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Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
“You just need to know this is the first time I’ve ever done this without looking for an exit row.
And I’m pretty sure my seat can’t float but I’ve already fallen from the sky for you,
Already said no to the parachute,
Already told my mother you curse like a sailor and you love like the war is finally over and you have just come home and you are running down the dock in the harbor and you’re screaming my name.
You’re screaming “honey”
and I’m screaming “don’t trip”
and you’re screaming “honey honey”
and I’m screaming “baby don’t fall down”
I am running for your red lips
I am running for your red heart
With my red heart
Red as a Mississippi sunset
Honey”
I'd like to remember this forever.
Jennifer Weiss Sep 2014
Just because I write about you,
and sing about you,
doesn't mean I think about you too.

I'm just doing everything I gotta do,
Everything that let's me let go of you.
Everything is turning,
Oceans heated and churning.
Baby, what was I to do?

I loved so hard and long,
everything started turning blue.
and I hate it, man. Stayed faded, man.
Cause I started falling in love with blue, too.

I was crazy, that deep deep kind.
Weak and hazy, lost all of my mind.
Swear I didn't know what went down,
Or some days why we kept one another around.
I just wanted you to know, about the realness I found.
So different now.
So clear and out loud.
But the real me still hates,
how much I let us both down.
A sign.
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
Oh, I forgive...
who we once were,
who I was to you,
and for the heartbreak I made you give.

Oh, I have forgiven.
The sins of the past.
I promise I'm no longer living,
Jesus, a life like that.

Oh, I will forgive.
Again, everything that comes to past.
And I promise should  I meet you in the future,
only love will last.
Jennifer Weiss Aug 2014
Soul mates
Marriage
I'm still on the fence.

But I never lied once when it comes to love, in my defense.
I never said forever if forever wasn't meant.

And I suppose it's impossible to use something for all your life and not expect any dents.

I guess this is my best and worst subject, everything for which my life was meant.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2014
I don't care if I lose you.
I don't care if you're not reading this.
I don't care if I confuse you,
because there are bigger reasons I exist.

You might not understand me.
Or even want to try.
You are not the One who planned me,
So don't feel slighted that I won't cry.

You may feel threatened,
or admire me so much.
That you use your affections as a weapon,
because you desire greatly, my touch.

All of these things are just a condition of our existence.
The only way to overcome it is through genuine persistence.
I can only be better than who I was before.
If you cannot do that, then what are you here for?
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2014
Can you believe it?
They're evil,
them heathens
we have all elected.
////////
"It's okay,"
they told us
on the same channel as the news
that "beating, and burning, and water boarding
is just something we do!"
"Jack Bauer does it,
so our government must too!"
/////////////////////////////////////////
It's normal to torture,
It's something we've all just accepted.
What our world has come to.
Accountability has been neglected.
////////////////////////////////////////////
We gain nothing from it,
but everybody loves it!
Media.
Lie to me some more.
Give me what I want.
Truth?
....I never heard of that before...
////////////////////////////////////////////
"Who will guard the guards?"
I seen it on Charlie Rose!
Does he look like some conspiracy guy?
Isn't there more than even he showed?
/////////////////////////////////////////////
The world has come alive,
there is information that we know.
The internet will set us free,
let it bring truth to our souls

///////////////////////////////////////
I hope you seek the light
and always ask questions.

////////////////////////////
Remember that your soul guides
you
like a moral compass
in the right direction
/////////////////
Don't forget your North.
Don't forget your lessons.
/////////
You're a warrior in this world.
*God's greatest blessing.
http://www.truthdig.com/avbooth/item/russell_brand_need_to_know_people_are_being_pointlessly_tortured_20141211
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2014
I need to know
all the time
where you are,
what's on your mind.

Is it healthy?
Should I find
I can't have you all the time
Would I be able to continue
on with my climb?
With the notion
there's a potion
brewing and I'm
going to be doing
only motions
with you in mind?
Motions knocking me supine.
Laid to rest
without your divine
caress
I fear I could care less
about a life so unkind,
for what would I be
left with
lest you
leave me behind.
Don't go
Gotta know
please don't run away
I'm a murderer
what does that change?
Jennifer Weiss May 2015
have courage, be sincere, obey, get back up.
This is the rhythm of life-
if you forget the last step...
you can always begin again with the first.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
2:22*
giving you absence,
in hopes to not give you
blue.
because I know this world,
what else can we do?
Then Louis comes on at 2:22
Singing of a world so wonderful
and true,
reminding me how wonderful
it is to *just be
by you.
But I will not give in,
to temptations that brew
I will love you until then
and I know
you will *love me too.
wonderful world.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2014
Even when my wonderful
universe seems like
a cosmic mess,

