Sa t'wing ika'y papalapit
Ilong ko'y umiinit
Please lang, kilikili mo'y **** ipit
Pahinge nga ako ng sipit
Ilong ko nalamang ang iiipit
Dahil pati mata ko'y namimilipit

I've given up the desire to make you
mine
I'll try to just be
fine
It's time for me to play the cupid
I've had enough looking so stupid

I guess it'll be alright
If it means I'll see you smile so bright

Come with me into the woods
Let's jump on leaves
unleash our catapults of feathers
Swing on vines and climb on tree tops
run around nature's maze
and *live our youth

I'm getting squished
My bones are being crushed
My whole being is burned
Someone please take me away from this land of flames

Your logic
It is way too idiotic

Why would you want to grow fast?
When your days doesn't last

Better think twice
Or everything might not turn  out nice

If I were you
I'd rather go in the summer sky blue
And read a book that's so true

Don't pretend as if you're a know-it-all
You might end up curling into a ball
Once you've finally fall

It wont be easy to get up
So better slow down and shut up

Never have I seen your purest smile
Nor see it shine

I don't know if it's just me
But I know I can see

Those eyes didn't glisten
Your lips have never widen

You always say that you're happy
But please stop pretending
Don't think of me so lowly
I can sense that you're lonely

It hurts to see you like this
But what else can I do?
You never wanted me to
Be that one who catches you

Up till now
I don't know how
I want you to show

The place i'd mend
To let you know that it's not the end

Just show me your broken pieces
I shall heal them with my kisses

Now I see the cracks
All your soft parts and misshapen heart
Your broken wings
that are truly a beauty
Once impossible to decode
Now I see your most vulnerable self
Your sensitive persona
The actual you that you've been hiding under a snake's skin

So fragile that every time I touch you, I feel like I might break you
To lessen the pain you feel, I badly want to hug you tight and may that be enough to put you back in one piece

*I wont leave. I promise.

The way you laugh
The way we used to run
Our weird antics
Those laughter filled with so much joy
Our carefree personalities
Getting all hyped up
Being sweaty and all
Bruises and scars

They were all part of us
The way it used to be
It was what I called paradise
Sometimes when I don't feel sunny
I thank the Lord for letting me be there
Heaven if I must say

Life took such a sharp turn
Never have I imagined
That one day
It'll all vanish from my very eyes

It took me this long
For everything to sink in
For me to realize
That it is now what we call History

Up to now
Every now and then
I'd relive every moment
Every memory
Every feeling
I've experienced there
For even my soul cant forget

It has been carved into my very heart

Alam ko may problema
Pero wag ka masyadong mag alala
Kasi sobrang nakakairita
Ayoko nalang magsalita
Baka mahampas kita

Ako nalamang ay titingin sa kawalan
At magiisip ng mga bagay na walang katuturan
Kahit papano, pinagagana ko naman utak ko
Di sa paraang ako'y madedehado

Magbabasa nalamang
ngunit sa isang salita't ingay mo lang
baka di kita matiis at masampal kita harap harapan
kaya kung pwede lang
wag kang umaktong mang mang
na tila di mo maintindihan ang sino man

To my asleep conscience
To my ever lasting cowardice
To my low self esteem
And to my doubtful self

I wonder when
When will courage rise up
When will it surface my very face...
When will it ever come at my door

But i'll just wait
Wait a little bit more
Wait a minute or so
Wait a week or two
Wait a decade or a year

I'll keep on stand by
I'll be here obediently waiting for your grand arrival

Give me some coffee
Talk to me at Three
Lend me a pen and a paper
Let me write all about it in a letter
It's something to make me feel better
Make my heart explode
Make my thoughts wander wondrously
Like i'm losing myself in a fantasy
I'll lose it all and explode my thoughts like ink on a paper
writing all about my wildest dreams and imaginative travels,
all my irrational thoughts, my greatest memories, the habits of mine, the things that remind me of you and the stars that I've seen each night too
Just let me write about all of it including you

When it comes to thy self
Doubt has never left
But to me, thou art the brightest
Thee has come to believe
that thy ability is the best nevertheless

I'm sure I was certain
Since when did I think I was a burden
Could it be? That I didn't see?
What's happening to me?

