sometimes i feel like falling down but only. cause standing up is boring why am i storming though a season where leaves fall cause that's norming bonds break but tears freeze and that's how crystals keep forming
i should test myself see what i can find in the life of my time or at least what i've been prescribed
to put it honestly to wish is to dream and that is to put it modestly but to live is to rip your skin from your body because comfort is a sad commodity a place holder for what you're meant to be but that's placing your bets on destiny and that's still a dangerous place to me
reach for the stars or at least set your eyes on a planet that's not ours maybe mars that was predictable but it rhymed so sorry if i'm presenting my ideas as cliche or despicable at least i can decipher what i know is unforgivable a prison is a person who's microsoft-able
but that's just my angst creating a villain vaporizing vixens are vain to the core but the haze of pain is still in only cause that's what they tell me when i want more more than a ******* juul i'm too cool to care about my health cause the moment is now right, until i have to worry about wealth for my family or my chemical dependence it makes me wince i mean i just want health insurance sorry i'm not used to the governments idea of assurance but jesus christ one nation under god kids get shot for mowing the ******* lawn what kind of world are we living in **** is fueling the patriarchy for the worser if a fertilized egg is a candidate for “******” every single guy walks a around wearing ******* or kappa donald trump doesn’t drink pops percocets and ******
i'm swimming and drowning and i need assistance but it begs the question of thoughts that fester in an enemy i'm sorry, i know that's not fitting my opinion of the human existence but why am i creating an enemy when all my life has promised me is the empty shell of persistence
you feel it happening again the shaky legs driving you insane the sweaty hands ruining your plans the racing heart making you want to dart are they watching me? what do they see? I feel their eyes all over me is this a nervous breakdown? i really need to come down get it together you say in your head but the voices don’t let you forget you’re better off dead stop it, stop it, go away do not come back another day it’s just chemicals in my brain but all I can feel is pain anxiety is not beautiful it certainly does not make me strong I just want to be normal and feel like I belong panic attacks are not cute and I cannot “just calm down” it is a disorder and debilitating it makes it really hard to breathe average tasks become mountains it’s not simply all in my head it feels like I’m about to drown but with patience and persistence i will never back down
How many days will you let pass by, Without looking your own life in the eye? Look it in the eye and see its mortality. Its end is death. This is the reality. If people will not care if you pass away, Why should you let them guide your life today? Quit allowing their life to dictate yours. A far less wonderful life is what that ensures. Why do you let your heart's dream be distant, When it is yours for the taking if you be persistent? See your dream and name it square. Put in daily action. Don't just sit and stare. Why spend so much time talking about things, When you could take action and enjoy what that brings? It's when your talking is mapped by your doing That your future is one actually worth pursuing.