You blossomed me to life
Blushed me shades of rose and cerise
Oh dear let me brush my care
but promise me I won't pale
to the crescent moon and
leave me to bloom

Perutku meronta
Semangatku hampa
Tak berharta, tak berkerja
Olahmu hanya buka sel-sel penjara
dan menatap kamera penuh gaya
Kalau begini dirimu, persetan saja
Lebih baik aku mati karena korona

Melihatmu melangkah menjauh
"Aku pamit"
Ku terhembus mabuk
mendekati ruang hampa di sampingmu
Perjalanan beberapa tapak
menjadi hamparan samudra
dan ku tak sanggup berlayar

I run for you
to catch your heart
but will you stray further
If I rest my knees
and catch a breath?

Like writing on sand
I will not tire to remind you
Of your beauty
Cause I'm afraid that
Waves will wash the shore

Cause I want to reach you
before the moon comes
to tell that I miss you
and see your smile

Hal terindah yang akan kau kesali
Sakit terperih yang akan kau rindui
Tragedi yang akan kau ulangi
Irama merdu yang akan kau benci
Buku suci yang akan kau nistai
Dosa besar yang akan kau tekuni
Logika yang akan kau tinggali
Emosi yang akan kau hamburi

Though no pictures remain,
Your care is deeply engrained
We might change
But my memories stay the same
I apologize for any form of pain
I realize that there was nothing to gain
From you I learned to not feel shame
When I open up my heart, untamed
Cause love is best explained
Not as place to point and blame
Nor a tight, competitive game
But letting both hearts reign
and set the soul in flames

To the rooftop we went
Cause you wanted to see the stars
After sunset, no one shone for you
to your grumpy face I said that
I had the galaxy with me
the whole time

Hey, it's been a while
How's life been?
As of late, my heart's in trial
For never throwing you out the bin
It longs for our past
The beautiful and the fond
Lucky for wisdom to come and pass
That what it misses is long gone
Truth of the matter, it was not you,
A liberated soul that cannot be ceased
but a past fragment of you
that has rested in peace

Ku menggigil
menatap rintikan hujan
Payungku terlalu kecil
Untukku dan sedihnya kenangan

As I stand shivering
I look up the heavy rain
my umbrella can not fit me
and the memories of you

You are a messy soul
Wandering through life
What I offer is love
Too much for you to repay
Worry not, as I acknowledge that
Guilt is a toxin to the soul
I hope you can see that
A field of sunflowers
Waits for you everytime

My dear,
I have been urging to write this well after our quarrel
it took a while, after my ego and mind had a battle
if you don't mind and have some time to spare
allow me to apologize and admit that I was unfair
I never bothered to wipe your flooding tears
or even to your worries lend my ears
my sympathy and care I held tight
while I let your misery take a bite
at your heart that was weathering already
that you found solace in another's company
I see that you are crowned with blissful joy
with more sincerity than when you were my toy
if it was regret to evoke within, you truly succeed
cause whenever you laugh, my heart bleeds indeed
but I need to face reality, you are now gone
I miss you and that's what I have to live with from now on

Like the flowing spring breeze
you will forever slip out
of my grasp
no matter how tight I hold
you will get away with ease
leaving me in wonder
of where you leave

Seperti hembusan angin yang berlalu
selamanya kau tak akan
pernah kugenggam
seerat apapun ku bertahan
kau akan berlalu begitu saja
meninggalkan resah kontinu
"ke mana kau akan pergi?"

Umur berpihak dengan raga
menahan gejolak membara jiwa
umur menggengam hati dan berdoa
"tuhan, jangan kau membuatnya buta
mengejar idealisme, terkekang fatamorgana.
kembalikanlah ia,
ke mana hidup menuruti realita."
umur makin takut melihatnya
mendobrak dinding bata
batasnya dengan dunia
"Tiada guna,
di luar sana
kau hanya akan binasa,
ku hanya memiliki cinta
dan ku tak ingin kau kecewa..."
"Bukan cinta bila tangisan
membanjiri mata,
bukan kasih jika wilayah ditempa
membatasi ruang bermuara
semua perilaku hina padaku tertimpa
ku terima dengan hati leluasa
tanpanya ku tak akan bermetamorfosa
jangan kau berlara-lara
melihat juangku yang remaja
kekacauan ini indah
membuatku merasakan untuk kali pertama
hidup tiada kesempatan kedua."

The city is asleep
and the rain decided to come by
No taxi or bus is gonna pick me up but
home is far away

While I try to be the best
your expectations mount like Everest
Truly, I can never rest
before I die of all this stress
and no one will hear my distress

You are the mystery
that lays in every page of my novel
no matter how hard I try to solve
Your simplicity baffles me every single time

Kaulah kenangan di langit tinggi
Bersinar terang tanpa mengetahui
Ada manusia menatapmu di bumi
menawarkan tangannya bukan memberi
meminta hangatmu walau tak berarti
Hanya doa yang bisa ia ucapkan dalam hati
Mari berjumpa lagi walau hanya sebatas mimpi

Our story is a little star
among the vast galaxy
may the stars align for us to meet again
even if it’s just in our dreams

