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Apr 6 · 938
Finding You
Humble Apr 6
When was the last time you were truly happy,
not merely existing but truly alive?
When was the last time you smiled sincerely,
not that rehearsed facade?

When was the last time you were honest with yourself,
embracing your flaws and strengths,
saying what was in your mind,
genuine and unfiltered?

When was the last time laughter flowed freely,
genuine and unrestrained?

When was the last time you spoke passionately,
about something you love deeply?
When was the last time you loved yourself deeply,
accepting every part of who you are?
When was the last time your heart was in sync with your mind,
free and unburdened?

So tell me, when was the last time you were truly you?
Dec 2023 · 504
Number two
Humble Dec 2023
Once dubbed 'number two,' a label, a haunting echo, a constant reminder,
From a third year’s Scrabble match that left me second best, the genesis of a nickname I hated.

The bitter taste of second place, a memory stark,
A reminder of striving, of yearning, yet falling short.
Averse to the shadow of 'not quite,' 'almost there, but...'

It's funny how being second haunted me,
Always striving to escape my past and secrets.
I've hidden the truth about my family,
A split that's more than what the world knows, I’ve always been ‘the secret child’
A narrative whispered, diluted, for ears unacquainted.
Universe never seize to mock me with it.

Contemplating the roads I could have paved better,
Guarding what was precious, fortifying with fervor,
I’m here , pondering the 'what ifs' and 'maybes,'
A lament for the present, with heavy eyes and teary-eyes. Regrets linger for not trying harder.

Three years invested, hopes were shattered,
I don't blame you for trying to rebuild, giving it another try.
Instead, I blame fate, the ‘Universe’ A relentless orchestrator, marking me perennially 'two,'
Even when love briefly eased the burden.

Now, in the quiet of night, in sorrow's embrace I write,
Words once sweet now tinged with pain,.
I've been through a rollercoaster of emotions,

For days now, you’ve witnessed my descent and ascent, I blamed you, I tried being strong, became a wreck, got drunk to prove a point, isolated , sought validation from internet, found myself overwhelmed by the attention and tried to convince everyone ‘I’m fine’,  I felt numb.
Right now I’m just a shattered soul seeking solace in poetry’s embrace.
Every emotion, a verse, every thought, a line inscribed, writing seems to be my only solace.

To the boy I loved and wanted to give it all to, I’m thinking of you and I just want you to always be happy, being second doesn’t mean I can’t still be your number one cheerleader.
We always thought alike and wanted the same things; I do not wish to hate you as you don’t want it too.
I want to keep you as much as you want to do with me ,
Let's move past this, erase the awkwardness,
Let not animosity tarnish what affection once graced,
I hope we can salvage our friendship soon.
Love
Mar 2022 · 1.4k
Sad thing
Humble Mar 2022
I’ve died many times before,
and nobody knows

I’ve fought and struggled,
hurt and bleed to death over and over

but the sad thing is,

when I die,
people will think it's the first time.
Mar 2022 · 1.2k
unselfish
Humble Mar 2022
I think I deserve this,

I’ve always covered myself
with a blanket of fear,
that way,
I don’t fall in love with you

I was protecting myself
from getting hurt when this thing
between us goes sour,
I didn’t think about your feelings too.

Classic me, always selfish

Here I am now, loving you and
you’re slipping away from me.
I don’t want to lose you, but
maybe it’s time I became selfless
and just let you go.

I deserve this ache in my heart.
Jun 2019 · 559
scared
Humble Jun 2019
this silence between us,
is like an egg,
the answers we seek is inside,
but we're just too scared to break it.
Apr 2019 · 702
Almost
Humble Apr 2019
I almost didn't
survive you leaving me

but,
I think I would
have died anyway
if you stayed.
Apr 2019 · 438
Return
Humble Apr 2019
I didn't think
you'd return back to me
but you did.

You shouldn't have,
because now, you're
just a familiar stranger.

I neither hate nor love you.
Apr 2019 · 1.1k
Wardrobe
Humble Apr 2019
As a kid,
I thought wardrobes
really led people to Narnia

As a tenager,
it became a place
that held all the secrets
of seven minutes in heaven.

Now, it's just another
chaotic part of my life

Memories
yet to be sorted out,
Secrets still hidden deep in
like your shirts.

That leaves me believing
that wardrobe is
just a fancy name
for cemetery,
for memories and secrets.
Apr 2019 · 476
Problems
Humble Apr 2019
Problems aren't
toothbrushes.

so learn to share them.
Apr 2019 · 582
Strangers
Humble Apr 2019
Two days of
silence,
turned to years,
and
just like that
we became strangers.
Mar 2019 · 281
Poetry
Humble Mar 2019
Poetry is like painting,
the way artists gives life to a blank canvas,
beautifying the world with colours.
Is the same way writers give life to a blank page,
making the world beautiful with words.
It's international day of poetry, What does poetry mean to you?
Mar 2019 · 312
Heartbreak
Humble Mar 2019
Heartbreak,
is watching your phone
fall and then your screen cracks
looking like Spider-Man's web.

