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Flita Fernandes Aug 2017
Walking down cold empty streets
I’ve seen lovers walk side to side
as I stood alone on a sidewalk
not knowing how it would feel
to hold on to someone as I cry

As I lay down on empty sheets
I fear that I will never hear
another heart beat with mine
For I’ve never known love
but i’ve heard its as old as time

I wait for years and years to feel
and I do; but the amount of love I held
never meant anything to you.

So I go on with my life
mind muddled with thoughts still unknown
for somewhere deep down in my soul I knew that
some hearts are meant to be alone.
midnight thoughts! comments would be appreciated! :')
May 2017 · 480
Thoughts under the sunset
Flita Fernandes May 2017
Under pink skies along the ocean shore
Toes touching as my lips are on yours
Tiny grains of sand between our clothes
And I wonder what I did to deserve your love

You press me tighter to your chest
a content sigh against my breast
Skin tender with kisses and the breeze
and my heart keeps beating as it bleeds

Because I know when tomorrow comes
We'll  have to part under the setting sun
Until we meet again another time
your heart will still beat next to mine
May 2017 · 641
Lighthouse
Flita Fernandes May 2017
In the quiet of night, I walk wild and free
To find something that will bring you back to me
There is a roughness in the silent breeze
The soil wet and soft beneath my feet

I keep walking, leaving behind a trail of blood and dirt
while my head hums and my heart is full of hurt
As I see the blinding light right in front of me
the stars glisten bright above the sea

I look up as I lay half asleep on the shoreline
the bluish white constellation of Lyra twinkles in the sky
and I laugh because even after all that we’ve been through
Everything still comes back to you.
May 2017 · 630
Heart
Flita Fernandes May 2017
They say home is where the heart is
but darlin’ my heart is not near me
perhaps it's floating along distant shores
or it’s caged in a building with infinite floors.

I wonder how my heart feels
when you walk by it skips a beat
does it think? does it remember?
but I sure know my head spins when your scent lingers.


My heart may be  a little crazy and a little stupid
wanting to find love and scared of a tiny cupid
And even though my heart may wander and dream
it will still find it's  way home through you and me.
May 2017 · 443
Distance
Flita Fernandes May 2017

Love me like the wind
wild and unsteady
encase me in your heart
like storms in the northern sea

If you kiss me goodbye
hold me tight,
but promise me,
that your love will always be mine.
Flita Fernandes May 2017
Do you still think of her as the first girl,
you met during college,
who would squeal your name to annoy you and shove you aside when challenged?
or the study partner that would sit with you till dawn because you procrastinated till the last moment.

Do you still think about her with longing,
when you remember the looks you’ve shared or the touches that bloomed?
or do you sigh with regret that the friendship you shared with her would be doomed.

Do you still look at her with amusement,
as she happily exclaims that she wants to ride shotgun,
while your friends groan?
or do you horribly sing along with her, as she tries to protest with an annoyed moan

Do you still think of her when you’re away,
her stupid annoying rants about world politics and cats that need to be rescued?
or do you think of me as a silent lover,
because I sure do think of you.
May 2017 · 424
3:00 AM
Flita Fernandes May 2017
Hold me tight,
your arms wrapped like vine
trace a kiss with your fingers
on those unkissed lips of mine

Grip me tighter,
the clock chimes at 3
I don't want to move
Cause then I’d want to take you with me

hug me goodbye,
you don’t look into my eyes
I have a thousand things to say
but a word from you would suffice

Miles away,
I weep and I write
but I always Wonder
if you still think of that night
Aug 2016 · 1.6k
She dreams in shades of gold
Flita Fernandes Aug 2016
She dreams in shades of gold,
Speaking in tongues as her soul
runs naked, tumbling through the air,
Through fields of green and leaves in her hair.

She dreams in honey scented meadows,
Breathe in their nectar; rays against the window,
Twisting through the seasons like red wine,
While sunflowers raise their head to shine.