Slowly getting unhinged
All these stuff
They're driving me nuts
Maybe I was just a klutz

But oh please
take me away from this unbearable cage
called my thoughts
where doubt is certain all over the four walls

I no longer know where I fit
Feeling like a splat of dirt in the middle of a picture
Like an unwanted dust over a highly expensive vase
That feeling of being a trash in such a clean place

It's driving me crazy
It's utterly familiar to me
I guess it's called *insecurity

They all want to be fit and buff
They curse you with words so rough
Till you drop and blood you shall cough
Better cover your ear with an ear ****
So you wont hear their evil laugh

Why get mad?
We ain't that bad.
Actually you're the reason
to this nightmare that feels like in prison.
Be good, you said.
Have you been showing goodness?
I know that we aren't perfect
but you are a prefect.
Aren't you supposed to show what is right
and tell us everything with a smile so bright?
You can't be a light if you are dim.
Everyone's pointing at us.
Why is it such a fuss?
It wasn't even us.
If only you taught what is needed to be sought.
Then maybe we wouldn't be the one to blame.
Our minds and heart are aflame.
You were the culprits who kindled the flame.
Now it's devouring us.
It causes us to cuss.
Then you'll be outraged
about something completely your fault.

I want to feel the warmth
under a swaying tree
along with you while smiling with glee
that picture
I've been dreaming of
it has been lingering in my train of thoughts

I wonder,
when would that day of calmness come?

just sitting there
enjoying the cool breeze
talking about how life is so
mysterious yet enjoyable

that laid-back moment I've been wanting
when might it be granted....

I have always been afraid to tell, to show, to feel and to express

I can only communicate through unspoken words, written calligraphy, and endless encryption that no one would ever understand

But I hope that one day,
SOMEONE...
would happen to notice the pain, hurt, suffering and torture that I've been keeping at bay....

How do I get to know thee?
You’re even more confusing as you can be
An ancient writing on a papyrus
Hard to decipher yet so clamorous

You’re a puzzling piece of picture
Yet so interesting to venture
Deception is who you are as you say
but you’re still you in every way

A logical dude
Who could most of the time be rude
A ******* gamer
Who has no interest in being a painter

A general, leader, commander
Who can sometimes be a disaster
Yet you are indeed a great person
Whom we could surely count on

it was unexplainable
for I was unable
to be stable
for just a while
yet you came
turned my frown
upside down
even for a bit
you made me complete
again, able to compete
with life's harsh words
which made me tangle in chords
felt like a bunch of turds
but just simply by listening to you
along with your music too
brings joy and happiness
to my thoughts and world of loneliness
even though they're not much
it still managed to put a smile on my face

maybe these are what we call
*simple joys in life

Ang sabi niya sakin "Bat ka pa maghahanap kung nandito lang naman ako?"

Edi syempre sumagot ako "Ikaw ba ang hinahanap ko?"

Behold my ****** beating heart
deranged from the day we became apart
It longs for your twinkling eyes
mirroring your vulnerable soul, I heave heavy sighs

In a dim-lit chamber
through the stairs, I clamber
I clasp my chest
melancholy runs over me the best
witnessing the past along the corridors
my eyes seek for the one my heart adores

Remembering the constellations upon your eyes
I whisper to myself, wonderful lies
Beaming with tears, I fondly held your portrait
pondering upon the thought that i can never be your mate

What if our brains are just huge memory cards?
What if the reason why you're forgetful is because it is deleting stuff to make up space for other stuff?
What if you're brainy and the reason why you're forgetful of memories and blissful times is because your brain deleted them to make up space for memorizing academic related things?
Isn't that just so sad?

