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"triumphed" poems
The sun set at its appointed time, 438pm - setting a race towards the end. Drinks were drunk, Emotions were triumphed, kisses were exchanged and the moon was flying high. A swap of fluid and hands were held - the countdown began and the ball it fell. A kiss goodnight, a sad goodbye, then relief and empty bed, a welcomed sight. A slow progression towards the rising and at 721am it happened without a warning. A reset of the timer - from 12/31 to 01/01. Time to start again and try to enjoy the time that will come.
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Jan 1, 2015
Jan 1, 2015 at 5:06 PM UTC
Sunset, Sunrise
My scars are NOT just scars sometimes they remind me of traumatic experiences. Sometimes people would stare at them with a look so curious, that I myself, would become furious. Because my scars felt like a punishment of a series of consecutive jail sentences. They had me Feeling overwhelmed by weariness So I put up a fence to hide what I believe was my hideousness. Then my naked eyes realized the true lies, that behinds these marks are where the truth hides My scars are NOT just scars they are Evidence of a Wound, evidence that after pain healing must come soon. My scars are a sign to show Life was adjusted just as a violin being tuned My scars are not just scars they show that I have gone thru a Transformation. My scars are not just scars The give me motivation in my times desperation. My scars aren't just scars They signify even after my trails, I am Triumphed! My scars are Marks Of my pass History to celebrate even I was hurt I have the victory! For Greater is He that is within me. My scars are NOT just scars, they show that God was With me thru it all Truly! My scars are not just scars they are Permanent sacred Marks Of Beauty.
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Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 10:10 PM UTC
"My scars are not just scars"
He is a link between this and the coming world. He is A pure spring from which all thirsty souls may drink. He is a tree watered by the River of Beauty, bearing Fruit which the hungry heart craves; He is a nightingale, soothing the depressed Spirit with his beautiful melodies; He is a white cloud appearing over the horizon, Ascending and growing until it fills the face of the sky. Then it falls on the flows in the field of Life, Opening their petals to admit the light. He is an angel, send by the goddess to Preach the Deity's gospel; He is a brilliant lamp, unconquered by darkness And inextinguishable by the wind. It is filled with Oil by Istar of Love, and lighted by Apollon of Music. He is a solitary figure, robed in simplicity and Kindness; He sits upon the lap of Nature to draw his Inspiration, and stays up in the silence of the night, Awaiting the descending of the spirit. He is a sower who sows the seeds of his heart in the Prairies of affection, and humanity reaps the Harvest for her nourishment. This is the poet -- whom the people ignore in this life, And who is recognized only when he bids the earthly World farewell and returns to his arbor in heaven. This is the poet -- who asks naught of Humanity but a smile. This is the poet -- whose spirit ascends and Fills the firmament with beautiful sayings; Yet the people deny themselves his radiance. Until when shall the people remain asleep? Until when shall they continue to glorify those Who attain greatness by moments of advantage? How long shall they ignore those who enable Them to see the beauty of their spirit, Symbol of peace and love? Until when shall human beings honor the dead And forget the living, who spend their lives Encircled in misery, and who consume themselves Like burning candles to illuminate the way For the ignorant and lead them into the path of light? Poet, you are the life of this life, and you have Triumphed over the ages of despite their severity. Poet, you will one day rule the hearts, and Therefore, your kingdom has no ending. Poet, examine your crown of thorns; you will Find concealed in it a budding wreath of laurel.
