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Floor Sep 2020

Cut

It happened
And happened some more
Until the blood started to pour
And my weak body fell to the floor
I felt sad down to the core
About these silver scars I wore

On selfharm

#depression #sad #crying #anxious #selfharm

Floor Mar 2020

I love you

You are the tea after a cold night
My frostbitten hands hold you with unbearable strength
I don't want to lose your warmth
I don't want to lose you
And i can make this a soppy poem
But I cant find the words to tell you how much you mean to me
So I'll just say three little words
I
Love
You

#love #fear #loveyou #depression #anxious #lovepoem

Floor Feb 2020

Suicide sunday

I wake up feeling blue
While my arms are covered in red
Drink cold tea like it's hot
And feasting on crackers like it's steak
I take my blade like it's a butterknife
And slice my skin like it is bread
Tie a noose like it's a scarf
Take the step like it's to heaven
But i fall down like I'm going to hell

#depression #sad #crying #anxious #hell

Floor Feb 2020

Valentine

It was calm before but now i feel a heartbeat

#love #fear #depression #anxious #anxiety

Floor Feb 2020

Who am i?

I am the one with the big eyes
I am the one who's always standing tall
I am the one with scars on her arms
I am the one who bites cheeks when being anxious
I am the one who wiggles her toes when waking up
I am the one who's always trying to help friends
I am the one with freckles
I am the one who drinks an oddly amount of tea
I am the one who tattoos herself with a cheap tattookit from the internet
I am the one who cries when seeing old people
I am the one who can't walk without thinking about every step
I am the one who likes to go to vintage stores to fantasize about the people who used to wear the clothes
I am the one who likes her book the old fashioned way, just paper
I am the one who's always cold
I am the one surrounded with art
I am the one in most things
But am I the one for you?

I love you more than words can ever describe

#depression #sad #cryinganxious

Floor Feb 2020

I am

Hi
I am Anne
I am a girl
I am 18 years old
I am really depressed

But... I also am..

The girl with hair that constantly changes

The girl with scars on her arms and wounds on her heart

The girl with her own will

The girl who never takes a single thing for granted

The girl who used to starve herself

The girl with thoughts darker than the night

The girl with so much love to give

I am a lot

But the only thing that matters

Is what I am to you

I love you more than words can ever describe

#depression #sad #crying #anxious

Floor Jan 2020

...

And then you told me
What i hoped you wouldn't tell me
I know the exact words weren't a goodbye
But it left a sour aftertaste in my mouth
I see a future with you in it
And you see a future without me
Trust me i know
I've been with enough people to know
I love you so much
I wish i could tell you how much this breaks my heart
I love you
Please stay

#depression #sad #crying #anxious