Chilling thoughts**
No one sees themselves
outside of themselves
like they ought

to see myself as more than me
I self taught,
myself to see someone else
as more than my thoughts.

It's funny,
when you let go of everything
you start to see.
How expectations of what you should have
aren't what you really need.
and furthermore, everything is already perfect.
do you know what that means?
Everything was worth it,
So why wish you could change anything?

how does one find
a solution to
discord*
between:*
body
soul
heart
ego
and
mind?

I've been racking my brain.
scared of falling asleep
while driving,
Sleep for five hours
wake up.
Do it all again.

And it's the never the same.
There are vast differences,
new lessons,
new joys and sorrow,
and tests that came

to pass
Now I'm done with that.
Taking what I need
I proceed with
just facts.

Because interpretations
can be misleading,
like you seeing
the negative
all the time.

What's the difference
between your
perspective and mine?

I see that life
does not just happen,
but is created by those
who dared dream up
a design.

ART*
is in
the eye
of the beholder.

Such as, youth
as one grows older

Warmth,
as love grows colder

And strength,
to go on
once it is over.

I wonder,
if you're even
aware of
what you did?

Cause I wasn't,
until I saw it
for what it is.

Acceptance is best.
let go of the rest.
because more is less,
don't ignore
your quest
lest you become
*moral less

In the face of one's dreams
there are many deterrents.
The river will rush and ravage,
just go with the current.
Just toss yourself in,
don't open your
eyes. The safety
you need
is found
in the
mind.

Ebola.
We will die,
so what's the point?
Terrorism.
We can't control it,
so what's the point?
You're white.
I'm still rolling,
so what's your point?
He's black.
No factors depend on that,
so what's your point?

The point is life is a delicate process
it never stops existing,
there's some kind of progress
it cycles through birth and death
all the time. There is no sense
to fear, stress, or worry.
No sense of any kind.

They thought I was cruel
they thought I was bad.
They just hadn't been through,
everything that I had.
So I am asking you,
before you assume,
do you really know that?

Please observe these photos first.*
theawesomedaily.com/31-images-that-show-the-true-face-of-the-world

I just gave a speech this morning,
about how the ordinary best friend
I have named Sam.

Guided me to my light
Reminded me who I am.
Enlightenment is the term I use,
Hoping to not sound like a sham.
I just knew it when I knew it.
The experience was
everything
I am.

And I look at these photos from the link above,
feeling compassion,
sadness,
and burning love.

My dreams are not to be graded
or judged,
or have others love me
because of what my words
touched.

My dream is to do everything little thing
In my power to make your soul sing.
To make you open up your eyes,
if life, for you, is just a guise
you have yet to realize.
We too were hypnotized
by societal lies.

But from the ashes the phoenix doth rise,
freed from the cycle of rebirth,
he takes to the skies.

Depths of self death
Never loved self
unless,
self loved someone else first
now self be depressed.

There's no good
no bad.
just whatever may be.
You can scoff at that,
or laugh
at me.

But I know,
you want to know
why thought
is key.
Because emotions
are a reality
you cannot
see.

I agree wholeheartedly
be who you wanna be.
But is that who
I outta be?

Is there a prophecy?
Will anybody
be proud of me?

Cause I can't rely on self.
If I'm looking to feel
satisfied, I am
of no help.

Always hungry.
If ambition is my bread,
then what is the
lunch meat?

There are so many beautiful beings
Out there right now,
I see you all just being
So fascinating and passionate now
And maybe I couldn't see it
Cause I was clouded in darkness
But once I started to be it
I forgot about feeling heartless.

Fear knows no home
Inside this vessel.
I struggle to not run,
In any of life's levels.
I am no longer scared of the one,
but of everyone else.
Somebody tell me how to help the world,
when the ones who have hurt me
are the same ones who need my help.

Yeah, I may be different.
Maybe I'm out my mind.
But I know you're listenin,
you're all so kind. You see
the light. I know you're
behind, the good I have in
my mind. You help me feel
like me, all of the time.

I struggle to not unravel,
but this path I have walked has led me
through some troubling travels.
So I click "Add A Poem",
as I have done for years.
I pen down cleverly worded
accounts of my fears.
But as I walk this earth still,
I ponder.
How long I can avoid this
encroaching sonder.
For all of those orbiting my path.
I just want their sweet ignorance
of these evils to last.
For the greater good,
For happiness,
For love.
For the fact that if I save the world,
this is not what I want them
thinking of.
I will end the suspense here
For time has run out
On the clock telling me to face my fears,
Now I have no doubt.
I can tell you all:
I was *****.
And he got away.
And I have buried it deep
Until just today.
I noticed myself stuck in this pattern.
Of things that I thought didn't matter.
But I noticed how I had become him.
Creating the chances to do over
and over
and over again.
Things that weren't right
to myself within,
For me I call these actions, sin.
To explain in detail I wouldn't even know where to begin.
I compromised myself
to give others what I thought they wanted.
I became trapped inside my own devil
an angel haunted.
I have let myself and others take away
parts of me I will get back today.
I am sorry to myself,
and those around,
I am sorry because I hid all of this
feeling as though I let all of the universe down.

We are all just living a dream.
limbo. limbo. limbo.
This is just the in between.
circus. circus. circus.
All is not what it seems.
heaven. heaven. heaven.
We are all celestial beings.
Try as you might
We will never be free.
life. life. life.
a spiraling dream.