I don't want to regret
I no longer want to forget
So I shall accept
That I'd want you to collect
These feelings that I want you to protect

I hope this third time around
No harm would be bound
No intruders shall be found
No obstacles we can't pound*

I want you to be mine
And me to be yours
So forever shall be ours

I reach out and touch the glass
I see you safely in it
naive to the world's harsh reality
then I think to myself
"What a beautiful gem. So near yet so far."

Gazing upon a beautiful picture with smiles painted upon the faces of people who're bound to be together
With my fingers, I caressed and picked up the picture
Slowly sinking it into my memory
Making me remember each genuine smile
Till my hands went numb and the frame went out of my grasp
Shards of broken glass scattered on the floor
A broken image of a strong bond is now weeping in front of my face
With my hands, I picked up each broken glass and they ended up cutting through my skin
It hurts to pick up the broken pieces of such a master piece made by emotions and relationships

That tragic story still hasn't healed and it didn't only leave cut marks upon my hands but also on my heart
Whenever my memory replays that uneventful moment
It strikes a heart string and makes my heart weep

To the world that was once nothing to me,
How and when will I ever see
Who or what you are meant to be?
Is this some kind of special deception?
Some special intervention
To some unknown connection
Why do you have an innocent face?
That seems to put up an act of not knowing your place
A naivete not knowing how to act with grace
I thought I already knew everything by now
Yet you left me with my mouth agape asking "How?"
Now I'm thinking you have lesser thinking capacity than a cow

I just can't ever explain why
Every time i'm with them, I cry

But these aren't tears of fear or sadness
They represent my happiness

Tears of joy if I may say so
I can't even imagine them as a foe

When i'm with them
I feel so alive
Wont even use my revive

I can't afford to lose them
I just want to be with them

They fill my laughter with glee
I'd be so sad if they ever flee

Please stay
I don't want to be left at bay

You were the best
Among the rest

That's why we're weird together
Cause we do things in another manner
Now you ask, "What's the matter?"

I feel down
My face is in a frown

You two are going
leaving

Our weird antics
And those undeniably numerous frantic

All our laughs filled with glee
Are going to be missed by me

Now I don't want you to be blue
This poem is my greatest THANK YOU

as I get a whiff
a sense of relief
overwhelms my entirety
and calms my body

Left to right
Up and down
I can see faces frown
inside the four corners of this town
Only fear can be sensed
Wild beasts suddenly erupting from the dark
slaying innocent living beings
such cruelty
they know no mercy
They must've descended from a hellish place
that doesn't know how to handle such a major case

A date has been set
That date when they said our peace we've already met
and yet, we still came to this
beings - I no longer distinguish as humans, who cant be pleased
If they'll mark this as the end of the world
and the start of an undeniably despicable realm
is humanity now destined to perish?

I don't know anymore
What to think of you
nor with your "I love you"
Cause at one point,
it could heal all my deepest wounds
But could bear the biggest scar

Your words feel like soft marshmallows
Yet the after taste sting like a billion arrows

The way you touch my fragile skin
makes it glow and look flawless
But as it glows
it grows weaker
Then burns into ashes

The way you build me up
then break me down

Tears my soul and I crash onto the ground

I was at my worst
It felt like I wanted to burst
But let me tell you first
How he quenched my thirst

It was something I couldn't bear
I felt fear
Before the forest became clear

There I saw you
Thinking that you have seen me too

In the deep forest you sheltered
The way you live was altered

From then on, you lead the way
I saw beautiful trees sway
Deeper we go as we play
Since that day
Every time we part, I only wish to stay

Each summer i'd come back
To the same place I lost track

Each summer you'd wait for me
We'd be as happy as we can be

The mask covering up your face
I ponder it's purpose on that place

Days went by
Sometimes a kite would fly
Or we'll just go fishing nearby

Yet one summer night stood out
This hasn't just made me pout

We went to a festival
Also kinda like a carnival
Fireworks and all

It was supposed to be my happiest
But it also became my saddest

I wasn't ready to hear your final goodbye
Didn't think i'd cry
It seems like it was just yesterday
     when I heard your first "Hi"

