Such a young girl, she was easy to miss
Something of a wonder, you'd never know
Such a little girl, innocence was not bliss
But no one knew how far she'd go. 

They were two hearts too close together
And they were bound to break apart
Thought they'd last forever
But then he took her heart. 

Far away he was taken, that flight
The space seemed a wide abyss
Cried himself to sleep at night 
Such a young girl, easy to miss. 

He healed almost before she'd said 'bye'
His heart unevenly cured
Another had caught his curious eye 
Away from his best friend lured. 

She fought to be his number one once more
The pain so sharp unbearable 
So she left through a one-way door
Thinking her heart incurable. 

Such a young girl, she was easy to miss
Something of a wonder, you'd never know
Such a little girl, innocence was not bliss
But no one knew how far she'd go. 

Their intellect was a magnet toward
The love that grew inside
Their knowledge was a goblet poured
On the adventures they'd leave behind. 

Bliss was not innocence, not this time 
For she well knew where she'd go
Away from it all on the line
They'd raise children of their own. 

But the seed of doubt is sometimes right
It sometimes speeks the truth
But when you're the one doubted it is a knife
And it's only pointing at you. 

Such a young girl, she held on tight
But they really just needed space
To see that they were never right
When they only wanted to erase. 

Such a young girl, she was easy to miss
Something of a wonder, you'd never know
Such a little girl, innocence was not bliss
But no one knew how far she'd go. 

Easy to yearn for, easy to miss
No wonder they grew so fast
I wonder sometimes about this
If they ever mourned her last

Heaven knows how many she missed
Lying awake at night
But how many times was the lenthy list
Requitted when the time wasn't right?

The closer I became
The further I fell away
And the harder I began to fall  
The further I was from it all.

So I came back to the sea
It's always had a hold on me
You drew me closer to You
As the tide pulled, I was too

The forests were drowning in shade
I knew they couldn't hide me anyway
The sky was everywhere
When I plumbed the depths, You were there.

Even if I should flee this world
I couldn't slip from Your grasp, Lord
Even when the oceans roar
I hear Your call more.

Sometimes I wonder if I should stop trying
Give up and let them all see my face
The side of me that is selfish
Wants to point them all to my own name.

Words make no sense
when you speak them,
unless you take them in.

When you don't know how
And your answers feel used up
He's always listening.

I'm getting kind of desperate
And that's not a good thing to own
But maybe I wouldn't be gripping so hard
If I didn't know I was alone.

Oh my word...oh me
I woke up at five instead
Of six. How on earth.

I need to let go
I need to let him mess up
And do things alone
Even if he fails, badly,
He won't learn with me watching.

Who am I after the ceremony
After the pomp and the glory?
Who am I after I really admit
That I hate spotlight but do enjoy it?

If my eyes were red
You took my face in your hands
And believed in me.

Sadness is when
You see someone beautiful
But they don't see it
They hate the body God made
They run from themselves.

Sadness is when
The world is full of beauty
But they don't notice
The earth is singing God's praise
And only the earth.

Sadness is when
I try to be someone good
With my own niceness
But I don't depend on God
To help me, and fail.

Sadness is when
I try to impress others
By the way I dress
Or by the makeup I hate
When they love me now.

Peace, it is when
I want to tell of heaven
But I have not words
They only scratch the surface
And I'm unworthy.

~Cross My Heart

You carved me an X 
Over my soul—as if it
Were buried treasure. 


Hope To Die

Who knew you'd be first
To leave me so high and dry
When all I was died.


I Couldn't Forget

Life tied my knot tight
Sick inside and so alone
Memory's virus.


If I Tried

Sometimes, I went back
My attempts all lost causes
But genuine hopes.

lately i've been scared
worried the darkness will last
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel powerless
so backed into a corner
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel judging eyes
like i'm not just projecting
but i hope i'm wrong

i think i see it
they wince when my mouth opens
but i hope i'm wrong

i feel unwanted
it's unlucky to know me
but i hope i'm wrong

unhelpful and shamed
no one is glad i'm here, right?
i just hope i'm wrong

only by working—
my body, my only strength
my hands hold children
but my mind is too broken
prove to me i'm wrong

Inefficient love
Subpar communication
Almost good enough
Almost worth listening to
If you say nothing
You confirm it with silence
But if you argue
Please bring some more evidence
I'm trying to hope
That this self-talk's distorted
I'm sorry my pain
Is underreported
If nobody cared
Then surely I'd be alone
And not surrounded
By those who want to love me—
But I don't know how
To feel the love that they show.
I shrink back, I hide,
Because it hurts me sometimes.
These are all my thoughts
They feel so true in my mind.
But I really hope I'm wrong.

They said
Sing
He said
*Scream

Let go*
And taste the freedom of knowing
You don't have to *control it all
The hardest thing
Is to **let go.

Scratch the ground and growl at me,
I really can't complain
For you are only looking tough
When you're afraid to be unchained.

Write a random saying
And then label it as whatever number of words it happens to have.

Fire and ice compete within 
Slowly melting my soul
Flames and freezing rain fall in
Trying to break my whole

This flare that I used to ignite
Has backfired in my face
And now the only respite I find
Is in ice's cold embrace. 

