"dissappear" poems
Today you told me you want something real
And when I’m with you that’s just how I feel.
I feel real, and loved, and a great sense of pride!
When I’m with you I get all these butterflies.
I look at you and my head starts spinning
And I can’t tell who is really winning.
We agreed that it was all just pretend
But now I don’t know if I want this to end.
It’s 5am and my thoughts you still taunt
But every day it’s my heart that you haunt.
I search in my dreams but you cannot be found.
I try to scream that I love you without making a sound!
I have all of these others to occupy my time
But when I’m with you I can really unwind.
You talk like you’re ready to soon dissappear
But all I really want is for you to stay here.
My problem is, can I stay committed?
I don’t even know how you can really admitt it…
You say you still love her, but you want another?
I thought that was why we were here for eachother.
You can see us together, you’ve told me before.
Now I wish you would tell me that it’s time for more…
I think I lied and I fear that I’m losing,
Or maybe I’m just greedy, it’s all so confusing.
I don’t think I’m ready to stop all my fun,
But sometimes I wish you were my only one.
Jun 28, 2012
Jun 28, 2012 at 12:17 PM UTC
The goth doesnt know what she wants anymore
her head deep in thought as she falls to the floor
spinning in circles her torment is clear
the blackness is back and wont dissappear
time is a healer or so they all say
but here in her head the ghosts are at play
tearing her insides and shredding her soul
breaking her being death becoming her goal
will she be missed probably not
no grave with a headstone just left there to rot
neither alive nor permantly dead shes left to wander
the path in her head.
Sep 29, 2010
Sep 29, 2010 at 6:13 AM UTC
I've begun a war, i wanna abandon.
But the love in me, the one you can't see, is the only reason im here.
I wanna defeat gravity.
I wanna be high and woke.
I wanna blow all these thoughts and the **** called feelings up in smoke.
I want that liquor in my hands and my *** on the floor.
Till i find my way, i won't take steps no more.
Don't wanna go home, cause walls gives the body warmth not the soul.
Give me words to express how i feel.
I don't wanna be real.
I wanna dissappear into the crowds, and not come out.
In my own world.
Im gonna cover up, i won't let them know.
Cover up, i won't let it show.
Cover up.....my broken soul
Oct 2, 2018
Oct 2, 2018 at 9:24 AM UTC
No, I don't mind,
If you leave me here.
There's no reason I can find
To not let you dissappear.
Sure, it's okay,
To hang out with that guy,
Even though we had plans for today.
No, I believe that he's gay. You never lie.
You know I don't care if you call me dirt.
Or when you say you're too hot for me.
Of course seeing you kiss him didn't hurt.
Yup, it wasn't what it looked like. I agree.
Honey, you're always right.
I know, I know.
I've ruined your night
Maybe I should just go.
Love, I can't live alone.
So I guess it is time
For my mind to be blown.
I'm glad that you will always be mine.
May 31, 2011
May 31, 2011 at 7:51 PM UTC
Like new summer wine
We were green in our time
And the yellow rose
never smelled better
But like the weeds in the road
Armadillos , horned toads
The truth was spelled out in the letter
You know some days are just fine
Others will find that your lying
But most of the time
you're barbed wiring
Well the rains came on down
Washed away most of the town
I found you boarding the bus to Dallas
You said you gave it a go
It's time to go with the flow
Then I watched the bus
dissappear with sadness
Well the high plain's never tame
Life's not long there for the lame
And one can drown in the dust
of your sorrow
You can ride on and mend
But you will never be able
to bend
The land or the will that's known as Texas
So goodbye my dear friend
You can write but I'll never send
I'll be waiting for you
at the nexus
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 2:58 PM UTC
Finally you dissappear from my writings,
My stanzas are pure with live philosofies.
I want to write about democracy and dictatorship,about nature and existance,books and paintings,fashion & lifestyle.
I am free from the love and hurt poems you bound me to write of.
Finally,i have found a new muse.
One that will not slowly corrode my passion for art as thou hath been doing.
I am writing about freedom.
I want to cross the boundaries of my imagination and land exactly where im supposed to.
Perfection.
Jan 4, 2014
Jan 4, 2014 at 11:28 PM UTC
The anxiety that builds up in your chest
Makes it harder to take every breath
The cascade of tears that drowned you in fear
You need someone but no one wants you near
All these broken promises and cuts on your heart
You're just one choke from falling apart
You embrace your hunger and eat in fear
Maybe one day this will all just dissappear
Your enemies are just outside the door
Maybe you just can't take it anymore...
