I could smell lies
more than I could smell freshly baked pies
You hide every bit of pain
and leave yourself in shame
You're not even up for the fame
and not even you I could blame
I guess it's okay to hide
but remember that I could hear your side
I wont let anyone do the same to you
because I've already felt it too
But I guess it's up to you
If you'll leave the thorns inside your deeply wounded soul

Whenever I surrender
You suddenly come to make me remember
It's like you come back from the dead
Making it hard for me to make a step further
I decide to go forth
Then you'll reach out and grab my ankle
I'm like a chained dog who thinks she could run away
Then a chain will stop me from going on my own way
You're a coward who can never really keep me
A hinder is what you are
To my dreams that would take me far
I've given too many chances
But I'll see you like a reindeer who prances
To my very existence
Thus creating such a distance
That eventually made me drift away

Now tell me one last time
Do you really wish for me to stay?
Or would you rather let me go and walk away?

*But first, remove your cowardly mask and face me with the question you wanted to ask

Gazing upon a masterpiece
"Give it back to me, please?"
Talking to my ol' trusty fate
Hoping to start with a clean slate

Though under a different roof
These feelings just can't go ****
Unlike a bubble that pops in mid-air
These stay like a disease that I can't bear

What is this madness?
I don't feel like a princess
it's more like a damsel in distress

My whole being is aflame
Who is to blame

They drive me crazy
They make me go **insane

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Those lips that has touched mine whenever i'm not feeling fine
Those hands that pulled me up when i'm down and my face in a frown
Those muscular arms that lift my wary thoughts
Your mouth that has chanted a million "I love yous"
Your eyes that reflect your pretty soul
Your ears that never get tired hearing my every fears

I wonder where you went
I'm all alone now and I just can't
I'm half a heart without you
It just feels so blue

I can no longer find you

You left me feeling drastic
My heart went tragic
You vanished like magic

Please tell me you'll come back
and carry me again along your back
Cause I really miss every part of you
Your'e the missing piece I lack
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Out of the night that covers thee
From your misery, I'll set you free
A mere stella from the void
Even though i'm almost dead
May my luminosity light your way ahead

There are so many words left unsaid,
so many feelings left untold
but I know that someday
they will all unfold.

I already knew
Even before I got to know you
You had suicidal thoughts
Every now and then

One can't really hide from me
Because I could see
Behind that mask
That doesn't even last
For I have been in your shoes

But I guess I lack compassion
I didn't know how to show it
Hopefully
You get through
Cause I still have hope for you

Left to right
Up and down
I can see faces frown
inside the four corners of this town
Only fear can be sensed
Wild beasts suddenly erupting from the dark
slaying innocent living beings
such cruelty
they know no mercy
They must've descended from a hellish place
that doesn't know how to handle such a major case

A date has been set
That date when they said our peace we've already met
and yet, we still came to this
beings - I no longer distinguish as humans, who cant be pleased
If they'll mark this as the end of the world
and the start of an undeniably despicable realm
is humanity now destined to perish?

Everything has an end but
it is up to you if you'd want that
kind of denouement
or if you'd like multiple of series.

I thought
You were
inspiring
         talented
                   kind
           helpful
dedicated

But no body informed me that this was all a **SHOW

Under the rain is where I burry all the pain,
within your smile is where my happiness
I can gain

Everything went tragic
but you made everything seem like magic

In just a wish and bit of whoosh
You made a smile creep on my face with a little bit of push

Call someone a ******,
they'll turn into a ******.
Because as the saying goes,
"You see what you want to see."

You acted like a mother
As if I was never a bother

I have always been thankful
For your support is always full

Your wise words
Can never be a bunch of turds

I always remember your advice
To think it twice

You weren't just a friend
You were what they call as "The light"
Who shines with no end

Sometimes I think to myself
I now have a lot of debt

I don't know what happened
But we kind of drifted apart
Yet you'll always be in my heart

I guess all I ever want you to know
Is how you are important and so

I made this specially for you
Read it whenever you feel blue
So you'd have a clue
That I love you too
This may serve as my greatest THANK YOU