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The Poet VIII
He is a link between this and the coming world. He is A pure spring from which all thirsty souls may drink. He is a tree watered by the River of Beauty, bearing Fruit which the hungry heart craves; He is a nightingale, soothing the depressed Spirit with his beautiful melodies; He is a white cloud appearing over the horizon, Ascending and growing until it fills the face of the sky. Then it falls on the flows in the field of Life, Opening their petals to admit the light. He is an angel, send by the goddess to Preach the Deity's gospel; He is a brilliant lamp, unconquered by darkness And inextinguishable by the wind. It is filled with Oil by Istar of Love, and lighted by Apollon of Music. He is a solitary figure, robed in simplicity and Kindness; He sits upon the lap of Nature to draw his Inspiration, and stays up in the silence of the night, Awaiting the descending of the spirit. He is a sower who sows the seeds of his heart in the Prairies of affection, and humanity reaps the Harvest for her nourishment. This is the poet -- whom the people ignore in this life, And who is recognized only when he bids the earthly World farewell and returns to his arbor in heaven. This is the poet -- who asks naught of Humanity but a smile. This is the poet -- whose spirit ascends and Fills the firmament with beautiful sayings; Yet the people deny themselves his radiance. Until when shall the people remain asleep? Until when shall they continue to glorify those Who attain greatness by moments of advantage? How long shall they ignore those who enable Them to see the beauty of their spirit, Symbol of peace and love? Until when shall human beings honor the dead And forget the living, who spend their lives Encircled in misery, and who consume themselves Like burning candles to illuminate the way For the ignorant and lead them into the path of light? Poet, you are the life of this life, and you have Triumphed over the ages of despite their severity. Poet, you will one day rule the hearts, and Therefore, your kingdom has no ending. Poet, examine your crown of thorns; you will Find concealed in it a budding wreath of laurel.
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Transformation. To be transformed. Seed to flower. Child to adult. Caterpillar to butterfly. A wave can turn to a hurricane, a flame to a wildfire, a stormcloud to a tornado. It looms, it darkens the sky, it frightens. But does not the shore dry, the forest fizzle out? The sun sneaks out behind a seemingly never-ending stream of darkness and devastation. So, too, do we transform. A boy became a man, but not before he was absorbed by darkness. Only thereafter could he seek out the sun. Peace comes after war, recovery after illness, healing after injury... This transformation, it is greater, more magnanimous because, too, that process, that search, journey, his darkness... it stretched on for what he presumed was his eternity. He was scared. He was alone. And then, he triumphed; he needed no one. And then, out flew a newly transformed him. Out to the world, new world, brighter world, out he came... a butterfly.
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Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
Metamorphosis
Better to be Pyramus and Thisbe than god Apollo and Daphne? As love oft triumphed by envy. Oh to be Abelard and Heloise or Juliet you and Romeo me! Cleopatra, Marc Antony, Orpheus, and Eurydice! Martyrs to Cupid, were you wary of the price to pay? Did you find peace from Plato’s coined mental disease in Pluto’s long halls of Hades or the self induced daily shade of trees? What of love dooming kin to Achilles? When Dido and Aeneas meet is her suicide guaranteed? Pray tell us, can true love ever be free!
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May 27, 2019
May 27, 2019 at 9:14 AM UTC
Ode to Famed Loves
A dragon was the beast to fear, With shining, perfect teeth, And deadly spines upon its back, And scaly skin beneath. You'd see them fly across the sky With dreadful wings unfanned, In far-off days of long ago When dragons ruled the land. And as they flew they'd watch the ground, With eyes devoid of pity, They'd follow humans to their homes And breathe upon their city. The dragon's breath was instant death, No houses still could stand, In far-off days of long ago When dragons ruled the land. Then someone had a wise idea: King Arthur and his Knights. They travelled round the countryside, And held great dragon-fights. Each dragon's heart was split apart, So triumphed Arthur's band; And now no dragons linger Any longer in the land.
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Jun 4, 2010
Jun 4, 2010 at 11:04 AM UTC
Storytelling
A race between the Flash and the Man of Steel This would be a competition for real Who do you think would move fast? Who would you think would come in last? It’s a possibility in what could be Imagine two Super Marvel’s in a race too see who is truly great It would also show their sportsmanship in how they both relate It would be a run to the finish The winner being triumphed and distinguished This wouldn’t be a race against crime That story is another time Flash moving at the speed of light The Man of Steel feeling a bit uptight The Man of Steel would be disqualified if he were to fly in order to win But the Man of Steel coming from another planet, would that automatically disqualify from then A canny detail But the policy remains in order to preserver It was Flash in the lead The Man of Steel was maneuvering in proceed Just around the bend It was Flash being the champion at the very end Well the Marvel Hero’s shook hands and are off to fight crime This will be until the end of time.
