My hands and your body meet
You ask for more
I massage every inch neat
You say there is more
I think what did I miss
You say 'Mama, my teeth'
Huh!?

Two petite boats made from an old piece of paper are ready to swim
You eagerly watch as I drift them in

Its raining, its pouring
Our boats are sailing
Tiny ripples make the water a trampoline
But the boats manage not to dive in

Aye aye I am the captain
Quit drowning yourself in
For my son loves to see you sail
And I would love to see him smile

Words took little steps
(You began to talk)

Steps picked up wings
(You began to walk)

Ahead lies your new world
Go. Explore.

You smile. I laugh.
You cry. I weep.
You jump. I leap.
You bleed. I am hurt.
You sleep. I snore.
You love. I love you more.
I am your puppet.
The string of love connects you and me.

He comes everyday
Every morning, every night
Like the morning sun and twilight
After gulping down a glass of milk
Comes my dear Mr. Milk moustache

My candle of anger melts away with your flame of love

You are me.
Who else can you be...
Just me.

Two big eyes watching
A mighty spider crawling
A cob web spinning
A tiny lock hanging
The sound of coins dropping
Your first piggy bank
Your first savings

Last birthday you hadn't uttered your words yet
Now you are nearly two
You were half asleep uttering those words I craved for
Happy birthday mama
It was sweeter than sugar
You clinged onto me and were in your sleepland again
We wore matching attires
Mellow in yellow
Lit the candles on the luscious chocolate cake you chose for me
As always I made a wish for you
Off we blew the flickering flame
I held your hand and we dived into the cake gently
You loved it the moment it touched your lips
And asked for more and more
Mama chose your favourite cuisine for the afternoon, Chinese
You couldn't resist any longer
The moment food arrived, you slurped in every strand of Hakka noodles with some tofu
After a quick nap, evening was playtime
The ball pool area was awaiting your entry
Up the stairs, down the slide; up the *****, down the stairs
It was all yours
More fun time with sand play sets, alphabets, shapes and many more
I stood there watching you enjoy the day
I wanted it to be your day
I don't remember what birthdays used to be before you
I am glad I am not alone anymore
Love you baby

Your tiny fingers stretch out the corners of my lips
I shoot out a smile

Birds stop chirping
Neighbours stop fidgeting
Maids stop cleaning
Phones stop ringing
Cars stop vrooming
Bikes stop honking
Clocks stop ticking
My little angel is sleeping

Tiny feet taking a walk
Small and steady steps
Careful not to trip down
Still not sure of which foot goes where
Sometimes right, sometimes wrong
Busy strolling around
Little baby in momma's big flip flops

Cling onto my hand forever just like the tattoo on my wrist
For, you are the only one who knows how my heart beats from within

Mr. Golden sun casting long shadows
Salty breeze hitting across
Acres of sand lying beneath our feet
Ups and downs like craters on the moon
Crows cawing, horses galloping and dogs basking in the sun
A straight line of ocean doodled below the empty sky
Gigantic ships appear like miniatures farther away
Hushing sound of waves
Four feet amidst frothy tides creating footprints
Carrying back some rustic soil on the toes
A little dirt never hurt
A bag of sea shells
Small, big, coloured and white, all with a coat of sand
A bag full of sea shells
The sun sets down
The radiant moon creates a guiding path in the dark shore
Following us back home
After a long evening at the beach
With my dear son

Holding a crayon with those petite fingers
Yet to discover colours and their hues
A gentle stroke and some hard
In circles, lines and what not
Every scribble seems like a masterpiece
When you are the artist

When will you come
I hate to wait
Why is it taking you so long
I think its late
Mom says you are six months away
But...
I wish to celebrate
So, come soon
I am waiting...

A little bite
A little bit different every time
In the bedroom
On the mat
All the scratching
            knocking
            kicking
            pulling
And yes biting
Deep down inside
I know what you like
Know all the things you bite
I recall where it all started
I wash and scrub and brush and clean
The more I struggle, the more you bite
I want to make you stop
But you go for the next thing
And more...

I am ready to fall many a time
Only if it is falling in love
Only if it is falling in love with you...

