Sometimes I do wonder
if there's days you don’t feel pretty
or if there’s times you that you do ponder
“am I gorgeous, really?”
Believe me darling,
I don’t care what you think yourself to be
you’re beyond perfect to me
It’s easy to get lost in your dark eyes,
like I’m looking up at starry night skies.
There’s nobody with a smile as gorgeous as yours
and it’s a big one, this world of ours.
Always remember you are something amazing and grand -
I can feel it when I hold your hand.
And like a work of art,
You’ve charmed my heart.
This is where I want to stay,
So believe me when I say,
Not once in my life did I ever expect
To meet a girl like you,
You are perfect.

Resting in bed
peacefully I lay
awaiting the new day
as the last one is now dead
In the midst of silence and solitude
I hear them
like the banging of sheet metal
The hounds bark
and i do shiver as it startles my heart
because now
walking on my level
is no one other the devil
They howl and they cry
a growl so bloodcurdling
it keeps me up all night
And I hear the rumble
The one that calls to me
Like the blowing of a horn
Reviving the children stillborn
Calling to the shadows lying over me
and the demons inside us we can’t see
The hellhounds
they dance and they cry
I hide and I cower
In my small house
painted in white
I do hope the sound will stop
As I cannot sleep
If this is the sound of hell
I have no desire to meet red belle

Sometimes I do wonder
If you ever think of me
and just how much I loved you
and how you just left me to bleed.
Despite how much I’ve hurt,
even when I’m alone,
when I think of you,
my mind still feels at home.

There’s a pattern to the way you dance
The butterflies in my belly go loose,
And then I’m stuck in a trance
My heart is seduced
You’ve got a hypnotizing gaze,
It makes me wish that you could be
The girl who looks at me
for the rest of my days
You dance so graceful and serene,
for you are a masterpiece,
A girl from my dreams

With every day that passes us by,
You become lovelier to my eyes.
You are more beautiful than you were yesterday,
and like each and every day,
you will always take my breath away!
Your brilliance makes the sun seem small
because truthfully,
you are my sun,
you are my all.
I wish we shared the same bed,
so that we may wait for the sun to rise
and tell the beloved moon our goodbyes
And only that way,
I could wake up to you everyday,
only to remind you that you are the girl my heart is adoring,
and all before the sun’s first ray,
I could kiss you and wish you good morning!

Hey there old friend,
I miss you.

I remember we’d laugh till we cried,
or when we’d go on our own trips & rides.
Our jokes were really the funniest,
and in those moments, I could’ve sworn,
I was the luckiest.
You were there to catch my falls,
and only you answered my midnight calls.
Nobody understood me like you did,
and I wouldn’t be around if not for you, kid.
You marched with me through new things,
and provided the feathers for my wings.
You climbed with me to better heights,
and got me through the difficult nights.
It was an honor to have been your best friend for a while,
to have been the one to make you smile,
to have been the one to make you laugh,
and to once have shared your gilded path.
I hope our parting is no longer an issue
because if you’re reading this,
dear old friend,
I really do miss you.

After I made my declaration of infatuation              
You sent me to damnation
A place that eats at you with the isolation
I begged my friends for some kind of salvation
But they couldn't help me until I let go of my negation                                  
Still I didn't let go because I loved the sensation
You filled me with some kind of sedation
And I couldn’t resist the temptation

You’re just so beautiful
You’re perfect
And you mean the world to me

You’re worth every amount of my adoration
And I still think you deserve more admiration
You filled me inspiration
And being with you became my aspiration
And so I declared my infatuation
But due to some kind of complication
A mix up in the constellations
Our cells had some kind of mutation
And now it led me to my ultimate devastation:
Our complete separation

And it turned out, that to you,

I was nothing more than an agitation
We were no longer able to hold a conversation
Because your every sentence became an exclamation
And I couldn’t see the problem, I needed an explanation
I need to know why you think I’m some kind of abomination
Because now you treat me with immense brutalization
And believe me it’s no different than decapitation