But wake up my soldier, pick up ur knife,
Maybe it's time for one last fight
Open that door and let those angels in...
Your enemies will break you down, but you will never let them win
They're the reason why you're here... The reason why this started...
It would make no sense now if you gave up and departed
Hold on to that last hope,
Hold on to that rope,
These dangerous items won't even help you cope...
Mar 9, 2015
Mar 9, 2015 at 11:08 PM UTC
We are solutions and sources..
Much like a strange sunlight..
We're odd with so many symptoms..
We may be falling apart..
We may feel powerless.. We are not..
We are who we are..
If we breathe, compassion is still immortal..
Only way to see truth is to not be part of it
All a lie needs to be real is acceptance
Our world is falling apart. Your money?
Its a lie that is killing us
We drown in economy, in overconsumption
You never take a big enough step back
You let history be an eternal truth
You never question validity..
Open up a history book
Our main problem is..
You actually do question validity..
But only do so in unified global dysfunction..
Without ever even noticing it..
Wars still exist
Conflict still persists
People seek to protect their family
Never knowing they contribute to crime
As a result.. I even lost mine..
Humanity is simple but..
Money creates our complications..
Humanity is killing itself
Just look out your window..
Or turn on a TV..
We're trying to survive the chaos we built..
Chaos is Hell yeah but.. It is not to blame..
Why do you focus only on its symptoms?
Trace the sources of negativity backwards..
Why do you bask in such a Strange Sunlight..?
Some rays real with some rays fake..
Your demeanor became a mask
I'm sorry but its just simply true
Next time you shed a tear..
Its directly due to an entire humanity in fear
The world is truly falling apart..
You never investigated the right question
This isn't an outcome of pure possibility
Because we slowly built it into a certainty
We never even knew..
There is no seeing now.. not anymore..
We may still be able to change it but..
Far too many only need to perceive a crime
To swiftly judge it..
Remember.. Symptoms and Source
Solve one.. the other will dissappear..
Now humanity is almost out of time..
I want to survive and I want to be happy..
But.. this chaos is a symptom..
Its source seems to remain unnoticed..
Or ignored due to being truly unpleasant..
Don't hate the messenger..
You should have expected this..
I should have too..
Mar 16, 2021
Mar 16, 2021 at 11:47 PM UTC
hey love,
you're a hero you know,
always staying strong and low,
always caring for everyone, even those
girls who secretly talk about you under your nose,
always listening to complaints,
always being as sweet as church saints,
always being kind,
always listening to what's on someone's mind,
yet no one gives a **** about what's on yours,
people always claim that they care,
but when you need them the most,
it's funny how they dissappear like air.
i know you feel alone,
but don't worry,
i have an extra shoulder to loan,
i know you feel useless
but trust me,
you're not,
i see you,
now it's my cue
to be there for you.
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 8:24 PM UTC
I am eating sweets like a spoiled fat kid
the elated surge of sugar coursing through veins
like kiddy *******
zooming through internal tubes
green lights all the way
soon to be shuddering as I pass the summit
and descend,
coming down faster then theTwin Towers
when there’s a boom there’s always a bust
what goes up will always come down
gravity is invisible and it's inevitable
a ghost hanging on your shoulders
the sheer weight of all this.
Boredom flogs me
and time is the vinegar thats poured in my wounds.
I want be on the savannah shooting lions with the sun turning my neck into cracked leather. I would shoot it without mercy or malice I’ll look it right between the eyes then I’ll pull the trigger. I’ll watch the dessert ground absorb his blood. It will just dissappear.
I am an astronaut bouncing on the moon. I have planted bombs in capital cities. I have stolen from museums.
Jan 17, 2013
Jan 17, 2013 at 2:19 AM UTC
Waiting for her to appear
Some say you make your own time
Others, tk abt good things, comin, n waiting
But what about great
How does that fit into fate?
I wonder if looking makes
it dissappear, it
Being the object of one's desire
Jun 27, 2016
Jun 27, 2016 at 1:18 PM UTC
Lest you are playing tricks on me
Let me warn you
I can make time stand still
and the moon dissappear
I can change the course of winds
and orchestrate waves to rise,
flooding plains and barren lands
lest you are playing games
I will open a portal
where we spin out of time,
hurl through space
and land on Mars.