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Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 11:40 PM UTC
SUPERMAN VS THE FLASH IN A SPRINTING TEST STUNT
My worst enemy and tireless companion finally came to my door last night. As I slept away the time of day And killed my poor friend Time He traveled closer to my home. As I slowly cowered in the face of fear And realized my mistake too late As I chose to make a silly choice He quietly opened the door. Shame came in but didn't stop And with every tear that welled up inside He crawled in hot into my cheeks. As the salty drops burned away my skin He then moved on down to my throat And choked me up till air was gone. I gagged and shook, begging him to go Openly admitting my sin But Shame knew he could do more And as I watched my world crumble He eagerly attacked my heart. As he dripped down to the hearth He triumphed with his final mutation. The pain of Shame is nothing Next to that of his brother Humiliation. There, in the privacy of my soul He slaughtered my Pride with a blunted blade As Sloth cowered in the corner. When the room was red he finally paused With a smile on his face at the lesson he left. As he exited Responsibility came in instead And from the door watched with sad eyes Waiting for me to rise and finally apologise.
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Sep 24, 2014
Sep 24, 2014 at 12:34 PM UTC
Shame
Nobility divine fills gaps of transcendence,     Soars to and from the throne heavenly, Exalts morals near the king of ascendance,     Patrolling the good, and sons of the seventy. A duty forgotten, replaced with dependence,     On prayers rarely heard, and logic of a herd - Divinity is far in absence; man in attendance,     The book is a third, and teachings are blurred. Andeliviuan corruption supposedly erased:     The creation rotten of Sariel, wanders gaily. The holy and fallen angel’s doing embraced,     By the clay beings caressing evil like a frailly. By God not, who from heaven him displaced.     Yet, the legacy of the wrong stands humanly, In Thailand, America, Palestine, and all graced -      A grace of sinfulness celestial and worldly.   Religion is the poor’s only ultimate truth,      the rich’s side hustle, and the rulers’ tool; It is the loss of power that defiles the sooth,     The one the poor has not, but does the fool. Robbers’ servants, bread crumbs consumers,     Toothless **** dogs, emaciated lost tramps, Little blind pawns, vultures’ puppets, tumours,     And wrenches they are, the upper hand’s lambs. If only Raguel’s judgements fall upon man,     Raphael’s punishment beautifies this existence, Gabriel’s wrath makes not all humans ane,     And Michael saves us, the Sarahs, in assistance. In the heart deepened with old repression,    That mounts with plenitude of filtered feels, Resides a universe yearning for expression,     In a meat clay who feeds on calories of meals. Man, in the genesis, in the light, in the dark,     In prosperity, in turmoil, triumphed with vices; vileness, abuse, wreckage is our sole mark,     On this planet whose population is in slices.
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Oct 21, 2022
Oct 21, 2022 at 5:18 AM UTC
Slices
Nobility divine fills gaps of transcendence,     Soars to and from the throne heavenly, Exalts morals near the king of ascendance,     Patrolling the good, and sons of the seventy. A duty forgotten, replaced with dependence,     On prayers rarely heard, and logic of a herd - Divinity is far in absence; man in attendance,     The book is a third, and teachings are blurred. Andeliviuan corruption supposedly erased:     The creation rotten of Sariel, wanders gaily. The holy and fallen angel’s doing embraced,     By the clay beings caressing evil like a frailly. By God not, who from heaven him displaced.     Yet, the legacy of the wrong stands humanly, In Thailand, America, Palestine, and all graced -      A grace of sinfulness celestial and worldly.   Religion is the poor’s only ultimate truth,      the rich’s side hustle, and the rulers’ tool; It is the loss of power that defiles the sooth,     The one the poor has not, but does the fool. Robbers’ servants, bread crumbs consumers,     Toothless **** dogs, emaciated lost tramps, Little blind pawns, vultures’ puppets, tumours,     And wrenches they are, the upper hand’s lambs. If only Raguel’s judgements fall upon man,     Raphael’s punishment beautifies this existence, Gabriel’s wrath makes not all humans ane,     And Michael saves us, the Sarahs, in assistance. In the heart deepened with old repression,    That mounts with plenitude of filtered feels, Resides a universe yearning for expression,     In a meat clay who feeds on calories of meals. Man, in the genesis, in the light, in the dark,     In prosperity, in turmoil, triumphed with vices; vileness, abuse, wreckage is our sole mark,     On this planet whose population is in slices.