It was unexpected
But I was so enchanted
by your charm
I was convinced that you mean no harm
Yet every time you think about her
My heart, you shatter

it was unexplainable
for I was unable
to be stable
for just a while
yet you came
turned my frown
upside down
even for a bit
you made me complete
again, able to compete
with life's harsh words
which made me tangle in chords
felt like a bunch of turds
but just simply by listening to you
along with your music too
brings joy and happiness
to my thoughts and world of loneliness
even though they're not much
it still managed to put a smile on my face

maybe these are what we call
*simple joys in life

I was a lost puzzle piece
waiting to be retrieved underneath a table

I've been trying to fit in with the
beautiful pictures
But nothing ever works out
Never have I imagined that I wasn't meant to be there
No wonder my smiles were just masks
No wonder I felt different
No wonder I feel so lonely
for I was part of something better
BIGGER

I was part of a masterpiece
And it was called FRIENDSHIP

A friendship I've never felt ever before
I felt like I belonged
as if I was the missing piece that they've
been waiting for

My anxiety gets worse
and I think I'm about to burst
every time you are near
and the pain I can never even bear.

There is always this uneasiness
This anxiety
This worry

When i'm with YOU

But with THEM
I feel happy
Chill
safe
Though I don't know how
Maybe,
*It's goodbye for now

My head is filled with so many ideas, suggestions, plans and thoughts
I don't know where to start
They're clashing,
smashing my train of thoughts
It started when the good news arrived
Now my head won't stop creating images and words to express my feelings

Doesn't it feel so heart breaking
to be so attached to a person
whom you can no longer spend
almost your whole day with?

Me and my friends are like a dandelion puff
You'll take a glance
and see that we all look so lively
being with each other

But once you blow
and set us all apart
we'll still look nice in our own way

Yet nothing like how we once looked like
when we were together

I wish to be discovered
These late night thoughts to be uncovered
I want people to be bewildered
By my poems I want to be delivered

It's funny how writers give such
privilege to those so-called
heroes
Maybe it's because
they - so as we
think that there is a protagonist
and an antagonist
When in reality
there is only you

Only you yourself
could defeat the demon
living along your bloodstream

You cant actually scream
and a hero shows up with a beam
We are all trapped in a dark realm

Just accept the truth
before you lose a tooth

Those people who thinks of themselves as the ultimate
Thinking that they are those who create

A world without even a single flaw
For they bark and scratch you with a claw

As if you're the most putrid human they've seen
As if this phase was a place they've never been

If I may remind you
You became a newbie once too

So don't talk to me as if
You became the GREATEST
In just a blink of an eye

They never run out of words to throw
I'm better off believing
where my soul would eventually grow

From the moment I met you
I knew you were decent
Though not really that innocent
But you were a nice guy
Though you are shy
You still have this charm

Your voice that ain't so manly
Yet for me it was heavenly
Just to hear your voice was enough for me

You may not be the brightest
But among the stars, you are
Your witty answers and logical explanations
These serve as my best inspirations

Your strategic ways
and inspiring plays
They always make my days

I'd wish upon a star
That my love for you
Wont bear a single scar

So honey my dear
I sure do hope everything is clear
Just don't make me bear a single tear
For I might grow in fear
Of your face
That served as my favorite maze
Whenever my emotions are in a haze

I guess I understand now
It's not about the looks
There's more to it
Even when it comes to personality
It's more about the emotions one posses
We become this person
Who wants to know more
And be there to see the ****** expression
The feelings this special someone feels

Yes, that's it.

I don't know if this tight feeling in my chest is called jealousy
I honestly don't like that word
But every time I see her approaching you, it makes my breathing come to a halt...
Maybe I'm just getting too fond of this sick love game that everyone's playing that my "own" thoughts and feelings got caught up in the vines
please, leave me out of the game because I still don't want to participate in such a foolish thing
I know for a fact that mine is still too young to understand what everything else is...

The world is so cruel.
The people we wanted to be with the most
is the hardest to be with
cause it feels like the whole world is
against you.
I wonder if there'd be a day
where you and I would stay
and together we shall play
forever to our hearts content.

As another page turns,
something new has to be written
and without you in it
I don't know what'll happen
but one thing's for sure
*I'm gonna miss you.