Ucapanmu membisukan
mengantar banyak tafsir secara simultan
membuat nalarku rentan
dengan sakaunya khayalan
Kepalaku dulu mengambang di tengah awan
dan kini kau meluncurkannya ke bulan

What you say
Makes me mute
you leave me hanging
on the ecstasy of uncertainty
My head was over the clouds
And now you shot me to the moon

Run, run and run
away from that misery
Shout out loud and clear
Without a **** to the world
You are broken, a misfit they say
even though they deny the anguish within

I have never seen true freedom
among the living
Perhaps that is why
the symbol of liberty is a statue

Langitku penjajah
Menghalangi hangatnya mentari
tubuhku diinjak, teriakanku dibantah
Air mataku mengalir, ketawanya nyaring
Dimana langitku dijunjung
Disana diriku ditindas

Where expectations are rooted
disappointments will grow
We either always forget this
Or are too stubborn

live for now never later
Be happy in the moment
But never cling on it foolishly
cause all it ever does is delay your misery

I want you that looks at me
I want you that waits for me
Please let your care hold me
Let your love blossom again
“Never Ever Fall”
I wish upon our love in autumn

Meeting you was summer
Clashing waves of emotion,
Bright rays of hope
Knowing you was spring
Blooming love and soft fragrance of care
Loving you was autumn
The leaves of my heart fell by a whisper of your breeze
Missing you is winter
Because while you were in July
My heart is stuck in December

Why should I answer tomorrow today?
My past is haunting me
My future is scaring me
Should I go here or there?
I don't know and no one would care

Melihatmu melukis warna
Merah cerah dan jingga
Mengangkat kedua ujung bibir
Membawa bahagia dengan sihir
Namun kini bukanlah yang lalu
Melihatmu menyobek raga
Merah darah dan infeksi
Menggebuk harapan memfana
Mengenakan topeng yang berseri

I am danger to men
I must cover up
Behave well and then
Pour my guests a cup
I am heaven to men
I must pamper up
Flirt well and then
Be lustful when I ****
I am hindrance to men
I must shut up
Suffer and when
I speak up and fight
There will be me no more after tonight

I am not afraid of change
cause if you do
I needn't worry
my memories of you stay the same

When time strands us oceans apart
and the sky clouds up our future
my wish for you
is to never forget me

I'm slow dancing
to non-existent melodies,
loud thoughts that orbit me
never giving reason
to be compact
I'm alive because I can't die

We have done something wonderful
for all these months we poured
our blood, sweat and tears
to achieve perfection
to claim honor
to find my purpose
but
after all we have accomplished
why do I feel my soul getting more hollow
why am I back to square one
a place thats curse I have thought to be undone

24 hours chasing me
too early to seek shade
too late to hide in the shadows
no rest, no pause, always forward
stop
and I will be history

Tertera kah di alam
bahwa hati manusia tenggelam
tak mampu menghirup tenang,
mengambang, hanyut dalam tegang
membusuk takut
menjalani hidup

Is it in nature
that my personality has nurtured
to associate every concurring event, place, or person
with worry, anxiety and fear?

Will you stay
knowing that I am broken and lonely with you
will you stay
even though you will hear me whine and complain over the same things, the same feelings for god knows how long
will you stay
when I can't even capture the shape of my problems so I remember them in everything
will you stay
and hold on to a burden that does you no good

What can a smile do when you are sad?
It hides you from the world
it lies to you and others that you are fine
that the burden you carry is light on your shoulders
while your legs wear out out of sight
It's hard to admit that you are sad
It hurts to admit that you are not fine
but you deserve to feel the truth
and know that the world seeks you
to help you
to accompany you
to love you

I run, run and run
chasing what you have set
as insane as it seems, I complied
because I trusted you
and you wanted me to flourish
but tell me please
why the more I flourish
the emptier my growth becomes

Here we are again friend
Just as you always predict
sleepless but imaginative
but it's not tonight, dear pen
my eyes are sinking
and my brain is cosmic
flying
                 levels
                               beyond
                                               Infinity
                                                Struck.
                                   falling
                    flailing aimlessly
                                                    Searching for O2

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I have regrets
so do you...right?
Maybe a slip of tongue
that stabbed trust
A mishap, maybe slight klutziness
causing success to sigh
and leave for the exit
A life empty of regret
is non-humane
so is a life of regret
when choices are standing
opportunities are waving
possibilities waiting for you
and there you are
standing,
observing,
fascinated but scared,
"comfortable"
and chanting to yourself
Maybe it's not worth it

A huge step to mankind
microscopic to mine
heads up in reach of
today's warm rays
eyes shut, hostile towards
the blinding light
a new beginning, progression
towards an ideal vision
an age old quest in search of
means for eternal rest

No matter how colorful
all I see is black and white
no palette or aesthetic
will amuse my dull vision
the soft hums of nature
the noise of a bustling metropolis
are all too mundane. Boring.
The world is not my place,
not my home,
not my reason.
I bid you all farewell,
and gratitude.
For life in a monochrome,
you have tried to paint a spectrum on me.
colors of care, passion...love
It was beautiful
even if my tears wiped all spotless
It was beautiful
even if my sorrow numbed your kindness
It was beautiful
even if my departure was to you an attrocity