And god it hurt so bad, so very bad
But I survived

My heart managed to live through its annihilation
And even after that, I hold you in glorification
They think I'm a fool, but I get over the humiliation
And sometimes I have all these hallucinations
Where I think I’m holding your hand and can feel your blood’s circulation
But then I realize it’s just an aberration
And I constantly find myself in frustration
Because you were my only source of motivation
I only woke up in morning to relieve myself of deprivation
And you wouldn’t understand my appreciation
For the happiness you gave me at our unification

All because I loved you
And maybe too much
I just wish I could go back in time
And make things right

Through some kind of alteration
Prevent you from having any kind of misinterpretation
Save myself from the isolation
The sleepless nights and exasperation
Taking helpless actions out of desperation

And every time I came to your perfection
You slapped my face with rejection

It’s like you never put any thought into our combination
I can relieve of your desolation
You’d never have to face your heart’s obliteration

I'd never stop loving you
You’d always have my full attention
You’ll never face rejection
And you’d never see your own imperfections

And all you’d have to do
Is come to this abominable creation,
And accept his declaration of infatuation

I really tried not to love you
I tried to find other joys in life instead
but you stuck around,
and not once did you leave my head

Every minute that I spend with you is a minute that I treasure
Looking back at all these pictures we took together
Always fills me with a joyful kind of pleasure
It's just something that I'll keep forever

Whenever I'm with you I feel so happy
And truthfully I don't know why
But whenever you smile at me
I feel like I could fly

You are beauty in its purest form
As whenever I talk to you
My belly'***** with a butterfly swarm
and it's really something I should get used to
As you always captivate me with your endless charm

You are brighter than all the planets and stars
Jupiter, Venus, and Mars
and only to be with you,
I'm willing to travel out to space and just as very far

You are the best there is
And I wouldn't be surprised if another wanted you as his
and so I too want you as mine
Because your love is just so divine

You are beautiful and deserved to be loved by someone great
If you want someone who’d love you more than themselves
And put you first through everything,
don't forget to call my name
Because I am so in love with you
And everyday I'll love you more and the same

You make me the happiest guy there is
And fill me an endless kind of bliss
but if I cannot have you
I would understand
And I'll try not to love you
And find other joys in life instead
but you will always stuck around,
As the only happy thoughts and memories in my head

Maybe I wasn’t the one,
And maybe she wasn’t either.
But after all of that I couldn’t bring myself to leave her-
she’s too much fun.

She’s my favorite person to be around,
only my friend, but she’s a keeper
we’ve similar dreams, she’s a believer
She’s the coolest gal I’ve ever found.

Can’t blame me for trying,
Made some sacrifices but gained no ground.
And if I said I didn’t want her for myself, I’d be lying
Her laugh, so precious, I was hypnotized by my favorite sound.

But now I’ve come to terms, it’s only fair.
I can’t not talk to you forever,
I need you there - somewhere.

I want you to find a love and a happiness,
and if it meant I got to see you smile,
and if it meant you were truly happy,

I wouldn’t mind if you didn’t find it with me.

I write and I write,
I love and I love.
It all just seems to go to waste.
My love is worth nothing -
I’ve yet to hear the words, a gesture or something.
My love must have a foul taste.

Nobody sticks around long enough
and the lonely breaks me down but I’m tough -
very tough but certainly not good enough.
I write and write and hope that perhaps one day,
things will go my way, and she will love me the same way.

I am a human who deserves to be loved,
and I am also a human who has not lived through such.
I yearn for love but also my own end
because I must surely be condemned.

Nobody has ever loved me like I love them.

I want to love you like nobody ever has.
I want to see you grow and walk with you through new things as we hold hands.
I’m a slave to your love and your wish is my command.
Listen to my heart as it grows and expands.

I would do anything for you,
I would do my best to make you laugh,
and make you forget what envies crossed your path.
I’d write you a song and sing you a lullaby,
I’d hold you and be your wings so you could fly.
I would always love you, you would never cry.
It will always pain you to say goodbye,
and I will hold you in my heart until the day I die.

But I can feel it - you do not love me as I do you
You cut the cord and let me fall through and into -
A heartbreak so strong, my mind has no silence and my sadness is boisterous,
Heart and mind did not know your love could hurt me like so and be so poisonous.

