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"punches" poems
i feel sorry for you bed for all the blood tears and punches the shrieks into your pillows im sorry bed for bringing a man there who you knew would hurt me
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Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 12:02 AM UTC
bed
I am alive by luck at this point. I wonder if the gun that will eventually take me has been made. Whose trigger will bury me. How many bullets, like a flock of sparrows, will come carry my life to its final bed. Today, I am alive but there is no law to thank. If not me, then someone else. Born into a game of chance we never asked for. Traded diplomas for obituaries. Traded graduation speeches for eulogies. Traded futures for an early grave. Forced to cash in their chips. We don’t want to play anymore. And this too is eulogy. And this too is prayer. And this too can resurrect the coffin wood back to a tree. Can sing back alive whatever parts of you died with them. Whatever leapt in your throat at yet another headline. Mourning until you, too, are a thing to mourn. But we will no longer be martyrs. We are the rude awakening to politicians who pawned out our safety, who bartered our lives for bribes. You say “gun reform is not the answer” but all I can see is a bullet rattling like a pinball in an innocent student’s jaw. You smell like gun smoke and I can see the AR15 you're holding behind your back and I guess it's easy to crack jokes about dodging bullets when you're the one firing them. Give teachers books not bullets: Kafka isn’t kevlar. Bronte isn’t bulletproof. And how sick is it that we must add school shootings to your list of proud american traditions. Throwing opinions like punches. How many more have to die before you decide your ego isn’t as important as you think it is? And I, too, am buried alive My soggy grave parting its greedy lips. To you, my bones, when ground into gunpowder and mixed into water, taste like champagne. My pulse, as thin as an obituary panting beneath sweaty palms, and sure We are “just kids,” But you are forgetting we are the next generation And you autopsy your fists. Call it reclamatory. Lately, when asked “how are you?” I respond with a name no longer living. And who knows if mine will be next
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Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018 at 10:32 PM UTC
Ammunition: a eulogy for parkland
I am alive by luck at this point. I wonder if the gun that will eventually take me has been made. Whose trigger will bury me. How many bullets, like a flock of sparrows, will come carry my life to its final bed. Today, I am alive but there is no law to thank. If not me, then someone else. Born into a game of chance we never asked for. Traded diplomas for obituaries. Traded graduation speeches for eulogies. Traded futures for an early grave. Forced to cash in their chips. We don’t want to play anymore. And this too is eulogy. And this too is prayer. And this too can resurrect the coffin wood back to a tree. Can sing back alive whatever parts of you died with them. Whatever leapt in your throat at yet another headline. Mourning until you, too, are a thing to mourn. But we will no longer be martyrs. We are the rude awakening to politicians who pawned out our safety, who bartered our lives for bribes. You say “gun reform is not the answer” but all I can see is a bullet rattling like a pinball in an innocent student’s jaw. You smell like gun smoke and I can see the AR15 you're holding behind your back and I guess it's easy to crack jokes about dodging bullets when you're the one firing them. Give teachers books not bullets: Kafka isn’t kevlar. Bronte isn’t bulletproof. And how sick is it that we must add school shootings to your list of proud american traditions. Throwing opinions like punches. How many more have to die before you decide your ego isn’t as important as you think it is? And I, too, am buried alive My soggy grave parting its greedy lips. To you, my bones, when ground into gunpowder and mixed into water, taste like champagne. My pulse, as thin as an obituary panting beneath sweaty palms, and sure We are “just kids,” But you are forgetting we are the next generation And you autopsy your fists. Call it reclamatory. Lately, when asked “how are you?” I respond with a name no longer living. And who knows if mine will be next
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All these kids, They cry, Scream, And ***** "I WANT FREEDOM FROM MY PARENTS!" That simple freedom does not concern me. I want freedom, but not just from my parents so I can stay out late. I want freedom, From my peers, From my family, From the government, And from myself. I want to be free to walk down the halls, Hand in hand with a girl, Who I'm in love with. I want to be able to do that, With no fear in my heart. No worries or names called, Or punches thrown. I want that freedom. I want the freedom to be able to bring a girl home, And show her to my parents, And tell her how much I love her, In front of them. I want to be able to talk to my mom, About relationship problems, About the GIRL who broke my heart, But I cant. I want the freedom to marry. To marry any person I choose, No matter the gender. Male, Or female, It should not matter. My happiness, And the way I spend my life, Is not something that should be voted on, By those with half a brain. I want freedom from myself, To accept me, And be who I am, Without any shame. But I can't do that, Unless I have the freedom from others, To be me, And be happy with that. I want the freedom to be gay. Some may complain, That the gays are already free, Too much maybe. But that is not the case. We're not persecuted, But we're not free. All throughout history there has been movements for freedom. There was one of religious freedom, When puritans came to the New World from Britain. A war was started, And freedom came out with a victory. There was one of freedom for slaves, So that they could live the lives they wanted, And not have to be owned, And treated like property, By another human being. Once again, A war was started, And the slaves were freed. There was one of freedom for women, So that women could be the same as men, Equals. There were marches, And protests, And women rights came out on top. There was one of freedom for those of color, So that they can mix, And mingle, With the race that whites thought was superior. There were marches, And sit ins, Protests, And brawls, But guess who won in the end? We are working towards freedom of LGBTQ, lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, questioning/queer, And one way or another, We will eventually get our freedom. Look at all these past freedom movements, There were always two sides to it. Which side are you on? Is it the right one? This is not the land of the free and the home of the brave. This is the land of the *** ******* cowards, And the home of the "You can be free, if we allow it." I think its about time we either lived up to our motto, Or changed it.
