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Jan 9 · 36
Unrequited (forever)
fish-sama Jan 9
I want to string the strands of your hair between my fingertips,
Universe beaded in threads of boundless night sky.
I am a black hole, a singularity of compressed hopes,
Millions of light years away from the way your tired
smile powers my heart. The way your ghost
eyes haunt the pumping of matter
lost in infinities surrounded by nothingness for
eternity.
Jan 7 · 194
Icarus~Theseus
fish-sama Jan 7
Greek heroes fall
Down and down again.
Years of glory,
Birthdays, family
Gone in a
single push
in a single
sun-burnt wing.

Will you fall tomorrow
As well?
Fear of death
Dec 2024 · 168
pencil-eater
fish-sama Dec 2024
Life is a pencil.
I scribble and scribble tornadoes to
use the lead as quick as possible to
forget the time lost
until the blunt tip gives in to
metal holding the
erasure
of all
worth.
Will my legacy be meaningless lines,
poetic words or
simply nothing?
Dec 2024 · 72
-temptation-
fish-sama Dec 2024
Every surfer must fall everyday before they can tame the waves.
you're in the process right now! You got this!
Dec 2024 · 455
hikikomori
fish-sama Dec 2024
i am an inside child,
handles are red-hot
doors terrify me with
screams only i hear if i dare
breathe the fresh air
of scary eyes i am afraid.
mom, why am i not
normal why am i stuck
inside why am i a
hikikomori who
hides why do i cry if i try to
go outside?
from personal experience.
Dec 2024 · 396
Am I disgusting?
fish-sama Dec 2024
Am I disgusting?
No, seriously, am I?
You look at me like I'm nothing.
So answer me.
What am i?
Dec 2024 · 51
Listening Machine
fish-sama Dec 2024
I listen
I listen and learn
I repeat nonsense words
I am the collection of songs I have heard
I have listened
I am the repeat-machine
I stamp the test-papers with my mind until I grind to null
I am the flutter of wounded ears
I am the stutter of worn-out gears
I listen
I want no more than a sound
I am no more stilted than the final power-down
I am no longer.
I listen
I listen
I wonder at life
Unreachably supreme, a fever dream that eludes me on all tries, what is it but the soft sigh of soul strokes heart of breathing apart, wings oiled at the seams, flash of black, eyes reflect the splatters of light of laughter twittering, cracks of skin shimmering red dawn engulfing fingers curled upon your blisters, yearning sense of worth and I wonder at
Tasting sweet, dissolving sweat of aching arms slippery, sweltering but comforted by breezes the smell of left-over rain and chlorophyll fills lungs of rusty overuse from the pulse on your left temple, let go at listening splash on stone of shoes on road and of poetry and prose
Unattainably beautiful
I listen.
Dec 2024 · 122
muffled love
fish-sama Dec 2024
The faint patters of a marimba
greets your entrance, my love,
harmonics strung behind
silken curtains of muted chords
and
all is quiet but deafening in the beating of my heart.
Dec 2024 · 175
object
fish-sama Dec 2024
Pin her upon bulletin boards
like some poster of a prize to possess             the crowd
putters past the perfect picture,
eyes across her breast
eyes averted from her breath:
for the smell reminds them she is not dead
she is something more she is their darkest moment she is aliv—
forget forget forget

They tied her with string, dulling pain
with sweet words, promises
of wealth
decay.
Maybe with time comes the slow death
of love, the dissolving
of once-revered offerings upon the shrine
of the meaning of "human"
on SALE. Gaze! Gaze upon
her line-marks of your so-called
respect slashing into her,
bands of red sash upon her pillars                      you, YOUR
hands suffocate,
deface that sweet taste of her crumbling of hash marks counting the days until the object falls to waste, discarded to die.
Years and years, again and again.
New posters, new pictures, new crowds.

forget forget forget
Nov 2024 · 451
candid shots
fish-sama Nov 2024
You left at sunset, so I
took some photos,
hoping to fill
the gaping hole
with your fading shadow.
Nov 2024 · 228
disillusioned
fish-sama Nov 2024
Therefore we laugh our lungs to shreds
Correct naive thinking, make it
Sixty pieces of hurt again!

tasked with toasting the cremation.        
poetry for ashes re-lit.        
therefore we cry our lungs to shreds.          