No one wanted to believe in angels anymore
because they have met so many demons

*But little did they know,
I came across a deceiver
who became a love giver.

To my asleep conscience
To my ever lasting cowardice
To my low self esteem
And to my doubtful self

I wonder when
When will courage rise up
When will it surface my very face...
When will it ever come at my door

But i'll just wait
Wait a little bit more
Wait a minute or so
Wait a week or two
Wait a decade or a year

I'll keep on stand by
I'll be here obediently waiting for your grand arrival

I supported you
Cause no body supported me
I believed in you
Cause no one believed in me
I cared for you
Cause none took care of me
I have loved you
Cause not a single soul gave any to me

I guess
I see myself in you
And I just want to fill those empty spaces

Because I don't want you
To feel the pain I do

Dearest pineapple,
Often times you mumble
Yet I know how much you like to talk
Specially when it's just the two of us who walks
Like me, you have millions of stories
As well as numerous worries
But worry no more
I'll join you and together we shall explore
Today, your special day
I wish for luck to always come your way
I know there are more storms to come
But for you a lullaby, I shall hum
To lull you to sleep to let you rest
And to remind you that it's just one of God's tests

I loved you to the moon and back
Gave you the stars and the sky
Only to know that you'll soon fly
You didn't just walk out of my life
you also stabbed my very precious heart
It hurts for us to part
but knowing of what you did killed me

A friendship like no other
Sure do hope we'll be friends forever

You were there during my ups and downs
Ready to wipe off my frowns

I'm thankful it was you
To cheer me whenever i'm feeling blue

The way you make up ****** jokes
It kinda makes you less of a bloke

But never less than of a friend
Because for me, there wont be an end

To this friendship
Even if we fall and trip

You wont be forgotten
By my brain even though it'd be rotten

My memories of you
Has been carved in a beautiful hue

All I ever wanted to say is
THANK YOU :)

For every exploration
you need an inspiration
that will serve as your motivation.

I know they don't believe in "forever" but I do.
I haven't proven it yet but I'd like to prove to you
under the gray clouds or the summer sky blue.
This has to be true cause never have I been so sad
to be far from you.
There's this something that grips my heart
whenever we are apart.
My heart floats when I'm with you.

I'm not talking about a guy I like nor a guy I love,
a friendship to infinity is what I've been seeking for
and it's what I'm fighting and saving for.
You may haven't known the me from the past but I guess
you'll be the audience of my present and future.
This kind of feeling will never stop overwhelming me.

Gimme tips on how to be a dummy
Because I really want to be funny
I wanna hear their endless laughs
And praise me then gimme thousand claps
But I end up being mainstream
Cant make a joke with a yummy cream
I cant satisfy their funny bones
So i'll just eat lots of ice cream cones

Just when things are turning out so nice
fate would unleash its specialty
Plot twists...

Your whole life suddenly turns around
leaving you broken again,
making you scour the whole land
for somebody to fix you.

Smile, my dear
There's nothing to fear
Come on now
Go up there and take a bow
Everybody's screaming
Shouting
It must be a dream
I feel like I wanna scream
It all feels absurd
But I feel as free as a bird
It all started last Friday the 3rd

Swung my sharp metallic blade
Watched the color in their eyes fade
Saw their blood dance
As my feet started to prance
With every slash upon their throats
It makes me want to sing a note

Now, there there
It's not too much to bear
Soon you'll doze off in an eternal bliss
You'll arise no more
Not even with a kiss

Cause darlin, this ain't a fantasy
It's the harsh and brutal reality
Watch me fly
As you lie there sniffling a cry

So I suggest
for you to rest
That's for the best
Ogle at my perfect crime
Sorry it's already your time
After this, honey, I'm gonna sip some lime

Sometimes it gets to you
Whenever a person is being mean to you
But you have to understand
And prevent yourself from walking away
Because you are the only one who gets their way

They'd be left helpless and unaccepted
It you wont be there to prevent it

You have a role
An important role

This unspeakable sudden grin upon my face
as your name pops up in my head

It's a cryptic occurrence that I can't decode
Just like you
But it makes my face light up brighter than the moon above
and makes my heart feel as free as a dove