We believe in patience, we believe in time.

Let them wound us till it looks furs covering our body of pride,

To bow down to the very same ground that they spit on,

A gentleman is a patience wolf,

When we gathered enough, we would hunt them down one by one,

When the time is right, we still feast like the beast we are.

I'll tell you as story,
She was different,
I'll tell you why,
She lost love and all hope,
She cries herself to sleep,
The heart can only beats,
To the hollow that it holds,
She doesn't have to cut herself,
Because the pain she feels are more permanent,
Like a disease slowly eating her up.


Let me tell you more,
She was surely different,
Her family was all fine,
Her parents are good,
They didn't have any money complications,
But she couldn't fit in,
Always a stranger to her own house,
A foreign place to which she calls home,
Telling her that she's just thinking too much,
And the problem was with herself.


I'm going to tell you more,
She was not like others,
She didn't cry or ask for help,
Not even for a little light for the day,
She held it all in,
Accepting all her hate for herself,
She expressed them in words that which is for no one to see,
She would lay wake on her bed all night thinking what was wrong,
Even when she sleeps; She was not free,
Her nightmares are equally worse.


I'll tell you her better part,
Or at least some part better,
She has her friends,
At one point she felt like she was in a group,
Like somehow there's a place that she could fit in,
But as time flies,
They started to know her,
And they didn't like it,
They started to hate,
Her so called friends would backstab her,
Even when she already has her back against the wall.


So there's nothing much to tell,
She just doesn't belong,
Being with her own mind,
Which she didn't understand herself,
Always trying to figure out what's wrong with her,
Looking out for the worst of everything.


-HIY

Hold that pen a little longer,

Write about it some more,

It may seems like you're holding your own noose,

But its better than to let your neck do the holding.


-HIY

You brought her across the world;
Without realising that;
You've dragged her all the way.
Barking her skin and breaking her bones
As you kept holding her hands.

-HIY

She is flawed, yet she is kind.
She help others but she lies.
She is always ******* herself even when she always breaks.
That is what you might not see, and you
will not hear her asking for help.
You can feel that she is just not whole to begin with.

-HIY

Our body-
Is like a bunch of cigarettes;
With the filters on our fingertips.
You might think its gonna start at the ends.
Truth is,
It's gonna start from the inside.
And the fire is lit from your heart.

-HIY

You were known as a man of few words,

Yet you spoke of a thousand advice,

You held in all the pain,

So no one can hear your cries.


It's never my intention to argue with you,

I grew up knowing more of the ill toungue,

Been taught to detest;debate and prove myself right,

Since I was very young.


I wasn't there most of the time,

But don't mistook me for seeking freedom,

Such are not within my wish,

All that was so you can be there with them.


You left-

My dream is now broken.

Its all for the love,

That I might never have shown.


In my prayers and our memories,

Is where you stay,

Because Goodbye,

Is something I could never say.


-HIY

Another day that passed,

Has been another day away from it,

The further I am,

The more painful it is.


I never expected it to be so soon,

For I am not ready yet,

I was never ready for it,

But now its just a memory.


One that is fading,

One that is becoming more distant,

One that I could never move on from,

I never wish to forget.


-HIY

Welcome to the show,

You have no right for a question,

All you can do is to follow.


Money is your priority,

You must not get yourself broke,

Medias are your examples,

Be whatever they have shown you to be.


You must follow your cycle,

To leave behind everything you gain,

For someone esle to own.


If you ever had a second thoughts,

Alcohol is your answer,

If that doesn't shut those thoughts,

Blast your ears with music till you can hear no more.


-HIY

My demons,

Have never spoken a word,

They were always silent,

But they never left,

Even for a second.


They grinned once in a while,

Smiling while looking at me,

Yet they have never touched me,

Or took even a step closer.


They're not doing anything,

Just patiently waiting,

Maybe that was their desire,

Just to see me fall,

Watching every step to the fall.


-HIY

Her love was overwhelming,

Strong as the tide,

But fragile as the water surface,

Anything can break through.


Take that as not a chance,

As one might drown themselves.

You might lose yourself,

As you dive into her love deeper.


She will take your breath,

And she will give her all,

Give yourself more,

And her currents will pull you deeper.


-HIY

A king rides his horse to the battlefield,

Leading a battle that he believed himself.

The knights surround their king,

In belief that they are willing to die for a better cause.

The soldiers march on the front line,

With believe that this victory would bring them back to their families.


Along ride the army of the kingdom,

With their own beliefs that brought them together.