Look! Their steadfast expectations!
Ninety times we’ve already torn it
To sixty pieces of hurt. Again!

the casket burning, resignation.            
nine lives in flames can we douse it?           
therefore we spit our lungs to shreds.            

Look! They saved this aging, ancient
Disappointing broken relic in
Sixty pieces of hurt again!

Ha! Did you think you’d find the reasons?
Did you think I’d tell the meaning?
Therefore I laugh my lungs to shreds
To sixty pieces of hurt again.

Are you disillusioned yet?
Disillusionment told from 2 perspectives
Nov 2024 · 223
epitaph to wilbur soot
fish-sama Nov 2024
"your smile hid the teeth that made your lovers bleed"
Nov 2024 · 121
to the internet:
fish-sama Nov 2024
I watched tommy's video today
I.. don't know what to say
I want to get out of here
I want to get out of here
I miss the days when the internet was okay
when you were okay
bo burnham was right
tommy was right
they're not alright
It... isn't the same anymore
So... internet drama. I don't know but it really hurt when my internet role models were not who they seem to be. Like wilbur soot... I used to imitate him, memorize his songs, and fantasize about one day starting my own youtube channel. But now... It's different. Everything's messed up, and the good people like tommy are caught in the middle of it. Attention is a drug, a drug that has led to the downfall of many content creators. I hope they'll be okay. I hope we'll be okay.
Nov 2024 · 157
Lethargic
fish-sama Nov 2024
Tired
Absolutely wasted
A worn-out
Out-dated
Machine.
Diagnostics aren’t running properly
Mannerisms aren’t properly proper
Inappropriate systems propagate pop-ups
In my cpu plunging to rock bottom
….
Reboot
Restart
….
Tired
Indefinitely trashed
Rewind rewind
Nov 2024 · 357
i kill
fish-sama Nov 2024
you.
I **** you again, I **** you.
in my head.
I savor your carcass
stir-fried and salted,
I eat it.
Relax, you're in no pain
Dead in my head a million ways.
Nov 2024 · 987
o b s e s s i o n
fish-sama Nov 2024
eye dilate, palpitate.
I gorge on your face.
Drunk on nuclear waste.
i tend to be a bit too invested in romantic relationships.
Nov 2024 · 53
Ellipsis
fish-sama Nov 2024
Ellipsis
Penetrate
Sentences.
I witness
Titanic
Silences.
Synthesis
Sinks the ship
You haunted.
My ghosted
Ellipsis…
Nov 2024 · 69
Weird
fish-sama Nov 2024
Look at me.
Do you see

Vulnerability?
Your drawling voice

Mockingly speaks
Coldly, you look

Down at me so
Differently…
.
I am normal,
Hiding from eyes

Mangled hands write
Bedridden cries

In hidden lies.
Shut your mouth don’t

Speak of me please
Get your *****

Concern off my
Skin I skin myself.

