Sometimes I wonder what happened
I wonder how that door opened
Why you left us when we needed you most
I wonder if my muse is actually your Ghost

Sometimes I wonder how you feel out there
Do you return to see us, do you dare?
Do you know sad movies renew my memory?
Do you know missing your funeral was misery?

Sometimes I wonder why you left us early
Wonder why death was such surly
I wonder how you feel when you look at us
Do you smile or envy us who are still on Earth?

Do you always request to return and say goodbye?
Do you feel like we deserve to know why?
Do you miss our aimless trekking under the sun?
Your expectant babe , do you know she had a son?

I wonder if you feel the burden of the sadness
Do you miss the friendship, the oneness?
Well for me I miss you for you were my bolster
You always helped me fight my monster

Hope you know what your mama's been through
The devastation and the change in your brother too
Hope you keep some space like we did on the line
At least for your loving family if it isn't mine

I thought about you today and failed to sleep
I felt as if lonely in the shadows you creep
Which isn't bad incase you actually do, I too would
If the insensate company did me some good

Can't find the right words to say it was a shocker
I miss our heated arguments about soccer
I know death is a ****** heartless Robber
But hope we meet again my friend..

It's not a thousand miles you should be afraid of,
It's easier to walk those than a mile away from love.
No matter how bad it hurts to stay
it always feels like the best choice on the scale of preference...
Love is the longest distance you'll ever walk,
sometimes even without barging an inch.

Her eyes flutter soon as they sense someone encroaching
Her nose in fear of uncertainty starts running
Like a Dear in sight of a predator approaching
As her hanky is sent up her nose cleaning

I get a closer look at her beautiful *******
Their sudden rise like a volcanic plug
Or cunning waves in an Ocean with gigantic crests
But soon as I’m close enough all she gets is a hug

Then I place my head on hers close enough to her lips
Which tremble probably in fear of the belief all speech is lies
While all through a burning urge to kiss her hard at me nips
Seeing tears of doubt gather clouding the skies of her eyes

Her heart beats too violent for someone of her age
Seems she’s grown to believe for love,pain’s her only wage

Am the sky above and the yonder in space,
a vast universe that won't fit in your case
Am a glowing moon upon your night
you see your shadow beneath my light
Am the Ocean that's deep and vast
I can't be kept away in your pocket
yet again am that tiny seed when buried am cast
to suffocate into blooming Flora that makes life worth it
Am that lonely road you're bound to follow
and find yourself, you're lost, am your campus
am company when you're riding solo
a poignant piece of poetry lying upon a tattered canvas
Am a pregnant cloud hovering the endless skies,
but I'll soon come pouring in soothing patters of rain
cause I know that underneath your gentle sighs
there's a great deal of untold pain...
in your darkest hour, am the last speck of light,
the deem power of faith left in your torch
Am the sun of expectations when you need a ray of hope in sight
and the shed when in need of an escape from scotch
am the flapping sail in perilous currents above  the boat
and no matter the strength of waves I'll keep you afloat...
in the hurricane of your existence, I am the calm
for I am who I am
am air, invisible like nowhere yet anywhere and everywhere
that even when you're deafened by despair
am the wind you hear silently whispering, "I ****** care"!
**I am that and this,
I am love and peace

I didn't reach here by watching where am going,
But by remembering where I have been.
The roads I have walked, the tears cried, the quagmire of
despair I trudged, the waves of ravenous immiseration
the million Heartbreaking incidences trampled
the moments many contemned me and my family...
I have reached here by always realizing the hardship wasn't
all for nothing and that every thorny road was preparing
my feet to go the distance, to walk the extra mile…
Far from the end, but the worst part is over, the jinx is broken,
I can now touch my wallet and smile, I can now dial a handset instead
of walking four miles to make Mama a call... I can now appreciate
every drop of water because I've been to the wells of hell
and lifted the fragile *** of my hopeless reality until here.
It isn't a garden of roses, but even roses have thorns and as long as I keep
the memories of the past, as long as I never forget that
I have seen worse, I will always find challenges easier
than they ought to be after all the load of destiny never gets
lighter, the donkey of our faith just grows stronger. Forgive the
past, but never make a mistake of forgetting the **** you've
been through however pungent the stench of reminiscence maybe.
I am who I am now and I will always try to be better and to want more
Because that’s what God made me for, to dream big and go dream chasing…
I’ve ploughed through the waves and it’s made me a better sailor
Who’s always aware that storms happen but they can be overcome.
Ain’t no need watching where I’m going, just need to know where I’ve been.

