Apocalypse!
impending doom!
don't save your cash!
it's coming fast!

consume!
consume!
consume!

in a world where everyone
is trying to get ahead,
make their family proud,
and their neighbors jealous

i'm just trying to feel useful,
like if I was to die tomorrow
I'd be missed,
and not replaced within a week

in the now,
my feet are planted
so I don’t take my time for granted

I breathe new life
as my expression
and passions have been resurrected

so energized
restored, I sit
my inner fire has been lit

and in my heart,
the fires rage
expelling darkness in my way

now vibrations
in my throat
are of a much more pleasing tone

an open doorway
to my mind
now calmly rests between my eyes

and straight from source
a light shines down
it’s energies into my crown

all systems go
transfer complete
now I can take on anything

it's effects can be all-encompassing

and if it's forced, it's probably ****

about like a ****

I see the picture, but
the sound's not playing
I see your lips move, but
don't hear what you're saying

because I'm not here

I'm over there,
somewhere,
sitting in a chair,
in a meadow
watching the weeds grow

I'm up there,
in that tree,
with only my company

I'm down here,
in this cave
with only myself
to save

I watch the picture
but there's still no sound
I watch you mouth for words
but none comes out

I don't get in a hurry,
but I don't take breaks

I learned my limits
now I'm learning how to bend
so I can break them

our birth came as the shadows

of everything loomed

where the leaves would bleed colors

of the life they once knew

Her hair as fresh
as ocean breeze
excites
as it awakens me

her piercing,
vivid,
sparkling eyes
soon have me stuck
I’m hypnotized

with supple, sweet
vanilla scent
and easy smile
she draws me in

and just like that
in seconds flat
the world just slips away

and all my worries
all my hurries
vanish in a haze

and ever since
that fateful day
we met,
she makes me feel
this way
a kind of love
I’m speaking of
‘s the kind that doesn’t fade

it's said if you ain't first, you're last,
so I keep going 'til I crash
then wake the morning with a grin
to burn through all that **** again

I never wake up feeling good
but reason why is understood
although I know it brings me pain
i'm not complete if I don't train

gotta light the spark
let it burn and fade away
unlearn a few things

day in, day out,
all the same
eating,
sleeping,
playing games

sometimes I look
at these **** walls
and in a way,
I hope they fall

but then I take
a look outside
and it just makes me
wanna cry

it's so **** cold
I'd freeze to death
so here I sit
and waste my breath

I feel so useless,
so **** lazy
I can't get out
i'm going crazy
I look outside
pray for relief
but the weatherman
says "wait a week"

but it has been
a couple days
don't think I can
go on this way

I have to break out
from my mind
or I won't make it to tonight

with a heart, there’s desire

where a want, there’s a need

there may be a tomorrow

it’s not guaranteed

where you don’t take a chance

then I’m sure you have failed

such is our lives

and what they entail

you’re sure to encounter

it’s well understood

but why not try something?

as “can’t” never could

I feel the urge,
I feel the ache,
I feel my stomach
start to quake

must find my throne
exalted seat
a place where I
can find release

I wonder what
it's all about
as lines and verse
just slides right out

and when it comes
the proper time,
I raise my seat,
observe my rhymes

I can't resist
the urge to look
at what came out
at what I cooked

and when I'm done,
I pull the ****
and send it down
to all you slobs

to make you gag,
to make you think
besides, I'm proud
of how it stinks

she ignites a compassion
in me that burns
like the literal sun
as I do in her

but this is only
Supernova on the surface
the union runs deeper
than the furthest reaches
of the blue dark

and as it ebbs and flows
with the moon
a lot of its' secrets
remain yet uncovered

spark the fire, and with each inhale,
I begin to drift further
in and out
of consciousness

deeper in,
further down
and somewhere between
exists inspiration

coming through
in waves

so I jot down what I can
because I don't remember dreams so well

but other times,

I just enjoy the vibrations
as they pass through every cell of my body

if I have to chase
the object of my desire
I lost my desire

there's times when everything I want in life
is right there, next to you

the gentle rise and fall of your breath,
the sturdy rhythm of your heartbeat

is heaven to me

you chose me as your Champion,
and it is an honor,
to honor you

drawn to the light like a moth to the flame
my body's spent, but not my brain
this herb has got me too relaxed
I think I'll have a cigarette

spark*
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and

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the essence

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a l l    t o x i n s
a n d   t h a t   w h i c h
n o   l o n g e r
s e r v e s   y o u