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To strive, for recognition An assembly point for thought Triumphed within an open page Paper evidence of unspoken verse Retrieved from the place behind this heart Do you mind? Don’t look over my shoulder at my vulnerability Private stance is mine Do not mock as I turn the page A personal preview of this unlocked memory Back of my neck, prickling Anticipating on the spot reaction Young, ill at ease Crying from the yard Hiding the scars Don’t rush away the memories, a deluge When time was so limited Become brave Force open the private recess Cobwebbed and masked by dust Speak clearly, not from mumbling Mouth, I need to………….. know I am blemished So glad to be alongside you Reunited, forgotten, forgiven.....now ribbon tied Can we bury? It would seem not......but wait and remember Deceived by the dark Under dressed for the occasion Battered suitcase dragged and kicked open Essays of remembrance Headlines screaming for discussion Released for a while Obeyed and tidied Press down and close the rusty catches My new day transcribed here I don’t mind, lean on my shoulder See my vulnerability It makes me strong
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Aug 20, 2012
Aug 20, 2012 at 6:29 AM UTC
Strive
Ketchup bottles have been taken off the shelves Homes don’t even have ketchup themselves French Fries, Hamburgers and Franks are all upset But who in the world let? A mystery we all must solve We all must get involved Look for clues in find It’s the French Fries in who we must be kind Let’s see of we can find any clues We must be determined and not lose There were traces of ketchup spills Where there is a way is also a desired will On the TV, there was a briefing at Heinz concerning why the ketchup was stolen A competitor with its own brand recipe of ketchup stated, “Our ketchup is the best, and we are ready to do the test” But will really contest? Heinz has been around for years, but a new competitor wants to triumphed in preserver Now how long can French Fries and other foods requiring ketchup continue in going plain? Now the competitor being called, “ALL THE SPICES COMPANY, INC.” ALL THE SPICES COMPANY, INC. does have a ring in its name But what is their ingredient too whom they want us to be lame? Now Heinz has a special blend, which they will never tell Yet in the supermarket stores it does sell But not knowing much about the competitor, how can they tell? The Consumers have control in the flavor test They will surely determine who is the best Maybe more of less Well after much tasting, Heinz was the victor without any effort I am sorry to say, “ALL THE SPICES’ just couldn’t cut it They wouldn’t have compared to even mustard But don’t let me go there However, just beware in who you feel is the best Let your taste buds be the test The French Fries can continue to have the ketchup style while competitor, “ALL THE SPICES” we be thinking on Heinz resources during while.
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May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 7:03 PM UTC
THE KETCHUP CAPER
Ketchup bottles have been taken off the shelves Homes don’t even have ketchup themselves French Fries, Hamburgers and Franks are all upset But who in the world let? A mystery we all must solve We all must get involved Look for clues in find It’s the French Fries in who we must be kind Let’s see of we can find any clues We must be determined and not lose There were traces of ketchup spills Where there is a way is also a desired will On the TV, there was a briefing at Heinz concerning why the ketchup was stolen A competitor with its own brand recipe of ketchup stated, “Our ketchup is the best, and we are ready to do the test” But will really contest? Heinz has been around for years, but a new competitor wants to triumphed in preserver Now how long can French Fries and other foods requiring ketchup continue in going plain? Now the competitor being called, “ALL THE SPICES COMPANY, INC.” ALL THE SPICES COMPANY, INC. does have a ring in its name But what is their ingredient too whom they want us to be lame? Now Heinz has a special blend, which they will never tell Yet in the supermarket stores it does sell But not knowing much about the competitor, how can they tell? The Consumers have control in the flavor test They will surely determine who is the best Maybe more of less Well after much tasting, Heinz was the victor without any effort I am sorry to say, “ALL THE SPICES’ just couldn’t cut it They wouldn’t have compared to even mustard But don’t let me go there However, just beware in who you feel is the best Let your taste buds be the test The French Fries can continue to have the ketchup style while competitor, “ALL THE SPICES” we be thinking on Heinz resources during while.