I too believes I'll move on someday
Out of this love locked prison
It should have ended yesterday
But it won't till I know the reason

I won't get over the much we shared
I won't forget each and every beautiful song
How the hell can I forget you cared
In those times you swore It's to you I belong

It's obvious it will heal but leave a scar
That will constantly be a caution
To never blindly fall or trust a twinkling star
For when gravity acts earth and not space shall be my cushion

I'm aware I'll get over you with time
But like our, no other poem'll ever rhyme

I hear voices in my head like a call from the dead
I hear a shush in my blood like the rush of a stream
I see colours of darkness echoing my weakness
I see the wind pass by with a quire uniqueness
I feel the pulse of my heart as monsters start
To roam about the twilight zone where I lieth
On the fringes of human existence with courage of Goliath
The reeking smell of sweat as karma runs my way
And mine own as I attempt to evade her though she'll catch up someday
I smell it all like the sweet stench of sewage out a broken pipe
I see an awaiting fate that looks like my type
So I walk now like later isn't about to happen
I walk with strength of the whole though I'm broken
With my eyes everywhere cause destiny might take the shot
I walk like a giant monster in my dreams though I'm short
Like a courageous legendary warrior that I'm not
I walk down my boulevard, closer to the great beyond
I walk stiff smart and steady like I'm James bond

Since you are getting to know me quite well
And to know when I am and when I ain't myself
You're ignoring the signs of a looming hell
And getting tempted to think that with me you're safe
But you better know there's a monstrous side
That lives behind this shining warm moon you see
There're moments when its not me to decide
A time when I lose control over the sails to the storms at sea
I know its starting to feel comfortable for you and I
We are bonding more than I ever thought
And it all seems picture perfect as days go by
That we are meant for each other is one cheap idea you've bought
But the oceans and seas are rough even as you near the shores
I warn you, Love,my dear has never been a smooth course

When I lost her I thought
I had totally lost my radar
now I realize losing her
only made me stronger
Losing her gave me an opportunity
to strive and find a better version of me
to look in the mirror and find the flaws
upon which I drew beautiful lessons...
Losing her taught me how to build walls
when I notice am about to let wolves
into the sanctuary of my Heart
to have my world broken apart
and made me an astute judge at times
to endure the bitter cold of loneliness
than mess about kissing toads
Losing her created a great hole
of incompleteness in the center of
my Heart, and also made one thing clear
the One who would succeed in filling up
that gaping canyon would be worth
the better version I found while
trudging the boulevard of broken dreams
and surviving the waves and storms...
I thought I was totally lost when I lost her
but now I realize, I simply lost her to find me...

is it never
ends... The
wounds
may scar
atop but
the pain
underneath
remains
what those
that we think are healed do's
learn to live with that pain

I always wish we met before your first love
so that I'd have been your deepest incision and your easiest decision
and often hope you learn to love me as much as you loved him
which is half as much as I love you, for I love you to Venus and back...
My affection for you is cosmic, I've seen the universe because I've seen you
you're something of a galactic existence, an extraterrestrial
in a terrestrial world of mice and men, why's and when, nows and then
I'd tripped into the past and you've walked me back to the future...
I'd failed to learn what love really meant, I've finally met my teacher
It's my prayer you be on the final page of my lifestory,
on mother Earth you would be a once upon a time of a happy ending
and even if they say happy endings are stories that aren't finished yet
I think they're a point the twist is beyond the understanding
of the mind behind the canvas and the quill,
beyond the reach of the perilous vivisection of the pen,
am going to love you until that unfathomable point, until half past forever
a quarter a mile beyond eternity, just ahead of happily ever after.
you're the ultimate treasure, this' the hunt that counts, am never saying never...
You're my motivation, you understand what I feel, and that's something
yet it all starts from something and builds to a tale to remember
it all starts from a January and before you know it it's December
it all starts from a spark and makes Ash of what was once an enormous ember...
you're a war I'd fight the universe to win,
a journey of a million miles and ain't about to surrender...
My only regret is I didn't know you when you were younger
so that I would have Loved you longer
in this lifetime, and this bond we share could be stronger...
and my biggest worry's the rest of my life might not be enough
for me to love you in the million ways I believe I can...
My deepest pain is even these words don't really say what I feel...
they're merely a construct my hopeless mind could make
of the turmoil in my heart and soul, for what I feel is more than what my mind can take