She dreams in the sunny winter breeze,
For her dreams to never cease.
Like the form of a never-ending snowfall,
And her will to live through all the odds.

She dreams in the early morning sun,
While the heat ends the blooming month,
Her fall; to burn while she crashes,
And yet to rise from renewed ashes.

She dreams in shades of gold,
As she stands on a dais of old,
Gold around her nape so bright,
Like thousands of candle lit from a single light.
this poem was like a little snippet in my mind while watching the olympics and it inspired me to write this piece, something I've written after a long writers block.
Mar 2016 · 668
Nocturnal symphony
Flita Fernandes Mar 2016
The unexpected symphony,
Filled the empty darkness.
A violin, polished black ebony,
Poised beneath her whispered breath.

A raven ruffled its wings nearby,
Blending into the inky mass.
Beady eyes stared all around,
Unexpected audience, weeping sound.

Her fingers fumbled as she plucked the strings,
A sigh from luna, melancholy in the form of mist.
Constellations sewn into the blanket of stars,
The rusty strings sighing with an electric buzz.

Tragic symphony harmonized by broken yield,
For she plays her violin until her fingers bleed.
Mar 2016 · 375
Midnight thoughts
Flita Fernandes Mar 2016
Sometimes I have fluctuating thoughts on love. My short existence on earth could be the reason that I can't really comprehend this alien and thought provoking emotion.
But then reality came along and struck me with the demons of negativity and the fear of not being loved.
I truly felt that it was just a figment of our vivid imagination or just something that people bind themselves to, for a temporary cause.
But Seeing older couples who are so much in love always made me smile and wistful. I suppose moments like are the only reason I would ever want to grow old with someone.
It made me believe that love is about the heart, and not about the superficial aspects that inevitably change as we age.
I think it shows me that true love has the ability to endure the test of time. It was rather beautiful to see people utterly devote themselves to such a gentle sin.
Mar 2016 · 442
Empire of lost thoughts
Flita Fernandes Mar 2016
For an overthinking mind,
There has got to be a place,
In an unoccupied dimension.
Where time, a currency that pays

The greed of unsatisfied souls.
City lights veining along the shores
Of fresh dreams yet to come.
The seed of conscience lost underground.

Where the rose of doubt blooms.
And as her petals unfolds,
Darkness will seep to the core,
A kind of ecstasy curling the mind.

For the unknown empire that has seen no pages,
has been living through the history of time,
For I've succumbed into darkness,
Past the point of no return.
Mar 2016 · 621
Lasya
Flita Fernandes Mar 2016
She glides along the waxy floor,
Mind at peace and heart at war.
The witching hour sounds nearby,
With impaired grace, her body sighs.

In the quiet, she spinslike the sun,
Of violent energy and a star so bright.
Shrouded in darkness she quivers,
As a glow meets her riveting eyes.

A lone little flame-abusing the wax,
Trickles down onto the mahogany,
Tears on her cheek mirrors the sight.
Hours and minutes last an eternity.

She keeps swaying on calloused tips,
Tresses like a ravens broken wing,
Drowns her saddened breathing.
Her mind still denies and she keeps on dancing.
Note: The term Lasya, in the context of Hindu mythology, describes the dance performed by Goddess Parvati as it expresses happiness and is filled with grace and beauty. She is believed to have danced the Lasya in response to the male energy of the cosmic dance of Tandava performed by Lord Shiva.This term obviously contradicts the poem as it shows the tortured and emotional stages of the dancer. Rather than being happy she still expresses her pain and darkness with grace and beauty.
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Nov 2015 · 412
Until we meet again
Flita Fernandes Nov 2015
Drops of heavenly tears, endless and bound
By truth, surround the moon and I
The moon, woeful over the heart of blue
And I, seek the soul of you

We walked, late into the dusk
Down across the edge of dark
Where rays blazed through the night
And the sea gave birth to light

But as the dew settled, we parted ways
In Triumph and fear, end of infinite days
All that remained-was music, of the shore
And waves to launder the imprints of our soul