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another smothered lover in the Hollywood hills unbag the bottle crack the seal oh the appeal of intake for the sake of intoxication so meek and unique in gurgled screams a pixie in the hand of a king compelled to discretely capture the beauty in eternity expelled i just felt i had to nest a shell and befell clearing her residual flirtatious signals even in the squirms and even in the squeals even though i know she yearns to be hooked by her gills dragged through landfills in a projected field where she would yield and kiss me. i'm gonna pretend to love her as i tenderly shove her in the river of our love take her under my loving thunder and plunder her when drugged dazed in her wonder i hold her under from above if only for a moment we locked eyes in love she fit me like glove remnants disposed of in a rug posed so beautifully for the smack hack and rip one pretty ***** dumped in an irrigation ditch triumphed our wordless relationship its over ***** move on with it in the mouths of varmints oh charming as im clicking ***** on key chains sticking misfits with loose lips usually homeless decoys here to destroy nothing in my twisted ploy to employ maximum points conjoint my addictive anger to something a little stranger im going to dangle her entrails in front of her eyes while i'm bangin her shes looking so surprised from every camera angle the mangled piece of **** what a lamo hypnotized in the passing of life in the blood the *** the **** and the knife
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Aug 20, 2012
Aug 20, 2012 at 9:22 PM UTC
[An0ther L0v3r]
Thinking about the end of the World should not keep you sleepless at night. If predicted correctly, you’ll never get credit- So what does it pay to be right? To wrongly predict the end of the World will make you the **** of derision. As Harold Camping found out To his shock and dismay when reality triumphed his vision. We know not the day or the hour my friends when Gabriel’s trumpet might blast. With kindness and patience so live this life You will not be ashamed of your past.
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Dec 18, 2013
Dec 18, 2013 at 8:24 AM UTC
Harold Camping
I have walked these fields I have known this land And though the years have changed the face The memory still stands Of a time when things were simpler Of a time when hope was pure Of a time when changing weather Was all of which we were unsure And I have seen the sun rise Over fields of green and gold Now that view is just a memory And I know I'm getting old Can it be that earth is failing? Can it be that light has dimmed? Can it be that we've abandoned all the life that we once lived?      Is it any wonder      that our children can't get over      just the smallest of infractions      when the world falls all around them?      For constancy is foreign      in a land of no intentions      where a lost appreciation      for sacredness of life abounds. I cannot pretend To understand it all For as often as I wonder Equal am I inclined to fall For I am of a generation Which forgets itself began, Wanders aimlessly through atmosphere And defiles its fellow man And over weakness, few have triumphed; Through affliction, few have prevailed And reverence for creation Is an instinct we have failed But our days are not yet over For this one hope stands unmoved: We are still formed of the same dust Whose strength our ancestry has proved.      Is there any remnant      of the spirit deep within us      that might once again remember      the great faith we once achieved?      There is far greater meaning      found in one hopeful sentiment      than in a thousand shouting voices      denying all things once believed.