They'll tell you to listen to your heart like you have another option...
they'll insist on saying the answer dwells there
even when it's clear your heart is an empty place
with nothing but cracks bearing monstrous crevices
which leak away whatever little sense that finds its way there.
They'll implore you to stretch and strain the
stiff neck of your faith to the chest of the unfathomable,
and listen to the silent pulse of a fate far beyond the touch
of your feeble faith,something even a flexible python of hope can't do,
a thing even the Ostrich of optimism finds searing hurt doing.
They'll implore because they can't understand the depth
of the **** you've been through or smell its odourless pungent stink...
Because they lack the bravery to face your phantom,
to courageously plough through the pitch of the life you've endured,
because they lack the foresight to envision or
the mind's eye to see the invisible distance you have left to chew,
because they can't swallow even one spoonful of the bitter
mound of history you carry along on your journey to an uncertainty
you are not sure you'll reach... an illusive destination.
They'll tell you to listen to your heart because they lack
the ears of empathy to hear the deafening silence of the bangs of your doldrums...
neither do they have the wings to soar through the violent
winds of your despair or feet it takes to walk in your shoes...
they will speak with an orator's eloquence,stuttering
foolish words of wisdom because they are blank of how deep shards
of a broken heart can cut...they will implore you to be a man,
because they know a lot of nothing about being a man
one of which is men don't cry... they haven't been in presence
of the silent sobs of masculinity whose tears are buried
with dead hearts in the tombs of hypocrisy.
You'll hear very many voices for each splinter will speak for itself
but insistently and persistently they'll push you to the edge
of the cliff of your disarray ignorant of the star filled sky billion choices
twinkling on each glistening piece of the mirror like shards of your heart...
This they'll do because that's just what humans have been
channelled off course the river of true humanity to do...
tell you they've got your back so you can confidently
expose yourself to the deepest stub...boost your morales
so that you can stupidly climb to dizzying heights,
tell you they'll catch you only to film you jump to your hardest fall...
they'll promise to help you cleanse your dead just to see
whether you'll frown at their stench,and to curse
and mock in case you spit... they'll tell you that the path out of
your labyrinth is mapped across your heart simply to enjoy
seeing you wonder rudderless in the Sea of discombobulation...
Humans, they'll offer to circumcise you freely just to laugh at you
when you wince at the cruel touch of the blunt knife of their shameless daring...
they'll give you pills so they can mock at the difficulty
their bitterness brings at ingestion...
they'll tell you to listen to your heart like you didn't hear
your own jumbled heartbeat before you opted for their ugly opinions...
they'll say it, enjoying the moment and beautifully...
"your Heart knows it all" like you have another option besides your hurt.
and you will follow not because they said
but because you have no other boulevard to take

When it's your turn to love, even when you know that hearts break
you'll let them fall because that's what it is... a probability, sometimes
it works but sometimes it doesn't, that should not stop you though
embrace it if it's your turn to fall, sometimes it's from our hardest fall
that we find the forever we always fantasised... so fall, fall
when your heart says you should take the leap, fall when it feels right
fall when you see the abyss you trust can hold you in a cyclone of affection
fall when the voice in your head keeps poking you to stop holding back...
Hearts break, but they are the only apparatus that works even when it's
broken, so embrace your turn to fall, fall for those your soul does embrace
after all they say we lose more holding dammed our passions
than we risk losing entrusting the pearl of our hearts with those we love...

