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If smoking kills , then you be the nicotine !

When you read them you said words were dead
Only mausoleums could be created of them
You spoke the same tongue " words"
And yes you were right ! your words
entombed my living heart but in your love

But these same words archived hope
Only the true seeker could find
What if they created mausoleums ?
I marbled them
with the turquoise white of my tears

Intricately chiseled with love's essence
Only sunlight could ride with the breeze
Into its minarets laid around you , my life confined
As now you slumber in the deep of afterlife
Under the canopy of the crescent moon

Yes I created a mausoleum
A mausoleum of undying love
A mausoleum that crowns you
A mausoleum I called "Taj"*


31/7/2014

Your heart brought with Amnesia.
To study it ,
I slid into your heart ,
making way through your tears
it was dark.
Placing a candle at the grave of your sorrows,
I stitched up your battered ,bleeding heart.
Tendering to the grave turned gardens,
I smuggled sunlight to your dandelion soul.
Drugging you 3 times daily with comfort,
was what I prescribed.
Nothing stays forever , so didn't your illness
and you don't remember me any-longer.
Happy laughter of love echoed ,
in the skies of your fist sized heart.
Wished you a healthy heart ahead,
only with the desire to treat it again .

Come we'll attach a string onto your memories
And put them as lanterns , onto the emerald trees

Inflammable spark like magic is to thrive
Watch then , how the mind's luminosity comes alive

From shade lit afternoons laying blankets beneath the oak
Until ,the moon sprinkles ethereal stardust for us to soak

Let's pen down soul's poetry , to bring back lost hope
While the fireflies make light within the lantern's envelope

There's a calling in those verses ,to rekindle the broken bond
Sharing their poetry on paper boats ,two friends across the pond .

Arising to leave , unkept promises they vow to keep
To meet again , when the sun embraces the other side with a leap.

Let me know when your at the sea ,
And we will hold hands together
When the waves try to get to you
I'll absorb them into my chest
While you protect yourself behind me .

Let our lips whisper underwater
The ripples our messengers
Take our stories to the other ends
Sweetheart there's a world beneath
Where the sun sleeps in the oceans' cradle

At sea there is a calmness I tell you
Where the haziness of the heart
Will flow away
When we leave our footprints on the sands
The sea carries them away
And frames them for the creatures to see
That yes !there are some stories written on her ***** forever to be

Youve been my most impossible possibility
Jeopardy of my accused love

You've been etched into my palm lines
But lost on the crossroads of dilemma

You've been whispering in steamed voices from my coffee
Just to be an unknown visibility

Love ,
Just be back before today settles
As forever into my wrinkles

Before I lay into satan's darkest cloak
Be back love ,
before the stars tear away
from the skies of my eyes.
Just be back .....

23/7/2014

In the heart of blue mountains
lies a star,
robbed of starlight.
Rises he with the faintest spark
between suns and moons,
he will be bright.
In pristine blue dwells he.
Stand before the sun comes,
beyond the horizons, he will be seen
In the heart of the blue mountains.

I borrowed wings ,
from the very wild wind..an unknown breeze.
im on adventures runway

Words impossible to pen down ,
let go like a loose electric wire .
Mixed lines , confused verbiages ,
unsettled like random mosaics.
Composure of the birds disrupted ,
like ripples in the calm water .
Running with my life onto my palms ,
over to topple .. gasping to breakfree.
Lost identities , scars of the past rooted deeper.
I want to run , walk , fall but not stop ,
i want to caravan the world , conquer speed.
I dont want to be tagged intelligent ,
to meet the social benchmarks .
I want to set myself loose , breakfree cross boundaries,
i want to be a ROGUE NINJA.
I want to let the untamed breeze fill my hair ,
I want to live ....
Theres no point penning down your thoughts with perfected adjectives..
    JUST BREAKFREE.

Wanting to rip your throat out ,
To drink of your bleeding heart ,
Kissing you at the same time ...
Darling my love s cannibalistic .

In the frost garbed winter all I could notice was her
While delicately she let the tea fall into the cup
Her spell binding beauty magically won me over

Roaring oceans in her eyes
The sun bathes in them to
Birth dawns to embellish her skies
I noticed over the cup of tea

Spring sprouted alive in her smile
Fuchsia gave away on her cheeks
She tames seasons in her own style
I noticed over another cup of tea

Winds matted her hair with wild lilies
Her every step like favours on carpeted heavens
She commanded every breath in the stone alleys
I noticed over the cups of tea*....

Arc of light that lit your tears,
couldn't  lighten the darkest of your eyes.

Last night it shone in the skies,
the same arc with the purest light.

My riddled mind failed to read,
the arc was nothing but the moon itself,

because darker than the skies ,
he found your eyes with darkest skies

Through my lungs to my heart , smoked you like a volatile joint ,
Your love proposition , holding my impotent life at gunpoint.
As you embroided my life with lacerate scars of pain and deceit,
Which I merely clothed myself hemming my love pleat by pleat .
Stripping me down you flung me like half smoked cigarette ****,
That’s when I knew you created that crater deep till my gut
                                 But life is a drama backstaged with chances,
Once again it would rain on you a downpour of judgement,
Then ill be the sky to judge with a turbulent temperament.
I want the thunder to clap in approval and gain ,
The darkness to blanket my self inflicted pain .

But again you breathe I love you into the air …and I melt my life once again before you  .. because   simply I love you.

