Here I am
Deep within'.
this whole time I had been looking down the wrong end of the tunnel
Looking for the light.
for sometime,
I thought it was  *Humanity  who shed it's red around me.
Verses my mind
and heart, it is a continuous, on going battle for me.
I knew this whole time it was up to me to win.
it wasn't the life around me, it is me.
I'm never giving up this change, I'm giving it a chance.
*And I wasn't ready.

Ready?
no.
Action.
Unfair
life
is.
I
didn't
want
this.
­Cut
!
Try
Again.
Action.
IT
HURTS.
No
More,
No
More.
Stop.
J­ust
Stop
this.
Cut.
Try
again
Action.
Why
...
Why
...
Cu­t
I
Cant
Tell
YOU.
Try
Again.
ACTION

...
Life
you
are
so
unfair
...
CUT.
TRY
AGA­IN.
ACTION*
...

Tragedy*  *is when something unbearable happens
and all life around you comes to a stop.
It is like you are forever living in that worse possible moment and you stop dancing to life.
That song that once had been playing, is now just an infinite, ravenous, and  vex  beat.
The sound that will  repeat,
and  repeat,
and  repeat.
You conclude to yourself that you are no longer you, and your being can never look at itself the same way it did before.
You look at yourself knowing things will  never  be the same,
as if once you were happy dreading it will never be again, and you  fade  *away
until you are nothing more
and your life ends.

Reality hit me and it is too much for me to handle.
Now life has pulled another scandal.
The crash with whip lash sending me hitting the front dash of my mind latch has me hurting,
because the door swung close on my life.
Locking me shut without an escape so I make one.
Shallow slivers from the Sharp Sheared razor blades gliding across my skin because I'm a sin.
Breaking the pieces watching it all fall apart.
Trying to stop the pain in my heart.
Leaking life down my body, on the sink, and on the floor,
To the core, I never wanted to feel this sore.

it was late at night when things got silent.
a mid aged woman's daughter, snook her moms bottle, the same bottle that sent her mom insane just earlier that night.
the girl drank gagging to the taste, and she kept drinking.
the bottle then became empty.
her world was blurry
just like her mind that night.
she was numb just like her heart,
it was like a dream to her.
she was chasing the butterflies the same way she would chase her dreams.
alive, and walking dead.
she went into the bathroom and looked up in a mirror were she saw nothing.
she felt worthless to herself so she sat on the floor, took out a razor and began taking it apart.
holding her blades hesitant and courageous, she began to hover over her wrists.
the sensation of release before the slicing through her fragile angelic skin.
she cut and it was deeper than what she could normally take.
she counted as the drops of her own blood spilled out, watching the life fading away from her right before her very eyes.
she started to loose count and began to look up at herself.
she waned to go back but it was already too late.
she fell to the ground before she could even scream her pain.
she dropped beneath the ground and kept sinking.
oh god where did she go...

"You'll Be Remembered." By Kaitlyn A. Warnken

The slowly fating of my heart beating. The rage of hate stirring up while the angers heating. Holding these wounds tight trying to stop the bleeding. Locking doors shut trying to stop the screaming. Closing my eyes, pinching my skin trying to pretend I'm dreaming. But the truth was was that i was leaning. Only i wish i could have been dreaming this night. leaning on seeking to find the fringe of my own life. Wishing for a shot gun n' pistol to take a couple rounds to my own life tonight. Hell my spark would go out in my life light. I'd of done it by now but i have no knife. Yea, that's right. Though i know I'm strong enough to win this fight, on this night and make my life light ignite. They told me to **** myself i responded, i think I'll do it on my own time, SYKE. People are rude, with no respect they don't know what their saying. No matter what you do prove them wrong by staying. Take the words and stop taking them to heart. Once you stop the words will stop tearing you apart. And remember that those scares wont last forever. Just stop the "hurting your body," you'll do fine in your life because i know You're clever. inside and on the outside you will die never, because you'll succeed in your life and be remembered. Unlike others who's lights go out in their own life ember's. So live how you want. who you are is just another life member of which we all have lived faster. And at the end of a long life we give after. But your the kid who made it in life so no need for us to cry. You will always be known so we will never have to say good bye because in our hearts it's you who lives inside. Just don't be that kid who gets a short life because they "signed." You are a smart kid You are smart enough to realize you need realigned. Stay true inside. It will help, that's not a lie. Neither is your life so don't ruin it ever. If you stick to that rule you'll die never And be remembered.