And as I write,drifts-these eyes of mine
Into the moonlit yonder of milky shine
With love so deep and how it fled pain
For it shall reverberate until we meet again
Aug 2015 · 869
Passion behind the madness
Flita Fernandes Aug 2015
It may be madness,
Through the passion of beauty, it shines.
The sinful visage of love,
Like flesh upon vanity it chimes.
For beauty is scarce when the soul is lain in the tomb,
Because truth, like love, is life within the lungs of a new dawn.
Jun 2015 · 1.6k
Airports
Flita Fernandes Jun 2015
As I wait for my flight,
I look around and take in the sight,
Of people milling all around,
A giggling child, a mother with a frown.

Wondering about love and dreams,
I see a couple silently weep,
Of forgotten vows and lost promises,
A dying garden filled with black roses.

The building of a new career ,
Are the thoughts of the lone sighing teenager.
The silent reader with a book on her thighs,
Fictional reality living in her eyes.

And as I sit, glancing at my watch,
In my mind a new thought gives a knock,
Of how this thin walled infrastructure,
Is the core of dreams and desires.
just a short write , while I was waiting for my flight :)
Jun 2015 · 788
She reads...
Flita Fernandes Jun 2015
She dreams with her eyes open,
Of imaginary worlds and tales unspoken.
Page after page, of castles and storms,
She reads until the waking dawn.

Late night as the world falls asleep,
She curls with her cup, another page to read.
A yawn muffled by bookish thoughts
And the scent of imaginary forget me nots .

She places her book on a nearby counter,
With the caress of a gentle lover.
Glancing at her bookshelf she goes to sleep,
Dreaming of the thousand lives she once lived.
To all the bookworms who always read "just one more page" till the book ends
May 2015 · 1.6k
Ethos
Flita Fernandes May 2015
The soul reaps it's way,
Through turmoil and pain.
Branding it's essence ,
By the scars of life.

While the spirit runs free,
Naked in the land of oblivion.
Pure and serene;
Embraced in ethereal wisdom.

The embodiment of immortality,
Twinkles like wind chimes ;
Born from eternal sleep,
To the dawn of a new age.
May 2015 · 693
Thoughts
Flita Fernandes May 2015
Filled with sorrow were her eyes

Like stained glass windows

Spending an eternity searching

The bitter truth, an addiction

Fables blending with reality

As her mind waltzed in blurred veils

Her vision cloaked by hallucinating joys.

Only her thoughts could set her free.
Apr 2015 · 3.2k
A sailor's memory
Flita Fernandes Apr 2015
Salty wind grazes his skin,
Embracing the ocean in his eyes.
Staring at the infinite horizon,
With memories from another life.

She would wait at the shore,
A small cottage by the sea.
Lullabies from distant waves,
And untold stories in the breeze.


She hummed a tune for her sailor's return,
Aware of the dangers and the deep.
She sang her song to the ocean,
That made the mythic sirens weep.


He still remembers the day he returned,
The cottage in the distance, hazy like a dream.
He searched for her, months and years,
But her sea green eyes were never seen.

Not once did he visit her grave,
never knowing what happened to her.
Memories of her still float ashore,
As he could never love another.
Apr 2015 · 751
Midnight eclipse
Flita Fernandes Apr 2015
Loneliness used to devour my soul,
Until I buried my self in piles of books all alone.
Reality was a bleak spot of dawn,
The trace of light, seemed long gone.

Then you stepped up in my midst,
A twisted charm,surrounding your grace.
My midnight woes ebbing away like a dead language,
As gargoyles watched over your gates.