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Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 11:14 PM UTC
Freedom
All these kids, They cry, Scream, And ***** "I WANT FREEDOM FROM MY PARENTS!" That simple freedom does not concern me. I want freedom, but not just from my parents so I can stay out late. I want freedom, From my peers, From my family, From the government, And from myself. I want to be free to walk down the halls, Hand in hand with a girl, Who I'm in love with. I want to be able to do that, With no fear in my heart. No worries or names called, Or punches thrown. I want that freedom. I want the freedom to be able to bring a girl home, And show her to my parents, And tell her how much I love her, In front of them. I want to be able to talk to my mom, About relationship problems, About the GIRL who broke my heart, But I cant. I want the freedom to marry. To marry any person I choose, No matter the gender. Male, Or female, It should not matter. My happiness, And the way I spend my life, Is not something that should be voted on, By those with half a brain. I want freedom from myself, To accept me, And be who I am, Without any shame. But I can't do that, Unless I have the freedom from others, To be me, And be happy with that. I want the freedom to be gay. Some may complain, That the gays are already free, Too much maybe. But that is not the case. We're not persecuted, But we're not free. All throughout history there has been movements for freedom. There was one of religious freedom, When puritans came to the New World from Britain. A war was started, And freedom came out with a victory. There was one of freedom for slaves, So that they could live the lives they wanted, And not have to be owned, And treated like property, By another human being. Once again, A war was started, And the slaves were freed. There was one of freedom for women, So that women could be the same as men, Equals. There were marches, And protests, And women rights came out on top. There was one of freedom for those of color, So that they can mix, And mingle, With the race that whites thought was superior. There were marches, And sit ins, Protests, And brawls, But guess who won in the end? We are working towards freedom of LGBTQ, lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, questioning/queer, And one way or another, We will eventually get our freedom. Look at all these past freedom movements, There were always two sides to it. Which side are you on? Is it the right one? This is not the land of the free and the home of the brave. This is the land of the *** ******* cowards, And the home of the "You can be free, if we allow it." I think its about time we either lived up to our motto, Or changed it.
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What's my worth? Am I worth a second glance? Till present, from birth Am I deserving of chance? What's my value? Am I worth time spent? What did I do? Did I squander the life lent? What are my virtues? Do they even shine through? Do I put them to good use? Or useless like a pair less shoe? What defines me? Is it the words that write? Or work I do diligently? Could it be my punches in a fight? What have I done? Take your time to think Did I do it with a loaded gun? Must've done something; must've missed the link What am I good for? Important work or menial labour Could have I done more? Achieved alone or together Do I think differently? Indulge in fairytale notions Is it sheer folly? To believe in magic potions Am I just silly? Do I dream too much? Accept reality Am I capable of such? Do I shirk what I carry? Should I have said no? Did I delay and tarry? Have I nothing to show? Am I wrong to feel? Is it foolish to want? When it all is real Now bearing the brunt Do I wear you weary? With my endless stupor Why can't I bury? Before we expire Why do I wallow? Wading through eye puddles Should I just burrow? Deep into these riddles Why do I falter? Why can't I heal and rise? Why do I break and shatter? How do I stop my eyes? What is this dense forest? Must everything be obscure? Can I not be honest? Can I not be insecure? Could I be any more random? Asking as they come to mind Have I compromised my decorum? Have I been blind? Should I delve even deeper? May I go on and ask? Am I worthy of an answer? Or should I just don my mask? Gargantuan was my crime Thick was its girth Absolution this time? Of it am I worth?
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Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 1:04 PM UTC
Worth
What's my worth? Am I worth a second glance? Till present, from birth Am I deserving of chance? What's my value? Am I worth time spent? What did I do? Did I squander the life lent? What are my virtues? Do they even shine through? Do I put them to good use? Or useless like a pair less shoe? What defines me? Is it the words that write? Or work I do diligently? Could it be my punches in a fight? What have I done? Take your time to think Did I do it with a loaded gun? Must've done something; must've missed the link What am I good for? Important work or menial labour Could have I done more? Achieved alone or together Do I think differently? Indulge in fairytale notions Is it sheer folly? To believe in magic potions Am I just silly? Do I dream too much? Accept reality Am I capable of such? Do I shirk what I carry? Should I have said no? Did I delay and tarry? Have I nothing to show? Am I wrong to feel? Is it foolish to want? When it all is real Now bearing the brunt Do I wear you weary? With my endless stupor Why can't I bury? Before we expire Why do I wallow? Wading through eye puddles Should I just burrow? Deep into these riddles Why do I falter? Why can't I heal and rise? Why do I break and shatter? How do I stop my eyes? What is this dense forest? Must everything be obscure? Can I not be honest? Can I not be insecure? Could I be any more random? Asking as they come to mind Have I compromised my decorum? Have I been blind? Should I delve even deeper? May I go on and ask? Am I worthy of an answer? Or should I just don my mask? Gargantuan was my crime Thick was its girth Absolution this time? Of it am I worth?
