my life worth if it's not lived?
What is my life worth if my soul's already dead?
What is my life worth if it's not owned by me?
What is my life worth when I don't let myself be free?

I need to set myself free.
Help me set myself free.

Her lips looked like something I would kiss,
Her hips swayed like something I would hold,
Hold my hands around real tight,
Because her body seemed to want me close,
For me to grind up to her to make her make a noise.

I could see it in her eyes as she looked into mine,
She didn't want anything more than her body on mine,
My body on hers,
Our bodies nicely wrapped around eachother,
In love, pleasure and pain.
It was not just a game,
It was love disguised underneath ****** lust,
It was trust disguised under not knowing eachother much,
It was compassion disguised under playing it rough,
It was three words hidden underneath sealed lips and ashamed ******.

She was raw beauty, and a lot more.
She was something the saints should adore.

Drowns your happiness
Brings your energy level down to zero
With one hit
They got you in their cave
Won't unleash you as long as they get their way
You struggle to be free
But are to blind to see
That your love is the one who holds you captive
Such a shame
Filled with sorrow and grief
Your love got you lost in a losing game
Impossible to win, the sole purpose is defeat
You still hold on cause you're brainwashed to the core
In desperate need of a revelation,
You search in the wrong places,
Mingling with the wrong faces
You end up alone when there are people around
And the one that was supposed to have your back
Turn their back on you
It's the inedible truth of sociopathic love

I could stare at you forever,
Your hair,
Your lips,
Your eyes,
Your style,
Your beauty,
Your everything,
And you're everything to me.

"Is the stress taking over my body?"
Only question on my mind...
as my body feels heavy and shaky,
as my head hurts and is filled with worries,
as my fingers tremble and my eyes flicker

"Is it possible to calm myself down?"
One question I struggle to answer...
as I try to think positive thoughts,
as I try to smile and be happy,
as I try to do my daily tasks,
I'm still feeling like **** inside...

It's like the chaos inside me never extinguish itself,
I'm left to deal with the flames it creates,
I feel too weak to put up a fight,
I don't have enough strength left...

I guess stress is taking over for real,
This time...

I care,
But sometimes I wish I didn't...
I wish I didn't know how cruel the world is,
But I do.
The more I know,
The more I hate people around me,
Hate on people who don't even try to understand,
To see,
To care,
But I also envy them,
I remember how much easier being selfish is,
When you simply do not know better...

Can I proceed perfectly, both empathically and practically?
Am I too weak?
Too selfish to surrender to my ethics and moral?
Will my life be better if I suppress what I've learned, ignore my inner voice and follow blindly the path ahead, no extra thoughts or worries?
Just living, simply being, following instincts that's been taught upon us,
Because that's how it's meant to be,
Even when it feels as ****** up as can be,
When everything inside you screams it's wrong,
But your selfish mind pulls you in,
Convinces you to continue to sin,
It's like you'll never win,
Because what's comfortable is safe,
What's safe is comfortable,
So you try to forget as good as you can,
To continue to live for you,
Not for them.

I'm simply suffocating,
Still breathing,
But suffocating.

I'm simply stuck,
Still moving,
But stuck.

I'm simply crying,
Still smiling,
But crying.

I'm simply dead,
Still alive,
But dead.

There he stands...
So tall, so beautiful
With nothing but his hat,
and his voice
I get goosebumps from the magic
of his singing
My hands tremble of the nervousness
of him not noticing me
the way I notice him
I just want him so badly,
need his kiss to calm my mind,
from all the lustful thoughts
that just keep on comin'
as he keep on singin'

I wish to be there
and sing side by side,
Our voice connecting
as our hearts find each other

We could belong,
we could be one...

The nights are mine
Nothing can change that
Peace, quiet and serenity
I’m alive, I can breathe
I can see clearly because
the darkness comes and the light fades.

The nights are mine,
And I never feel better
While you sleep, I live to the fullest
I smile, I laugh, I create, I learn
After a long day, I can finally relax.
Not be judged. Just be. Be me.

The nights are mine
Nobody owns me,
I’m by myself,
Running my own show,
Just letting my creativity flow,
And my intellect grow.