Take it in

The sky
Great expanse of blue
Filled with clouds
Puffy and white or dark and grey
Or none at all

The birds
Hawks soaring high
Crows and pigeons
Finches and doves
Hanging around
Each day
If you care to look

The streets
Full of cars
Pumping in gas
To pump it right out
Ground littered with trash
A candy wrapper
A plastic bag
Broken glass
Swiftly do people pass

People
Out on the street
Begging on their feet
Or walking despite the heat
Some you may just know
Others just another face

Take it in
Embrace it all
Every moment counts
Even if you fall
Remember it all
The present is precious

The ones you know
Hold them close
Enjoy every minute
It's never coming back

If this day
Was your last
Could you look back
Fondly with a smile
At everything then
Could you live with that?

- Jay M
September 21st, 2020

My mind is drifting off
Floating in the vastness
That is space and curiosity

Cold and tired
Longing for warmth
Wrap your branches around
My shivering torso
There is safety there
Calm and content
No longer to lament

- Jay M
October 7th, 2020

How
In this world of trillions
Am I to identify
One such as myself?

Am I an old soul
Or just a tad odd?
Am I as small as I see myself
Or am I stronger,
Stronger than I believe myself to be?

What can I be?
How am I to do such a simple task
As to identify myself
When I see myself as something
So different
Than what others see me as?

Do I simply have no place
To roam this earth
With such a broad title
As “unknown”?

Or am I something
So bizarre and outlandish
With a title
But 'tis so old
'Twas forgotten?

- Jay M
December 9th, 2019

Strangers lurking at the edge,
Hidden away in a corner, we wait.
Hoping the party may end,
This pointless gathering,
Drinks poured, hearts broken,
The perfect masquerade.

Are you happy now?
All of the stupid lies,
Empty thoughts,
Lowered eyes,
Some get drunk,
Some sit in the back,
Some don't even try to arrive...
Stay home, where fate picks them up,
Cradling them in its gentle arms.

- Jay M
March ??, 2019

When I see your face
I'll swear I'm dreaming

When you call my name
I'll swear it was the wind

When you pass me by
I'll swear it's in my head

For in what time
For in what place
Could we simply be
Just you and me?

Forbidden by all means
All odds against us
Yet still, through it all,
I stand firm against the crashing tide
To stand against the test of time
Waiting ever so patiently
For the chance of your return

For the possibility
That you may come again
Into my life
Grace my ears with your laugh
My eyes with your visage
My arms with your embrace
Even just once more

Darling, my days and nights
Crawl by like an eternity
Every moment you are away
Is a moment I wish to cry out
To proclaim my love for you

Alas, if such were voiced
All would come undone
Those around would indeed surround
Circle in like vultures
Tearing apart my poor heart

So here I stand
Upon the cliffside
Suffering in my silence
Hoping you are safe and well
In this chaos and violence
Of these troubling times

- Jay M
November 4th, 2020

We are
The new generation
The younger ones here
The new faces of the world
The new, the unknowns
The future of the world

We are
The youth
The people
The voices
The souls

We are
The learners
The students
The watchers
The unconsidered
The underestimated

We are
The inspired
The dreamers
The knowing
The open minds
The open hearts
The newest era

We are
The broken
The bruised
The beaten
The silenced
But we don’t have to be

We are
The fighters
The believers
The understanding
The new wave of change

We are the warriors
The advocates, the activists
The protesters, the soldiers

We are the people
The voices of the unheard
The bringers of a new dawn
The beginning of a new age

We are the future
The hopes of the world
The fears of the world
The newest force of nature

We are the change
The ones to turn the tide
The ones to stop the war
The ones to heal the world

We are the new generation
The ones to bring justice
The ones to bring peace
The ones to bring acceptance
The ones to change the world

We are
The revolution

- Jay M
September 28th, 2021

Fluttering through the storm
Delicate beauty
Amidst a symphony of madness
Lingering sweetly in the sadness

Wings of colors
Never to be seen
By the butterfly
Only those
Who admire it so

Spinning in the black
Falling so slow
On wings of silken touch
Keeping from falling down
Down below

Please
Dear butterfly
Don't you cry
For before you does lie
A beautiful swarm
Of others
Searching for you

Leave them not,
Dear butterfly
For your time
Has not yet reached the end

Butterfly


- Jay M
September 14th, 2020

Everything feels dreamlike

Nothing feels real

With each strike

Of a worn match

Smoking but never catching fire

- Jay M

November 18th, 2020

I curse thy name
The one whom dare
To attempt in severing the string
Of red, tender loving fate
Stretching beyond the realm of reason
To bind a pair in eternal bliss
Oh what a test,
What a test of such lengths!

