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Saloni mann Sep 2019
My therapist once told me that-" You are lucky, because you are aware of your problems. You know where you stand and what is troubling you. You also have the ability to explain what Haunted you last night and that is difficult. You also seem aware about what you want out of your life. Your idea of an end result maybe blurred but you are aware of it. "
I sometimes wonder that Most people do not even know what is killing them constantly but they are still living their life. Most people are unaware of their thoughts and what these thoughts mean to them . It takes them their whole life to realise that this is a problem they need to get rid of. It takes them their whole life to understand that this is creating an unhealthy pattern and they are falling prey to it with each passing day.

She also explained that-" The biggest problem you face is walking and acting on the path in between. You mess up in between and lose a sense of the beginning as well as the end. You mess up and panic and lose yourself."
It's so weird that we know that we will have to walk down a road to reach somewhere but our visions are so fainted and blurred that the answers to basic questions are far fetched.
We are often surrounded by several Questions like;
which road to walk upon?
What direction to choose on the road?
Whether to follow the busy road or the road less taken?
What is my destination?
Do I even want to walk right now or just relax and put myself back together?
Do I really want to walk upon this road?
Am I choosing a life I always wanted to live?
Am I ready to accept all the hardships that are coming  my way?
Would I be content and satisfied after giving my all to something?
It's okay to not know the answer of each and every question that comes your way, it's okay to not be able to choose a direction for yourself and decide whether you will be content with it or not.
But it is always important to come in contact with your inner conscience and make yourself aware about you.
It is important to understand your problems and help yourself understand that you are required to eliminate them because they may **** you. Self acceptance is difficult but it is the best gift you give yourself.
Mar 2017 · 952
Unspoken words.
Saloni mann Mar 2017
Release all the words you buried under your tongue.
Let your words flow through your fearful mouth.
let them flow effortlessly exposing your thoughts.
It is always a privilege to be heard in this busy world.
It is always a privilege to be heard in this world!
Dec 2016 · 955
I am sad!
Saloni mann Dec 2016
I was sad!
I was crying on the floor that day!
Rolling and sobbing!
I absolutely had no idea about myself!
I couldn't reach conclusions!
I couldn't make decisions!
I started over thinking about things I should not!
I started criticizing myself!
I started punishing myself!
Punished myself!
Punished my own self because I thought I deserve it!
Punished my own self because I thought it would make me happy!
Scratched, cursed, slapped,slammed and continued it!
I punished myself until the day I asked questions to myself!
Is this the solution?
Does cursing myself would end me on a good boat?
Would it help me to restore my feelings,my emotions,my beliefs,my perspective towards things,my respect for myself back?
Do punishing my own self leads to anything else other than bruises and never going marks on my body , my mind,my soul and even my spirit?
Is it right to mentally destroy my own self?
I was sad until the day I realised that this phase is temporary!
My sadness,this bad phase can be temporary if I believe it to be temporary!
I decided to work on myself!
My own self!
To believe in myself once again because it is me who has to live for my own self and not any one else!
Therefore,it's my opinion about myself that matters and not anyone else's!
That day,after analysing and evaluating i got to know that it is me who is going to change my life,mould my decisions and differentiate between what is wrong and what is right for my own self!
I decided to understand myself so that I can get myself completely ,my needs,my wants and love myself!
It was difficult but it was worth it!
And then I ended up on a conclusion that had help me go on in Life!
Your life is in your hands!
Your life is what you make it!
Dec 2016 · 780
You are all you have!
Saloni mann Dec 2016
I am a respirating being!
I have feelings for various creatures!
I am sensitive!
I am emotional!
I act on things consciously and unconsciously at times!
I regret things I should not!
I put people's feelings, their interests,their preferences and etc. before mine because I feel it's important!
It's important to make other's happy!
Because in this long run of life all you have is support and love from the people near and dear to you!
You may get hurt or may **** your interests and opinions for the sake of others,but there is always a limit to it!
There arises a need to understand that all you have done is enough and it's time for you to stop!
Stop killing yourself because obviously limits are limited.
And these limitations not only bind you to confirm to particular laid down universal norms but in turn helps you realise your worth ,your opinion and your interests!
It's fine to put others before you but it is not acceptable to **** yourself for it!
Stand for yourself!
Get your opinions and your wants straight and put your points in front of people you think you should!
Because at the end, you are all you have!
Nov 2016 · 358
Eyes
Saloni mann Nov 2016
Everyone you meet has a story to tell!
You just have to look into their eyes deeply
Sometimes people try to express themselves but are not able to do so!