Even when
all these souls
leave us in the
form of death,

Even though I'm
underfed, underslept
and can't catch my breath,

I emit love
**and so who cares about all the rest?
change yourself.
change yo
life.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2014
All these things we've done before
All these things we have once seen.
There's a life inside locked doors,
Once opened reveals a dream.
I've heard you sing these chords
You're exactly what you seem.
The pride of my soul,
A twin beam.
Light we can't control
Shines upon everything.
The world will knows our names
But you and I live an Earthly dream.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
Aladdin and Jasmine
aren't the only ones
to experience a whole new world,
I have begun.

And it's so refreshing,
this time I won't come undone
Somewhat of a blessing
and tremendous fun.

You're a breeze to the soul,
when it's had a harsh summer.
Cooling the affects of my heart's tolls,
like my favorite November.

I hope you're someone I'm glad to remember,
Regardless I'm sure you'll join the club of my heart
as an exclusive member.
All I can do is sigh :)
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2012
There's so much I want to say
Though finding the right words can be so troublesome
A "but" at the wrong time could tear you apart.
An "um" can make me seem unintelligent.
And too many "I"'s may cause us to lose a connection.
The point could be lost at the misplacing of a comma.
And a crummy adjective can throw off our mood.
Though, if you manage to look past my unpunctuated lines
Or my sloppy placing of a rhyme
Or the misspelled words
Or repeating of a theme
You might happen upon something real
A heart conveniently on display
There may be no rhythm
Or Shakespearean resemblance
But each letter is history
And phrase is a lesson
Even if you don't understand
Maybe someone else will
And my version of therapy could be theirs
But God-willing I touch your heart
And be the change I'd like to see
And my words could hug your soul
And hush your inner crying child
Because we aren't alone
I just want my words to sit with you for awhile
I just want the page to be your shoulder
The situation you can put yourself into
And not feel selfish for seeing it as you
The friend you don't have to pretend to hear
Just to get to talk about your day
Let this one time be for you
Let your feelings show
Its the words and you now
Let it take you where you'd like to go
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
Through God everything is possible.
Like seeing all the mistakes
that made you who you used to be.
But the greater truth-
is God will mold you into
who He calls you to be.
So never give up your faith,
never take a day off.
God is with you always,
what right do you have to
step away from Him
for even a second?
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2017
Have I strayed?
Didn't I notice you were there.
Didn't I hear you call my name?
Are you there?

I have forgotten about your fame...
your love for me that endures forever.
My only request be made,
Jesus, please stay the same forever.

Even these words become about something else.
But it's just you.
Jesus.
It's only ever been you.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
What more can I say?
You fell in love with
what you thought was her,
but all you saw were
words on a page.
Jennifer Weiss Aug 2014
I have already failed,
When I wish you were the victim instead of them.

I have already failed,
When I wanna hurt anything living inside the same kind of skin.

I have already failed,
If I feel anything other than love.

I have already failed,
But I'm not giving up.
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
I heard you had asked about me,
been asking these friends of mine.
And at first- now don't doubt me,
but the thought had crossed my mind.
This means nothing to me,
and if you cared you'd call!
A thought so untrue and gloomy,
for it is special that you'd care at all!
It is love, that gesture of asking.
And I know this because God sent me a sign.
One wing in the sky, one wing on the ground-
And this was not the only time.
For an attitude of an ungracious heart I once bore,
Making all the riches of your love seem poor.
Dismissing anything that didn't fulfill my fantasies,
I never gave your love a real chance, you see.
Because I needed the love of a Father.
Now I have his, but your love not.
And even this is fine my dear,
for a God's love I have got.
Pay attention to the signs.
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2014
What do they give you at the finish line,
If the race keeps going?
Still killing to get mine,
But the benefits stopped showing.
Use my ears as an escape to disregard what they call fate,
Read the articles online, now a real life I recreate.
Still feels lacking though,
Motions I move through to move on, seems there's nowhere to go

Until I trade my mechanisms,
Fall under the spell of danger but lonely still- that's pessimism.
She feels embarrassed for me,
Everything she breathes in is an attempt to feel free
With lies like those, who needs to participate in riskier behavior?
Walking the equator look to her creator, beg Him to forgive and let her explain later
Invincible kids we refuse to not last,
Grades begin to slip, but life won't let you see it after class.