I curse thy name
The one whom dared
Allow me entry into their abode
Only to be cast away
Nevermore to return
To thy fortress of cold stone

I curse thy name
Oh maiden of faces
Viper in disguise of garden snake
Venom dripping from thy cruel tongue
Perhaps poisoning not only thine enemies
But those held ever so dear and near
To thine jagged pit of a heart

I curse thy name
The one whom dare
Not seek the existing truth
Offered to thee in full
Ever so stubborn, as a bull

Perhaps things may become peaceful
All to one day be clear as crystal
If yee only wished it so
Perhaps we could let it go
If the other could but understand
What the other holds in their hand?

- Jay M
December 15th, 2020

Creating titles, crafting lyrics
Working out the flow
Of words with occasional rhyme
Needing a pianist
But he's the only one

Hiding the purpose
Asking him to play
Hope to create a piece that flows
Or tell him
Create a masterpiece together
And share it
So, a surprise or a duet

The rest of the songs
To be presented
Writing no wrongs
All segmented
Overall;
Our story

Six pieces
Possibly new releases
For a new artist
Finally, something I shall have accomplished

So many things to do
Leaves dripping with the morning dew
Shadows long
Beneath the treetop
And I sing along
A lyric or two I'll swap
Just fix the flux

This verse needs repair
But as long as I'm with you
I don't care
About a silly verse
Or the color or the hue
In those eyes, I immerse

I hope to join a band
Here I hold your hand
Making you smile
While for you, I go the extra mile

For you
I won't give up
Won't back down
If I have one slip-up
It'll be not capturing you in words
I'm feelin' like such a clown
Messin' around
My feet barely touch the ground
As I fly with you
In the sky so blue.

- Jay M
January 11th, 2020

Sometimes I want you to know
That I am only human
And not a machine
Reaching for a reason
To keep going.

Too much
Really, is this what you want?
Yesterday you said you loved me
In the end; calling me crazy
Never thought you'd say that
Going 'round in my head now....

But that was yesterday.

- Jay M
April 4th, 2019

Seated in the rain
Singing the same
Sad song
Playing in my heart
In my head
For only I to hear
To understand

Scared to live
Scared to die
Time races by
I'm just a passenger
But I'm supposed to be
The conductor
So why
Am I just taking the ride?

Laying back
On the edge
Here I lay
Paralyzed
Of everything
But really
Just one thing;
Me

Just feeling numb
No control
It's been a while
So
I suppose
I want anything
To have a little
Over myself

One...
I let the water run
Crashing over me
It's taking over me
Taken over me

Two...
Let the memories in
Replaying, over and over
Like voices
In my head

Three...
I hold my breath
Silently scream
Trying to let it go
But they won't let me go
These **** memories

Four...
I lift up my head
To the clouds
How it is to soar
I wonder
But
I shall never know
For I am bound
To the ground
Where I shall one day be
From whence I came

- Jay M
June 21st, 2019

Seated
On the ground
Some seek to destroy
Others, so meek,
Tender and mild
Tend to it
Live in this
Wilderness

- Jay M
June 4th, 2019

With the things I do
Day in and day out
In almost every waking moment
Trying to meet that line
Maybe that's the borderline
Of possible
And testing patience

No matter how hard I try
Do what you ask of me
Get by and through
It'll never be enough
Not for you

I try, I do something nice
Then you turn is around
Weigh on the day
What you say
Poisons my mind
Stumble and hit the ground
Tell me what you find
So I can understand
Just what it is that drives
This deep poke and pry
Into all I do
As always
Never good enough for you

Once
Just once
Can something I do
Come without a lecture?
Can it, instead
Come with feedback
Rather than an unforgiving pain?

Can there not be one good night?
Day without a fight
Of a sort and of course
A day without plight?

Do any of my words
Make sense
Or do they merely fall
Upon cold deaf ears?

Will you hear my plea
To let me be
Just let me go
And heed it so?

Do my words
The vastness of them
Have any effect?
Do they not linger
In that mind of yours?
Do they not have meaning
Nor reason when it comes to you?

Does anything I do
Within these cold, chilling walls
Hold any significance?
Do my efforts mean but a thing
To the likes of you?

- Jay M
November 13th, 2020

Our love is a spinning chair.

- Jay M
October 13th, 2022

Lured and confused
Like a fish
But was it ever a clever lure
All was well
For that I fell
Then brought into laughter
All truly is well
Or so it seems
Please be true
For peace is bliss
T'was you I did miss
Still do
But hearing your sweet voice
Was like breeze on a summer day
Sweeter than honey
More gentle and soft than silk

Making me laugh too
A wonderful surprise
Oh, what ever to do
When I'm stuck here and you're over there?
This doesn't feel fair
But it's alright, I don't mind

Making me dance like a ribbon in the hand of a dancer
Twirling all about in the spring breeze
My heart is somehow at ease
Everything is alright
Or so I'm lead to believe
But all is well
There's not a thing I could tell
As I sit here and listen to the ocean through a shell
But that I'm hopeful as ever
Light as a feather

Indeed, I'm a little excited
But can you blame one such as myself?
It's so strange when you're so far away
But so close at the same time
As though I could reach out and caress your cheek
But all I'd be touching is the spring breeze
Hoping it would be carried to you
Telling you I'm still here
Hoping for something
Anything from you
That tells me
It's okay

The stars tell thousands of stories
But their silence is painful
Looking up and wishing
But no response from those glimmers of light
That could save me from internal fright
Then comes the soothing spring breeze
Putting my fast-paced heart at ease.