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My mom says "frick" or "fiddlesticks" even when kids aren't around. She's holding in some of that pure, unfiltered rage each time a plate is dropped or toe is stubbed. If only she'd just shout "OH **** she wouldn't lash out at grandma or sob uncontrollably later. Someone once said to me, **** you!" and I was happy. It means they won't ****** me in my sleep because they expressed verbal and not physical rage. I was happier when someone told me "go **** yourself" because I went home and did just that. Speaking of pleasure, the act of ******* burns between 85-250 calories, improves sleep & your immune system. Google it. I've been ****** a realization &/or learning experience having gone broke without a way to pay rent resulting in the lesson of moving back in with the parents. We can get ****** up. A couple too many tokes &/or shots of gin &/or punches to the face. We learn the perils of excess. In third grade, I was ****** up by a group of 6-7 kids. I learned I never want to experience THAT uncomfortable feeling again. Why is **** such a bad word again?
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Jul 7, 2012
Jul 7, 2012 at 11:58 AM UTC
The Benefits of ****
This weight on my chest This feeling of 100 punches to my gut The pounding of hammers in my head The feeling of a blade slip through my fingers The smell of iron in the air as the thick red water drips and flows All these pains and yet the worst feeling I've felt was the crushing blows of your words echoing in my ears. Your words weighing heavily on my heart like an Anvil defying physics. I feel the pressure and it's caving in...
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May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 9:37 AM UTC
Crushed
It's never goodbye Always see you later Though my body is far My mind is nearer Than the air you are breathing I'm with you there sleeping Always remember Never forget The time that we've spent Together again Soon we will be So don't you dare fret The going gets tough We've always had it a bit rough Roll with the punches And play with cards that are dealt With a bond such as ours We will always prevail Over the hardships and toils Our blood, it will boil Tiffs and spats will be had But, we'll never stay mad It's been fun and will remain Joyous all the same Cuz it's never goodbye Just see you later
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Jul 31, 2012
Jul 31, 2012 at 11:34 PM UTC
See You Later
You must be understanding Of his demons You’re never going to see him On the weekends. He’s just what you found perfect As long as he was in bed. It turns out every time, the romance It is all inside your head. Even though he knows you’re hurting He can’t do a thing You really should have known this When you saw his ring. Even in the deep heat of summer You’re out in the cold. It isn’t like it never happened before This story is old. You must be understanding Of his demons You’re never going to see him On the weekends. You think of you and him as a couple That can never be He has lied to her, why not to you? This is your reality. Maybe you decided this is better than Being all alone. What you think is love for you is like The Twilight Zone. He has a life without you and you knew There was no ‘us’ or ‘we’. You’re always the villain, homewrecker; Innocence is but a memory. You tell yourself each time he leaves That is it, no more. Then change your mind by the time He closes the door. Regret for what you do to his life Is not your problem. Like me, she has to learn the punches And learn to roll with them. You must be understanding Of his demons You’re never going to see him On the weekends. He’s just what you found perfect As long as he was in bed. It turns out every time, the romance It is all inside your head.
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Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 11:54 PM UTC
MARRIED MAN
Scars scattered on my skin, Pain storming deep within, Yet, I am proud to say, I'm a survivor; Catcalls are a norm, Yet I don't wish to conform, To the societal rules, Because I'm a survivor; I've seen life at its worst, I've been through so much that I could burst, But I won't let them be satisfied, Because I'm a survivor; They say I'm alone, They think I am prone, To fall into the shadows called depression; Oh I'm a survivor; They say I'm a poor child, They say I'll run away wild; But I won't do anything as such, Because I'm a survivor; They say I'm sugary sweet, They say I'm a sheep that'll bleat; Oh they are sadly mistaken, Because I'm a survivor; To you, I may look like harmless, To you, I may look characterless, But I'm a fighter through and through; Life's hit me with a lot of punches, But you must remember, my darling, I'm a survivor; I don't know, Whether I'm high or am I low, What matters the most is, I'm a survivor;
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Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:39 PM UTC
Survivor
Like an onion, I had layers. And you peeled me away, one at a time. One layer off. You saw my favorites. The food and drinks I crave for. The wall paint I wanted for my room. The perky dresses, nail polish, knee-high boots. And the spot I always prefer to be- on the front seat. One layer off. You saw my hobbies. The words I stitched together. The stars that formed our zodiac sign. The wallclimbing, badminton, volleyball. And the guitar strings that strum our lullaby. One layer off. You saw my dreams. The plane ticket to Paris. The thrill of a bungee jump. The candlelit dinner, fireworks, dancing fountain. And the license as a medical physician. One layer off. You saw my strengths. The smile behind the false judgements. The tears I fought back with pride. The temperance, confidence, adjustments. And the self-love I have strongly magnified. One layer off. You saw my insecurities. The missing dimple on my left cheek. The pimples on my forehead. The bitchface, fierce stare, strict walk. And this prominently thin-but-tall body figure. One layer off. You saw my regrets. The kisses I could have refused. The friends I thought were true. The false assumptions, unmet expectations. And the trust I gave to the wrong person. One layer off. You saw my secrets. The punches I had to take. The bruises I covered with my sleeves. The lies, frustrations, disappointments. And the brokenness suppressed in my memory. The last layer, off. You saw through me. The anxiousness escalating slowly. The exposure feeling uneasy. I felt stripped, explored, unguarded. And in my nakedness - you had to choose: To love or to leave me, For who I really am.