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Jan 15, 2014
Jan 15, 2014 at 10:56 AM UTC
Of Dust and Dim Hope
I have walked these fields I have known this land And though the years have changed the face The memory still stands Of a time when things were simpler Of a time when hope was pure Of a time when changing weather Was all of which we were unsure And I have seen the sun rise Over fields of green and gold Now that view is just a memory And I know I'm getting old Can it be that earth is failing? Can it be that light has dimmed? Can it be that we've abandoned all the life that we once lived?      Is it any wonder      that our children can't get over      just the smallest of infractions      when the world falls all around them?      For constancy is foreign      in a land of no intentions      where a lost appreciation      for sacredness of life abounds. I cannot pretend To understand it all For as often as I wonder Equal am I inclined to fall For I am of a generation Which forgets itself began, Wanders aimlessly through atmosphere And defiles its fellow man And over weakness, few have triumphed; Through affliction, few have prevailed And reverence for creation Is an instinct we have failed But our days are not yet over For this one hope stands unmoved: We are still formed of the same dust Whose strength our ancestry has proved.      Is there any remnant      of the spirit deep within us      that might once again remember      the great faith we once achieved?      There is far greater meaning      found in one hopeful sentiment      than in a thousand shouting voices      denying all things once believed.
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I should feel joy Yet I feel nothing I should feel complete Yet I feel empty I finally got my revenge Yet I have no clue what it was for I should be laughing at the face of my enemy Yet I have sympathy for my fallen foe Good has triumphed over evil, or so I think Perhaps I was the villain the whole time. If so do I fix what I have broken? or do I leave before I make it any worse?
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May 21, 2013
May 21, 2013 at 5:46 AM UTC
Revenge
** we were strong, we were swift, we were brave. Youth was a challenge, and Life was a fight. All that was best in us gladly we gave, Sprang from the rally, and leapt for the height. Smiling is Love in a foam of Spring flowers: Harden our hearts to him -- on let us press! Oh, what a triumph and pride shall be ours! See where it beacons, the star of success! Cares seem to crowd on us -- so much to do; New fields to conquer, and time's on the wing. Grey hairs are showing, a wrinkle or two; Somehow our footstep is losing its spring. Pleasure's forsaken us, Love ceased to smile; Youth has been funeralled; Age travels fast. Sometimes we wonder: is it worth while? There! we have gained to the summit at last. Aye, we have triumphed! Now must we haste, Revel in victory . . . why! what is wrong? Life's choicest vintage is flat to the taste -- Are we too late? Have we laboured too long? Wealth, power, fame we hold . . . ah! but the truth: Would we not give this vain glory of ours For one mad, glad year of glorious youth, Life in the Springtide, and Love in the flowers.
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A Song Of Success
1079 The Sun went down—no Man looked on— The Earth and I, alone, Were present at the Majesty— He triumphed, and went on— The Sun went up—no Man looked on— The Earth and I and One A nameless Bird—a Stranger Were Witness for the Crown—
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The Sun went down—no Man looked on—
This journey: this path I’m on seems ever circular, bringing me back around to the same old lessons that for some strange reason I am just too dense to understand. There is something I feel I should be learning – or something I need to let go of – or is it grasp? Maybe it’s both…. I don’t know. I feel like I’m on a roller coaster –                  one minute I’m strong –                                            I really believe I can do this…                                                              the next, I am hiding again…                                                                              allowing myself to be lost in shame and self-hate. A few months ago, I felt like I took this huge leap forward... self-care, healing, opening emotional pockets… knowing full well that I needed to keep reminding myself about the lurking shadows... the ones who provoke me and make me feel bad even in the midst of making strides forward. So here I am, feeling those same old feelings of guilt and shame and hatred. I suppose I know what the shadow is that lurks, but I just don’t know what to do with the shadow. How do I bring it into the light to stay? My husband tries to use my “achievements” to bolster my confidence, help me shed this bone crushing feeling of self-defeat, but those achievements are a smokescreen – an elaborate, disguise, the stronger I seem, the less likely anyone is to guess what a coward I truly am. I can fool others- but not myself. The first time, I lost, it was to him                       this time, it comes at my own hands….                                        And that seems to be so much worse...                                      I can feel myself backsliding …. So much up and down!                                                            When does it does it stop?                                                                        Does it stop? The term “survivor” implies a certain level of triumph or victory. The term ‘victim’ carries connotation of guiltless submission. I am neither a survivor nor a victim. I am a fraud, a shell of a person hidden inside a carefully constructed facade. I have not triumphed over my past, and the damage it continues to cause is due to my own personal failure to set it aside. I have managed to surrender my whole identity because I lack the courage to claim my truth. Healing is a lot like daylight savings time...                         fall back, spring forward, over and over and over again.                                                     It makes me dizzy, sick to my stomach and depressed...                                                                                                                     all of this back and forth.                                                   Now I feel the path has once again ended                                                              and I am left standing alone.