For the bridges burnt and the lessons learnt
For seeds of faith watered to blossoming plant
For the days I lived to the moment I died
The truths I said to the few times I lied
The laughs I managed till the moment I cried
For the words I said to the silence I sighed
For the spectrum we shared that suddenly turned grey
The moments I held it together and those I frayed
The time of doubt and when I prayed
For the cowardice when only nothing could be said
For the years of thinking through out the day
When the sky was clear and painted in light
To the moment of darkness, the pitch of night
That I wasn't and even those when I was okay
For the time I was whole and even when I'm shards
the minute I was lonely and was lost for words
when pleasure was watching butterflies and birds
the seconds that mattered but I hadn't the guts
For the moments I was on time and those I delayed
The opportunities exploited and those decayed
when I chose the right path and when I strayed
the chances I took that didn't plus those that paid
the times I matched and those I stayed
when together we toiled,the impossible strategies we laid
for the first kiss till the last,the present and past
and a future without you that's come at last
for the big dreams that kept my eyes open
for those times when you were my token
for the merry shared when you still cared
for the miles we veered, the far we dared
the milestones we succeeded and those we failed
for your freedom and my heart that's jailed
for the songs we sung, with our palms fitted
for those smiles you gave with your head tilted
for the sombre times and when jilted
for the far we reached, doors opened and those bolted
for the endless calls and when they ended
for whoever we lost and whoever we befriended
for the memories we made,now phantoms instead
for the times of calm and when I lost my head
for growing up and losing faith in our fantasies
of crossing oceans and seas,for the courtesies
for those beautiful nights under moonlight and stars
for the wounds and bruises,spotless healed and scars
for what was real and what we were faking
the footprints behind and those we're taking
for the much risked and which we didn't try
for the inadequate strength to say goodbye
for the promises broken, the crazy mission to forever
thank you, and good luck in your each and every endeavour

She says I don't know how the world works
that it isn't all about believing little sparks
she says I don't know what it means to hurt
how difficult it is when love ends,harder than to start
getting detached, uprooting all the passion
is work that could necessitate a mason or ******* a person
she tells me the worst part of it is one wants
the world to understand but all one
may receive are boos and chants
she says loneliness is a road she's trodden
and company an untrustworthy horse she's ridden
that she prefers to be alone than to risk her shards
she knows better to savour silence than trusting words
she says had I arrived a little bit earlier in her life
she could have considered ,had I come before her strife
she says she crumbled enough times before
so doubting is something she can't be sorry for
people are like the tides, she says they call for doubt
for moments come, tides wash in and tides wash out
she says she's tired of being rolled about
she's ensuring she makes decisions that count
no more taking chances or making choices in haste
she says she no longer has a tear to waste
she is in my arms speaking right above my beat
and I am tranquillised as I listen to her bit by bit
wondering if I can have her dark life lit
Despair is deep, could I pull her out that pit
can I change the cacophony in her mind into a euphony
can I synthesise the strings in her heart to make a symphony?
she says every music in her life quickly fades away
that its harmony only lasts hours if a day
they all appear with promise to last a century
but as soon as their feet step her temple, her sanctuary
the build dies from the beat instrument at a time
trombone, trumpet infesting its rhythm and rhyme
she says the world has been a repleted void
that has cost her so much she couldn't avoid
so I choose to listen to her silence not her clamour
and guess what she's saying all along,
once more someone has broken past her armour
and she wants to give it one last shot
What she isn't saying is she's tired of safe,the sure thing boat
she wants to set sail out once again in the stormy sea
maybe going past the storms is the adventure,the view to see
maybe this could be the arrow that hits the mark
her concern is she wants to try out her luck
because she's holding me tight and it feels right
may be this is the dawn that lasts on and on
what she isn't saying is she wants to be my own
cause if she doesn't try she may never find
I grab her firmer on reading her mind
because only I knows how long I've waited
for someone to dance with the never ending song
that's what true love is,I see it in her eyes
that she and I have found a beat that never dies