A comment and a couple likes
is something, but it won’t suffice
there’s fruit down here, it’s free to take
but it’s too ripe to suit my tastes

this ain’t the place that I wanna be
at the bottom of this poet tree
as they all ripen, heavy fruits
come down and knock me for a loop

but still I sit, knots on my skull
can’t find a branch to get a hold
the bark’s too smooth to get a grip
so every time I try, I slip

a couple scrapes, some minor cuts
they sting, but I don’t give a ****
because the place I wanna be
is further up this poet tree

this cup she brought me tastes sublime
she knows just how to sweeten mine
this tiny detail might sound strange
but it can really make my day

that first impression, that first cup
reminds me that I'm truly loved
tomorrow seemed so far away
but that was only yesterday

I

had

to

do

a

double-take,

and I still

don't know which way to go

speeding round the curves

flying over the hills

my ***** went in my stomach,

I spilled some beer,

when we had to slow down

for that tractor

with a plow attachment

interrupted

was about to take a ****

endorphins flood
my nervous system
your pupils dilate,
body glistens

your chemistry
I love the smell
I'm hooked again
with each inhale

the stars that linger
in your eyes
have me enthralled
I'm hypnotized

your sultry voice
the way it flows
excites in ways
you'll never know

but out of all
these wondrous things
I really love
the way you taste

a flavor I cannot
describe
it doesn't matter
how I try

except to say,
that it's divine
and every single drop
is mine

I
had
all these
plans
for today
but
after I took
a few tokes
of that
Christmas Tree
I can’t do ****,
except lay here
and feel the vibrations
from all the traffic
on Old 60

existence is pain
and all my daily pursuits
just leave me empty

I don’t want to do this
I just want to hide,
just curl up in a ball
while I wait here to die
I don’t know what to say
when you ask me what’s wrong
I wish I could tell you
but I’m just not that strong

the truth is, that
I just don’t feel like living
in a world so judgemental,
so cold, unforgiving
I give it my all
all this world does is take
and it still makes no difference
It’s always the same

I could just disappear
and no one would lose sleep
there’d be someone there
in my place in a week
I just don’t want to do this
I just want to hide
I’m curled up in the darkness
just waiting to die

I

enjoy

a

good

feast

now

and then,

but it's gotta be

quality

...

no gas station sushi for me

make great people, but
people make terrible dogs
...and stuff such as that

this she insisted
my tongue lashed, her legs quivered
but then, she farted

I lash my tongue at your fixation
bittersweet intoxication
all over my face and stuff
I'll tell you when I've had enough

I don't train so hard
because I hate myself, but
rather out of love

startin' early
gettin' *****
it's gotta be done

life is hell, so
might as well
make it a little fun

i'm basically either homicidally happy,
or suicidally sad

but sometimes, i'm a bit of both

alas, the time has finally come

to just surrender and succumb

been fighting with myself all day

and I don't know another way

from counting doubts to counting sheep

it's time I get some ******* sleep

the waking hours can be chaotic,

like being in the eye of the storm

I see the destruction around me,

hear the deafening sounds of the winds,

and i'm not sure which way to go,

if I was to run away

but after it dissipates, the days return

to a peaceful, harmonious state

and nights with her are calm and tranquil

mid-day reveries
leave me many miles away
in another time

if I only worked
like I tried to avoid work
the world would be impressed

"just do the dishes!"
I tell myself, but I can't
seem to get focused

"why can't you be normal?"
I ask myself
in reply, I scream internally

I'm blessed with a curse
that leaves me dreaming
and drifting away

I'm sorry, love
I don't mean to ignore you, it's just
so nice over here on my little cloud

I failed my attempt at a routine  today
I struggled to sleep and I got up too late
but at least I worked out, got my muscles warmed up
still, I never feel like I did quite enough

then I ate some oatmeal, just a half of a cup
but since I got it down, now it’s trying to come up
now my girlfriend is grumpy, don’t know what to do
‘cos she ran out of smokes, so I failed at that, too

I really don’t know where I’ll come up with cash
it’s not like I can pull a few bucks out my ***
so I guess I’m just ******, not a thing I can do
I’m so over today, I want it to be through

"that's not good for you"
I protested, as I puffed
on my cigarette

calloused digits
grip
the base
but you don't
quite
asphyxiate

your poems
in my floor
the dog
hopped off the bed
to recreate them
sometime last night

be it half full

or half empty,

fill it with

whatever

makes you happy


or pour some out

for whoever makes

you

h a p p y


just be sure to save

a little for yourself

now I lay me down to sleep
I gave my heart, it's yours to keep
if I should die before I wake
just what difference would it make?

but then I look into your eyes
and suddenly, I realize
that someone cares if I exist
that you and Shadow would be ******