So many life's expectation
Unexpected moments
at the thousand miles away.
People we met all throughout our journey
sometimes we forgot
to pick it inside our pocket.
The most precious thing we
won't gonna let go.
But time is your choice
Don't slip it away
or you will regret it
for the rest of your life.
Always learn how to value
& give importance to it.
Cause
We developed so much memories.
Attached so easily.
life lesson's throwing it to us.
& I hope one day
if its not today
if you haven't yet
realize how things gonna work
Take your time
Cause everything happens
for a reason.
Or maybe the answer
to your prayer is right
around the corner.

on the spot
wavered feelings
looking back heart aches
for not intended it does
there are times when
we really feel so secured,
happy with that special person
but we just take it for granted
those beautiful memories
the laughter,
the song that reminded us,
& the time
when we fall
but lied
miserably to our self
miserably suffered
love
for cursing it.

on the spot
wavered feelings
looking back heart aches
for not intended it does
there are times when
we really feel so secured,
happy with that special person
but we just take it for granted
those beautiful memories
the laughter,
the song that reminded us,
& the time
when we fall
but lied
miserably to our self
miserably suffered
love
for cursing it.

i held the secret
way out of control
summarizes the eclipse, more vibrant color
of its sunset shaded with orange, yellow vibes
a perfect combination to be
but more honest words
emotions to spread out
longing and embracing it.

They say "actions speaks louder than words"
but i say *"is it nice if it's both adopt it in anyway?"

Guni-guning nababalot ng hiwaga
sa aking utak ito'y pumipigil, gumugulo,
di maipaliwanag ang mga
nakaukit na ala-alang
Nang minsa'y ikaw ay inibig sa tuwing natatanaw ang langit na kay
tamis pa sa mga chokolateng
paborito ****
kainin tuwing ika'y nalulungkot.
Sa mga araw na nagdaan.
Sa maghapong nakaabang pa
sa pag-iintayan sa jeep
Oo parati namang naghihintay
ang puso ko sa'yo.
Di ba?

Sa traffic na nanamanhid na ang paa sa kakaabang kung kailan o saan ito patutungo
Kung may patutunguhan
pa ba na maging tayo?
O Isa na lamang ba itong
guni-guni sa aking isip.
Alam kong paasa ako. Oo paasa ako.
Asang-asa ako sa'yo na parang tanga.
Oo inaamin ko Tanga ako!
tanga ako!
tanga na kung tanga.
Pasan ko na naman lahat.
Di ba?

Nagdurugong,
Tagos. Tagos na tagos pa sa aking pusong biniyak ng mga samu't saring bakit na lang hindi naging tayo?
O mas madali pa bang patayin na lang
ang mga pusong minsa'y nasugatan na
sa hindi makatulog na gabi.
Sa mga namamagang mata sa kaiiyak
Sa kakaisip kung mahal mo ako o
kung minahal mo ba talaga ako?
O may iba na bang
nagmamay-ari ng iyong puso?

Guni-guni, ako'y litong-lito
dahil parati ****
ginugulo ang araw-araw ko
Halos mabaliw na nga ako
sa kakaisip sa'yo eh
Hindi nga ba't heto ako,
baliw na baliw sa'yo.
Di ba?
Na baka sakaling mag milagro
ang kapalaran
Na baka balang araw
baka balang araw ay
kaya mo rin akong mahalin
gaya ng pagmamahal ko
sa'yo higit pa sa buhay ko.
Higit pa sa mga luhang ibinigay ko
Higit pa sa mga salitang binitawan ko ngayon.

Oo guni-guni
parati ka namang nandyan di ba?
bumabalik. Lahat na lang. Paulit-ulit.


Oo guni-guni ang hirap hirap **** matanggal
Sawang-sawa na ako sa'yo.
Pero ang tanong.
Hindi ka ba napapagod?
sana'y tirhan mo rin ako kahit konti.
Ayoko na,
tama na.

Kung ikaw ay bulalakaw sa kalagitnaan ng daigdig. Wari'y ipikit ang mga matang nagsisimbolong liwanag sa aking paningin na sana'y marinig ko rin ang mga katagang mahal kita galing sa iyong bibig. Na sana balang araw ay darating yung araw na maging tayo magpawalang hanggan walang iwanan.

i've made this a long time ago
to love you
with more letters to come
and a poets to verse out
I am simply aware of my deeds
for i can be the most magical
genie in a bottle of your dreams nor for real.

while everybody is busy preparing and celebrating Christmas
here in Japan?
we all gotta stuck working to the limits.
no holidays
its a calm
silent days of the wind
but still everybody gonna thank everything
for this is a special day anyway.