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Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 2:49 AM UTC
Peeling Layers
Like an onion, I had layers. And you peeled me away, one at a time. One layer off. You saw my favorites. The food and drinks I crave for. The wall paint I wanted for my room. The perky dresses, nail polish, knee-high boots. And the spot I always prefer to be- on the front seat. One layer off. You saw my hobbies. The words I stitched together. The stars that formed our zodiac sign. The wallclimbing, badminton, volleyball. And the guitar strings that strum our lullaby. One layer off. You saw my dreams. The plane ticket to Paris. The thrill of a bungee jump. The candlelit dinner, fireworks, dancing fountain. And the license as a medical physician. One layer off. You saw my strengths. The smile behind the false judgements. The tears I fought back with pride. The temperance, confidence, adjustments. And the self-love I have strongly magnified. One layer off. You saw my insecurities. The missing dimple on my left cheek. The pimples on my forehead. The bitchface, fierce stare, strict walk. And this prominently thin-but-tall body figure. One layer off. You saw my regrets. The kisses I could have refused. The friends I thought were true. The false assumptions, unmet expectations. And the trust I gave to the wrong person. One layer off. You saw my secrets. The punches I had to take. The bruises I covered with my sleeves. The lies, frustrations, disappointments. And the brokenness suppressed in my memory. The last layer, off. You saw through me. The anxiousness escalating slowly. The exposure feeling uneasy. I felt stripped, explored, unguarded. And in my nakedness - you had to choose: To love or to leave me, For who I really am.
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The oxygen secreted from the walnut tree, the snap-pole green beans growing up the side of the rusty garden fence, and bags of aluminum cans stored  in the shed with the old cash registers from the antique store. These are the golden frames caught and edited onto organic film, etched into grey matter, projected from a foggy lens onto reflective marble. We abandoned the clubhouse because of spiders; they took the place for themselves after a storm. Our new abode was the patch of grass between the walnut tree and the fence in the back corner of the yard; shady, rough terrain from fallen walnuts, and the grass always had a slight dew in places. "The place where the snakes live" is what we called it when we were sprouts; now we could catch them in both hands. One night, the wind blew over the shed doors; flimsy, sliding rail, aluminum thing. We slinked in and got to play with the old adding machines, foreign tools, jars full of door hinges, and rusty hand-crank egg beaters. Eventually, the roof of the shed collected so many years of twigs, walnut husks, and foliage fallen that tiny trees began to pop their heads up from the clutter. Crickets underneath the gutter guards- two types; the black singers and the ones you have to dig for that will draw blood if they get a hold of one of your fingers. Sometimes, if bravery was roused and boiling, we would drift closer to the railroad tracks in attempts to catch yellow jackets, or even hornets. One popped their stinger into the back of my neck.
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Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 9:06 PM UTC
Cousin Punches
The oxygen secreted from the walnut tree, the snap-pole green beans growing up the side of the rusty garden fence, and bags of aluminum cans stored  in the shed with the old cash registers from the antique store. These are the golden frames caught and edited onto organic film, etched into grey matter, projected from a foggy lens onto reflective marble. We abandoned the clubhouse because of spiders; they took the place for themselves after a storm. Our new abode was the patch of grass between the walnut tree and the fence in the back corner of the yard; shady, rough terrain from fallen walnuts, and the grass always had a slight dew in places. "The place where the snakes live" is what we called it when we were sprouts; now we could catch them in both hands. One night, the wind blew over the shed doors; flimsy, sliding rail, aluminum thing. We slinked in and got to play with the old adding machines, foreign tools, jars full of door hinges, and rusty hand-crank egg beaters. Eventually, the roof of the shed collected so many years of twigs, walnut husks, and foliage fallen that tiny trees began to pop their heads up from the clutter. Crickets underneath the gutter guards- two types; the black singers and the ones you have to dig for that will draw blood if they get a hold of one of your fingers. Sometimes, if bravery was roused and boiling, we would drift closer to the railroad tracks in attempts to catch yellow jackets, or even hornets. One popped their stinger into the back of my neck.
