I can feel myself fading away I've never been something special But it's like I'm turning grey while the whole world is full of color It's like I'm being pushed off It's weird to explain But I just feel like I am nothing Like I can dissappear in a second and no one will notice I want to end it myself before life does it for me I'm so scared of living The few years I had on this earth were **** to say the least I'm nothing special I'm nothing
'You're not good enough!' he said while he placed his hands around my neck 'you'll never be!' I cried, he lied, I almost died that day Full of bruises I walked home Smiled to my parents and told them I fell off my bike the day before that They believed it, they still think that's the truth 'You *****, never talk to another boy again or I'll **** you! ' he said while he slapped his hand against my cheek I reacted mild, he got wild, I still was a child that day Full of red marks I walked home Smiled to my parents and told them I got in a playful fight with a friend They believed it, they still think it's the truth And this went on for a few months I finally found the strength to get out But it haunts me every day
Her parents are drowning in heroine While she is taking the Ritalin To calm her mind from all the stress Because her parents made a mess So she takes the pills one by one Until the bottle is completely gone And closes her eyes one last time And looks at it as her parents crime Now she is in a different place Somewhere between time and space Her parents are drowning in sadness and hate While she is walking to heaven's gate
The urge is getting in my head again I want to take away the pain I am the pain My life is pain I want to take my life The voices are getting bad again, the depression is taking over The urge is bigger and stronger than ever I'm so ******* scared I want to let people close to me I want to tell them I want it, but the memories and flashbacks are holding me pinned against the floor I can't tell them I have to do this alone I'm not brave enough to keep this fight going I'm done
I hate you. I hate everything that you do. I hate your smile and your starry eyes. I hate when I'm with you, time just flies.
I hate how you're never here. I hate how you always seem to disappear. I hate your toothy grin. I hate when I'm with you my head starts to spin.
I hate how you yell and smash bottles all night. I hate when I wake up covered in love-bites. I hate how you tease me and tell me you love me. I hate when you can't calm down and it takes more than just a plea.
I hate how you're violent and stay up for hours. I hate when you kiss me and cuddle me during showers. I hate when we play board games and I'd always win. I hate how you're covered head-to-toe in sin.
I hate when you touch me and my heart starts to pound. I hate when we dance and you spin me right round. I hate when you laugh and tickle my ears. I hate the fact that it's been like this for years.
I hate when you hit me and tell me you're sorry. I hate when you do it the next day without a single worry. I hate when we kiss and it makes me feel alive. I hate when our love dies and it suddenly revives.
I hate you with every fibre of my being. I hate when you pretend to care about my wellbeing. But most of all I hate myself. I hate how I take your love right off of the shelf.
I hate how I love kissing you. I hate how I love everything you do. I hate when you hit me and choke me and bruise me. But I hate the fact that I can't even flee.
I love you, I do. I really, really love you. I know I'm dying, slowly but surely. But I promise, 'till my last dying breath, that I will love you purely.
Whose body is it The system Or mine They sticks needles in My bottom . It hurts so much. Side effects left on the backside. Lumps and bumps Do they enjoy it They are taking away my My self respect I cry all night with this searing pain. I cannot sleep Eat I just roll over in agony.