State of celestial journey
Soul returns to oneness
With the universel power

I want to fight till the end
Till I'm destroyed
My hopes would die
When the words and poetry wither
away from my books
Like the tree loses it's leaves ....

Can you tell me how to forget you....

I write poetry in my eyes
Gazing up at the stars
For you to read

If someday the world is turned upside down !
Would you care
To be my companion ?

The sky will be an endless pool,
We'll dive into the blue and drink of it.
I'll plant a tree at its shore ,
A tree of our hopes,
Watered with our deepest desires.
I'll tie a swing of our dreams on its branches,
And we'll soar higher into heavens.

If someday the world is turned upside down ,
Would you care
To be my companion ?

We'll kiss the suns sprouting ray
of crimson hue,
And the moon would sing us
Sweet lullabies by night
Trust me ! We'll ride the winged breeze
And write our adventures on earth's *****.

If someday the world is turned upside down ,
Would you care
To be my companion ?

Sometimes I wonder what went wrong
The pain of being alone keeps haunting
Was it destiny that created the crater in my life ?
People call it choices I guess ...
People write about ...
Pain
Being unwanted
Lonely
Depression
Trauma
Love
***
Happiness
But I Knw I'm a lost cause gasping on mortality ...
Signing off .... Ciao

I try to blur my mind wid smoke
So dat your memories don't cast their shadows again
I'm inking all of dis down wid the blue nd black pain
As it gushes through my veins like adrenaline rush
I listen to the music we used to submerge into...
but tht brings back the painstaking turbulence within...
Through liquid tears filling the brim of my eyes
.... But
But the truth is the world robbed both of us of each other .....
And now dat I'm dead on the inside my pain is incarcerated within ...
Everyday wid every drag I stab u living inside me ,
Now tht you've left me all alone .. bleeding
Coz you've done dis ....
You hve to breathe widout me if dats Wat brings u happiness ...
I have to let you go ...Coz I love you ,
Coz ....
My heart says love him ,
My mind says hate him ...but they both wish I had him .... I'll always luv you

If I skip a heartbeat .. I would end up dead
You're tht one heartbeat I neva wanna skip.

I keep waiting for you , thinking about you
When the sun has painted the sky in pale tint of orange
Though I'm stuck in dis time lapse... I cud skip a heartbeat for you ...

Destiny conspired against us .. to separate us forever
Miles and miles I have walked ...searching for you
Evry thudder of my heart echoes wid your memories ...Coz I cud skip a heartbeat for you ....

I loved you to the point of zenith nd the pain as well tht you gave me
I hope to tranquil this pain of mine ..hence I cud skip a heartbeat for you ...

I'll always be waiting for you , coz hope is the only rule tht the human race has thrived on
Our destinies will collide again , once again the universe would conspire for you to be mine ...
and that day again ...I promise I'll skip a heartbeat for you ....

Often wondering did I fall for someone like you ??
                  I wonder ....

How I coudnt read through that perfect mask of devilry ,
       that was laced with impregnable tenderness and chivalry .
                  I wonder ....

How you kept wounding me insidiously like a double edged sword ,
       I not knowing countless pieces of me shattered for the record .
                  I wonder ....

How like a diseased infection you for me brewed malice ,
       Inspite I kept infusing your venomous love into my every nerve and segment ...
           Coz baby " your love is my drug "
                   I'm ADDICTED TO YOU .

Only mockingly mimicking me , sitting across the glass
Though dark I'm born from light! , on looking he whispers alas!
He boasts his love's as deep as his colour
Like beggar on knees , he pleads with her
To let be ever present , to be around me
Crafty light absorbed in sneaking only to see
Oblivious to my chary black eyes , Yes! she lets him
" shadow " he's called makes way from within.

I drink you with my eyes ,
You run into my veins ,
Like adrenaline rush .
My thoughts are louder ,
I whisper to my heart...hush!

I see you ,
Like fresh perfume,
You linger in my breath .
You finally appear here,
On my paper until death...

I see you*.

Its 11 pm , my body quivers as your holding my hand to your room ,
the empty air in there ... enchanted with your perfume .
ive dressed the best i could , i inhale deep so that you could slip deep into my mind and kiss me all ova , (theres a tiny giggle in the throat ).
im suddenly shaken outta my thoughtful slumber to realize that youve ****** in my lips holding them in a deep wet kiss.....
though i pulled back unwantedly , ive harboured this habit of returning favours ....
So i entwine my tongue wid yours , you moving deeper and deeperas i grip your hair.
you look at my bare body wid lust as if to find a treasure,
cupping them gently youve learnt the art to mould  them as you wish.
No sooner i realize youre breathing hot and smearing me with kisses while suddenly you ****** deeper...
the empty hollow inside my heart feels like it was neva there,
Ive spread wide again aligning myself to yours as a composed and sensous smile dances on your as well as my lips ...
an assuring serenity youve bought me ... always ..as i only desire to lie beneath ur warm chest ...

When your palms melted into mine
I etched new lines
Leaving behind every sign
While distances grew in the darkest light
Look for the signs like secret written on lighted windows

The pen has swallowed death,
needs magic to breath life into words.
The night sky holds the hidden,
so is poetry to ink...
hope the stars twinkle again ,
to send some magic mingled with the rain*....

Oh you're beauty a raging flame,
           Set ablaze.....
Sets me to sing the Malhar Rag to bring down the rains .