Like a hopeless moth I yearned for a flame,
Fire so filled with sin and pain.
Lies glistened on your poisonous visage ,
Butchering my soul at the temple of your embrace .
Mar 2015 · 557
Wingless flight
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
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Mar 2015 · 582
Angel Of Sin
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
An ugly beast he was not
Nor had he scales or tiny horns
A choir of souls sang in his grace
His grace surrounded by hells embrace

Black haired, gray eyed angel was he
with sin in his veins, commanding to ****
Lost his wings and scarred his back
Scars, boundaries between heaven and hell

He wanted it all, from power to throne
The blackness tainted his demonic fall
Beautiful angel ever created with blessed might
Was thrown away from the halls of holy light

But his pride
was not to be dejected
He wanted it all,
complete control over the living, universe, and stars

A kiss from him could steal your soul
Lips covered in ******, turmoil filled words
A being carved from lust and sin
Fused together with flawless stealth

He comes in many forms and many smiles
Until he signs a contact with your blood
As angelic as he may seem with no horns
A disguise of darkness veiled by a halo of scorn

He waits for his prey to come along
Deathly Sins, from lust to corruption
His broken soul with eternal condemnation
The same being that used to be gods favorite angel.
Mar 2015 · 2.8k
Tribute to Women
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
From times immemorial,
We have dreamt ,
Carved ourselves,
The crown of grace.

A little girl walks today,
With big dreams and passion.
A women of tomorrow,
With power and ambition.

Great things does she,
From wisdom to the heart.
Not only the vessel of mankind,
But also the anchor of life.
Tribute to Women (on the occasion of International Women's Day)
Mar 2015 · 597
rorrim rorriM
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Mirror mirror sees it all.
From tear drops to lip stains,
Reflection of beauty and self hate.

Helplessly, hung on the wall,
It reflects the exterior from a far.
Tries to reflect the truth from within,
The eyes sees only what is seen.

Months and years pass by,
The mirror tries to show whats inside.
No,not the mirror on the wall,
But the one within your soul.
Mar 2015 · 484
Yours Truly
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
My soul turned green,
Seeing you with her.
I bet you speak to her,
The way you spoke to me.

Is it the chaos we brew,
In this *** of sanity?
Or is it my madness,
Leading to this insecurity.

And now I stand alone,
Like I did before.
And you did what you do best,
Broke down my walls and tore apart my soul.

                                                          ­             *Yours truly
Mar 2015 · 732
The Universe In You
Flita Fernandes Mar 2015
Bruises marked his hands, like the heavens above.
Filled with the creeping dusk of pink and purple hues.

Specks of fading freckles, imprinted on his skin,
Like a vault into the andromeda galaxy.

Scars of old untold tales marked her wrists.
Her struggles, like the moons of Jupiter.

Valleys of stretch marks forged onto her skin,
Like the sand dunes from a drying land.

But they loved every atom within each other,
Cause the atoms of her flesh were his stars.
And he was her constellation that embraced her soul,
Together glowing in the darkness of the night.
Feb 2015 · 1.4k
Blood
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
This crimson liquid that flows through our veins,
It's not mere plasma or life that it sustains.

Blood is family; a bond that has no end,
Something that flowed till the lineage of men.

It's what makes us human; conscience a vessel,
These ropes of emotion, a curse or a blessing.

This ruby red ink stains many sinful hands,
The gift of life replaced by guilt and death.

Boundaries and religion divide the human race,
It's the color of blood that matters and we all bleed the same.
Feb 2015 · 819
Caged Demons
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
It reflected in his eyes,
The demons he tried to hide.
Heart caged by barbed ribs,
To keep his demons out of reach.
He danced with angels of darkness;
A waltz of his tormenting past.
Until came she....
Washed away his soul with serenity.
His broken heart healed,
Along with a newfound emotion,
No longer was it filled with abhor or venom.
The sound of her heart could conceal his demons,
But hidden deep, a small part remained.
The shadows of his past would not fade away,
She tried to wash his sins,
But it was not in her will to decide,
He pushed her away and,
The only thing that remained,
Were the fading teardrops on his doorway.
Feb 2015 · 3.8k
Paper Cuts
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
These paper cuts bleed,
As the ink stains red,
wrinkled parchment ,
Rustling sound, excitement.

Wax seal,ancient and unreal,
Rips open the envelope,
Breathes the words,
Of sadness and grief.

