a perfect winter
night includes:
hot chocolate,
blanket,
a warm place,
snacks,
good movies,
dimmed lights
and you.

but this ain't
a perfect night
because it doesn't
include you,
and i am left alone,
once again along
with my list,
without your name
written on the bottom
of it.

and i put you last,
because the last things
are the best,
right?

you promised
that you will
make me happy,
but you didn't.
                                    you promised
                                    that you will
                                    make me laugh
                                    but you didn't.
                                                                       but you promised
                                                                       that you will
                                                                       **** the light in me,
                                                                       but there was no light
                                                                       in me, so that
                                                                       leaves you with another
                                                                       broken promise.

over you
there are
tears, insults,
jokes and
other dumb ****
that made you
the person you are
today,
the people who
buried you
alive are in hell,
and you are dancing
with the angels
in heaven,
because you
survived
through their
insults and jokes,
the ones which
made you stronger
than ever.