If we are the same you don't have to fear my past,
Think softly, my peer
Wandering is only peaceful whilst here.
Patience, I have learned
Respect need not be earned.
We owe the other nothing,
But everything we want means giving all your loving.
Trusting myself as well as you,
Summations of things we endured, love rings true.
3.
Jennifer Weiss May 2017

The Lord speaks.
And we sometimes listen.
And He's full of mercy, grace, and wisdom.
And I'm just begging for everything He already is.
I'm restless, gasping for fresh winds.

And he is full of mercy, grace, and wisdom.
And  more love than I know what to do with.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
Notecards strewn across the table
Like postcards of why I'm unable
To study Biology.
Okay...it's because you're unavailable
No need for psychology
I'm clearly enamored
And you noticed so quickly
How your stare made my heart hammer
If you are anything but what you are
My expectations dampered
I see a brightly shining star
Able to handle
Everything we are
I think no other holds a candle
Jennifer Weiss Sep 2014
One day, I will march on the lawn in Washington.
I will say my peace and progress on.
I will tell a million stories
that faded with history.
I will tell FACTS and cold, calculated truth.
I will inform the old and the youth.
I will bring peace to the world's people.
And you.
You may decide if you are with us,
**or with evil.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2014
There are problems
sometimes
no one else can see

Like a chill of the air
creeping inside me.


Like when I
try to
add
too much of you
and
subtract
too much of me

OR
how happiness making
me cry,
fills my swelling heart
with worry

I know that I might die,
but you are heaven
in the now

falling
all
over
me

& it's gentle,
& gives me butterflies
like a snowflake flurry

Needing you all the time
though I try to not hurry
Your gentile heart binds
the best of this world
with the worst
using a magic that is
**otherworldly
love...again.
surprise, surprise.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2014
When you come from nothing
and you manage to float along
without encouragement or loving,
just basic sad songs.

You grow into something troubling,
and it doesn't take long
before you're only shrugging
when someone who used to be a friend
asks you what's wrong.

I'm only saying this because I was that something
after living without love for so long,
I was broken and struggling
and there was no proper way to get on.

Because this world owes you nothing,
not even a dad and a mom
I accepted that and gave up trusting
Maybe that's where I went wrong?
yup.
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2014
Born with this whisper, reminiscent of young Marilyn, Audrey, and Jackie, she says we must be the most beautiful creature to capture your attention.
She says to fear one another, for your sister may jeopardize your happiness.

She says winged eyeliner in a necessity.
She says pink is the new black.
No, purple.
No, it's black again.

She says you must care more for these things than books.
The key to prosperity for us is all in our looks.
She says to dream, but not so large that you scare away future prospects.
She says to marry a fortune, and covet thy last name.
She says vanity is the game.

But what if you learned she was really a he. That insecurity is a tool he uses against you. Women of history endured, so we could be more than what they have convinced us we are:
Baby makers.
Maids.
Strippers.
Victims.

Yet, as you walk up to the checkout, in whatever corrupt corporation's super market you shop, you still reach for the picture book that preaches submission to men. You still subscribe to "89 ways to change who you are in order to get a man". You still put toxins on your skin in hopes to become more attractive. You still judge each other without knowing the other's story.

But you haven't yet thought, " What if I was raised to believe being **** is being smart?"



The voice telling you "You can't" is your own.
The voice telling you "You never will" is oppression.
Isn't it about time we started teaching the infinite beauty of a woman's mind?
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
The separations between
time & space
grow a little bigger,
the further I am
from your
face.

Relativity,
lost
with no trace.

everything you do
drips with grace


love bearing no exclusivity
it cannot be
misplaced
Souls intertwined
leaving
little
space
for things
I once called
mine
caught in your arms
there is no race.

Remind me again
where we are...

What is time?
What is space?
I forget life.
Jennifer Weiss May 2015
There are opportunities a plenty,
as much as the fallen leaves on the ground.
If you breathe deeply and listen,
you can hear God's sound.
I am making it my mission,
to tell you all right now-
Spreading the gospel is more fruitful than fishing,
because even a line cast can be a letdown.
So share the word of Jesus.
Wear it strung round your forehead like a crown.
Write a tweet, send a text, sing a song long and proud.
God gave you everything and then some,
So what will you give right now?
rewrite.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2011
Violins swell as though it will determine our fate
I imagine your face, harsh and striking fear in my heart
A passionate kiss ignites the moment, my eyes begging you not to depart

Symphonies roar between us
Each note carrying your love further away
Singers belt lyrics to and fro
Please do not go

Its a dance that leads us around the apartment
Room to room, corner to corner
Are you listening yet?
My orchestra has advanced the tempo once again
Though yours seem certain on Grave
Our tempos never matched!
Is this where the mistake was made?