These paper cuts burn,
Tears wash the wounds,
It's the heart that hurts,
Not the bleeding cuts.
Feb 2015 · 799
12:00 AM
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
Twirling my spoon in the depths of caffeine,
I yawn and stare across the dim-lit shop.
The silky bitterness wafts in the air,
As a sleepy bird outside decides to mope.

An ordinary day it was, like the past,
Nothing unusual, nothing wavered from the start.
I gulped the inky brew in a frenzy to leave,
Staring over my mug, my heart skipped a beat.

Long jagged scars ran down his face,
A disgrace in the eyes of visual allure.
Features veiled with tribulation,
His kaleidoscopic orbs bled loneliness.

Unavoidable gasps rang all around,
People parting like panicked doves,
Perhaps an acquaintance of shadow?
He glided in with a crown of frost.

My heart rang like a failed cardiogram,
As I stated at the nameless stranger in front,
Features, once chiseled and envied,
Now mirrored a fate of broken glass.

Stripped of his appearance, an outcast by society,
My heart longed to read the pages of his destruction,
Love was no longer a cliché to me,
Thoughts leading back to this moment.
Feb 2015 · 730
Clipped Wings
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
Love had scared me,
In ways, I couldn't define.
Hiding behind these walls and lies,
Made me a coward to this disguise.

I was afraid of falling,
Falling into oblivion,
Scared of getting hurt,
Reasoning, it would scar my heart.

Too many walls around my soul,
Tainted with fake interest and smiles.
Too high; the gates around my mind,
Nobody could climb this high.

Then came he; strange and carefree,
An anchor, in my times of vulnerability.
Demanding to see the imperfections,
I hid all along under this vanity.

I let him in, my broken kingdom,
In my war dress of battles lost and won,
But he stared at me like I was the most precious thing ever,
Because he looked beneath my clipped wings and broken thoughts.
Feb 2015 · 2.4k
Sapphire Quilt
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
The sapphire waves meet at the shore,
Sand castles and footprints, present no more.
Washed away in oblivion so far,
As the sea swallows the dying sun.

Eerily the night creeps over the blue quilt,
Onyx waves wash my soul and sandy feet.
When the moon casts its glow over the sea,
Even the smallest pearl glows deep beneath.
Feb 2015 · 344
Captive Of My Soul
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
A feeling that you've been here,

That I've seen you before,

A feeling that I've stared into those icy orbs,

In another existence; long ago.



What is this familiar emotion,

A feeling like déjà vu,

The same smile, the same voice,

Lost in my memories like fading dew.




What is this feeling I can't comprehend,

That I've loved you in another life,

In a new world with feelings as old as time,

With you by my side.
Feb 2015 · 1.2k
Veil Of Affliction
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
On the front porch, she sat,
Day and night she tried to forget,
Love that lasted for only a bit,
Months she waited for a single kiss.

She had a type of face,
A face that belonged in victorian paintings,
Eyes filled with pride and strength,
It held so much courage yet so much pain.

Memories and thoughts graced her mind,
Like a broken record on hold; stuck in time.
They would gaze upon the constellations,
Her heart now a constellation of affliction.

Now as she looked above,
Tiny cluster of stars,
enveloping the vault of heaven.
A veil of broken glass, just like her existence.

As she gave the sky a fleeting glance,
One certain star gleamed through the dark,
And she knew it was the eyes of her lover,
Now fighting a war among the stars.
Feb 2015 · 696
Haunted Love
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
I had to let go,
Happy endings, didn't mean anything anymore,
Ten letters from him, saying goodbye,
I stopped writing after the ninth.

Now here I sat behind a glass,
As memories loomed over him like a cloak,
Strapped by tendrils of death,
He looked the same as he did years go.

He looked different now, but still the same,
Fifteen years in the past, but still held my heart,
Even though I refused to visit,
His love flowed stronger than guilt.

I knew from the start this was wrong,
But I listened to my heart, and we grew strong,
Consequences awaited me at the end,
Like humanity; the heir of the original sin.

