too many ways
to say you no longer love her
without making her understand
that this is the end
i always hope
you will fall back in love
with the first girl you fell for
but she's just fading away
in your mind
she can do nothing
to win back your heart
nothing

let's get out of here
run away
escape to the country
forget our worries for a while
put our problems on hold
and just let go
fall into freedom
and love
and stargaze at night
and explore old towns
you and me

again i say wait
trust the process
be patient

i smile through my pain
laugh through my hurt
i don't feel real happiness anymore
and i hate feeling
like i'm putting on a show
a performance for the world to see
i was the authentic one
the genuinely joyous one
now i'm the fake
the phony
but i'm trying

each time i let go
you pull me closer
inescapable love

stuck here alone again
sleep deprived
heavy hearted
out of touch with life

and what a horrible day
to think that the man who gave me life
has somehow taken all the life in me
and hurt me
again and again
what a sad sad day

to all those with loving fathers
never take them for granted

there's freedom in your eyes
sweet escape in your smile
warmth in your touch
comfort in your voice

fight your way out
kick and scream and punch and yell
loud
ruthlessly
they want to see you fall
and bleed
they have no idea
of the immense strength you hold inside
shock them

i miss you more than you know
the thing is
i don't think i ever i cross your mind
and that hurts
it really kills me
to know you're fine without me
maybe happy
and i am struggling to get through my days
without seeing your face
crumbling at the very thought of you
i miss you so dearly

honestly
do what you love
and only what you love
follow your heart always
love apologetically
love freely
love you

wandering through the misty fog
in a forest so vast
deep into it's heart
seeing it's beauty
stepping over fallen branches
gazing at the strong trunks
so much green
the fresh air clears my lungs
i don't want to leave

forget normal
normal is so plain
so ordinary
try creative
unique
beautiful
do what is it that makes you
yourself

just let yourself go
fall right into freedom
do the things that make you feel
invincible
beautiful
unapologetically you

driving too fast through the countryside with the windows down
that's how it is talking to you
absolute freedom
completely filled with a sense of belonging
you are home

but you're stronger than that
you just can't see
the beauty you hold
the love you carry
please listen to me
you are worth it
you are beautiful
you will get through this

no you don't get it
this is not me
someone has stolen
the person you see

the thought of you
makes me shiver
what we once had
is lost forever

i've given up on you
my heart is broken
and you don't care

imagine our engagement
our wedding
so perfect
our home
decorated with our old records
starting a family
watching our children grow
growing old with you
til death do us part

falling into a heap
i close my eyes
damp walls surround me
world
let me be

sometimes a little bit of nothingness
is quite necessary
time to sit and ponder
alone with your thoughts
in silence

wear what you want
it's your body
your style
own it

i guess i stumbled
and now i've fallen
into a heap
trying to pick up the pieces
scattered about
a stupid mess
that i can't clean up

i want someone to hold on to
someone to let me know things will get better
maybe if someone told me i'd one day get through
i actually would
because i cannot help myself
all alone

i have lost her
the girl i once was
that knew herself
every single inch of herself
and i miss her

she is fire
undoubtedly strong
fierce
wild
her stare burns
her heart roars
her flames rise high

look i guess it's all a bit much
for you to handle
understand
comprehend
but i want you to listen to me
help me through this
i need your love and care
you mean the world to me
you must believe me
and i don't want you going anywhere
please say you will stay right here
with me tonight

home is where the heart is
and how true that is
home is not a house
not an apartment
not a hut
not a caravan
home is where the heart is
houses fall down
get destroyed
your home is inside of you
it goes wherever you go
a place of solitude
comfort
peace
your home is how and where and when you feel love
real love

people that have their lives planned out scare me

something about a hot shower
steaming droplets running down your skin
so firey
soothing
like a big warm hug
after a long day

being without love
makes me sore
not holding onto life
not moving forward
not thinking clearly
i am a mess

i don't know anymore
i don't know where i stand
or who i stand with
i guess it's okay to wander
but i'm a little lonely
a little sad
in need of a little more love
but i don't even know

heart is heavy
mind is on you
i miss you boy
i feel so alone
and you always felt like home

don't worry about those insignificant ones
that think they know you
understand you
want to associate with you
they aren't important
what's important
is you
and don't you forget it

everything can change in a fleeting moment
lives lost in seconds
in this moment you are alive
take it not for granted

i'm losing grip
you're slipping
through my fingertips
but you're all i have
irreplaceable

looking into your eyes
is magical
you feel like home

i haven't written in so long
i have had so much going on, things have been tough
lots of time spent alone and in silence
i didn't feel like spilling out my emotions i guess
but i'm back now & look forward to sharing my words with this community again
<3

she's so pretty
she's so gorgeous
look at how skinny she is
oh my god can i be her
no fair how does she look that good
i don't look like that
why can't i look like that
i will skip my lunch to look like her
i will spew my food to look like her
i will exercise all ******* day just to look like her
****
i will **** myself because i don't look like her

listen up kid
don't you take your life for granted
you won't be this young forever
with a carefree state of mind
do what it is you love
and be grateful

hey
it's me
let's kiss
like real people do

lay with me
forget the world for a minute
look at me
into my eyes
find comfort there

i wanna end up nowhere on a map
a little cabin sittin’ so far back
out in the country
just the moon and stars
are gonna know where we are

there's something in the air
something that wasn't there before
something damp
cold
unwelcoming
it follows me
wherever i go
i wish it would just leave

let's go to the markets
thrifting
star gazing
road tripping
wandering through forests
staying in motels
music festivals
travel to new towns
i long for those things
with you

just don't stop
a little goes a long way
trust me
i know it's hard
just do a little bit more everyday
and soon everything will fall into place

it's the little things
waking up extra early to watch the sunrise
staying up late to talk to the stars
road tripping and discovering new towns
talking for hours and hours with those you love most
appreciate these moments

i am the lonely one
not entirely alone
just lonely