I sway around, sweeping the room with my emotions
You stay in one spot, drowning it with empathy
What should I do? Fling myself from the counter
Is there nothing I may do? The choir sings do you doubt her?

Just go! I fling myself to the floor
You leap like a prince to my rescue you come
Holding my limp frame in your arms
Oh what have you done!

How is the movie you ask?
Not better than the one in my head
Oh never you mind, I'll say
Beethoven is dead
Jennifer Weiss Sep 2014
Please observe these photos first.*
theawesomedaily.com/31-images-that-show-the-true-face-of-the-world

I just gave a speech this morning,
about how the ordinary best friend
I have named Sam.

Guided me to my light
Reminded me who I am.
Enlightenment is the term I use,
Hoping to not sound like a sham.
I just knew it when I knew it.
The experience was
everything
I am.

And I look at these photos from the link above,
feeling compassion,
sadness,
and burning love.

My dreams are not to be graded
or judged,
or have others love me
because of what my words
touched.

My dream is to do everything little thing
In my power to make your soul sing.
To make you open up your eyes,
if life, for you, is just a guise
you have yet to realize.
We too were hypnotized
by societal lies.

But from the ashes the phoenix doth rise,
freed from the cycle of rebirth,
he takes to the skies.
thank you for reading.
Jennifer Weiss Jul 2017
If the beginning of love is a smile,
I should do it more often.
I have been trying to love.
Love so freely
Those I do not love.
To smile upon the face of cruelty.
So sweetly.
To be free.
I think I will smile.
For a while.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
ART*
is in
the eye
of the beholder.

Such as, youth
as one grows older

Warmth,
as love grows colder

And strength,
to go on
once it is over.
Just have to look.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2015
Continuous awe
Oh the sound of your name.
Oh, how you love me
though I were not without blame.

How perfect your love,
your mercy and your grace.
'Twould seem I am unworthy
to behold such a lovely face.

Yet, still you seem to love me.
In all my imperfectness
in all my blame,
your heart truly wrecks me.

And for the better, I shall never
*be the same
How great is our God? I will continue to sing they praises day and night
Jennifer Weiss Sep 2014
I hope wherever you are
You're falling for a new star.
I hope she gives and holds you near,
And never keeps her love too far
Out of reach.
I hope she knows how to teach
you to love again.
She needs to be a fighter
to fix what I broke and couldn't win.


And I know that I changed
your already beautiful heart.
But I hope you get a new love story,
Of which sadness has no part.
I really, really hope you're as happy as me.
You always said this was for us,
thought you were lying, but I just didn't want to believe.
I always lacked that trust
because I couldn't see.
Everything I had then in front of me,
Hopefully finds its way back to you
And sets your heart free.
I couldn't fix what I did.
Nothing but love. I'm sorry.
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2014
Have you ever really heard?
You know the word
You know the birds,
But is it what you really heard?

Were you taught to observe?
Would you pause if you had the sense, when they tell you keep going around the curve?
Like treasure hunts and hide and seek they convinced us to grow old and not return
Like poets, scientists, revolutionaries, MLK they taught us to question what we learned is to burn.
I just thought you should know.
We all have to figure out where we need to go.
Jennifer Weiss Sep 2014
I do not understand how we can be unaware.
I read it in this Biology text book,
on page one, it is right there

We're all just molecules and atoms,
How dare anyone think they matter,
More than the next collection of matter.
Just because they managed to gather,
all that wealth.
Jennifer Weiss Aug 2014
This is not yin and yang,
not a balancing of things.

These are human beings trying to survive.
That kid that was shot, never saw it coming until it was too late.
But what could he have done anyways?
Who's responsibility is it to stop the hate?