Until then,
you haven't experienced heartbreak.
Ughhhh
Mar 2019 · 608
Women
Humble Mar 2019
We need
A world where women
are not objectified
but are instead dignified

Because a world without women
would be a wasteland
Women should be appreciated and respected.
Feb 2019 · 504
Peace
Humble Feb 2019
If there was no war,
I don't think "peace" would have been a word.
Feb 2019 · 416
Room
Humble Feb 2019
My room is like my mind
In order now,
Chaotic next,  
A continuous cycle of beauty and mess
Feb 2019 · 473
Ecstasy
Humble Feb 2019
Shower me with some reckless love
Let me drown in endless ecstasy.
Feb 2019 · 417
Dreams are fire
Humble Feb 2019
From sparks
to flames
and flares
Then to a blazing fire
That's how dreams are
You tame it
lest it becomes an inferno
and consumes everything
Feb 2019 · 308
I still wait
Humble Feb 2019
I still make two cups of tea every morning
I still help you to run the bath
I still pick out a tie for you
I still ask Charlie to make breakfast for two
I still change the channel to your favorite sport channel every morning
I still receive your daily paper and I still think it's weird that you read those
I still go out to the Dunes hoping to meet you waiting
I still turn on the night light by your side of the bed just the way you do
I still make room for you on the bed hoping you'd get in when you get back from work late

Your sister came by the other day
She drank the second tea
She thanked me for running her a bath
She asked me to donate your stuffs to charity
She ate the breakfast I asked Charlie to make just how you like
She changed the sports channels to watch the morning news
She cancelled your paper subscription
She made us eat at another restaurant
She slept on your side of the bed with me and switched off the light on her side

Your sister says they care about me
and needed me to move on

I don't think life and love ends in death...well mine didn't
I wait each day for you to walk in, say you missed your flight and took a different one
that there was no network that's why you haven't called
or that you were kidnapped or something
Just so you can end my grief
This grief is the only thing stronger than my love for you.
Jan 2019 · 449
Clouds
Humble Jan 2019
Sometimes, when it rains
I wonder,
"do clouds,
feel broken too?"
Jan 2019 · 288
Mad World
Humble Jan 2019
The world has gone crazy,
everyone in the society
questions my spirituality,
They want to know about my financial ability,
my ethnicity and nationality,
my physical capability,
my intellectual capacity,
and my sexuality,
but never about my mental and emotional stability .
Jan 2019 · 369
Switch
Humble Jan 2019
The light I
seek is here
within me, if
only I see the switch.
One time, I had a mental breakdown and a friend said to me "you keep searching for light outside, you have to understand that this light and happiness you look for is inside of you, if only you can find your way in this darkness and see the switch"
It never made sense then, until I discovered that I hold the power to liberate myself from misery and hopelessness.
Jan 2019 · 327
Mirage
Humble Jan 2019
Hope is a mirage,
to those lost,
in this desert
called life.
Jan 2019 · 602
Undeserved Love
Humble Jan 2019
In my haze,
I watched love walk away
never saying goodbye.

"Please come back",
I wanted to call out to it
but I couldn't find my voice

In my numbness,
I couldn't bring myself to go after it.
I just laid helpless,
as it left without looking back.

I didn't even deserve it anyway.
Jan 2019 · 436
Friends
Humble Jan 2019
Some friends are like ice cream on a hot summer day, so sweet yet they give you brain freeze.
Jan 2019 · 19.6k
Letter to self
Humble Jan 2019
Dear me,
Don't just sit
Rise, and pursue greatness.

Don't just watch
Go after what you want.

Don't just exist
Strive and start living.

Don't just dream
Work hard and aim for success.

Don't get tired
Keep hiking until you get to the peak.
Jan 2019 · 185
Hope
Humble Jan 2019
Hope is what keeps us alive,
the tinniest ray can save.
A life without hope,
Is like being in a dark room.
You lose balance,
And sense of directions
Even your steps are slow.
So, Hope is light
Endeavor to keep it burning.
©humble_edward
Jan 2019 · 235
God
Humble Jan 2019
God
My life is nothing
Without God,
In it.
He is everything to me
I'm hopeless and helpless if not for God
Dec 2018 · 368
Light
Humble Dec 2018
My life needed light,
With words.
That's why I write.
Dec 2018 · 567
Roses
Humble Dec 2018
I've always hated roses
Maybe because they're
So flawless compared to my messed up life
Very beautiful compared to my scared skin
It's amazing scent compared to my rotten soul
But a part of me loves roses
Because it has thorns just like me
We both hurt unsuspecting people
Dec 2018 · 722
Spread love
Humble Dec 2018
Love is the only thing that can quench this blazing fire of hatred in the world.
Merry Christmas
Spread the love
Dec 2018 · 1.3k
Silence
Humble Dec 2018
My silence is deafening but my screams are unheard
Dec 2018 · 322
Live
Humble Dec 2018
Don't lose yourself to sorrow
Embrace joy and live for a better tomorrow
Dec 2018 · 1.5k
Life
Humble Dec 2018
As beautiful as a rose is,
it has lots of thorns
So is life,
Very beautiful but it also gets rough
Dec 2018 · 302
Dreams
Humble Dec 2018
In dreams,
There are no limits,
Until reality knocks.
Dec 2018 · 332
No Hope
Humble Dec 2018
They told me hope's  an entity
So, I went after that vanity
That I lost my sanity
Fraught became my specialty
Now I lack originality
And every sense of humanity

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