Even in a dreadful event,

There is always something that would bind one to another.


Be it for different beliefs,

Someone is bound to strand by and fight with you.

Even if it's just for a moment,

They are there to help you win.



-HIY

The love of the dark,

The longing of the emptiness,

The sense of calmness in the sleepless nights,

Where else can I find such peace than seeing the coming.


Head sunk in thoughts,

To the paper beneath my fist,

With the smoke from the cigarette,

That would be what I write about.


I did not write to reach people,

But to step away from them,

Continuously struggling away from attachments,

Even if its the right one.


Anyone could be a hero,

Its the day by day action is my kryptonite,

Repeating the same routine,

That shall be the death of me.



-HIY

I'm all torn,

With no more reason to go on,

I've just lost,

All the will to survive,

Since you've walk away,

Out of my life,

This is too much.


You've sworn,

That you'd never be gone,

You've crossed,

All the trust that I have,

I couldn't see a day,

In my life,

Without your touch.


Just wait where you stand,

Don't you wanna see what I've planned?


-HIY

Being away helps me forget,

Helps me lift the pain,

Helps lighten the worry.


Time would go faster,

Till it'll only just be a memory,

And the memory will fade,

Just like that.


But I don't want to forget.


-HIY

For every time you sleep,

She's still falling apart,

For every dream you had,

She's still haunted by the memories.

But she had never stopped fixing herself,

For all she needed was time.


She could still feel the hurt,

She held it all in,

Just so you won't see it,

That accepting is better than letting go,

For all she needed was time.


-HIY

A step away from the ledge,

Tremble oh dear old knees,

For she who spoke death,

Could feel nothing but the dark cold breeze.


A heart so torn,

Knows nothing who she believes,

Ripped over and over again,

Its nothing for what the demon has seized.


They mind speaks of hope,

But none that shows a way,

To get over this hell,

She only wished to live another day.


Her hand is what she fears,

Hiding them as they bear flames,

Burning everything she holds dear,

In the end it would its ashes the same.


It was not like in the books,

They wear no mask or disguise,

They were friends that went partways,

Bringing her only demise.


The demons sung only warmth,

Bringing down her own guard,

And here she was left on the ledge,

With the leap as her last Card.


-HIY

I may have all the wires and fuses to make you explode,

But he will forever hold the detonator and take you anytime he want to.



-HIY

I'm all crashed and burnt,

I took the wheels,

And I took the turn,

And I know that it's real.


You never moved,

Unshaken of the coming end.

We collided,

But you left unbroken.


Now I'm still here half dead,

But you moved to another car.


-HIY

Someone I adored once told me;
You won't see the shadows when you put your face to the sun.
But all i ever thought was;
Who would be there to save the ones in the dark?

-HIY

A Disney's story,
Is the dream for all,
A dream to be saved,
A dream of a savior,


For what she wished like Cinderella,
A blue dress like a princess,
Even for just one night,
A special night not like the rest.

-HIY

You began to wonder,
If it is real,
If your heart is beating right,
Whether it is really what you feel.

Somewhere between thoughts,
You knew exactly what it is,
Your eyes saw it coming from a millennia away,
But your heart wants it as it is.

The cold, bitter truth,
Has never looked so sweet,
You can blame your hopes for that,
Because your dreams are something you cannot meet.

-HIY

Here I am,
Stuck between miseries,
Even when I found happiness,
I would eventually be blinded on the road ahead,
Or somehow lose balance to either miseries by my side.

I could not shake them off,
Nor that I want to,
Because they are a part of me,
Without it,
I will only be lost.

So here I am,
In between lines,
Still far from where I'm heading,
but I'm still moving.

-HIY

If you ever stop moving,
I would wind you back up,
If you ever get lost,
I would set back the tracks,
If someone would break you,
I would fix you,
You may sound like a toy to them,
But you are a treasure to me.

-HIY

Like a fire burning from your very soul,
Your mind trembles to what your skin may touch,
The fire have yet not stop burning,
As if the flames were always a part of you.

-HIY

Like a blade piercing her heart,
His word bleed of broken trusts,
For what they vowed of forever,
He left her when he was ever needed the most.

Rusty tongue seeks for forgiveness,
But the heart remembers the deep wound,
Of the cold steel that torn them both apart,
From the only one she holds dear.

-HIY

For she too believes in happy ever after,
But after what she's been through,
Those deceits and broken trusts,
Its not wrong for her to build her walls higher.