The embers that I used to burn
Were fuel enough to fly
They took me to places never seen
Instead of burning down my sky

I shiver and shake, racked with hate
And fear and love contending
Desire hot as fire, not
Any respite sending

In one calm moment, looking up
And falling to my knees
I see that I was not alone
Just consumed with me.

Everyone's loud
And I don't want to hear what they're talking about

Math is so annoying
I'm behind but I don't feel like working

It's actually easy
It just takes clicking bubbles

But I'm so tired
So, so tired.


So what am I going to do
When I don't have the energy to do what I need to?

And what am I going to say
When I don't have the words to speak when I want to?


Don't give me excuses
No one knows why I don't smile

Don't think you're special
You just happen to sit next to me

You can't understand me
Of course, no one else could

I'm tired of your looks
That tell me you think more than you should.


So what am I going to do
When there's no one to explain myself to?

And what am I going to say
When no one listens when I talk about you?


Leave me be, leave me alone
I'll soon be going my way home

Let me stay the person me
Leave me alone and leave me be.

There you were, flying high
Soaring above this weary world
But sooner than later you fell to earth
And found it hard and cold.

Whyever did you fall?  It seems
You never saw it coming
And now the last thought on your wand’ring mind
Is to go and start running.

I see you sitting there, wondering
How will you ever go on?
'Cause you can't get over that one thing
It's been with you for so long
 
You thought you could be brave enough
Thought you could stay strong
You tried but you couldn't save yourself
How did it all go so wrong?
 
I see you telling yourself to try, try
You say you're better than this
I see you break down and just cry, cry
But you don't have to do this
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
Every day you wake up and say
You're going to get it right
You're going on your own strength
And it brings you down every night
 
It's getting heavier all the time
You didn't know it'd hurt this much
But you just keep saying you'll try
Even though you're giving up
 
But I see you in your pain
You can give up and know I'm here
My voice has always been saying
That I've always been near
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
So when the lies tear you down
When you let them speak
Don't be afraid, I'm always around
Child, just hold onto Me
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
Nothing can do that.

I am going to write, my dear
Until my fingers fall off
I'll use paper, pen, and pencil
Or type until I drop.

I am not a Number,
     I am not a Name
I am neither Voice
     nor Face

I am not a Body,
     I am not a Force
I am not a Color
     and I am not a Noise.

I am not a Secret,
     I am not a Sight
I am not a Vision
     I am not Right.

I am not an Hour,
     I am not a Breath
I am not a Picture,
     I am not a Rest.

I am not a Whisper,
     I am not a Shout
I am not a Melody,
     I am not a Note.

But I am a Soul,
     I am a Spirit
I am a Word to the Wise
     Saying, I am Here.

Half the world does things
They hear or see or are told;
They don't really know.

How much time is it
And when will it come to pass
When’ll I have enough
Of courage, to stand and speak,
And of love, to stay and care.

You said to me you'd never leave
And I honestly didn't believe you
The sad news is that you were wrong
And sometimes winning isn't fun to do.

Let't not just break it
Let's take that silly record
Annihilate it.

THOUGHTS
Leave me alone,
I'm sick of your venom
You seek to steal, ****, destroy
Why haven't you killed me yet?

WALLS
Be silent, don't speak
I know the words you'd have
Never let me listen to your spite
You would have me tremble at your threat

DARKNESS
You took ahold of me
And you were far too strong
I am stepping out of fear tonight
I haven't since you and I first met.

MEMORY
Stop reminding me
Of the things I had forgotten
I know I was such a bad person
But to change, I really need to forget!

PAIN
Stop pulling me
You're stifling my voice
If you only would loosen your grip
You would see that I am just dead set.

SHAME
You take hold of me!
You drag me where I go!
You control my actions, my words
I am slave to you, drowned in sick debt

EYES
You see the world
Creating my habitat
You connect visions and secrets
But then, you lie just as often as me.

DREAMS
You captivate me
Taking me somewhere else
I believe your twisted reality, then
My world awakens, I—disoriented—flee.

LOGIC
Oh, you bound me
Locked me within your walls
I fear there is no escape from here
But I was always a slave to conformity.

TRUTH
Come on, shine!
Blind their eyes, even mine!
Glow and rip the bonds from me
I am searching, seeking, just set me free.

SKY
Open...move the clouds
Give me that heavenly chorus
Look for me in the city on the hill
I'll be the one with no more suffering.

вooĸѕ are мagιcal тнιngѕ, тнey are
тнoυgн тнeιr power ιѕ нιdden ғroм мoѕт
тнe тrυтн тнey conтaιn and тнe ѕecreтѕ тнey ѕнare
are мore ιмporтanт тнan тнey вoaѕт.

тнey are тнe нιѕтory oғ тoмorrow
yoυr мιnd тнey ѕнall eмploy
and мore тнan ever, тнey eхplaιn тнe ѕorrow
тнaт ѕo oғтen coмeѕ wιтн joy.