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My mom Tells me I'm a gift. She says love Is what keeps the atoms In you and I Is the moment She caught my Father's eye Is the day My grandfather died With a candy kiss on his cheek She had never tasted something so sweet. When we were little We played kickball, The ground is lava And hide-and-go-seek. As I grew I knew most days, It was harder to find myself; Let alone somebody else. And I have been around Enough center city playgrounds To see the rich Pump every bit of spare change In their veins fighting A cancer that they Never learned to put in their past. To see the poor Wage wars with themselves Trying to pick up Way too much, Way too fast; Nobody really knows how to make love last. So put your prism your heart Beneath the moonlight. Refract the wavelengths Of your wonders Into ROYGB-eautiful like the sea, It took a lot of jellyfish to let people see through me. And even more mirrors To find a place I was comfortable Praying in. Fraying in doorways Where I learned hope, Is looking both ways On a one way street Cause it can be so easy to thank God While you still have bread to eat. I have never prayed So hard for a healthy meal Than the days I remember The heart is a muscle; And sometimes the only Thing we need Is to "work it out." And I know that some days, My doubt hangs my Smile like Jesus Christ I never quite learned How to bleed right. But if there's one thing I found from cleaning The crosses out of the Empty hallway of my character Is that you haven't experienced loss Until you've held two outstretched arms For years waiting for your innocence to come back. Nothing, weighs more than the guilt of your past And nothing throws punches Faster than the ghost of who you used to be. And I know it's hard To stop looking for yourself Under every bed you Left nightmares in And I know it's hard To be comfortable In your own skin But sometimes bars Aren’t the only thing That builds a cage And sometimes The only way to live With yourself Is to stop digging Your own grave. You can spend years Listening to morticians And never get grounded. Surrounded by the Square roots we all share, By the same air, We've all got to learn to let go. To learn that Holding your breath Has never been how Living things Learn to Grow
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Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 4:57 PM UTC
Dandelions
My mom Tells me I'm a gift. She says love Is what keeps the atoms In you and I Is the moment She caught my Father's eye Is the day My grandfather died With a candy kiss on his cheek She had never tasted something so sweet. When we were little We played kickball, The ground is lava And hide-and-go-seek. As I grew I knew most days, It was harder to find myself; Let alone somebody else. And I have been around Enough center city playgrounds To see the rich Pump every bit of spare change In their veins fighting A cancer that they Never learned to put in their past. To see the poor Wage wars with themselves Trying to pick up Way too much, Way too fast; Nobody really knows how to make love last. So put your prism your heart Beneath the moonlight. Refract the wavelengths Of your wonders Into ROYGB-eautiful like the sea, It took a lot of jellyfish to let people see through me. And even more mirrors To find a place I was comfortable Praying in. Fraying in doorways Where I learned hope, Is looking both ways On a one way street Cause it can be so easy to thank God While you still have bread to eat. I have never prayed So hard for a healthy meal Than the days I remember The heart is a muscle; And sometimes the only Thing we need Is to "work it out." And I know that some days, My doubt hangs my Smile like Jesus Christ I never quite learned How to bleed right. But if there's one thing I found from cleaning The crosses out of the Empty hallway of my character Is that you haven't experienced loss Until you've held two outstretched arms For years waiting for your innocence to come back. Nothing, weighs more than the guilt of your past And nothing throws punches Faster than the ghost of who you used to be. And I know it's hard To stop looking for yourself Under every bed you Left nightmares in And I know it's hard To be comfortable In your own skin But sometimes bars Aren’t the only thing That builds a cage And sometimes The only way to live With yourself Is to stop digging Your own grave. You can spend years Listening to morticians And never get grounded. Surrounded by the Square roots we all share, By the same air, We've all got to learn to let go. To learn that Holding your breath Has never been how Living things Learn to Grow
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it's been a day since we last let our love seep through, since you held me close in that moment, now long gone. then you shoved me away once you'd had enough of my then-green heart; it's been a day. your punches and kicks have turned my heart black; i will no longer feel. i won't let myself. "that didn't count," your worried soul insisted never venturing beyond your delicate bubble. go after her then. Leave me here, a sinful nothing. go after her then. go be your father's son. love is simply too elusive. so you may as well get comfortable.
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Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 3:02 AM UTC
go after her then
Written by Diana Garcia My brain waves are like a storm I wish i could sit in silence I wish i wasnt so ******* torn I tried to understand you but whats the use it's my turn to talk but will you listen? When you look at me what do you see Your daughter, your sister or am I the punching bag that youve been missin'? let me show you the scars you gave me those wonderful gifts that keep me up at night the reoccurring hate those angry tears. All the times i went hungry cause i refused to come home for years. Over and over again i was told. Theres nobody to blame other than myself. YES! cause it is I who but my well being up on the shelf. Ive checked out, to this i do admit. I am numb and I simply exist. How can I love, hate, or any of those words in the adjective list when all I know is how to roll with the punches, how to roll with waves in the stormy ocean with all these god **** dusty emotions..
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Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 8:22 PM UTC
dusty emotions
The other night I spent all of my tears & paid all my prayers, I had hoped it would end it all. My pillows cashed in the huge streaming check from every drop my eyes spilled. My blanket held me down while both thought took turns throwing hard punches & kicks at every square-inch on my body. Then my bones crunched with every attempt to fully drain the hope- -ful air in my lungs. I could only lay there. Twitching out breathless cries, rubbing blood out of my eyes & taking it all in for the whole night. The following day I brought these thugs to work   but no one else seemed to notice. My doctor tried to numb me with pills, & I must admit although they did work at giving it all the cold shoulder, it didn't take long before I struggled to use my shoulder With their knives & spears steaked into my skin. Every night now, I sleep to their stories & their bullying, eyes-wide, cut-throat, focused on breathing all night. I thought I could fake my way through it all but now these noices have started making sense & I don't know why I'm breathing anymore.