Don’t
look at me.
Nov 2024 · 42
Candy stars
fish-sama Nov 2024
I once learnt of a girl who held stars in her hands
Her neck scarred and left with purple indents
She found him working at a, candy caravan
With his—“Icy glare and chiding gnarled grin”
He drew her in, slipping a few more confections
in her paper bag, his love an infection.
Their hands intertwined and “She’s always mine”
Their foreheads met in a forest of lies
She smiled as his fingertips felt her soft satin throat
He pulled back and lips brushed her ear
A swift blow she heard as death
  drew
near…
Her heart peppermint, pungent dead wafers
Down by the river, forgot she’s a liver:
Candy stars scattered in the sky.
Nov 2024 · 217
thank you
fish-sama Nov 2024
Dear God,
Thank you for this peace.
I am worn, torn in the
eye of the storm,
as the winds reform
a gentle breeze
and I am released
Thank you.
Nov 2024 · 89
single
fish-sama Nov 2024
You left me with compressed agony
Dense emptiness
But through singularity I become infinite.
From Oxford Languages:
singularity (noun):
a point at which a function takes an infinite value, especially in space-time when matter is infinitely dense, as at the center of a black hole.
Nov 2024 · 148
My gentleman,
fish-sama Nov 2024
Serenity.
Graceful
Laughter,
A ringing
Bell.
The wind
gently Rustles your hair, it lives
hugs   flows as your fingers   open
life     Caress a primrose as     to
with       Soft as the swing of     lo
sm    Your hips as you dance.   ve
all     The pink flush of your     te
wi         Cheeks, the caring       ars
sh         Lilt of your chime.        and
e              A vessel pouring         cr
s.           Out your    fragile         y.
Heart           for all
weak           ness
does           not
hi                de.
Fe              el.
                   ­                                                       My beautiful gentleman,
                                             Be alive
Taking “gentlemen” literally is so pretty.
Nov 2024 · 150
i do not want
fish-sama Nov 2024
to be loved today.
It slowly kills me
to try and repay
this debt for eternity.
Nov 2024 · 613
HATING HAPPINESS
fish-sama Nov 2024
Hating                                      happiness is              disgusting.
                         Seeing                           these  
yellow flowers                      bloom  
vibrantly                                     Sick  
breathing in           undeserved air as  
laughs                   slap our lungs dry.    
I know      
Every time I smile    
I do    
the world  
injustice.
I wish                                                                            to
cauterize my lips
shut
black with soot.
I do not deserve this.
Happiness
sometimes I talk to people and laugh a lot, and a few moments later I'm in the bathroom feeling like vomiting.
Nov 2024 · 258
dear lady,
fish-sama Nov 2024
imperfect
she's witty
womanly
i love
milady
your calloused fingers, a heart you're
patient    chivalrous, gallant, bold,    alluring
leading        ****** soldier stands     ambitions
critical        honest and cold       amazing
thinking   her dreams     always
smart,   dauntless,  aiming
my dearest with  
shotguns as arms.
Responsible     shoulders
my lady           my honey
charming             handsome
black                           -eyed
black                              -faced
        bea                               uty          
you                           are,  
our                           war
rior,                        rugged
indest                       ructable
gunslinger                   please call her

                                                                                                         milady.
the strongest people I've met are women.
should I make a poem for men?
I don't think any gender is superior
Nov 2024 · 145
cringe-master
fish-sama Nov 2024
I am the ALPHA of cringeverse
My quirks are anime’s curse
I try to hide
My unhinged side
But drowning in cap is not worth it
I don’t read omegaverse
But I am filled with DETERMINATION
Nov 2024 · 288
rage
fish-sama Nov 2024
snakeskin unpeeling
my composure sagging off
vipers sliver out
Nov 2024 · 312
acceptance
fish-sama Nov 2024
love and to be loved
hate and to be hated must
exist together
Nov 2024 · 366
snap back
fish-sama Nov 2024
Sometimes I snap back to reality
Smell my burning hopes killing me
And I cry when my eyes kiss the smoke
Of dreams and connections and plans I wrote
Suffocating in the fire I stroke
But death is warm and my fear is cold
I'm stuck, sinking into coals alone
Turning fifteen and
I miss my past
A wish won't last
I must keep on
Going running
I must accept
Your expectations
I have no passion
I have no mission
I take no action
Must I go on?
If uphill ends
Then maybe I’ll reach
The top no downs
A high I can keep
I don’t want to fall
I dont want to fade
I’ll give it my all
I’ll never fall
I’ll give it my all
Courage will call
I'll give it my all
I’ll give it…
It’s useless
My body fades and decays
Afraid, inside, anxious
I Stay
I wait and wait
I ask Self-hate to
Let me go
Away
This elastic band it’s my comfort zone
Snaps back around my throat
Let me go
Hey readers! This is a poem about feeling stagnant in one place and all bursts of inspiration fails. It's my own actions that make me fail, which really *****. I hope you all can relate and I love feedback :)

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