The execution chamber remained silent,
But my heart was going through emotional violence,
Memories flashed in my head, of us together,
Interrupted by a voice on the speaker:

"You are permitted to make your final statement."
"Thank you for loving a monster like me"
he said
"I don't deserve your love, but if we meet in another life,
it would be a pleasure to die in your arms."


He sighed, a sad sigh, filled with acceptance and peace,
And looked in my eyes and whispered his last emotion,
My head started spinning, as second faded into minutes,
But I had to do this, see him leave the world as a being loved, not hated.

The skin I felt so long before, was pierced by a needle,
the kind of needle we were afraid of as kids,
Several minutes later he took his last breath,
And a part of me died with him.
Feb 2015 · 993
Nostalgia
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
A thousand memories are made,
Every night and day,
Polaroid or mere time,
Memories that you will share in life.

Looking back, you will feel,
Nostalgia a feeling of longing shall reel,
Every scent and song from the past,
Will evoke a memory in your dream.

Floral perfume from mothers locks,
Mixed with dirt from  childhood fights,
The smell of paper and endless books,
Is it exams or the fright?

This familiar emotion of delight,
So very strange and foreign,
But in empty roads of memories,
It's a feeling you've never forgotten.
Feb 2015 · 409
Core of Premise
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
He was like a breath of fresh air,
No, not any kind of air,
The kind you gasp for, after bursting out of the waves,
The kind you starve for,  after a long run in the woods.

He was strange ,wild and carefree
Something I was not,
Each move he made burned its way into my lungs,
And stamped his essence to my soul.

As the waves swallowed the sun,
His eyes promised my lips,
And my soul rose from the darkness,
Strengthened by the foundation of his spirit.
Feb 2015 · 420
Raw sight
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
He wanted to see me,
No. Not with my hair all done up,
The liner on my lids, or the
Fake smile stained with red.

He wanted to memorize my raw flesh,
Devour in the  magnificence of my soul,
Bathe from the innocence in my orbs,
And wash away the insecurities with his love.
Feb 2015 · 602
Sheltered manifestation
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
I confess,
I was afraid to love him,
Afraid to give myself fully,
Soul and body.

Afraid to stare into those stormy orbs,
That could somehow see through the cracks
Of my broken soul, etched with scars,
This mirror of misery.

He was a mystery I couldn't solve,
Things my mind didn't understand,
But my heart did, words my mouth
couldn't speak, but my soul sang.

But all that I knew was he loved me,
Like the sun died for the moon,
The way he dove into my soul,
And sang my demons to sleep.
Feb 2015 · 589
The war field of lost souls
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
The garden of blood,
Where bodies and grenades,
drizzle upon the boundaries,
fighting for religion, power, and greed.

The golden glow of Apollo  embraces the heavens,
and reflects upon the Scarlett land turning vermillion,
as the last ray grabs onto the strings of dying ****.
The Grimm taints the field with his presence.

Death whispers with serenity,
as the beat of his heart thumps down to a notch or two.
Memories of loved ones flood his brain with,
nostalgia love and longing.

One last touch. One last glimpse and one last breath.
Promise of honor, hope, and security,
The lifeless body lies in the garden of death and sacrifice,
And returns to ash with nothing left but memories to share.
Feb 2015 · 997
Pandemonium
Flita Fernandes Feb 2015
If you ever doubt my love,
Spin the wheels of time,
And dive into the past,
where seconds and eternity collide.

Where they said love was hell;
The never-ending fire of betrayal,
Loomed over us like a veil,
Sewn with guilt and regrets.

We swayed  in the inferno,
Waltzed on the ashes, to the melody of
Eternal love, blemishes, and scars;
A badge of chaos.

But we walked through the darkness,
And undressed our souls,
The naked sorrow and agony,
We could ever disguise.

In the end,
If you still ever doubt, my love
Know that your stars are the reason,
My galaxy exists, in this infinite universe.

— The End —