Fall in the Ocean, don't fall in love
you may forget how drowning felt like
but you simply can't ignore the ache of
a cracked heart or its shards decorating the floor
sharp pieces that you'll step on and wounds reopen
pieces which will clatter from deep within
to echo the despair especially when you're beyond repair
jump off a cliff and fracture, broken bones heal
fractured Hearts seldom truly find healing,it's chilling
when you place support about it but nothing changes
and the more you organise your splintered heart
the further apart it crumbles and breaks apart
fall in Hell, the devils and monsters can be exorcised
but the monsters of a dead romance never leave
they taunt and haunt with voices whispering in your head
and drug you through a living Hell that's eternal
fall in acid, not a single piece of you'll be left behind
love'll rip and have your pieces wandering blind
fall in an abyss or the darkest deepest pit
someone might find you,you'll wash off the ****
but Love'll rob your sanity for it's mind impairing
it'll take away your radars, disorient your bearing
fall from the sky, your entire existence will splatter
falling in love will deny you your esteem and have you stutter
fall off a bicycle, you'll get up,dust yourself and ride
in love you'll live your life like you've died
climb one and jump, there's less pain falling off a tree
unlike the fantasy of love that chains and never sets you free
fall in the Sea, the sharks'll leave nothing for the world to see
love will bewilder you through an endless cyclonic ecstasy
it's worse compared to being once and for all torn by jaws
which takes you to oblivion where lives no feeling of loss
fall for anything else, fall for drugs and addiction
love is a blade that'll never cease making its incision
fall for wines and whiskeys,or any adulterated concoction
my broken heart thinks all but falling in love a far better decision
when you're out there searching for whatever you deserve
embrace all else your heart desires, all else but love

Too afraid to let her know
Too deep to let it go.

I love to try
so I try to love

It's so hard for me to forgive lies...
They caused the winter in my soul...

She was a wild fire, he was burning ice
frozen by the cold flames in her Eyes...
She was a sky, he was a cloud for the rain
always falling for her in a pleasure of pain...
She was a dream that robbed him of sleep
yet an illusive reality he couldn't grasp or keep...
a grape on a loose branch, he never stopped gaping
for he was no fox to start sourgraping...
she was a wave in an Ocean he'd never learn to surf
he was an incomplete circle, she was that better half...
She was his everything, but he said nothing
she lived gracefully, he died to say something
as she was a flying Eagle he'd never ceased to watch
and he was the same old tree hoping someday she'd perch...

I try to convince myself someday things
will return to the way they were when we were close
or something more,maybe hinges and doors
that you will remember how sweet our conversations were
and revert to the sweet girl you were from the stranger you are
sometimes I think someday you'll get less busy
call me up,talk and laugh because it used to be that easy
I look at the clock thinking I might develop some powers
to rewind to the days you meant everything to me and
I meant something to you, even if it's just for hours
sometimes I miss the feel of your palm in my hand
I miss the many times you said no matter what
you would never be too busy to remember me
maybe you meant something else or forgot
I try to believe that you recall everything you said
because you gave me your word, that even if you were dead
we would always matter but I doubt you recall the latter
there are days I go through our messages, the comments
sadly laughing for what were beautiful moments are torments
tempting me to block you so that I forget it all
but I doubt that would erase you from my soul
hard was my fall, I fell for your promises even when I knew they were just camouflaged
gravel that would shatter my existence into smithereens
sometimes I wish I could rob back the heart you stole
or experience amnesia and forget our teenage dreams
but then I wonder if I erased that part of us
what would I say mattered in my accountability for my time on Earth?
I try to think that somehow you still see my like on your photographs
amidst the hundreds you receive like you did when you only had two
a part of me says you see my comments in that traffic
of fans that you now have lining up and cheering your milestones
and a day will come when you will say you did
but you couldn't reply to mine and ignore the hundreds
I tell myself that you still care no matter the deed
that after all how would you have known where the road would lead
while I recite the lines of your reassurance like some creed
but then some lines now sound so artificial and fake
I keep imploring myself not to be moved, not to shake
because someday you will honour your "till the end"
and whilst I count, I place you as my paramount friend
but do you ever think about me while you enjoy your new look?
I'm I still an important character in your book?
do you still watch the stars and whom are you doing it with?
Are the rumours true, that you've resorted to doing ****?
Do you still read and pray prior going to bed?
Do you think about me if not, who's in your head?
It's none of my business for life has given me a sanction
but I hope ours wasn't just a crossroad but a junction
and even if you're far out of sight we're still pals
that's what you'll forever be to me,more precious than pearls