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Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 9:10 PM UTC
This Journey
This journey: this path I’m on seems ever circular, bringing me back around to the same old lessons that for some strange reason I am just too dense to understand. There is something I feel I should be learning – or something I need to let go of – or is it grasp? Maybe it’s both…. I don’t know. I feel like I’m on a roller coaster –                  one minute I’m strong –                                            I really believe I can do this…                                                              the next, I am hiding again…                                                                              allowing myself to be lost in shame and self-hate. A few months ago, I felt like I took this huge leap forward... self-care, healing, opening emotional pockets… knowing full well that I needed to keep reminding myself about the lurking shadows... the ones who provoke me and make me feel bad even in the midst of making strides forward. So here I am, feeling those same old feelings of guilt and shame and hatred. I suppose I know what the shadow is that lurks, but I just don’t know what to do with the shadow. How do I bring it into the light to stay? My husband tries to use my “achievements” to bolster my confidence, help me shed this bone crushing feeling of self-defeat, but those achievements are a smokescreen – an elaborate, disguise, the stronger I seem, the less likely anyone is to guess what a coward I truly am. I can fool others- but not myself. The first time, I lost, it was to him                       this time, it comes at my own hands….                                        And that seems to be so much worse...                                      I can feel myself backsliding …. So much up and down!                                                            When does it does it stop?                                                                        Does it stop? The term “survivor” implies a certain level of triumph or victory. The term ‘victim’ carries connotation of guiltless submission. I am neither a survivor nor a victim. I am a fraud, a shell of a person hidden inside a carefully constructed facade. I have not triumphed over my past, and the damage it continues to cause is due to my own personal failure to set it aside. I have managed to surrender my whole identity because I lack the courage to claim my truth. Healing is a lot like daylight savings time...                         fall back, spring forward, over and over and over again.                                                     It makes me dizzy, sick to my stomach and depressed...                                                                                                                     all of this back and forth.                                                   Now I feel the path has once again ended                                                              and I am left standing alone.
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“I thought you said that they would come. “Ray said it with a sigh. Outside the ballpark Chaos reigned as another city died. At Camden Yards a game was played; no fans were let inside. Terry sadly eyed the scene and fought the urge to cry. For baseball represents the best that America could be, until hatred triumphed teamwork, forging chains of misery. The inner harbor is in flames and they’ll not soon subside The bitter angels of our nature ruled as another city died. In time the final out was made and the players left the field. The home team lost, no save was made And no one’s wounds were healed.