Love being loved by a mom
Love giving love as a mom
Love being a mom
Happy mothers day

I made a heart out of Play-Doh
Handed it to my son
Said I LOVE YOU
He gazed at it for a while
Then squeezed, poked, pinched, patted and rolled it
There was no sign of what it's original form was
But that's my heart
No matter how you treat it
It still loves you, beats for you and lives for you
Love you baby

My lips curl
My cheeks rise
My eyes blush
My teeth hide
Remembering a happy memory makes me happier
I am having a happiness hangover

The toy monkey and the big furry teddy
Your little legs and tiny toes
Mosaic floors and the walls beside
Basket ball rings and the boy inside
These are a few of the things that you clicked

Sparkling eyes and a perfect nose
Multiple selfies and momma says cheese
The blue tricycle and big building blocks
Grandma and grandpa are also on the list
These are a few of the things that you clicked

You want to make a picture of everything you see
But there's no roll, no lens, no shutter, no flash
It's just a toy cam
But the smile on your face brings everything to life

Coloured pebbles underneath
Violet, indigo, blue, green, yellow, orange and red
Just like the rainbow rhyme
Four cute little lives swimming above them
One in orange, plump just like the fruit
Another in orange, lean as a carrot
One in black, just like the night
And one in orange and white, just like the morning light
New to us and we new to them
Lying at a corner, swimming around their small world wrapped in a glass bowl
Grandma's gift for your upcoming birthday
A fish bowl

No waves
No shore
Not deep
Not sandy
Perfect tempature
Perfect size
Cross legged inside a bucket of water
My little prince looks cuter
You don't have to be under the sun
Splish sploshing indoors is also fun

Startled!
You were sleep talking
I wrap my arms around you
The fan spins above us
The sun is peeking from behind the curtains
Chirping birds welcome the evening
A passing car honks
But my warmth comforts you
I lay a silent kiss on you
Whew!
You are sleeping again
My little busy bee gets some more rest

To my rainbow born on the seventh
Happy birthday

Rain is crying on my window
Happy tears!

To see you for the first time again
To feel you for the first time again
To kiss you for the first time again
To fall in love with you all over again, I wish
I wish I could time-travel
To live those golden moments again
Moments that meant more than the world to me

I am getting inked
This is my first
It will be with me as I go through years

The needles punch into my skin, adding detail
Careful, for it mustn't smear
This is not just ink
It is my love for you
This is not just a word
A meaning for me

I go back to the moment we first met
The trance I was in, I am in it again
Your eyes
Your touch
Your everything
Let them tattoo into me forever

I will think about you until my heart beats
I will talk about you until my voice lasts
I will write about you until my bones crack

You are my everything

Bhakth (my son)

That is my tattoo

I wish I could tattoo my soul
So I can see you everyday even when I am gone

Up, down, round and round
Small and big
Slow and fast
Glistening in the light
Floating in the air
Waiting for your soft touch
Bursting into nowhere

More, more
One more blow
One more bubble
Up, down, round and round
Here a pop! There a pop!

A face so lit
A smile so bright
I wonder why!

Something caught my eye
Two doodled stars on your arms
A reward for performing great

Hands and legs clenched tight
You and me sit uptight
The bedsheet becomes a safety tent
Enclosing turmerics powerful scent
Circled in a misty atmosphere
Giving you the first time fear
Sweating off the cold
Undergoing a remedy thats centuries old

Tomorrow is my birthday
I've had 29 so far
But this time the writing on the cake will be the best
It will read "Happy birthday mummy", instead of my name
The most prestigious title I hold
Baby, I love you
Thank you for being mine

A little
Quack, quack, quack
Wee, wee, wee
Moo, moo, moo
Baa, baa, baa
Meow, meow, meow
Bow, bow, bow
Oink, oink, oink
Pop, pop, pop
Tick, tick, tock
A little sway, a little hop, a little jump, a little stomp, a little run
Little noises rock the house morning to night
I do a little of everything for you
I have become little again for my little one

Half-asleep on my lap, embraced against me
The dim light of a soft box paints your face
Formulating the perfect pose
Preserving the unspeakable beauty in my arms

Silence.