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Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 3:42 AM UTC
I've Been Contemplating Suicide
What I'm imagining isn't considered pretty You don't want to know where you're sitting What I'm imagining isn't considered pleasant We're inappropriately using a pheasant What I'm imagining doesn't go with God And is laughed at because it's odd Into my life they peer Trying to insert fear My owl head on a swivel My rabbit ears perked When people don't act civil And decency is shirked I needed answers For my cancer I find them in love and pain They both seem the same I begin to view the rain As a type of gain Everyone knows love's scorn Which leaves me torn I can't help but feel my situation differs Something about the rejection seems stiffer So I become a shapeshifter To avoid the hate gifters To avoid bearing the shame Of being called names I know other people have it worse Sometimes that feels like a curse I can't gauge the importance of major events In my life I don't know whether to think they're intense Or just right Maybe I'm just being dramatic But these instances aren't sporadic When those that I love Push and shove I start to wonder if I'm broken or stained Until I realize we're all burnt by love's flames We all have a path to travel And they're all made of gravel Our feet become sore Which affects our core We find people below us on the totem pole To know how it feels to treat someone cold For when our enthusiasm for love has faded It's easy to become jaded There are things we're ashamed of That morph us into something unrecognizable In which we should be truly ashamed In the mirror we look the same But our actions are toxic We become radioactive We see where our stock sits And become merely reactive And it's hard to find grace After being punched in the face But one must remember punches come in all forms And we must not punch back to survive the storm
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Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 5:42 AM UTC
Toxic
What I'm imagining isn't considered pretty You don't want to know where you're sitting What I'm imagining isn't considered pleasant We're inappropriately using a pheasant What I'm imagining doesn't go with God And is laughed at because it's odd Into my life they peer Trying to insert fear My owl head on a swivel My rabbit ears perked When people don't act civil And decency is shirked I needed answers For my cancer I find them in love and pain They both seem the same I begin to view the rain As a type of gain Everyone knows love's scorn Which leaves me torn I can't help but feel my situation differs Something about the rejection seems stiffer So I become a shapeshifter To avoid the hate gifters To avoid bearing the shame Of being called names I know other people have it worse Sometimes that feels like a curse I can't gauge the importance of major events In my life I don't know whether to think they're intense Or just right Maybe I'm just being dramatic But these instances aren't sporadic When those that I love Push and shove I start to wonder if I'm broken or stained Until I realize we're all burnt by love's flames We all have a path to travel And they're all made of gravel Our feet become sore Which affects our core We find people below us on the totem pole To know how it feels to treat someone cold For when our enthusiasm for love has faded It's easy to become jaded There are things we're ashamed of That morph us into something unrecognizable In which we should be truly ashamed In the mirror we look the same But our actions are toxic We become radioactive We see where our stock sits And become merely reactive And it's hard to find grace After being punched in the face But one must remember punches come in all forms And we must not punch back to survive the storm
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I'm the morning whisper that punches you in the gut the winning lottery ticket that you didn't buy an inconvenience with impeccable timing the drinks you spill on nameless lovers i'm the giggle when a dog sniffs your hand i'm a naked water fight in January for no reason i'm cold pillows shaped like a former lover your favorite t-shirt when it's lost and found the drip drip in the sink when you wanna sleep the creepy crawlers you can't shake the colorful wrapper with nothing inside a no vacancy sign at the end of the road your vulnerability when you're most tender i'll call you names when you're not looking look at you funny when you're not listening i'm the sense that doesn't make, the only sense there is i'm your senses when you want to shut me out the wrong L-word at just the right time i'm your second chance when you need a third the maybe, when you really wanted a yes i'm what feels your pain the broken promise that brings you more- pain what turns the tide when you're not looking i'm a moonlit midnight swim i'm sometimes butt-naked your favorite shade of lipstick i am your guardian angel the absence you hold i'm the scenic route after a bump in the road the sunset drive that saves your soul i'm the texture of wet sand between your toes the burn in every tear you've cried i'm the vintage dresser you found on a rainy day the song you hate, stuck on repeat i count the palm trees when you're not looking i forget lovers lost and found i am the one who messes up your hair, just to dry your tears i am the vault of all your deepest darkest secrets always inconvenient and never around i'm laughter when you least expect it the 4 am call you don't wanna take i'm the mirror that sells you lies the denim shorts that makes your **** look really cute i'm the cherry (on your wedding dress) a joyride and a swing-set all in one i'm what turns you on what turns you away i'm your throne your downfall your ecstatic, uplifting wonderful life.
