I took an arrow to the heart

It kickstarted my mind falling apart

Stuck, lodged in my heart, you left it there

Left me in that undying nightmare

Left it buried in my chest

Burning with the memories you carved into it

Bleeding in the miseries of my numbness

Race me to infinity
Down the track of our lives
Lead me to a paradise
Trace the tracks of tears from my eyes
And whisper me beautiful and sweet goodbyes

Wide-eyed nights, exhausted mornings
Mourning the loss of my dreams
My dreams transform to nightmares
Dreams used to unfold like sweet candy
and vanish before you can get a real taste
Now they bleed all night long
An open wound, raw and real as nightmares

If I could I'd wash my skin off completely
drain it of all color
I'd do it to every person in this world
And then maybe we could all see each other for what we are
Human

I wanna scream professions of love.

Resounding exclamations of my infatuation for you.

I wanna tell the world the feelings I feel for you and kiss you like it's the last thing I'll ever do.

I wanna feel the sunlight from your skin as my heart burns while beating against yours.

I just wish I had the courage to tell you this.

I wish I could find the words when I'm with you.

I wish my lips could speak as well as apparently they can kiss.

I wish that I could tell you that you are what is missing from my heart, that you are the one part that makes my world able to revolve on its axis.

It's so hard being so in love with someone, frustrating, **** near exhausting and all I wanna do is hear the velvet of your voice as it drips like honey into the room and I can tell you I love you.

I been quiet for so long and it hurts.

I hate the type of person I am
I love way too fast and way too hard
It’s a problem
Because I’m not saying I’d drop everything for you in a heartbeat but I’m definitely saying that
I would run around this earth 100 times backwards for the chance to be with you
I’m the type of person to wanna lay myself in front of you so you don’t have to walk on the ground
I’d empty an ocean a single cup at a time if it meant I could hear your voice say my name with “I love you” after
They say people fall in love
But it appears that I’m stuck in a never ending free fall
There is no gravity, there is only you pulling me into you

Emotions will always be misunderstood
You’re making seasons change without a fair warning  
Should I be ashamed for feeling the way I do
My hearts floods with emotions and pumps out sweet thoughts of you
But the words sit on the edge of my tongue
Not willing to take the leap, the risk, for fear of feeling rejection
Past lies leave me broken
Hard times have me hopeless
I’m so afraid of loving again
afraid of hurting again

It’s true, Real love is for the fools
So hurt me, I know you want to
We’re better misunderstood

So I can sail my way to you
I’ll sail across the seven seas if that is what it takes to see
you, and I’ve been thinkin lately
out here in this ocean, the stars are so much brighter baby
I hope I’ll see you soon
I’m lost somewhere beneath the moon
My heart, an island long deserted
But there’s some vacancy for you

You deserved a universe but I am only a moon
You are a star while I’m just an asteroid
You’ve been made from stardust while I‘ve been made from sand

I've put courage in my heart and lightning in my hand
I strike the ground with enough force to topple buildings
My war cry is heard from every mountain
My spirit, an eternal flame burning as bright as the sun
And my tenacity, equal to a thousand lions
My war mask hides all fear

fly towards the sun
Only to melt halfway and plummet to the earth
The flame of passion gone out in its hearth
Electric charges pass between fingertips
A fire burning between lips
A branch connecting souls
Entranced by the honey drip brown of her eyes
Feeling misunderstood
For once I can't read it like the lines of a book
I'm just trying to be clear, Read my feelings
Trying not to think, when all my thoughts point her way
Will I burn in the warmth of her embrace
or be able to face the sun of her heavenly light
At what moment might be my
melting point?

Patience. Patience. Patience.
All my life I've been told to be patient.
Well maybe it's time to go make it happen.

Lately it feels like I’ve been trying to throw rocks at the sun.
Like reaching for a star in hopes I can pull it down and bottle it for you.  
Or asking a blue sky for lightning so I could get the energy to talk to you.  
Or an ocean to stay still just so I could walk across to you.
Hopeless.
And yet... why am I still throwing rocks?

My love is intimidating  
I have so much of it I just wanna give away
If I could I’d lay rose pedals after your every step
And whisper to you in the language of roses
So please don’t fear me
I can’t escape the way I love
It burns a passionate red
Fiery and proud

Attempting to break from normalcy
Learning there is much more for me to see
The process may hurt
But there is no progress without work

Your touch lights up the tracks of my frozen heart

You glide in like a summer breeze
I can’t help but freeze at the sight of you

Your lips a frosty blaze against mine
A single moment that transcends time

I told her the moon was in her eyes
She said she hated the night light
I told her that her skin was made of sunlight
She told me the sun was blinding
I told her I knew that because all I could see was her

I wanna kiss your ex’s name out of your mouth
Trace the lines of sunlight wrapping around your body in the mornings
I find pieces of your smile in the sky and your laugh in raindrops against my face
If I could bottle your voice and get drunk off of it every night I would
You’re a sunrise in a world that doesn’t know light
And a pulse to a heart that needs life

A warm hand caressing my cheek
The softest touch of light
A kiss filled with stardust
Whispering me golden words of love

How quiet can one person be?
I'm an introvert, to put it nicely

Please don't talk to me is what my quietness may seem
But I'm probably just caught in another daydream

I fidget and squirm under watchful eyes
It might be because I'm scared you might lie

Friendship and trust come a dime a dozen
But you gotta earn mine, I'm shy but I'm loving

I'm nervous and stutter when put under pressure
But can bloom like a rose and have a smile like treasure

So I'm sorry when I am a little reserved
You just have to unfold me slowly to ease my nerves

I hate being this person
Piloting this body day in and day out
I’m endlessly boring
I can’t hold a conversation
Why do I feel so loved but so empty
These words are hollow
Shallow promises that I keep writing for myself
Thinking, maybe if I can write a series of words beautiful enough I can win over their affection?
Endlessly naive
I hate who I am
Will I hate who I became?