who's real and who's fake
people make my head ache

i'm choking on the words i never said

you survived today
and that is enough

there is so much beauty in letting go
severed from the past
simply moving forward
a weightless soul
utterly free

laying here alone
thoughts aren't of you
they aren't really of anything
minds a blur
i am content with focusing
on completely nothing

cold
even colder
ice cold
frozen
melt me again

a little more love
a little more kindness
a little more patience
a little more trust
a little more happy

i'm missing someone
who was never really mine

i sit here now
all alone now
what can life give me
what can it show me
i have only learnt of pain
misery
deep sorrow
what am i doing
what are you doing
you are nowhere
you were always here
for me
but i sit here now
all alone now

do not
for one moment
think
that i
no longer
love you
i will always
love you

wake up
get out of bed
get up
you will be late
hurry up
what is going on
get up

crying
tears of helplessness
i am glued to my bed
not because i want to be
i do not plan on having a bad day

i wish to be stronger
free from the anxiety
the stress
the worry

i hate living like this

you are one of a kind
a beautiful authentic creation
full of fire and passion
strength and zeal
own it

sleepy now
drifting off
to another world
fresh air fills my lungs
sunshine warms me
i am at ease

take time away from the world
to let yourself grow alone

freely wandering
listening to the birds sing
breathing in the cleansing morning air
why can't life always feel this peaceful

this life is not what it seems
we are nothing but flesh and blood
poets and writers and storytellers
liars and cheats and frauds
pick and choose your destiny
redefine your purpose
you are more than you know

you have what it takes
already
you don't need to change anything
deep down in your soul
there's a strength so beautiful
just waiting to come out
be brave
be courageous
you will achieve the greatness you desire

forget tomorrow
start now
this very moment
you can get better
and you will

please remember
what you are going through right now
will not last forever
one day this moment in your life will be a memory
an experience that made you stronger and wiser
right now your demons are dragging you down
but just you wait
it won't be long until you can smile at them
because you have achieved the impossible
and you have conquered your fears
and you have inspired others
and you have grown as an individual
and beautiful things have come your way
for now you will get through each day
until you will wake up to a new chapter
a new beginning
hold tight beautiful human

crystal clear thinking
is not for me
i see life as a blur
full of happy and sad moments
wondering whether things lead to better things
having days of complete and utter sorrow
then days of hope and a sense of self again
my life is not a routine
it is not structured
i think
i will just keep moving forward
slowly
until the pieces of my life
are put together

see that boy over there
he could be yours
what is are you waiting for?
go get him

tearing apart at the seams
she wanted to break free
instead
she had broken
fallen into a heap
and couldn't put herself back together

the weight of a thousand words
heavy on my heart
slowing me down
dragging me low
i need to break away
i am chained
you hurt me

she walks in
everyone turns
and gazes in silence
she has power
and wears it exquisitely

crimson blood moon
black night chokes the stars
the forest howls
deathly dreams

it's not easy
to love your broken parts
it is easier
to just hate them
and wish them away in your mind
but you can heal
and you will heal
love those broken parts
mend them with your heart

open to you
it's hurting me
where to next
who to trust
vulnerability killed me

he smiles to himself
as he walks away
away from the crowd
the noise and hustle
to his secluded home
the calmness fills him
as he steps in the door
another day completed

i don't care
how or when or why
we fall in love
i just can't wait
until we do

you caught me like a bunch of roses
thrown from a bride on her wedding day

passed memories
what good is a blurred compliment
"you were once good at this"
so i am now a failure
and have lost what made me worth something
i guess i will never be good enough in your eyes

don't say it's me
this problem
you are holding onto
it cannot be me
don't say it
don't let those words fall out of your mouth

(just so you know)

i am new
i am beautiful
i am irreplaceable

i guess i will just sit here
in silence
it's safer than opening up
to someone as cold as you

why can't you just come back
say you miss me
and really mean it
why can't you love me again
make me smile
and stay forever

head aching
thinking about being skinny
being happy with my body
knowing i look good
and feeling fit
ugh
i wish i was thinner

there's something about a good country song
that makes you want to get up and dance
let loose
forget your worries
it makes me want to move to nashville
write music
play guitar
fall in love
i can't get enough of it

create art
write poetry
love unconditionally
be you

cry
floods of tears
bittersweet release
baby
let them pour

mid saturday morning
drowning in coffee
lost in thought
alone again

music stops
curtains are drawn
now
the show's over
no more performance
it's real
real life
who are you
when you're off the stage
back in your home
alone

she closes her eyes
in her mind she wanders
through a garden of beautifully fragranced flowers
fresh air fills her lungs
birds sing their gentle song
skipping through her garden
oh the sweet escape

search yourself
dig deep into your heart
know yourself
love your soul entirely

a nod of acknowledgement
as you walk past
that's all i get from you now
once you were my everything
now we are merely strangers

wounds heal my darling

don't you forget me
no matter how far life takes you
whatever you become
whoever you love
don't you forget me

there's nothing more beautiful than your smile
the way you say my name
the way you hold me and whisper in my ear "i love you"
my handsome man
i see you only in my dreams

sipping my coffee
listening to my favorite songs
wishing my afternoon away
drifting off to a place far from here
full of freedom and loving
i don't want to leave

and to think things were starting to get better around here
all those hours i put into making it all okay again
wasted on your cold heart and stubborn mind