Sometimes people hold themselves back from expressing but their eyes tell it all.
Saloni mann May 2016
If you are nervous doing it,
your legs go out of control when you start,
that's when you know
you're doing something
close to your heart!
Apr 2016 · 746
FOOD
Saloni mann Apr 2016
Approximately,
It was all the same for the two!
The same season, the same night
and the same sky above them.
The only thing
that differentiated between them
was food that day!
One said-"Enough, I can't eat more mom".
The other cried-"Food, I want food maa".
Mother is called maa in Hindi.
Apr 2016 · 3.9k
A BALLOON
Saloni mann Apr 2016
Both of the boys
had balloons in their hands!
The only difference between them was,
one was inside the car, smiling
and the other was outside
waiting for Money
Children ought to be playing with balloons are selling them!
#realsadstory
Mar 2016 · 1.1k
you are an art!
Saloni mann Mar 2016
Do not discover yourself ,your abilities only because they want you to!
The society wants you to!
Explore yourself because you are precious!
Just the way you are!
You are a beautiful piece of art!
Explore yourself,if it makes you happy!
Explore yourself, if it helps you grow.
It is important for you!
Not for them.
In the end, people will talk about you ,you can't stop them!
All You can control is that that whether it is appreciation or hatred!
Mar 2016 · 903
you are beautiful!
Saloni mann Mar 2016
The moment I got to know
that beautiful hearts are more precious
than anything else in this world,
I fell in love with you!
Feb 2016 · 1.0k
We are humans!
Saloni mann Feb 2016
We are humans!
We are different.
We vary with each other from head to toe.
You cannot eat the same food as someone else eats.
You cannot always love someone back who loves you.
We make different choices.
We are different.
And that's really fine.
After all we are humans!
Feb 2016 · 9.2k
My rainbow
Saloni mann Feb 2016
You are my rainbow my love.
Because you always bring
Colours to my life!
Jan 2016 · 1.6k
She let him go!
Saloni mann Jan 2016
She wanted him to stay,
but he wanted to go!
So She let him go.
She let him go!
And she missed a precious part of her from that moment!
Jan 2016 · 1.8k
I will wait for you!
Saloni mann Jan 2016
She is the one
who will wait for you,
always!
And when
you will come back to her
after years,
she would welcome you
with her arms wide open.
Jan 2016 · 1.2k
Her story was different!
Saloni mann Jan 2016
"She is so nice!
She is always smiling and happy."*
-they said,
as she passed by them.
But *her pillow
told a
totally different story!
Jan 2016 · 513
Maybe she needs someone!
Saloni mann Jan 2016
Maybe,what you see is not the truth,behind her story!
Maybe she is much more broken than she looks.
Maybe she sleeps with her eyes wet and her heart wounded.
Maybe she needs someone to calm her soul.
Maybe that smile on her face is fake.Maybe she needs more than she has always asked for.
Maybe she needs someone right beside her.
Maybe she needs more,more  love than she gets.
Maybe she is not that strong than she seems.
Maybe she is afraid of something.
Maybe she breaks down to her very last bit,when she looks really fine.
Maybe something or someone can mend her wounds.
Maybe she needs a hand to hold her,every time she falls!
Maybe she needs someone.
Maybe she needs someone.
Jan 2016 · 1.2k
MY STAR
Saloni mann Jan 2016
"I love to tell you my everything!
My every single thing!"*
-she said,looking at the sky with her brightest smile.
The star smiled back at her then!
Jan 2016 · 478
Be my someone?
Saloni mann Jan 2016
She always wanted someone!
Someone to stay with her!
Someone to talk to!
Someone who hears her weird stories and still feels that she is the only one.
She always wanted someone so lovable,
That loving him,    
would be equivalent to,
loving herself back.
Jan 2016 · 870
Tell me?
Saloni mann Jan 2016
How many days is she going to cry for you?
How many times is she going to remind you,
That she loves you?
How come she should believe,
that she is right?
When all she is getting is tears
and despair ,
in return of her love!
Jan 2016 · 676
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU
Saloni mann Jan 2016
"I always love you"**-she said!
Wiping tears off her eyes.
And she kept the photograph,
in the diary again!
Jan 2016 · 1.3k
LET HER FLY
Saloni mann Jan 2016
Do not stop her.
Do not cut her wings.
She can take you higher and higher!
She can take you to that sky,
to that galaxy
and to that goal even.
All you have to do is to cherish her,
to make her whole.
Dec 2015 · 1.9k
Hold me!