But the one thing
I can't do
Is figure out if
you are playing games,
or is is that you just don't care
for me ?
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 1:30 AM UTC
Alone
At 3AM
Under a bridge
Contemplating what life
Means to me
Alone
At 3AM
Under a bridge
Wondering why
It always has to be
ME
Alone
At 3AM
Laying on a swing
Wondering why
I cant just eat
Alone
At 3AM
Laying on a swing
Just thinking why
Did he have to touch
ME
Alone
At 3AM
Under a bridge
Hoping that you
Can make me feel
Alone
At 3AM
Hoping one day
You say you love
ME
ALONE
In my thoughts
Getting dragged down
And drowned
Why cant I eat?
Why cant I imagine anyone wanting me?
Why cant I sleep?
Why cant I stop thinking about what they did to me?
I want to fade away
Dissappear at 3AM
Somewhere far away
Somewhere I dont have to be
Aug 4, 2021
Aug 4, 2021 at 7:37 PM UTC
The roses weren't red,
The violets weren't blue.
I know it started off cheesy-
But let me get through.
Everything lost its' identity
when I kissed you.
You wanted to kiss me?
Are you sure that was true?
My heart fluttered frantically against my flesh...
I literally couldn't catch my breathe.
My emotions still unclear-
I dreamt my love will never dissappear.
Jul 20, 2014
Jul 20, 2014 at 10:09 PM UTC
I want you to love me
I need you to love me
Calm me
Don't haunt me
Make me whole again.
Don't just pop
And dissappear
Since a word from your lips
Will keep me on my knees
You may go
And be with him
Love him the way
I want you to
Love me
You may come
And make me cry
Then just leave
Without a lead
All I wish is
You could take off
With my memories
Whipe my mind
Hand me my heart back
But all I crave for
Is for your love
Your tender touch
And your voice
In my ears
Filling my heart
Making me feel joy
But all there is
Is what it was
And all there was
Is now there gone
With you.
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 10:31 PM UTC
Can't you see
That person who lies
in the **** of the earth?
The one who's eyes
shamelessly share their tale of misery?
You are the same
You and he.
In our fight to survive
we've let others fall behind
left them in the dust when all it took
was to pick them up
brush them off
and ask them to come with us.
But instead greed took over
No longer did we want to survive
we wanted to succeed
Live in excess and luxary
even if that meant
leaving old friends in squaller
What happened that made us so selfish and
cruel?
That we can't give a dime for the hungry to have food?
Wishing won't make these problems dissappear
Action is the only way to help those who've chosen not to hear
the cries of those who's stomachs never silence
How can so many be oblivious?
Can't you see they're really us?
One mistake, one wrong answer
The right place at the right time
That's all it takes
The flap of a butterfly's wings
and suddenly it's you who's stomach sings
History erased. Stories respoken to tell a
different tale.
Lives traded, their kindness will prevail.
But the question remains
Would you do the same?
Tomorrow, the next
when I am not here to tell you my tale
Will your head fill again
with false ignorance?
Will the sorrow of starvation
become silent to your ears?
If so, lead with your heart and not your head
Because when you're dead and gone
Let your legacy live on
As someone who did something.
Mar 17, 2013
Mar 17, 2013 at 1:29 PM UTC
But this is only for tonight
Only this chance
Only here in this moment & only for this space and time
We won't be able to try again
Come morning we'll exit here
and I'll dissappear
We'll have this one memory
this one chance
It's only us
Only here
Only this moment
Only for this space and time
We'll make it last & make it sweet
You'll be satisfied
I'll be content with it all baby
And never again
can we repeat what we do here
So take your time
Enjoy every fiber of us
every touch moan & screams
Love me like you'll never see me again because you won't
Since I'll only do this once
ONLY FOR ONE NIGHT
Dec 24, 2015
Dec 24, 2015 at 12:29 PM UTC
all by my self
it's hard to be sure why i feel so insecure
seems my pain is the only cure
my tears running dry as i sit by the window
hoping you'd come back to me like you did before
all by my self no body to calm the sadness
just pain and sadness i thought you knew
that my love was true and how much i still love you
all these feelings i have their obsured here by my self not a trace of you near
i wish this sadness would just dissappear just to have you near.