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Dear Heart, I will hold on to you because I never want to let you go.
Dear Misleading Thoughts, ******* you mad man.

"You'll Be Remembered." By Kaitlyn A. Warnken

The slowly fating of my heart beating. The rage of hate stirring up while the angers heating. Holding these wounds tight trying to stop the bleeding. Locking doors shut trying to stop the screaming. Closing my eyes, pinching my skin trying to pretend I'm dreaming. But the truth was was that i was leaning. Only i wish i could have been dreaming this night. leaning on seeking to find the fringe of my own life. Wishing for a shot gun n' pistol to take a couple rounds to my own life tonight. Hell my spark would go out in my life light. I'd of done it by now but i have no knife. Yea, that's right. Though i know I'm strong enough to win this fight, on this night and make my life light ignite. They told me to **** myself i responded, i think I'll do it on my own time, SYKE. People are rude, with no respect they don't know what their saying. No matter what you do prove them wrong by staying. Take the words and stop taking them to heart. Once you stop the words will stop tearing you apart. And remember that those scares wont last forever. Just stop the "hurting your body," you'll do fine in your life because i know You're clever. inside and on the outside you will die never, because you'll succeed in your life and be remembered. Unlike others who's lights go out in their own life ember's. So live how you want. who you are is just another life member of which we all have lived faster. And at the end of a long life we give after. But you're the kid who made it in life so no need for us to cry. You will always be known so we will never have to say good bye because in our hearts it's you who lives inside. Just don't be that kid who gets a short life because they "signed." You are a smart kid You are smart enough to realize you need realigned. Stay true inside. It will help, that's not a lie. Neither is your life so don't ruin it ever. If you stick to that rule you'll die never And be remembered.

I do not want time here in life.
I see that time is all life was.
Time meant nothing to me.
My time has run out.
**** it out of
time.
No
time.
My heart hurts.
The clocks don't work.
It's after time which is nothing.
IM GONE & NO ONE FIND ME.
LIFE TIMED ME, LIFE'S GONE.

I could have never held on.

I tuned into my station
and a song I call LIFE had been playing.
At first,
it was the sweet sounds of life that kept me alive,
but then the tune got old.
So,
I wish to change this station but unfortunately I can't.
As for this is a song,
one of which I do not want to dance to anymore

Everyone who Is reading this I would like For you To do those Who suffer From depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc disorders or illness's that can't mentally an physically be cured quick, a favor.

Hold your breath for 1 minute and 30 seconds after I say go.
Also after I say go, I would like for you to finish reading this. Ready? Set... GO.

♡Right now you are holding your breath .

right now those who suffer from disease, disorder, or illness are going through life not

even

realizing

how

beautiful

The world can be.

♡Your

air is

going to represent those kids and people who have that.

Some People Think It Is

Easy To Get Over Something

But for example, depressed People Think It Isn't so Easy To Breath.

They

Believe

When

Things Go Wrong

There

Is

No

Hope.

So

Sometimes

Something

Tells Them

They Are

Nothing.

Sometimes

They

Are Told

They

Don't Know What pain

Feels

Like.

But guess what..

That is Where On Some Debates

You

Are

Wrong.

Every gasp of air you Try To breath It hurts you and your Chest gets tighter and tighter

Till you just want to explode. So you probably

take a huge gulp of fresh nice air to make you feel better.

Well, taking in that air is like someone committing suicide Because

they have taken in too much but they just can't let go.

That is...

Until they do let go when they "take in the breath of air."

Just like you have right about now or so.

if your time isn't up keep holding in the air do not exhale until your time is up. Life for them is harder than you can imagine same with any other disorder or illness you can't physically cure and make it go away forever So before you go off telling people to "get over it "or "let it go.." or "get over yourself"..., just remember how hard it could be for them. They don't purposely make things ... memories stay in their minds.

For example, Depression is a real illness. Some see it as a joke or fib but you can find depression in the brain that can effect your everyday life such as your coping skills or how you react about and around to what people say or think about you.

And sometimes

It can even drive a person so crazy that they are told not by others.. but by themselves to let go because they mean nothing to themselves and feel they can't be fixed.

You have to be careful with people. Especially the ones you love because some may be hiding secrets such as this .. and it can really hurt you or themselves if no one is careful. .. You will never understand what others go through because everyone is different.

But I think this was a good example and if not and you could hold your breath that long, Double it and read this twice.

Never** risk your chances because it might just be the only chance you get.