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Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 3:01 PM UTC
Moments
I'm the morning whisper that punches you in the gut the winning lottery ticket that you didn't buy an inconvenience with impeccable timing the drinks you spill on nameless lovers i'm the giggle when a dog sniffs your hand i'm a naked water fight in January for no reason i'm cold pillows shaped like a former lover your favorite t-shirt when it's lost and found the drip drip in the sink when you wanna sleep the creepy crawlers you can't shake the colorful wrapper with nothing inside a no vacancy sign at the end of the road your vulnerability when you're most tender i'll call you names when you're not looking look at you funny when you're not listening i'm the sense that doesn't make, the only sense there is i'm your senses when you want to shut me out the wrong L-word at just the right time i'm your second chance when you need a third the maybe, when you really wanted a yes i'm what feels your pain the broken promise that brings you more- pain what turns the tide when you're not looking i'm a moonlit midnight swim i'm sometimes butt-naked your favorite shade of lipstick i am your guardian angel the absence you hold i'm the scenic route after a bump in the road the sunset drive that saves your soul i'm the texture of wet sand between your toes the burn in every tear you've cried i'm the vintage dresser you found on a rainy day the song you hate, stuck on repeat i count the palm trees when you're not looking i forget lovers lost and found i am the one who messes up your hair, just to dry your tears i am the vault of all your deepest darkest secrets always inconvenient and never around i'm laughter when you least expect it the 4 am call you don't wanna take i'm the mirror that sells you lies the denim shorts that makes your **** look really cute i'm the cherry (on your wedding dress) a joyride and a swing-set all in one i'm what turns you on what turns you away i'm your throne your downfall your ecstatic, uplifting wonderful life.
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The first day I saw you, I knew that you were something else A soul damaged by what the world had brought I knew that you were just looking for a friend Maybe a little something more That day our teacher put us together, all of it changed While the others in the pact worked off the act We talked to each other like we have been there for long You showed me the pain you felt While I showed you that things will be alright Every smile on your face Every beam of light in your eyes I miss those days where you were almost mine I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name I still remember how I was falling for you We stayed friends for a while I respected your wishes to stay that way You were worried that you would loose my faith When really it slowly grew Just because I knew it was you We grew closer each day Our hearts still to the same beat I thought this was something that could never go away I made you a member of my growing empire Everything was about to become part of legend That was in till I tried to add one more I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name I wanted to make you mine I still remember our first fight I still remember seeing you cry But I wanted you to know I still remember how I was falling for you When he came around we were falling apart I felt he was an incoming danger You thought that it was a lie You stood by his side I knew that he was trouble all along But you wouldn't listen to a word I had to say I still remember waiting for those long talks at night I still remember regretting not warning you Of the coming future that I saw I still remember watching the lights in your eyes fade away I still remember feeling the anger you held Each and every time we met I still tried to be there for you But that devil burned everything we had We both stayed friends with him Then his real shades of black shown right through I wanted to end his life When I heard that he was throwing punches They all stood trying to protect him When all along I was trying to keep from others going through what we did I guess its too late to even do that I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name My Dear Sunset Rose Please just hear me say this I am sorry for what I have done I just wanted to keep you safe from harm Just please remember this I still remember how I was in love with you
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Sep 6, 2012
Sep 6, 2012 at 8:33 PM UTC
I Still Remember
The first day I saw you, I knew that you were something else A soul damaged by what the world had brought I knew that you were just looking for a friend Maybe a little something more That day our teacher put us together, all of it changed While the others in the pact worked off the act We talked to each other like we have been there for long You showed me the pain you felt While I showed you that things will be alright Every smile on your face Every beam of light in your eyes I miss those days where you were almost mine I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name I still remember how I was falling for you We stayed friends for a while I respected your wishes to stay that way You were worried that you would loose my faith When really it slowly grew Just because I knew it was you We grew closer each day Our hearts still to the same beat I thought this was something that could never go away I made you a member of my growing empire Everything was about to become part of legend That was in till I tried to add one more I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name I wanted to make you mine I still remember our first fight I still remember seeing you cry But I wanted you to know I still remember how I was falling for you When he came around we were falling apart I felt he was an incoming danger You thought that it was a lie You stood by his side I knew that he was trouble all along But you wouldn't listen to a word I had to say I still remember waiting for those long talks at night I still remember regretting not warning you Of the coming future that I saw I still remember watching the lights in your eyes fade away I still remember feeling the anger you held Each and every time we met I still tried to be there for you But that devil burned everything we had We both stayed friends with him Then his real shades of black shown right through I wanted to end his life When I heard that he was throwing punches They all stood trying to protect him When all along I was trying to keep from others going through what we did I guess its too late to even do that I still remember all those long nights, where we talked on and on I still remember the reds on your cheeks From every moment I told the truth I still remember trying to stand by your side, just wanting to let you know I still remember waiting to see you each day And feeling wasted when you would not show Just one time I wanted to hear to say my name My Dear Sunset Rose Please just hear me say this I am sorry for what I have done I just wanted to keep you safe from harm Just please remember this I still remember how I was in love with you
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i'm broken and you're stolen, so who do i run to? you're not here for me, you're not even here for you. it used to be just you and i, in the pulsing headlights, but really it's just you just you, and i'm doing anything just to stay alive. do you see how this goes? don't you know i treated you like a prose? your rank was so high in the depths of my mind, but you blew it all away, crashing the crown with the times. now i'm picking up the pieces, and my kingdom says i'm blind, but, my lovely lavender queen, your punches are so kind. i'm letting you go and you're doing the same, but it hurts so much more when you pull me in again. forever lasts a lifetime, right? wrong, you whisper as you put up a fight, to keep me to beat me to beg me to stay, ahh, yes, the presbyopia of love is leading us astray.