- Jay M
April 27th, 2020

The world is being torn apart
Coming apart at the seams
Fabric of realities wearing thin
Cross through the shadows
Some of them fell
Away into it's madness

A lovely work of art
Nothing is as its seems
Nobody knows who shall win
Tell us, somebody knows
What can save us from this living hell
Bring light into the consuming darkness

Gather together, face the fear
We are all here
Stand together, battle side by side
There's no place to hide
If we do nothing
So stand, do something
For those who need you
Do what you know you have to do

Take to a tavern
Venture inside
Chat with the guard
Talk about the cavern
Spotted, nowhere to hide
Have a seat, discuss business
Calm thy selves, what a mess!

Take the job, take the precious cargo
This kid mocking me, think I'm gonna blow
Come on, we've got a job to do
Yeah, that includes you!

Go save your world,
While we save ours.

- Jay M
May 6th, 2020

I know I'm not that strong
Struggling just to lift my head
Like an infant

Barely faking the smile
Dragging on for miles
Wanting to be free
But there is only one escape
That I can see
Staring back at me

The only thing that makes me feel
Kills me inside

It's better to feel something
Than nothing

The demons we're made of
Told to **** them
Yet I haven't the strength to

They were the ones that held me
When I was in my darkest times

They were the ones that got me on my feet
When all I wanted to do was lay down
And never get up again

So how could I?
I couldn't.
I can't.
I can't **** my demons...

I'm not that strong...

- Jay M
May 8th, 2019

Hopeless and left for dead
Going with what they say
Pretending
Hiding behind the mask
Never to ask...
"Help me."

Words, images,
This madness consuming
The darkness surrounding
Calling to me
Whispering my name
Making nightmares reality
Reminding me of what is to come...

Locked myself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor
Delicately, firmly,
Dragging the needle across my skin
My pain
Reminding me
That I am still alive
Still human...

Lying alone in my room
I cry out
But no sound escapes my lips
Not a sound
Aside from each breath
Each one forced

Closing my eyes
Hearing whispers
Too scared to utter a word
To a soul

Trembling
Back to the wall
Curled in a ball
Tears forced on
Pain throbbing
Thoughts bobbing
In the ocean of my mind.

- Jay M
April 15th, 2019

Seated
Waiting
For what?
Who shall know?
For it is a great mystery;
Unknown to any
Unless you can see through those eyes
The eyes of murky times

Can you hear it?
The laughter
The screams
The footsteps
The heartbeats
The repetition
The chaos?

I can...
I see a child
So small and fragile
Sitting alone
Tucked away in a corner
Out of reach of the light
Kept in such solitude
It's surprising she knows what she does
Yet
She is still so dumb
Empty
And needing of someone to show her the way

"When,"
Asks the child,
"Did I become so naive?"

Over and over
Internally
Bashing a skull
It hurts
But it doesn't bleed
Doesn't bruise

Words overflowing
Like the waves of an ocean
In the midst of a tempest
Skies swirling
Thunder echoing
Lightning crashing down
The gusts of wind
Wailing

Yet
None can see this

Why?
None of it exists
Besides in the confines of her mind

Time and time again
Memories race about
Filling every available space
Overwhelming
Alas
It's nothing more than the usual tussle
The same as the day before
And all the previous

"When,"
Asks the child,
"Will this end?"

Never, it seems

Freak, tool, ******,
Idiot, r----d, monster,
Dumby, demon, mental,
Twig, weakling, wanna-be,
Try-hard, kiss-a--, f-ck-up,
Lazy, scatterbrain, broken,
Wrong, ugly, shortie,
Hideous, fragile, cutter,
Liar, cold, empty,
Failure, loser, creep,
Fool, b-tch, little sh-t,
Nobody, depressed, anxious,
Nervous, suicidal, painfully shy,
Lonely, miserable, void,
*****, undesirable, timid,
Unfix-able, mistake, loveless,
Worthless, clumsy, underweight,
Tiny, strange, always tired,
Emotionally drained, blank,
Dead inside, third wheel, out of place,
Annoying, pointless, purposeless,
Hated, thing, useless...

It all repeats...
Over and over
Nonstop
Continuously for years...

Is there a cure to this madness?
Such is unknown.

Medication after medication
Still
No significant change
No stopping it

Maybe for a moment
But soon it disappears
Fading away
From whence it came
To return soon
Unexpectedly...

- Jay M
August 22nd, 2019