Except for the constant clicking of the camera
A few flashes and wham your eyes open, a shred too wide, too curious
And you smile your best

I wrap myself around you
Three clicks happen real quick
My smile mirrored in yours
Pictures of us together
Glimpses of real love caught in the moment
Mine. Yours.
Pure and true
Perfectly happy

Then you go waka waka on the giant bean bag
Sprawling around, contouring its shape, expelling your body in all directions
I holler your name from the top of my lungs
You respond with a scream displaying two pearly whites and a hint of bare gums

As the breeze cools your skin, you splash into the inflatable pool
Rubber fishies swim along, you dunk them one by one
Soapy bubbles blown in the air circle around you, gleaming in the sunshine, revealing your face and burst with a pop
Still unable to sit unassisted, bam you fall into the water
My heart escapes my chest
There is water dripping all over you
I comfort you and brush hair away from your eyes

But I wasn't quite finished yet

You curl up in the fuzzy charms of a teddy
A new found hero in the making

My darling then arrives as a prince entering his humble kingdom
I fall in love with you all over again at the first glimpse
Bitter, reserved, aggressive, brisk, fresh, strong, assorted moments

I said one last photo

The softness of your young skin glowed in a playland of toys
I sit, stare and sigh at how delightful you look
Capturing candid photos of your innocence at play

The evening was getting tired, you drifted back to sleep
It wasn't easy as one would think

I saw you coming from the start
I rewind the times in my heart
A whole world of just you and I
I want it to be more than just a memory
A reminder of the road taken

Here I am, taking in every bit of you and smiling because I know you are all mine

Stethoscope around the neck
Little orange spectacles sans glasses
A plastic syringe with rubber within
Tiny touches on my chest
An injection on my arm
A gentle rub
On goes the fake band aid
"You are fine now", he says
All equipments go back into the tiny plastic briefcase
It's his first mini medical play set
And I am his first patient

I hope you are enjoying your stay
Here, in my heart
It's free for no one else but just thee
We are destined to be together, part me never
Son, stay with me forever

Your chubby cheek rests on my arm
You constantly flicker your eyes
Your eyelashes tickle me gently
I can feel a butterfly flutter on me
A black and white butterfly

I ask you "Who's your favourite"?
You pause for a second
Then you start thinking and search for an answer
And you say "You"
But you already lost me there when you paused
I thought your love for me had no clause

Love is a three-letter-word
It is spelled
M O M

I carried you in my womb with love
I carry you on my wrist with pride
I will carry you forever in my heart
I love you my son

I have so much to say...
But lemme keep it simple

I love you.

An univited visitor
Her presence is ignored
But she is everywhere
We stay with her
She is visible at times
Sometimes, just felt
But everyone is touched by her
The touch of nature

I can jump
I can reach the fan
I can reach the roof
I can reach the lights
I can jump really high
I am jumping again and again
How tall I am

I change from satan to saint in a moment
When you forgive me in an instant
For mistakes I hadn't meant

The water glows in the evening light
A pool of isolation and looks like you are the king
The wind is welcoming
The pigeons are fluttering
Don't let the fear eat you up, don't let it in

Be your best as you have always been
Take a step, take a step, I am with you
Don't hold back, don't turn away
Just let your body sway
It's time to take those first steps again

No right, no wrong, just get along
You and water will be one
Take a step, take a step, rest will begun
Water never bothered you anyway
Just let your little body sway

Strolling in the water tell me how you feel
I sure can see your eyes glow in happiness hard to seal
Let me never see you cry again
Remember I will never leave your side
Just like a fish in water, in you my love resides

It might sound weird
Unsure if anyone has ever heard
I pass your shadow always
Careful not to place my feet
I love your shadow too
Isn't that sweet!

Strolling on unknown streets
Ignoring strange glances
Neglecting salty sweat stains
I pick up pace gasping for air
How about I surprise you with something!

Clickety click on my phone
Oh there's time, I can take a jigety jog
Scorching sun, racing vehicles, smoky air, dusty path
I walk and walk and walk
Up, down, across
My thirsty throat calls for a drink
But I have no time to think

Here is where I can get the play doh
Wow, moulds, roller, cutter and more
Some flourescent sheets for craft
And a new book hows that
Done so where's the next one
Ah, there I see, hunky dory
Two perfect caps and some body lotion will just do
All done now all I do is run
Back to school... back to school as fast as I can
Common legs! Ignore the pain just think you can

I enter the gate and you steal a quick glance of me
Oh man, but there is another minute or two to be
You tap on the glass and sob in tiny tears
I rush within to pick you up and help you let go off your fears
Some words, a hug and few kisses do the rest
You see the bags in my hand and smile your best
A teary thank you and a happy one
Now lets go home, school is done

Scribbled some millions across the years
But this time I lay my pen carefully
Make the ink flow blissfully
Because its for you
A signature that holds a special responsibility
My first one as a parent on your school diary
One that will remain close to my heart dearly