A ‘times your chain's your freedom
Treasured freedom is your prison
You feel you want to hold on
It's the way you choose to move on
Your future could be in the past
Past catching your future rather fast
A dream turned to a nightmare
'Cause it’s **** big it does scare
Here was once your "wish I was there"
Your success was a whisper in a prayer
The uncertainty that kept them guessing
A curse turns out was a disguised blessing
I heard the path could be the obstacle
Hardship passed turns to a spectacle
Heard things that tend to make us cry
In Jan, in a year we laugh about or in July
Worst enemy was once the closest friend
Fighting wars to conceive peace is a trend
I hear every end is just another beginning
The race doesn't end but we are winning
Heart never rests, panic when it stops beating
We blend in trend, trust is for them cheating
Lust took to the stage, nobody applauded love
Those who lack losing the scant to those who have
Life's a death trap, them who care are loathed
The heartless are wrapped in care and clothed
The foolish are philosophical and wise
Probability's certain, no longer roll the dice
It's a game we ignore the rules to win
Since we're more sober after a taste of Gin
Sometimes the end justifies the means
Yet a ‘times the means justify the end

Let me breathe
While my trills are firm
Let me sail
This ocean is seldom calm
Let me travel
Whilst there's mystery to unravel
Let me smile
I won't have these teeth forever
Let me chew cartilage
Toothless they'll be a sacrilege
Let me Love
someday my soul a heart won't have
Let me walk these miles
this strength can't endure till the end
To forever never say never
Let me trust
Whilst I have a friend
Let me flow with the stream
While I still can venture
Let me dream
Youth is a debencher
Let me speak
while the world trusts my tongue
Let me write
This talent is only while I do and young
Let me rhyme
while I have the time
Let me fall
While I still can get up
Let Morpheus call
while I still can wake up
**Let me dance
And shake what'll be but carrion and bones
Let me sing
While I still enjoy these songs
Let me fly
While my hopes still touch the sky
Let me laugh
I know Life can be tough
Let me shout
In the rains, preceding drought
Let me touch
While I still can feel
Live the moments
To make memories none will steal
But mostly let me give glory
For God never tires of writing my story

When you can't rewind the clock nor re-walk the talk
When you can't retouch her heart nor erase it all... the hurt
When you can't order the sun to come again & you're stuck midst storming rain
When you left so much distance between you couldn't re-cable the train
when you can't re-stroll along the boulevard & it aches really bad
when the soul's in need of spring but the melancholy does winter bring
When you can't repaint the art of romance
when you can't ask for another dance
When you're thrown into a trance because you won't get another chance
When the days are pitch black like the dark
When you can't move on yet you can't move back
When your trains gone off the trucks & your once smooth heart's full of cracks
When you're caught up recollecting the shards
but you badly want to eat your words
When you finally realise beans don't taste so bad
neither does swallowing your pride,
when your Mind died soon as your lips lied
When your visage is teary and blurred
When you're thirsty for affection yet can't even attract a single moth of affection  
Because the illumination in your soul's extinguished
When you're so starved & anguished When the romance blooms are painfully consumed by the cankerworms of doubt
When all songs seem sung and all poetry written  
When you're tired of dying inside and want it all out
When you can't even define reasons for your fallout
& you want to manacle your thoughts to stop them from running about
When you're bleeding a lot and nobody cares
when you need to be nursed but nobody dares
For who can nurse a wounded wild beast
Instead of watching it die and have a feast?
When everyone knows you're a heartless lion
And none offers you a warm chest to lie on
When you're forced to pretend that you're fine
because it's impossible to verb the pain
For the ache is beyond what speech can explain
When you're actually dying inside
& you want nobody to know because only nobody understands
When you want to rewind time and rewrite the story
but "That's impossible" says karma, "I'm sorry"
When no amount of liquor can uplift
& loneliness is your nature's daily gift
*When the dawn seems totally gone & you finally realise no body can love you the way she did
Not even she herself... for the affection was so intricate
& so out of the galaxy even she can't replicate
When you wish you would run away from your own memories
For they have burnt your emotional calories
When you're the epitome of melancholy and allegories
Of a perfect story of a love that was promising
When she's the only thing you can't stop reminiscing
That's the day you should ever say you understand how I feel
For you would have tasted a little of the heat in my shoe and burn on my heel