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Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC
At Camden Yards
Once I loved a pretty girl But she don’t live round here no more Ventured out into the world To keep her pride and settle scores I remember brighter days Full of song and open seas Then mid-September’s chill gave way We can’t refuse our destiny Seasons changed – feelings, too Suddenly she’s out of touch Portraits of our dream won’t do Now as I paint, I lick the brush After hours at the bar Chewing fat and catching eyes Often wonder where you are Or if that’s you dressed in disguise Once I loved another girl But not the same one as before Like a clam without a pearl She was a shell without a core I tried to help; I gave her love Favors, *** and cash to burn Everything I could think of! And asked for nothing in return Then I fell into a hole – Funny how these things turn out – In need of but a gentle soul To lift me up above the clouds But when I asked for her to care To show the warmth of open arms She offered nothing but a stare And only time could break her guard Once I healed a broken heart Brought about by foolish charm Gave it my all right from the start Unraveled like a ball of yarn Days went by and turned to months Drawing close to my twine’s end So I sought out familiar fronts To seek the love of kin & friends My heart grew warm and full of joy I leaped with faith and did good deeds My shaded past would not destroy The man that only I could be The months grew closer to next year As one by one I placed the stones That built the path to facing fear And taking on the world alone Once I triumphed over evil Choked the devil til he died Oh, he’ll be back, there’s no doubt he will But never more shall steal my pride Once I learned that Love is Evil Now she’s back to claim her prize But I won’t let my heart be refilled Without the whole piece of the pie
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Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 4:06 PM UTC
Once Upon a Time & Place
Once I loved a pretty girl But she don’t live round here no more Ventured out into the world To keep her pride and settle scores I remember brighter days Full of song and open seas Then mid-September’s chill gave way We can’t refuse our destiny Seasons changed – feelings, too Suddenly she’s out of touch Portraits of our dream won’t do Now as I paint, I lick the brush After hours at the bar Chewing fat and catching eyes Often wonder where you are Or if that’s you dressed in disguise Once I loved another girl But not the same one as before Like a clam without a pearl She was a shell without a core I tried to help; I gave her love Favors, *** and cash to burn Everything I could think of! And asked for nothing in return Then I fell into a hole – Funny how these things turn out – In need of but a gentle soul To lift me up above the clouds But when I asked for her to care To show the warmth of open arms She offered nothing but a stare And only time could break her guard Once I healed a broken heart Brought about by foolish charm Gave it my all right from the start Unraveled like a ball of yarn Days went by and turned to months Drawing close to my twine’s end So I sought out familiar fronts To seek the love of kin & friends My heart grew warm and full of joy I leaped with faith and did good deeds My shaded past would not destroy The man that only I could be The months grew closer to next year As one by one I placed the stones That built the path to facing fear And taking on the world alone Once I triumphed over evil Choked the devil til he died Oh, he’ll be back, there’s no doubt he will But never more shall steal my pride Once I learned that Love is Evil Now she’s back to claim her prize But I won’t let my heart be refilled Without the whole piece of the pie
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after he shrugged, he felt defeated troubled, like a ***** in heat, he felt rare dewdrops all but disappeared yes, the demented ways of nature triumphed one shrug revealed the secret --haphazard news indeed-- the natural man smiled in shame young and vicious, he slapped himself warlike ~~ ..(C)1987/2012 Spiros Zafiris ..channeled; spirit Ram ~~
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Jul 24, 2012
Jul 24, 2012 at 9:55 PM UTC
Vixens And Youth
the death of self, exhaled, borne upon wafts of air, and I, with my self-conscious prose and pretensions of intellectualism, and I, dreaded I - there is a beauty in ideology; even wastrelism, being the muck of the earth and much reviled by Proper Gentlemen, has its allure and adherents those disciples of Dionysus, bacchanalia becoming banal by sheer repetition: ***** ***** ***** shotgunned beers, and then- TEQUIIIILA!! crowed at the top of their lungs, memory expunged by hepatic-processed organic compounds. of course, these mannerisms are simply beneath you, disdainfully catalogued by keen eyes: no, your form of forgettance is much more forceful, much less fanciful and romanticized: your amnesia is absolute, it required nothing less than total dedication, mortification, death of self as you expatiated lusts, loves, aught but ambitions remain, and now, you have triumphed: you stand solitary, skyscrapers shining for your personal pleasure, yet you can find, none.
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Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 9:56 PM UTC
skyline
I pedaled so hard to get to the place that I thought that I knew was right And when I get to where I have got I sometimes find out that the right that I thought was right..... was not So I picked myself up and I dusted me off although I'm a terrible sight I got on my horse (I hope no one's  watching) and galloped off into the night It isn't so bad to make a mistake just go to the end of the line a lesson you've learned just like everyone else and you start all over again starting over is not such a horrible thing sometimes it's all for the best your perspective is better, your mind is much clearer you've triumphed and won like the rest A good sense of humor and love in your heart are required for a life without woe you'll never be able to live without those and we all have to learn to let go
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Feb 12, 2015
Feb 12, 2015 at 3:56 PM UTC
Trouble II