Saloni mann Dec 2015
I expected you to hold me!
I expected you to ask me,what happened!
No I didn't have that same answer.
I wanted to say everything!
I wanted to pour my heart out!
I wanted to say everything.
I wanted to say every single thing.
I wanted you to hug me,
I didn't want you to be on your phone.
I cried on your lap,because you make me feel like home.
Your positive vibes make me feel better.
They make me feel good and good.
Dec 2015 · 497
Laugh often. Please!
Saloni mann Dec 2015
Shut up!
I do not feel anything nasty, seeing you laugh!
Awful?
Are you kidding me?
No.
Never.
Not even a single time.
Not even for the moment,you blink your beautiful eyes!
I love seeing you laugh.
Obviously it is my favorite.
I always love your  smiling face.
It comes in front of my eyes,whenever I am happy.
And when I am sad?
Yes my dear!
Yes!
That smiling face of yours heals me the best that time.
I always love you.
I love you and your laughter.
That smile on your face is priceless to me.
It is that precious gem ,
that I would love to preserve ,
For the rest of my life!
It is probably the best thing I see in my day and it simply makes my day.
And it makes me whole!
It makes me whole.
Dec 2015 · 692
Please do not hate me!
Saloni mann Dec 2015
Everyone started hating her.
They started hating her for her loud laugh.
They started hating her for her intentions to crave love.
They started hating her for being so rude!
They started hating her for her irritating moods.
They started hating her for her wrong decisions.
They started hating her for her carelessness.
And They started ignoring her for her weird stories. They started ignoring her for who she was.
And She became queit.
Queit,as she was judged from the outside.
All she could do that time was to wonder, why?
Why they judged her for something she did and not for something that made her do that!
It was her turn to hate then!
So she started hating herself.
So she Hated  her being.
Hated herself for every breath she took.
Hated herself for every wrong decision she took and for every wrong person she chose.
She hated herself for lying on the floor and crying day and night.
And then,after days,she decided to stop hating herself.
And so she left!
"Not every ending is a happy ending".
Dec 2015 · 490
Be my ten on ten?
Saloni mann Dec 2015
Do you know?
Do you?
Nothing in this world would ever fascinate me,
more than that, relieving smile!
No cigarette, no whiskey can give me that hangover, that your smell gives to me!
You have no ******* idea,
how much that small hugs heals me to the core!
Do you even know, I am addicted to your kind words!
I am addicted to you!
Do you know?
Your eyes are that beautiful ocean,
I would love to drown into!
Your hands have always took me to that wonderland.
You are heaven to my soul.
You are all it asks for, day and night!
Do you have any idea?
How wildly it craves you?
How badly it wants you!
Every minute, every second!
Every time I look at you, I realize,
I can always cherish this face.
As it fills me with a power!
The power of self destruction!
Whenever I think of you, it amazes me,to my last bit!
What in this world would I not do for you my world?
What not?
A single thought of you tears me apart and somehow fixes me back!
As I know, this energy in you is something I always crave!
Even in my dreams!
Have you ever realized?
Have you?
I always feel safe and good when you are around!
I love teasing you.
I love doing it and I would love to continue it for the rest of my life!
You get it?
Do you?
Do you get it,when I tell you I am always there at your side.
Do you know, I am always there for you?
For my thoughts are limited to you!
They do not allow me to go beyond this!
Do you even realize?
Do you?
What it takes off me, when I tell them that you my boy!
You!
You are my ten on ten.
You are my ten on ten!
Dec 2015 · 696
Obviously i am beautiful!
Saloni mann Dec 2015
You are fat,they say!
Really?
Is that something relevant to describe me?
Is that amount of fat on my body relevant to describe me and my being?
Is that fat on my body going to determine my future?
Whom I have to be with?
To whom I can talk to?
What I am capable of?
What I can do and what not?
Who is going to like me and who not?
What I have to do with myself and what not?
Really?
Is that fat on my body going to determine how beautiful I am?
Really?
I thought beauty is in the heart!
I thought it is determined by the amount of love we give to others!
I thought it is the soul that is beautiful!
I am fat,am I beautiful?
Tell me,am I?
Yes.
Yes.I am ,because this flesh on my body is not at all going to determine what kind of a person I am.
Maybe I am much more interesting and wonderful than I look.
Obviously beauty is important and attractive,
But is that my hollow body that makes me beautiful?
Is my beautiful heart not enough?
Is it not telling you I am beautiful?
Am I beautiful?
Yes,I am beautiful.
I am beautiful.

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