How was your room?
A pillow thrown to the door
Whisps of Tea brushing my nose
A promise to someday visit the shore
Late nights watching the movies you chose
Ping-Pong matches, no one keeping score
Elevator gossip about men you found gross

How was your room?
Bone white walls and metal desks
Naked beds and missing pillows
Paper on the door, boxes and checks
flipped the switch to a jarring yellow
Eyes looked down, scratches to the neck
A wide drawn smile never felt so hollow

What could ever be,
What would ever be,
Whatever it may be,
It doesn't matter to me!

There is no debate
Fantasizing is hard to hate
But the more that I indulge,
my sanity further engulfs,
What's happiness?
now it's desperation manifest

You are all I want you to be,
Let the what ifs just be,
We have our present to forever be
whatever we ever want to be!

What could have been of us
if they were out of the picture
would your cheeks rest in the clusps
of my palms, would you rupture
a vein below my dry bottom lips?

These dry hands grasp for any sense,
my head wishes it was ever more dense,
this weary heart rushes aimless,
but even then, yearning is just so effortless

What could have been of us
if the weight of your words was gold
if I were just a little bit more bold,
prudent, even. Never my tongue hold,
would I know that reciprocate was an answer?

It's scary how life can change
For now, I witnessed the sky fall
As I float in those galactic eyes
Anchor me down will you?
To the core of your gravity
May I land gracefully in your earthly embrace to kiss those rosey cheeks?

Dream on!
Cause legends were fools who never ceased to stop
and nobodies were sages who hesitated to take a step

What am I to her?
I am emotionally defective
and physically secondhand.
You deserve luxury and excess
not thrifted vintage.

I get lonely, I forget my worth
I get lonely, I pretend it could be worse
I get lonely, I burn me to keep you warm
I get lonely, I hate that you are truly happy

Promise me just tonight
You will hold me ever so tight
It's for the best, I can't second guess
compared to leaving me restless

Would you like us to burn in
the summer heat,
blossom like the tulips in spring?
Or would you like us to be as clear
as the winter's ice,
fall like the leaves in autumn?

Turn on the night lamp
and slither in the bed
scroll through the apps
and let your lethargy extend
Don't worry about an alarm to tap
whether it's day or noon, you are eternally condemned

Would you like me
to live in agony
over the thought of
never meeting you,
or a life full of regret
because I lost you?

What am I?
A walking collection
of slowly fading memories
It is certain that I would let
all the stories that made me
slip by and run far far away
and for that I hope that you
would do me a favor :
Would you please remember me ?

This hypnotizing melody
made me a dancing zombie
Because when I was filled with agony
You made depression sound so catchy

Here is an offer,
a request to be a lover,
make my love prose longer,
add structure till it's form differ,
once a poem to a novel full of laughter.

Take me back to a time, rewind
To an age, a moment
Where I would be scared
of ghost stories
And hopeful of the world

Gazing up to the starry sky
It's all beauty I can not deny
But it's not up where my thoughts fly
It has always been you, but I'm too shy

Lonely, lonely soul
Where should we go?
Life is done, a little dull
nothing but a burden to throw

Our lips were
5 centimeters apart
but between our hearts
was the galaxy

In this mad, mad world
All we seek is composure
But no matter how old
Self hate is alcohol,
You're either drunk or sober

Tiada salah membiarkan raga terluka
semakin dalam jarum jam menusuk Memang, tiada obat untuk semua derita
Tak salah menerima pilu dalam khusyuk

Came to life as an alien,
And my skin palette is broader
try and hold me down while I'm breaking the border
Trumping over these walls, call me a dreamer

It is regrettable to not be a fond memory
But aches more when you contributed to tragedy
scoring scars on the soul and bruises on the body
Digging pits and holes deep inside the memory
Yes, time heals all wounds and forgiveness may wash guilt
But to know you can hurt always makes you feel like a *******

I'm up your mind flocking, like a bird
Menancing, dropping disses like a **** when you look up boy you better be concerned
Compared to your rhymes, it would be the flyest **** you ever heard

Is this love?
When everything is beautiful,
When I can't sense the passage of time,
And where everything is so dreamlike
That I beg you to never wake me up

I can't stop thinking of our last moment
You were still the sweetest saying those harsh words
"Please, not yet..."
The words I repeated desperately
Even today, my lips can only tremble
And I will never be fine

I will remember you
I will meet you again
I will draw you in my dreams every night
You and I, under the blue night sky
I promised you love
I will give you a moonlight in the darkest nights
I want to shine the world with this light
My Full moon

All she has is the hollow shadow of an ex-lover
And all that bring her joy are cigarettes and retro city pop records

I became a zombie,
A mindless being
Drifting through life aimlessly
wanting to change something
Not capable of doing anything
And ended up with no one by my side

Sekian lama tak berjumpa
Duniaku berhenti, hampa
Seakan diriku dikarantina

I can write you
endless poems
About all the reasons
I fell for you yet
You can not
even text me back

Run away, with me
And the poltergeists and ghouls
We can wander through the darkness
And play by our own rules

Run away, with me
To a cavern shaped like home
Where we'll build our own forever
And never dance alone

-Marceline The Vampire Queen

Don't have to mope about you,
I got prettier lips to kiss
No need to keep all the pictures I drew
All you deserve is a meaner diss

You and I are vintage
Unfit for a modern setting
And at best a distant memory

Perhaps I'm too lonely
Or too desperate
I hoped this would work
I'm so ashamed, what did I think?
I should have been more attentive
I should have been more caring
I'm sorry I'm not 6 foot tall
I'm sorry I'm not ripped with a six pack
I'm sorry that regret is flying
straight through you like a bullet

The nights heal what the days have hurt,
the days hurt what the nights have healed

I would **** to be
the lover in your
fantasies and wildest dreams

They say love is like flight
and fills your heart with delight
But it is never like that, right?
It's crash landing from a height
and many sleepless nights

Aku ingin bertemu tuhan
dengan tubuh kering berkafan
Bukan sebagai bangkai terurai
Di rumahku yang kini lautan

Before us, I was a nobody
But now I found myself
As the main character
Of our tragic love story

I bathed down my screen rays more than the sun
I'm anxious of forgetting attendance
than not understanding ****
I'm not sick due to covid but I'm sick
of times new roman font size 12

Will I ever be fine?
Am I able to feel happy?
Can my confidence radiate and shine?
Or am I always going to feel ******?
My self-hatred, I can not confine
My life's worth? Not even a penny

Spent the whole night in my head
Did a little cleaning
Perhaps I should dream instead
and stop trying to figuring out living
but my eyes get lighter with dread
If I ever sleep, please be eternal rest

It's like you found a missing piece
But really, you were never incomplete
I do not complete you dear
I remind you that you were whole all along

Without you
The world is stuck
Like I'm in quarantine

Ku merindukan kata-kata hangatmu
yang menembus dinginnya malam
menyelimuti raga yang gugup

I miss your comforting words
that breeze through my ears
And dampen my thoughts

Skinny jeans, black cardi
Iphone 8 with that cracked screen
Eyebags from assignments overdue
Longing for a natural view
Outside the screens and books too
I need to ask "How do you do?"

To see you walk alone
down the alley that we met
It aches my heart that yearns
To fill the void beside you
For those few meters
are oceans I have to sail

Rest in my arms
sink in my embrace
so I can dive into your dreams
and soar in your imagination

Tidurlah di sampingku
Dan izinkan aku memasuki mimpi indahmu
Karena ingin kutenggelam di dalamnya
Menghiasi ruang khayalmu selamanya