Yours. Mine. Everyone's.
Please learn to love each other before someone important to you dies because the wrong person is in control of the gun.
if it's wrong, we have to fight.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2014
There's happy moments and wonderful cheers!
Drink is plenty and love in the air
Until one carries himself somewhat unfair
Now they turned away and closed their ears.
It's so hard to understand
A modern man's fears
Nothing goes according to plan
And your wasted years
Seem to outweigh the meaning
Of those well spent
You lie awake feeding
On stifled tears.
Because no one likes the truth
But they'll covet their youth
Turn away from proof
As the love and cheers-
*****
To those other misfits.
Nothing like a family to ruin a family.
Jennifer Weiss Mar 2016
Oh, 'twas the fierce love I once detested.
Crying out "why" from my corner of land.
It was the capacity to perform I once loved,
keeping me from my promised land.
There's a settling in on the horizon,
a shifting of views.
What I once saw as curse,
I now see as brand new.
A blessing from the Heaven
of the Lord our God.
For what I thought I needed,
He gave not.
truthfully, I will love every part of me.
Jennifer Weiss Jul 2018
Let's be careful.
Not to wade in our emotions
Not to swim through the past.
Let's be careful.
To **** the memories of moments
That don't need to last.

Let's be careful
To lean into what is brand new.
To focus on our hearing.
To protect our new found view.

Let's be careful.
Love has to be cultivated.
Let's be careful
To love what we once hated.
Jennifer Weiss May 2015
For after I am dead,
and my soul from this Earth has gone,
I hope this one sentence
describes my life,
"She walked with God."
what an awesome life that will be.
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2015
It's impossible to know if I did the right thing,
but it is possible to be okay knowing I did something.
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
I've been given my orders,
but they don't add up.
I want to blame everybody,
and that force called "bad luck".
I've got nothing left to hold onto,
except for the love...
That should be enough...I'll be fine too!
As long as you stop calling my bluff.

I'm just doing what I ought to.
But it is more than just "rough".
My God, what do I do about the thought of you?
I have just about had enough.
Is this something you have even thought through?
I guess we'll find out soon enough.
But if you become someone I never again get to talk to,
I pray that God calls upon your bluff.
My soul really aches with these missing pieces.
Jennifer Weiss Jan 2015
Though the rain clouds
my windows
and fire rages
within my
core.

I still adore.

Though trespasses have been committed
and I've often said, "Forget it!".

I still desire more.

Though breath be scarce
and nights are long,
I reinforce
this is where I belong.

I pray to the Lord
whom watches from above.
And I believe in the good I come from.
Jennifer Weiss May 2015
I like to sew little seeds of
love and faith, where I go.

I like to demonstrate how to believe,
so one day I may hear word that their hearts know.

The goodness, the love, the blessings
WILL BE!
If only you let go...

God is waiting, and ready to receive!
Those who were once stained,
he sees clean and pure like snow.
Jennifer Weiss Jun 2014
I am what I have always been.
I am just clearer now.

I am still the adjective you love to say,
Just better defined somehow.

Knowing everything will complete you and destroy you all at once,
You are not crazy
You are not alone
You are not delusioned
You are not ego
You are not person
You are not son

you
are
the
results
of
illusions
**undone
Above this plane.
Jennifer Weiss Oct 2014
There's a feeling
I sometimes get...
I am not entirely
sure I can describe
it yet.
It aches in ways
I do not recognize,
there's a shine of terror
behind my eyes.
I look at this mirror
held up to
my disguise.
It rips away all my
neat
&
pretty
little lies.

It sounds awful.
I know fully,
and not at all
this is the
experience of
  being alive.
But I'm wiser,
and better
and me
So... I keep asking
the sky why...
I am still human.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2014
I am a dying breed*
sent forth to make you believe
I see in all things
The power to transform to higher beings.
Jennifer Weiss Apr 2015
There are still these
small  painful moments,
that take me over in
very large ways.

And it's from missing you so deeply,
that nothing else can seem to matter...okay?

It isn't pretty, or nice to feel it,
or even admit it here and now.
But I talk to God and ask Him to heal it,
and He manages to defeat that feeling somehow.
So I sit and send you what He gives me,
hoping you feel it wherever you are.
Hoping a breeze brings Joy across your shoulders,
and spreads to warm your aching heart.

And maybe this pain disappears as we grow older.
Or maybe there really is a hole left inside me...
shaped like you.

I just hope that if someone
has to keep this awful feeling,
it will be me, instead of you.
Jennifer Weiss May 2015
All you have to do is love.
Dive into ridiculous
consuming...
devouring love
with the Creator.
Like the waters of the oceans,
raging as far as the eye can see.
And watch your world
change...
**forever
Jennifer Weiss Aug 2015
There's a truth I learned recently
that has come and set me free.
I am always connected to you
through Jesus Christ
who lives in *me.
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