It was tragic indeed
For you made my heart and soul bleed
It may sound like greed
But I never wanted you to leave

Inspiration
When will you come to my IMAGINATION
I don't know what to write
Should I fly a kite?
Or maybe take a bite?
Or perhaps something about a fight.
But I want it to be about LOVE
that symbolizes two doves

I slowly reached out for you
ready to say the words "I Love You"
then I suddenly awoke to the harsh reality
where not a glimpse of fantasy
can be found
cause your allegory is bound.

With just one glance
I was lost in a trance
They say your name is Lancealot
Let them stare
I don't even care
Not even their glare would bother
And who the heck is Arthur?

Stuck between two worlds
I've ran out of audible words
I'm speechless . . . . . . .
All I remember is being caressed
By someone important to me
But I can no longer see
Indeed, there's no black or white
All that there is is a reason to fight
Be it, a lover or a mother
All I could say is "We're not different from one another."
Our diet is different
Our status is different
Our way of living is different
Yet you're just being indifferent
Because you failed to see how alike we are
We also have emotions that you can see from afar
But this harsh reality can never be altered
There's always someone who'll say "I've faltered."
It's just how the chain goes
We have no power to control how a river flows
*So, what choice do I have?

In you, I trust
but leave you, I must
this is all just too much
you left me with my heart to clutch
My insides tumble
your name, I mumble
You left me like a wreck
and got me like what the heck?
Expectations, *expectations, expectations
You were supposed to be my inspiration
but all you ever was my expectation
Now leave you, I must
In you, I no longer trust
You broke it with your own hands
for you only show up with demands
I was never a friend to you
because you're only here when YOU feel blue
You kept trying to convince me that it's true
that you actually care
but here I am saying "It's not fair."
because I can't say no to that look on your face
You always change the pace
I guess it's time
I no longer believe that this will ever sublime

Leave you, I must
*In you, I no longer trust

Don't ever make me think that I made the wrong choice by sticking with you through thick and thin because I might just leave one day and that'll leave you into thinking "why?"
and you'll never know the reason because you never did the effort to make me stay....

The world is so cruel.
The people we wanted to be with the most
is the hardest to be with
cause it feels like the whole world is
against you.
I wonder if there'd be a day
where you and I would stay
and together we shall play
forever to our hearts content.

As another page turns,
something new has to be written
and without you in it
I don't know what'll happen
but one thing's for sure
*I'm gonna miss you.

"Do you like looking at the stars?"

I guess. Maybe.

Yes of course. I have ever since.

"What color is your favorite?"

Not quite sure. Rainbow??

Blue! Definitely blue.

"Do you like pizza?"

yeah.

Yes!  Yes!

You weren't aware
how I was never sure
til' you came but never cared
I've long been searching for a cure
For my uncertainty in life
doubts
insecurity
and cowardice
But you slashed all of those with a knife
And made them all worse
when I thought you had the antidote
never knew I read the wrong note

Now from my faves
they started to become my dislikes
from my midnight craves
now I start to say "yikes"

And that is the summary of your impact
throughout my life~

Don't try to ask me why
   just think of it as my final goodbye

It means you are no longer needed
    you did your part
    and I think you did great

To them, you're just a somebody
But to me, the way you love me unconditionally
It makes me so happy

Cause I know I can depend on you
You will always know what's true
Because it's you
You know when i'm feeling blue
I'm sorry for the pain and sufferings I've caused you
But I know you'll still be here

Thank you for being more than just a mother
You became a nurse (literally), our guide and the best teacher
Thank you for enduring the pain of being away
Just to make us stay
To the very school we wanted to be everyday
No one can ever be greater than you
Because to us
You are the elite! You are the best of the best!

We love you Mama! :D