-HIY

Between the two endings,
To her, Hell wouldn't be the lesser choice,
At least she knows it's always gonna hurt,
The demons are always gonna lie,
All of them will stab her back,
And they won't even try to be sincere.

Knowing that they are who they are
It wouldn't hurt that much,
Than being hurt by the masked angels,
with their tainted wings.

Perhaps hell wouldn't be so bad.
And maybe that's why she finds comfort in hell.

-HIY

Like a bird whose wings are broken,
You are the one that couldn't follow the motion.
You can't fly like the others,
Nor you can blend in with their feathers.

Some part of you accepted that you can't fly,
That you like it down here ; being different.
But at times you just wondered why,
What is it about you that made you insignificant.

-HIY

"The king has fallen"

A majestic castle,
A thousand arsenal,
For he just leaves it,
He leaves them all.

A mourning queen,
A king-to-be prince,
One betrothed princess,
One warrior princess,
One prince in the war front,
One prince in the castle fort,
And one prince in the study.
These are what left of the mighty king.

Tis not a story of war,
Tis not a story of romance,
But tis a story of a battle,
Of the mighty king himself,

The Phyton King,
Or so he was called,
Was no match with the Viper king,
And the Cobra king,
Kings that he called brothers,
Have poisoned him;
Slowly killing him.

His kingdom was never on the top,
But it was the most peacefull,
But his rival kings;
Were always trying to topple him.

They can full charge him from front,
Ambush him from the sides,
Sneak in from the back,
But he has never shaken.

For decades,
He stood strong,
He remain unscathed,
But years of defense has weaken him from inside,
He has only hold them in,
With no effort to call for aid.

And that was his killing,
Being silent,
And never fighting back.


-HIY

Like how a star commits to constellations;

She said.

And that's how she promised herself.

But little did I know;

That constellations were never real,

It's a make-believe of one's imaginary.

It's a way to divide one from the many,

But serve no purpose other than status.


Like how a star commits to constellations;

She said.

And that's what I believed.

Boy was I a fool;

That constellations consists of other stars as well,

It's a series of connection with others,

As one star could die and be replaced by another.

And it takes a century for them get back together.


-HIY

Keep backing her up,

Keep helping her stand up,

Keep protecting her,

She might not see it now,

But you should be still doing it when she does.


-HIY

She asked me,

I hesitated.

And I lost her.



-HIY

Such beauty,
Such grace,
Following her around,
Supporting her back,
Pushing her forward when she is shoved back,
Blocking incoming hits when she is knocked down,
But she has not looked at you,
She would not look at you,
Because you're always at her back.
Once you are no longer supporting her,
And she would be cornered down,
Then she would see you,
But only as someone who let her down.

-HIY

At times ,
I thought about how the glass will hold long,
Those cracks are not getting any smaller,
Those things you see beyond will be your killing,
Being able to see them everyday but could not even reach for them.

When those glass breaks,
I'm not sure which would hurt you first-
By the dangers you've been seeing from inside,
Or by the glass shards falling from above,
I do not know.

As for me,
I will keep taking care of you; even from the outside,
I will cut those thorns that might tangle you,
And i will keep fixing those cracks.
Even when you're no longer living

-HIY

I'm not stopping you from taking those pills,
Or from those lines on your wrists,
You can burn your thighs,
Or scream your lungs out.
I will not stop you.


How you've lost yourself to many sleepless nights,
Or to the times you've wasted thinking,
If this is how you fight,
Then don't even think about stopping.


No one should blame you for trying to face it,
Trying to fix it,
Trying to mend yourself,
Now this is my help.

Those scars,
Those eye bags,
Only shows your will to survive,
Your effort to be alive.


-HIY

It starts with a dream,
Seeing a garden full of hope,
A wonder full of goodness,
People can be easily blinded by that.

Losing sight of what they tend to forget,
Turning a blind sight to what they should be wary of,
Sometimes its hard to believe,
That nightmares are dreams too.

So what makes a person forget,
Is the possibility of something you love,
could become your killing,
After all, the devil was once an angel too.

-HIY

Hey little flower,

How could you be so down?
Your petals are all wilted,
Your leaves are curling back to you.

Why did you let it be that way?
You know you can do better,
You deserved happiness even with yourself.

Thank you for showing me that it's possible to live again,
Without you, I wouldn't be here today,
So I'm returning the favor to you.

So hold on just a bit,
I'll help you get through with it,
I'll water you when you're down and take care of you myself.

-HIY

She is one of those dreams,
Where you're half awake,
And you're not sure if you're dreaming;
Or if it's real.