I've worked so hard for a couple of times but i'm still not contented. how i wish one day all those dreams will come true!!! & im not gonna work my *** into a factory work cause -,- i am so tired.... i dont wanna be with them who won't be happy in their lives cause it really ***** that it hurts too much. you stuck in a bottom of sea where you can't get out from it & its really sad! really really...it traps you into a corner. it is really devastating. you end up being so busy that you also forgot to look up with yourself and ask if i am satisfied on what i've been doing this whole time of my life?

maybe i'll try a little bit harder and i pray that you'll guide me to my next journey. I will truly make it this time cause i wanna fulfill this long lost soul in me.

if you're gonna love me make sure you'll include to love my family, friends and the people around me just how much i love and treasure them most.
But if you can't is just so disappointing.








**sincerely, real talk about love

the moon is round tonight
covered by the grayish elongated sky
it shimmers a little light
containing smokes to remember
As people busy on the streets,
buildings so tall,
along apartments, &
a convenience store,
moving cars from left to right.
But tonight
is just incredible,
long lasting,
beautiful, &
breath taking,


moon*  *to gape at night.

Revealing the colors of the far west & east
glowing the natural distraction
Among the eyes at the contagious moment
as it captured the unexpected scene
the well crafted, spaced and filled the soul
As searching by the nearby's it narrowed
Wanders of the attraction
Spot for a different shade
Nailed by how great than excitement
Vivid, crying out the colors we blend
May it warm and embrace the lost
mind and heart
For it overwhelm the inside and out.

i started on digging up myself when I'm drown with the flawless mistakes. Visualized the momentum where it all came from. Just like anyone I started on my own feet to start refreshing my mind as I am writing on poems that not to flattered you but to record all the stuff that I am missing out. Some is not shaded nor clear but I do it on my own style from what my heart follows and from what my hands would do it to me. It is part of a reflection to myself, people around me or from what I've seen and from what that insticts that have put me on the spot. But sometimes it's all about those people I've like/love, those people that help me get through all of this. And I am also in the process of still getting out from my shelter. Need of time and in the processing of healing and finding out the things that I am going to look forward and be as an excited just like before. I really hope I would fix and do this time again cause I know it's not too late and I don't want to regret over again. I really hope so.  I can do it!!!!

It is one can diverse humanity
For the whole perspective we see is not what we get from the inside
Sometimes it is really sad
when there's no hope to hold
I found it hard to earn it but It is like
the favorable one disguise,
a true empowerment
of society.
Silly but true. Lies fall into broken pieces
Like a magnet that detouches our body
From the moment we did
We make mistakes
but mistakes makes us a better person
For we should learn how to get up
Even though we hurt people.
Even if we loose ourself
We cannot always blame or point it to ourself
Learn to forgive
and give it a try cause we are human after all.
Then life is meaning less
if we cannot try to at least explore and
not be afraid of messing.
Cause one is to practice doing it.

You cannot repair the broken hearted
But you can only heal it
by never stop
loving again.
Because,
Someday you'll end up
with someone who is worth
fighting for, who is worth the wait
& will love you unconditionally.

Fade me away from the thoughts
For lying so many times
that i still cannot convince myself
that i love you
Fade me from your memories
So you won't remember me
on how we actually met
from the very first time.

Fade me from far away
Where I'll be gone
but will still leave you scars.
I'm sorry for disappearing suddenly.
fade me cause I am sorry
that i still care.

*p.s.
the note that you forgot to write

Glance at the sided window pane
Where drifting moments
silently listening to a classic song
For the romances belittle
sweet roses shines in the night
Upon smoothly it covers
the magnificent millenia
of a three thousand and years
Soul, jazz and the melody
of the harmony,
My heart skips a beat
Just like a puppy love.
Rounding, humbly
creates a unique versatility
of life. Truly the most relaxing
moment of times. An addicting
caress to an ear. Holding & gripping it tightly.
Swayed back of love.
It's so adorable,
makes me wonder of the night.
Roam the skies, stars twinkling,
& the reflection of the moon
that stood up the most.
It's just too beautiful to be true.
As one love can give it all.

Filled out the empty spaces
to almost but never
Never been enough of almost
As closed as we face each other
but too far away
I can't even get your name
nor I don't know
how could I get closer to you?
I'm such a loser
I'm such a desperate
But I'm a coward afterall
All I know is to stare at you
All I know is to examined
the unfamiliar face
I see everyday
to be familiarize.
By the look of your eyes
It's all in the ocean, somehow
drowned me that maybe I could
fall at any moment or any time
Not possible. It's hard to believe
I just can't even get over it,
It's written on my head.

Gossips, crazy netizens.
& every negative thoughts
that surrounded by our
imagination, mind only to fool ourself
from fool. Mesirably we became pathetic for making us believe of fooling others as we also fooled ourself from the reflection of the mirror.
Don't keep on dreaming, peeping other people's lives. Cause sooner or later reality will put you on the spot.