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Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 4:11 PM UTC
presbyopia of love
When you turn a blind eye I know you still see it just means its ok what he's doing to me You think of yourself and what you have to lose every time he comes home stinking of ***** Turning your back gives the ok to do whatever to me so he don't do it to you I hope that its worth it all the **** that you'd lose to you let me your son become bruised and abused You dont hear the screams or the cries in the night or the slaps and the punches when I put up a fight But don't worry about me cos I died long ago just forgot to lie down so that no one would know There's nowhere I can run and nowhere I can hide When folks tried to help you just stood there and lied Well lie about this when this poem gets read the truth will come out they'll know why I'm dead They'll know that you knew and you turned a blind eye right up to the day I decided to die For the longest time now I've been dead inside well enough of this **** I got nothing to hide I was only a kid that was destined to lose so his ***** of a mom got her smokes and her ***** And her **** of a boyfriend that twisted old **** got his pleasure from kids or as he called me her "runt" You should know when you read this fore the razor bit down that I emailed this poem to the papers in town I hope that you find me and it fills you with pride try and turn a blind eye now you've nowhere to hide
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Sep 27, 2010
Sep 27, 2010 at 4:03 PM UTC
Turn a blind eye
Megan my partner in crime my bumble bee twin my best friend Best friends since second grade that's.... what 15 years now? 16? Sleepovers at eachothers homes Pixie stick highs and slushy brain freezes Trips to my grandmother's, for a Harry Potter Marathon Rocking out to Halestorm Daughters of Darkness through and through Foil art doodling and reading through the night Did I mention the trip to Walmart? ten at night just for a loaf of bread? Screaming at eachother, throwing punches Calling names so bad tears start to form Saying we're through we're done mo more friendship two minutes later laughing stupidly together Our favorite place, Weedamo woods, High Rock, queens of the world I visit those memories in my dreams I miss my soul sister my best friend for life I miss being able to call you up and yell *"YO ***** come get me I need to talk."* You're still my bestie and you always will b This separation don't forget is only temporary. I'll move down there soon and together we can rec havoc once more until then please don't forget me I know I haven't forgotten you.
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Mar 28, 2015
Mar 28, 2015 at 11:30 AM UTC
MY Partner In Crime
Death doesn't discriminate It doesn't see black or blue But it sure as hell leaves a bruise. Its punches and beatings repeating On the news each evening Until we're left bleeding, Crying and pleading For this to stop Because this "news" is starting to get old. Death is never satisfied; It whispers its lies That It is the answer to all your problems, That your thirst for vengeance will subside If you claim just one victim. And when the blood is poured out And as death sips its red *** We are left awake in its wake With a ticker-tape parade Because of one vigilante's charades of marching to the beat of his own drum. But let us at least take note of that before we vilify an entire people group And start acting brash based on looks whether it's skin color or uniform. Death shows no discrimination, so neither should life My life or your life; our lives are the life blood of this nation So let's **** out discrimination lest we bleed out from prejudiced incrimination.
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Jul 8, 2016
Jul 8, 2016 at 7:29 PM UTC
Death Doesn't Discriminate Pt.3
Island can't stop sliding even when dull pencils stuck in sand push back strong, even when your toes are curling inward and holding on tight The sunburn highway is crowded today and we're stuck in traffic, caught behind a particularly thick cloud, compounding beach breezes and midday shivering beneath towels With sweaty hands clapping beat and fast punches, the overnight foliage blooms and dies, laughing hard in the bright room with no doors
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Jul 20, 2014
Jul 20, 2014 at 4:28 PM UTC
Tiny seashells
I enjoy watching my baby boy’s drama In his room, on his bed among his toys What a superb imagination Translated in a form of play... A battle between the amazing legacy of heroes Put George Lucas in the house of shame With his famous Luke Sky walker, In Star Wars saga Have Sam Raimi’s done his research well? In creating Spiderman 3? With this “genius in the making” young child Left alone to build his creativity I am convinced with obvious prediction... Hollywood superheoes would be doomed.. Here is a 2 year old boy In Spideman suit, Acting Spiderman, hitting the Angry bird jet The jet punches Spiderman back. Then, Mama is forced to sleep with Spiderman Forced Mama again, this time to love the Man of Steel After the gruel some battle, Jet & Spiderman decided to sleep together in the pink hammock with Tigger. The proud child is happy , His mission is accomplished! A bottle of luke warm milk... Well done! He earns his trophy Tonight he helps to save the world.
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Jun 17, 2013
Jun 17, 2013 at 5:32 AM UTC
A child's Imagination
Blast off the powder keg One-two with the punches Rope over your shoulder Like I wanna reach the summit Maybe you let loose before But, honey, I ain't seen it yet But, baby, I'm scared to like Messin your perfect face, displacing Your innocence and makin Our blankets wet I said I don't wanna blast But you got the controller Got that hold and doin it right Got my ***** **** my Xbone On lock on this *** throne Pop your mouth a minute girl Base to the tip that **** Is rocket sauce Blast off the powder keg One-two with the punches Rope over your shoulder Like I wanna reach the summit Maybe you let loose before But, honey, I ain't seen it yet Maybe this night is the best Night of my life I lick my ***** off your skin, sleep Tight, tomorrow I'll breathe ***** breath
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May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 3:54 AM UTC
Closing Chapters: "Guilty as Charged"