I guess...
I used to wish that I could die young;
but of late it's just been outdone,
As life is no fun. Gambling it all out with
no funds.
But what if I died young,
or whatever people considered young?
How tragic would be,
since that's been the reoccurring theme?
From burying adults and teens. These week
we're burying kids.
I guess...
I don't have any real tears; but just the eyes
of so many questions.
"If we're worth so much, why can't I cry
when those who die were so precious,"
my heart asks only in it's lonely confessions.
Would you hate me if I sigh,
when you tell me a loved one died?
Would you expect me to cry,
when I say, "oh, another death idly passing by,"
And would you expect me to have the words,
just for me to say, "oh, never mind."
I guess...
You'll probably think I'm a terrible guy.
But I'm sorry. I've just lost so much,
I don't think I've got the time to cry.
You can dig into my chest to find emotions,
but I wouldn't say they're all mine.
But why do I rhyme about death,
because the end words help me not focus
on somebody's last dying breath.
Yes,
that's not a good way to cope with death,
but I find it best. Than to be searching for
feelings that will overwhelm my chest.
But maybe I'm just a mess?
I guess...