вooĸѕ are мιѕтreaтed and υndeѕerved
тнey aren'т υnderѕтood вy мoѕт
вυт тнe тrυтн тнey convey and тнeιr ѕecreтѕ oвѕerved
are мore ѕpecιal тнan тнey вoaѕт.

He was a grey wisp
Of thought, and of feelings deep,
That I couldn't catch.

Who are we when we're spacing out
Or watching someone mindlessly?
Who are we when we let go of it
Because we forget about stressing?

Who are we when we forget to be angry
And release the sad thoughts inside?
Who are we when there's just nothing left
That we feel we have to hide?

Will we find that we are words
Tossed mindlessly to the breeze
Will we find that we were a sigh
An smile seen only by the trees?

I never was the kind of girl
Who hid my face
Was not afraid to tell the world
What I had to say

But this nightmare came
Knocking at my door
I can't let it show
The inside is so hollow, so hollow

This ain't real, this ain't me
I'm not exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Can't let the light shine on me
Now I've lost who I am
The only way to hold it in
Is just hiding who I wanna be
*** this ain't me.

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life where you know who you are
Even though it seems like it's so close to me
I just can't believe in myself, it's the only thing

This ain't real, this ain't me
I'm not exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Can't let the light shine on me
Now I've lost who I am
The only way to hold it in
Is just hiding who I wanna be
*** this ain't me.

I'm the voice you hear inside your head
I'm why your ears are ringing
You need to find me
You gotta find me

I'm the missing piece you need
The reason that you're falling
You need to find me
You gotta find me

This ain't real, this ain't me
I'm not exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Can't let the light shine on me
Now I've lost who I am
The only way to hold it in
Is just hiding who I wanna be
*** this ain't me.

This ain't me

But I can find who I am
And keep myself from holding in
No more hating who I used to be
*** that ain't me.

Do you know who you are?
Or, who you are to me?
Frankly, I don't know anymore
Who you are, or seem to be.

A bird flew by my window
And I leaned out to see:
The bird was golden coloured
And he had a red wing.

If crush is a pumpkin pie
Then I'm just taking a tiny bite
Against my will, and it tastes sour.

If love is an ocean's eye
Then I've lived in a desert dry
With mirages I believed.

If truth is the color of the sky
Then I'm green asking why
My yellow is fading away.

Wordless mumblings of air
Windy mutters, wisps to spare
Wringing sighs of gasping lives
Wrested from whisp'ring peace.

I cannot wait to see You
The day You break open the sky
And bring together the faithful
To lift Your name on high.

the days grow shorter
the nights bring the need for these
artificial lights

So the sky is the limit--
I don’t care;
I’ll build me a rocket
To get up there.

Don’t tell me the odds,
I know there’s no air;
I’ll find my own oxygen,
I’ll take every dare.

Don’t get onto me,
Come on, be fair;
But if you need a lift,
I’ll take you there.

Please, please hear me
'Cause I'm crying out
If I thought you weren't here
Would I still shout?

I've got some questions
That I know you've heard
Perhaps you'd let them
Have a second word.

Hear me out, I say,
The lines are broken down
Maybe when I took a breath
It brought them to the ground.

Maybe in the end I'll say
That this was all for good
But at this moment, I cannot stay
Anywhere you stood.

So hear me...I know it hurts...
Please, don't shut me out.
If I knew that you would turn away
Then would I still shout?

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Giving every chance away,

Thinking he could hold out—

no.

You say, "30 days, 30 poems"
And I go, "But...what about
30 days, 250 poems?"

Am I as mortal
As the rest of this planet
Or will I linger?

The day is coming soon:
The night will pass away;
No longer shines the moon
To guide you on your way.

Do not hide from shadows,
For light will surely come;
Eyes on where the moon goes,
You're better off than some.

Darkness cannot win this fight!
You have the strength you wish for;
And if your courage holds tonight,
You'll find what you have looked for.

Did you speak from sadness
Or fear, or anger, or hopelessness
And was that why you spoke the way you did?
Surely it wasn't true, but
I can't tell if you believed what you said
All the same, though, I can't get your words out of my head.

The very first time I opened my eyes,
I was blinded by sudden and brilliant light;
The sunlight beamed down from heaven above,
And pierced the corners of my blackest night.

The very first time I looked at the world,
I was 'nraptured by grass bladed green;
The depth of color amazéd me
And rejuvenated by what I had seen.

The very first time I gazed at the sky,
I was overwhelmed by the purity of blue;
The innocence of crystal clouds were sailing high
And birds soared in light brand new.

The very first time I glimpsed the sea,
I felt the size of a small grain of sand;
The endless reaches of water tricked with my mind,
And the crash of waves made it hard to stand.

The very first time I searched for the sunrise,
I watched the light spread across the sky;
The gradual unveiling of heaven's light,
It always feels just like the first time.

If a picture's worth a thousand words
Then I'll send you a picture of me smiling
Because I'm speechless when I think about you.

They’re taking me over
I can’t back down now
They’re pushing back the line
I can’t give up now

So tell me, what’s a put-down,
When you’re hating on yourself?
Tell me: what’s another’s opinion mean,
When you don’t care about anyone else?