She had to die for me to become I.

You’re like the cold breeze on a sunny day.

The first whiff of fresh air

on my pressured lungs

that’s been caged.

You’re the sun on a cold day.

You’re the light in my dark days.

You’re the reason I close my eyes,

And the reason they open again.

You’re a warm hug on a bad day.

You’re the reason I know it’ll all be okay.

Took me way too long to understand.
That
I loved a man.
Who was nothing but potential
I loved a man.
Who I wished,
Would understand
Who I am.
What I need.
Who I wished I could be.
I loved a man who I had hope would simply stay forever.
I deserved better, and I wanted him to be that better.
Yet he never saw the need to be any better for me.
He'd rather leave.

My words are my thoughts,
some ,
unsaid,
some,
unheard,
Some felt,
and others undeserved.
My heart and mind,
my love and my hate.

All once yours,
are now just my words.
It’s all I have left of you.
Words.

Oh how I deserve an apology.

A sincere apology from myself to myself.

For I chose to love a lover who didn't choose me ever

So deeply never.

Hope hope go away.
Come back another day.
Today I hoped for him to come back..
Come when i look ahead and see the colour black.

Come when I need you the most.
When I just wanna feel the coast.
Come when I lack myself
Come how you came when I was twelve.


Hope hope go away.
Come back another day.
Today I hoped to see him again.
Today I hoped I end up with him.
Hope hope, I'd rather die
Than to live a life where I always cry.

Sometimes I choose to let go,
I let my words flow.
I let them speak
Hoping they'll explain me.
Im complicated,
They say.
But I wish i came with a dictionary
Because even I don't understand me.
My purpose, I know
My desires, I don't.
Why do I choose to let go,
When control is all I know.
Each time I cry,
You're the only reason why.
Please leave my thoughts,
Leave my mind.
I'm trying to leave all this behind.
I choose to let it go.
Even though control is all I know...