Blood is red
Bruises are blue

Red is a bad sometimes mad color
Blue is sad maybe bad

Our blood ran
and bruises blue turn black

Some yellow and purple
Swollen and ugly things

Running Running
It kept coming

Blood is red
Red and running

Forever flowing
Pooling,

Now
Some are dead

Roses are red
Violets are blue

And once again
Here I stand with you

Helpless

The galaxy stretches beyond
Stars are all over and a fire dances at the center
I no longer am contained
My jar I broke
Free from you
To be with
He
I dance with the others bright
Light
And he
I have no jar
I am free to be
Me

His arm drapped across me,
                        around  and  under.
He  holds  me  tightly
    heavy
       as  a  rock  but
                           light  as a  feather.
We  mold  to
         each  other,
   that's  how
                         we  should  *be

Turn the key
Push the clutch in.
Grasp the handle bars and push the botton.
the engine roars to life then I'm gone, what a beautiful day not to hold on.
Today I'm on a trip, down the windy roads of the back country.
Shady spots where trees lean over head the cool air on my skin. I can feel the air change as I go farther and farther down these roads
I come to a stop a three way to no where. Go left because everyone seems to be right.  Let go of the bars and let the bike roll I can fly for a moment.  
Threw the S curve going faster but slow to see the hills roll by
Today happiness for I may fly, I think of you for just a moment how good it would feel to be pressed against you as you drove.
But you're not driving,  I am, so I go and go still looking for a place to land.  
Threw the S curve and slow to see the hills, feel the cool breeze and the shade of the trees.
This is freedom if you don't think about it.

I can smell you in my sheets
every move or motion
another wave another waft.
Gone from my bed for the day,
slowly works its way out to return to fresh sheets.
Decaying away till its gone,
only for a few hours 13? 15?
The next morning it will all be the same

Let's be heroes, and save ourselves.

What is "normal"
Can you tell me?  
Because I know everyone around me tries so hard
to be this "normal"

Why be normal?
You want to be that copy?
That fake thing that walks the streets?

I have yet to see the "perfect copy" or the "normal"
So stop trying.
Try something New
Be yourself.

Be your Normal

Today I found you gone,
gone from my life

Blown away like the leaves fallen from a tree.

Tomorrow I too will go,
swallowed whole by the dark deeps like the sea.

Car meets tree
...
I'll sleep for eternity
...

I love when it rains,
The sound
The smell

But I also love it because I know everyone else is
Crying too

Rain is gods tears
And he weeps tonight

I've found a strange calmness
In each breath I don't take

I like this game,
here let us play again.

So you start this time.
You say it.

Ill hide what I really feel,
what I want to say.

Fake smiles,
And pretty face...

Right?
That's what they've told me at least.

Pretty Face and a Fake Smile
That's all I need...

Don't worry,
I wont crash, I wound break down...
Not with this pretty face not with this smile...
not with this Frown.

So let us play on,
I'll start the next round.

She wants you to love her
Im sure you do everyone sees it
But even then,
You must love head she wishes she love herself

I am
A jigsaw puzzle
Taken apart piece by piece
Put away and shaken
In the dark
I was fun once
Until I got old and you knew
All my ins and outs
Now I'm back
I'm my box
Never to be
Taken
Out

What would it be like...
Would it turn off like a television does
or maybe
more like a light goes out?
How about a fan,
slowly spinning to a stop.
What would it be like
To Turn it Off?

If I could just turn my life off,
to change it all completely.  
To just stop and let it all go out
like a bulb when it bursts.
The nothingness of a black screen,
the slowness of a fan spinning to a halt...

What would it be like,
To Turn it All Off.

Enjoy your life,  but the biggest adventure is yet to come.  Be prepared for death.

I want to live
Not just survive.  
But when I'm barley surviving
Can I afford to live.

Cheek bones
High and sharp
Press against your heart
Hold her close
She could slice you
Take your heart
But
She never draws
First blood

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done

- "Hiding my Heart"  sang by Adele
written by Brandi Carlile

We were going to break
Each other
Mentally and physically

It was just a race
To see who
Would do it
First

I'm not sure if it is better
To finish First
Or Last

Either way
I suffer a
Loss

I hope to the God
And the Devil

That someday I
Wrote all the things
That bring upon your smile
Someday I
Am the one

I can't sell my soul for you
I can't give you an
Unbroken heart

Let me worship you, my temple
You worship I
A king and queen
Of our own design

I can give you me and future
I hope that's enough

I don't need you
To give me the world
To provide for me
To hold my hand every step

I do need
Someone to kick my ***
Tell me to pull my **** together
To look at me with that grin
To reassure me

To know they could give me everything, but won't.  
Because I can do it myself
I need to do it myself

I need you to walk beside me
Stand with me

A thought
What is a thought?
Nothing More than a thought
A thought is a thought
Unless...
You think of the thought
And act the thought
Then maybe
A thought is more than a thought
But an action
Maybe a dream
But it was once a thought
A thought is not just a thought

How do I tell you
...
I like you
And in a more than friends way
...
We are adults
So why do I feel like a scared little girl?
...

Truth is easy
Lies are better

Truth is light
Lies are heavy

Truth ends
Lies become

Truth is hurtful
Lies are better

Even in the shallows of the ocean
There is depth
I hope you can
Swim

It's a new snowfall
That leap of faith into the pool
The sweetness of moist cake
Your favorite song coming on the radio
The feeling of the sun on your skin
Finding money in your pocket
Running away from the sprinkler as a kid screaming and laughing
Going through an old box and finding forgotten things
The memories that flood when you find pictures
The first sunrise you see and it makes you gasp
The first morning together

It's new and exciting
Unexpected and last minuet
Wonderful and joyful

It's Our Love

I'm sober now because I have stopped drinking you
I still miss the burn
But I'm loosing the yearn

You're too pretty for this,
he's not worth it, leave his ***, let go...
That's what they all say, everyone around me pulls me away.
But my heart cant let go.
We can't help but collide,
we meet, our paths cross.
There is no escape.

You're like gravity,
I need an anchor.
Not quicksand