You could not bring yourself to love me,
and you bid my love goodbye.
Now listen to my heart as it withers and dries.
I hope you will never this feel this pain,
because when someone turns down your love as you just did mine,
It’s so hard to not want to disappear and die.

Your eyes,
your smile,
your nose,
The way you laugh,
the way you talk,
the way you walk,
the way you think,
the joy you bring!
Should I not be able to see
or not be able to hear
I’d know when you come near:
You’re beyond perfect, the way you’re composed
You could make me fall in love with my eyes closed

You’re a queen,
with a beautiful flower crown -
A queen who could not see my love,
and so she had it buried in the ground.
I wish you would see it,
but for as long it lies in my hands
It will sink through my fingers,
and be forgotten quickly in sand.
All of this because you do not see the wonders I see in you.
And it’s so difficult, love, to keep it from you,
because you’re a wonder, from your sparkling eyes to your curling toes. You’re the source of my dreams and my love lusting woes.
There is something so beautiful in you,
as if the wind just guides you to and through-
the gusts just pull us together, me and you.
I wish you could see it, we’re meant to be, but that’s your only fault: You cannot see.

You cannot see the way the angels have blessed you, but you do see how the bitter detest you.
You cannot see those who respect you,
but you listen to those who wish to neglect you.
You cannot see those who love and have confessed to, but you still long for those who have left you.
You cannot see me, who only wishes to protect you, but you are so blind that you must still guess who.
You could not see me and I became the one who was forced to forget you.

But the love will stay with me forever,
until the calendars reach the date: never.
It is a love I will take with me as I am buried into the ground,
the ground from which will sprout your beautiful flower crown.

It’s my fault, it truly is,
as this was something I could forbid.
I wish I had not cut my tether,
because it’s even harder now to keep myself together.
My bestest mates pull me from the pits
but I always hop back in again,
not yet fully healed of the bruises & hits.
My heart yearns for a love it will never find,
and God, I felt it so close, but she wanted a love of a different kind.
A love she wouldn’t mind,
A love that was not mine.
And they tell me, I could find a new girl in a snap,
and fill that empty gap.
And although that may be true,

She will never be you.

Of a beautiful heart, and creator of precious art,
You are an artist of a different kind.
You’ve a mind with which I’d love to intertwine.

You are more gorgeous than anything to be found in our skies,
And I’ve found that there are stars in your dark chocolate eyes.
They shine so bright that I can see the gleam,
They are the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen.

When you smile, there is a glow,
You’ve such a sweet smile,
You could cure sorrow for miles.
You’ve the prettiest lips I’ve ever known.

To come across you in my day makes me so glad,
because when we’re together, there’s always laughs to be had.
You’re my favorite person to be around,
and because of this - your laugh has become my favorite sound.

Burning aspirations, with the intensity of a thousand suns
Captivating creations, to leave viewers speaking in tongues
Charming personality, you are precious and a work of art,
Surpassed my expectations, you are the queen of my heart.

When it comes to creating, you are so skilled - you could forge dreams,
So talented that you’ve created masterpieces - without the means.
I’d love to create alongside you, in art and through and through,
I want you to paint my love with the color of you.

As an artist myself, I’ve learned from someone else,
That to make a pretty color, it takes a combination of four, three, or two
But there aren’t enough colors in the world -
to make justice to the beautiful spectrum that makes you.

And if one day you called me your love,
I don’t think I could ever mind.
But if you decide not, that’d be alright, for I’d still love you blind.
You’re the greatest, you’re the best, you’re the perfect pal,
My Vintage Gal.

I want you.

Let me make you the girl I write about,
Let me make you the one they envy -
Give it a chance and take me.
And I’ll be honest,
I’m really not that handsome,
but my loving heart’s a mansion.
Let us be together,
and I promise I’ll love you forever.
I’m really not rich nor do I drive a supercar,
but I know you’re worth more than the stars.
I would take a rocket and fly a million miles,
if it meant I got to be up close for your precious smile!
Life’s tough, but for you I’ll be tougher,
I’ll never break your heart, I’ll end the suffer.
You’ve gotten it all from me,
possession, confessions, temptation -
Let me heal you of your deprivation.
I’ll make it up to you in time,
but first let me call you mine.