Even if it's just a dream,
I wouldn't even try to wake up,
Because this version of reality is much better;
Than what we've actually been.

Scary as I might get fully awake,
I would prefer falling even further.
I couldn't help myself;
But to chase this paralytic state.


-HIY

Her voice began as whispers to the people's soul,
And quickly grew to a crescendo of battle cry for the fighting spirits.
She raised her hands and say "We are not the ones who are weak today",
With thunder-like roar stood the soldiers of today.

Spears came down like rain to the battlefield,
With only shields on their arms as their salvation.
War horses came charging in the front line,
Breaking down all means of defense from the front.

Those spears are not spears,
But words that society has poured upon them,
Those horses are horses,
But judgmental peers pressured their very existence.

While she is just one person,
Just a little voice in the midst of the dying world,
"Live life as if it was your last" She chanted,
Was enough as an inspiration to keep on going,


-HIY

Known with his many masks,
Comes in various forms.
Like a virus;every second only makes him stronger
Overpowering you over your own body,
Such strength that could even shut your mind.
With license to ****;
Murdering your dreams,
Stealing away your hopes.
He who has ****-counts way higher than failure ever did.


HIY

It may be a strange behaviour for you,
To like someone that you don't know,
To understand their feelings as if they were my own,
To accept their thoughts even when it doesn't add up with reality.

But you have never seen yourself from a different view,
Believe me you'll fall too.

-HIY

She sits there on the ledge,
With her sanity on the edge,
For the hell that has been set upon her,
Only because she is like none other.

Her heart has been torn apart,
From her very soul,
Being tortured for so long that;
She forgot how to be whole.

The flames first came ever gently,
Only warming her heart,
But as fire's nature to burn,
It's only foolish to think that you won't get hurt.

The fire never stopped rising,
Burning everything that she knows about her past,
The ashes kept building around her
Changing herself to black to red to white ever so fast.

There is one spot that the fire doesn't burn,
And it is only at the ledge,
Others would see her as if she's suicidal,
When actually she's just saving herself.

-HIY

Some said that she's there for a reason,
And some said; it's just for the show.
What is the value of her presence-
Of which she does not know also.

She was not taught how reach the sun,
She's left there to grow on her own.
To see how others can get along,
Is something she never did understand.

Whenever she tried to blossom,
Someone else would shun her growth,
And cut the veins for her to breath.
No wonder she's just there withering in the corner.


-HIY

I lay here awake,
After so long.
It was different from before.
There was no rose garden to begin with,
but it was never this bad.

I've seen outside,
But I'm still glad that i woke up,
Something about now makes me feel more alive,
Because finally I'm not feeling sad.

It makes me wonder,
What did i actually left behind,
Was it a certain person or was it the season,
What did i actually had?

-HIY

looking around seeking help,

seeing nothing but shadow below your feet,

trying to move another step, but being strong has its limits,

if i could just stay still for a moment, without worrying about not achieving,

but tis not something i afford to take.



-HIY

Head down looking at the strings that she plucked on her guitar,

Hair just short above the collar of her shirt,

Mouthing to every piece that she's playing,

Nodding to every notes that she pressed,

It's hard not to fall to that sight.


But one must remember the danger of falling,

And denying it will only make it worse.

All that one can do is stay,

In what follows, at least that much is better for both of them.


-HIY

If you are ever afraid one day,
When its just all too much to bear,
When running only brings you down,
Then and only then come to me,
I will greet your demons and introduce myself,
So that they know you're no longer alone.

I think, every person resembles like flowers,
Some are gloriously known and craved by many,
And some shy away in their nature,
But regardless, they have beauty in they own ways.

Some are so delicate; and so gentle,
While some grow thorns around them to protect themselves.

But as like flowers,
There's growth;
A vital point to which shapes it to how it can be,
And there's life;
As to which it fully blooms,
Either appreciated for its beauty or taken away for others perusals,
Lastly; There's wilting,
The crucial moment where the flower itself is cherished to its final petals,
Or left to rot when its beauty is ****** out from its veins.

I only wished to be a garden,
To the flowers that shed their own tears to water themselves,
To the flowers that grew sideways to get the sunlight,
To the flowers that just refused to show their beauty;
In the thought of being plucked,
I may not be a garden for all, but i will try to give out my soil to as much as there is out there.

Because like flowers, we need help.




-HIY

If she could only see,

How far I've reached out for her,

I may have not been the shoulder she could trust her head on,

But my hands have been holding out even before she was drowning


-HIY