May 29, 2013
May 29, 2013 at 12:34 PM UTC
have you ever come to the realization that life veered left so hard that you never noticed.
In one instant the clarity of what was and is appears so drastic, how you've come to change none but your solid is now transparent.
you catch glimpses of what was once there but not long enough to memorize it.
then suddenly your heart shifts and you don't know where to go.
because you don't trust the objects and people you see, knowing that just as quick as your solid they could start to dissappear.
faith becomes a word and love becomes absent.
just as strength and ignorance move in to replace them.
because you feel better not caring and feel secure not noticing.
In the end they're just feelings.
and you hope that it won't make you too different.
Jul 25, 2013
Jul 25, 2013 at 3:35 PM UTC
The moon makes its way to pass,
piercing the invasive darkness
and reflects their murky embraces
on the trail his leaving traces.
Nothingness surrounds the silence,
daylight was removed with violence …
She tries to connect the dots
in the pendancy of her thoughts:
“I’m here waiting for a sign,
drinking from the sunset’s wine.
And even though there’s much pain,
in a distant dream, I’ll love you again.
Your every movement had an aim,
and all rules belonged to your game,
which couldn’t make it to the dawn,
’cause the king was just a pawn. “
Shadows fill her empty heart,
her inner soul’s been torn apart,
’cause he had just opened that door
to come and steal what he looked for.
“Now that daylights dissappear,
How far can I move from here,
as I can’t follow the light beam,
caught up in a distant dream … “
The moon got trapped in night’s fever
and took off her armor of silver,
which is glowing, with a slight shiver,
flowing down along the river.
Her grudge too, seems to surrender,
being ravaged by its splendor …
“I need you here… next to me …
The dawn is rising, come and see …”
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 3:09 AM UTC
Hello Inspiration,
Where have you been, my friend?
You finally showed yourself after
Teasing me for months on end
People ask me all the time
Why I no longer pick up the pen.
All that will change now, wouldn't it?
Now that you're back again
Where did you go, Inspiration?
You left me feeling so incomplete
I kept trying to bring you back
I never did suceed
You ran away so hard and fast
Left an emptiness I didn't recognise
If I look away, will you run again?
I'm afraid to close my eyes.
It's good to see you, old friend.
We have a lot of catching up to do
But if I let go of your hand,
You won't abandon me, will you?
If I get busy with other things,
If I don't respond to you at once,
Will you dissappear like you did before?
Or will you give me a second chance?
You came back so suddenly
That I just have to ask
Are you here just to tease me?
Or is this going to last?
I have so many questions for you
Why? When? Where? And how?
But first, let's celebrate your return
And make the best of what we have now
Aug 21, 2014
Aug 21, 2014 at 10:34 AM UTC
I can feel myself fading away
I've never been something special
But it's like I'm turning grey while the whole world is full of color
It's like I'm being pushed off
It's weird to explain
But I just feel like I am nothing
Like I can dissappear in a second and no one will notice
I want to end it myself before life does it for me
I'm so scared of living
The few years I had on this earth were **** to say the least
I'm nothing special
I'm nothing
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 12:53 PM UTC
IN MOMENTNESS OF BREATHLESS PURE PASSION,
SLIDING ON KNIFE EDGE OF MASCULINE FAILURE,
YE MADE ALL DISSAPPEAR ,
WITH SIMPLE SPOKEN RESTFULNESS,
ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO WAIT,
WILL YOU BE THERE???,
ALL FROM A SOLITARY SITUATION,
WITHIN MINDS FEARFUL EYE,
WORDS RIGHTLY DISPENSE FEAR OF FEAR,
UNTIL NOW ALWAYS WORDS FROM ME,
NOW SHOWN WORDS FROM YE HAVE POWER OVER ME,
ALL WHILE RESTING ON SWEET BREAST,
BROW SOAKED IN SWEAT,
REASSURANCE IN EVERY BREATH.
Mar 8, 2010
Mar 8, 2010 at 6:32 AM UTC
Who cares what is asked
In the duration of a conversation
What develops mentally
Yet sticks within one's memory
When will these truly be answered
While everyone moves along with life
Why state inner thoughts
If once exposed they dissappear
How does one ask and recieve
Without forgetting what was asked
Aug 3, 2015
Aug 3, 2015 at 10:33 PM UTC