My mother taught me so much but one of the things
she didn't is how to lift my hand and wave or say goodbye
I don't know how to hoodwink the heart by a psychic lie
I was taught so much about treasuring people
and letting them in but nothing about letting go
about turning the back from the life shared
the moments of joy, the torments and the conundrums
I know how to seed friendship in the soils of my soul
but uprooting the attachment is impossible for the pain
I was taught how to smile at friends and to always cry to them
there's nowhere they said sometimes you have to disguise
the melancholy, secrets by only crying in the rain
I know so much about attraction but nothing about repulsion
everything about familiarity and none about expulsion
I don't know how to write those sadly sweet words of farewell
for there is nothing fair about leaving, nor does it feel well
I don't know ******* all the hope inside of a shared future
something about which I was never tutored
the optimism that we can live this close happily ever after
that we can still work out, marry or get married yet still share laughter
from the foolish ****** jokes in the absence of our kids
I loathe the direction to which this road seemingly leads
contrary to the one I envision, one where we still party all night
with a great cohesion that triumphs every argument and fight
I can't get myself to believe that we totally have no control
that the final was probably the last time I watch with my pals ball
or pop bottles and jump sky high to the rhythm of the city night
soaring with flooding passion like an eagle or a kite
I'm never saying goodbye, won't abide by that end
for I want to be the first to beat the odds of the rest of my life
I want to have this family even closer, each and every friend
to party, crack jokes, point out lasses till I find a wife
I want to be the first to say we were not all about class
that's why I'll always treat each one of you carefully like a glass
enough to keep me close to your heart even when continents apart
even when I happen to loudly do a stenchy ****
I want to weave this friendship as intricately as a mat
so that it may never be suffocated by any kind of dirt
so don't bother saying goodbye, don't do that
because I promise, something I seldom do
that each one of you pawpaws and rabbits will always be in my heart
it will never matter where we are or who we become
I'm ready for the sticks of destiny to hit the karma drum
I'm ready for whatever is waiting right ahead
but whatever it is, this friendship will count even after I'm dead
for the love I have for you is deeper than the deepest sea
you're most gorgeous of nature's my eyes will ever see
I'd pluck each of you a star to turn every wound into a scar
if I had the powers, I'd buy each one a chopper or a car
to enable us keep this thing going on till forever wherever that is
otherwise I'd turn around and never look back if it were that easy
I'd quickly write each one of you the best bittersweet poem saying goodbye
if I was certain in the process I wouldn't breakdown and cry
I'm not walking away, only foolish people walk away from family
after all the friendship which took us past the calculus waves
might be the shoulders we need to reach the future each of us craves
I stick to you all...you're a family anyone would wish to have
I choose where my heart is, I stick with the ones I love

Why sing for someone who despises your voice?
Why choose him who'll never respect your choice?
Why not give up after the many times you've tried him?'
Why not forget him,and be my Triduum?
Why waste the flooding love in your soul?
Why can't you see he was just a hard fall?
For all the caution from your peers through the years
Why won't you let a gentleman wipe your tears?
Why can't you accept that fighting for him is a lost cause?
Why do you choose to crash on his waves over a new course?
You say you can't free yourself from the heavy chains of Love
Why don't you believe It's something you can be free of?
Why can't you feel the concern in my heart beat?
Why not settle in my shade and let go the heat?

I still feel my heart shutter
but i guess it doesn't matter
*it was just a lesson to teach me never
to believe those who promise forever.