Every words dictated by
the glowing lights of it's temple
Given an explanation
to convey on how the feelings could go
How you talked to that person you loved
How you miss him
How you told your "Once Upon A Time"
How you'll gonna convince him your "Yes"
How you'll gonna call him his name
& the time you surrender yourself to him,
It's just unbelievable that makes it so amazing.
Like yesterday when you met.
& something you told like;
The crazyyyy facts about you, that makes me fall in love again without the end of the period.

We take back our inner thoughts when we feel like something is not gonna happen.
We overly looked up from our past than seeing ourselves in the future
When sometimes chances are there we just reject it for the reason that we expect from more. But when the time comes we feel regret it at the last moment of our chances.

dainty
dashing
deep
delectable

----

delicate
decisive
dear
devoted

----

dreaming
darling
dauntless
deniable

----

d­edicated
diehard

Small pebbles scattered together
each has different route,
different directions,
each has different roles,
a mission to make,
a journey to take,
success to achieve &
a goal to soar.

Leaving my thoughts hang on the wall
Picking up your favorite lines & quotes
Just how beautiful stars could
shine so bright
Whereas the night shimmers all through
Stroll out, somewhere we could
take gaze into Capricorn, Ursa Major
& the entire Universe
Occupied by the seasons
of autumn, winter, spring & summer
Love as purest soul as it can have
For the moment of truth
We may embark the squibbing feelings
Too catchy and euphoria.

Those perspective sweet words shoot to me
Silently brick my heart into-
Something mellifluosly;
touch, catch, jump, clutch & match.
Wavered me quickly
by the thoughts of
this and that---
how to
say?

Those old 50's, 60's & up
A young powerful love
Simple in the best that they can told
We won't know once
For it'll be the legend of the first story
&
Once we get there
It doesn't stop
It will spread eventually
Like watching the stars fall
each small dust into the land
which something that is invisible from our sight
and yet exploding it to another places.
Just like the whole romance of love
We fall, we barge in,
affections emerge thoroughly
Like building each moments &
The unforgettable things we can do
for the lucky Love.

You are the pages to the chapters of our story
You are the clarity to my vivid eyes
You are more than the moon
& the stars up above
You are the sweetest raindrop to my loneliness
You are something that I can't resist off
You are the best prize of my life
& it feels like a dream, a fantasy
but more than realness to be.

feelings don't measure,

unexpectedly happened;

your heart follows it.

You're always be the struggling thoughts
Of your imaginative dream
Threshold of life expectancy
Why or why not still the same?
Places you go
People you meet
Events you're in
Something isn't right?
Why or why can't it be?
For the same ground
to land on
For the things that you can't move on
For it is the time
to the open door once more
Even if its scary
or a little bit dangerous,
go on while you can.

Ukitin ang namumuong salita ng iyong pag-ibig
Wari'y ipikit ang iyong mga mata
Kung tadhana'y nakalaan,
Sa tamang oras at panahon.

Pagkat ang buwan at ang araw;
Ay namumukod tangi sa ulap
At hangga't maaaring tanaw ay abutin.

Silipin sa aking palad;
ang kapalarang mapaglaro.
Sa ihip ng hanging amihan
Ito'y dumaan man hanggang tanaw mo'y maabot sa kalagitnaan ng daigdig.
Yung tipong aanurin ka na ng karagatan.
Kahit umulan man o umaraw
Yung tipong paghihiwalayin kayo ng landas.
Pero sa kabila ng lahat,
ito'y babalik sa tamang panahon.


(English Translation)

Court The Heart

**Carve the coagulating words of your love.
As eyes closed,
Whether, destiny reserve the heart,
that fall in love at the right time.
Whereas the moon and the sun;
the only exceptional top of the skies &
As long as I could reach the scenery.

Glanced at my palm hands;
That playful act of fate.
As the breeze of the cooling air
Whisper the touching soul of yours,
Reaching as much as it could.
Between the World we knew it'll still hold you back from time to time.
&
Even if the ocean will drown us apart
Even if the sun shines nor we soak at the rain
&
Even if the path would break us apart,
Still we could turn back at the right time.

Memories we make,
above it's highlighted scene
Happy moments,
sad,
painful,
& the sacrifices were reaching out
It's hard to choose
whether it's the biggest choice
that will be decided on
Or the lifetime that will put us.
Though we may be separated for awhile
But what instruct my heart and body
is surely I'm surpressing.
The heart aches when you declined me once
The harsh words that I can't love you
Or maybe it will be just like this.


But what I never realize
is the whole story why you can't held on me
Whichever path, or road we'll be heading on
We'll know the answer if it is destiny that can answer for all.