In the midst of day
The strong winds blow
You not ready to say
Now the motion is slow
This is not your first
To say goodbye
May be its my test
****! Why am I so shy?
It's the love that clicks
For you know that
You ignore my flicks
But you ready to bet
Who would call first?
It's not me,....No!
I will take my rest
Door is open, you may go...

©sim

Tired of tears
Waited for years
Your fake promises
Make believe misses
Dragging with time
Dangling like chimes
Somedays you'd call
Saying you at the ball
Dancing your life away
A realisation shown my way
As you have found other
I was a standby rather
Consoling my heart
I thought over from start
Every lie turned true
Facing all, I got through
Now it's just me alone
With a heart of stone
And YOU,
                    Unknown...!


©sim

My mind dwells in a prison
Of its own thoughts
Reasoning out a reason
While untying the knots

My heart, a swamp ground
Where all my emotions sink
My feelings wip around
Stirring my blood, like ink

One drop from my wrist
Soaks within my writing pad
My teary eyes, full of mist
Shows my undesirable regret

This mind, this heart, these eyes
Drown in the darkness of pain
My tongue speaks of thousand lies
While my eyes, drizzles like rain...

©sim

Will you find me
If am lost,
In this torn world
At any cost?

"Hold my hand
In this crowd",
If I slipped
Will you doubt?

You said am special
But I lack love
A stone hearted
...a silent dove

I lost my will to live
Yet you drag me along
Like a lively puppet
...singing a crap song

You wipe away my tears
And hug me tight
You chase away my fears
And make me feel right

What shall I call you?
A healing messiah
My lost lover
Hitting on my desire

I can't keep up with this silence
Why don't you talk?
I promise to be good
Can we stop this walk?

A look on your face
Filled with care and calm
You touch my face
Then close me in your arms

A whisper in my ears
"You are mine, my love"
"I searched for years"
"My lost angel from above"

Drowned within his soul
My beating heart slowed
I no longer feel cold
As his love willingly flowed...


©sim

Stopped by an old town
To fuel up my car
Surrounded by cane fields
A figure stared from far

Almost at nightfall
Passing by the wrenched dummy
A sudden chill up my spine
Gave grumbles in my tummy

No ones around
The shack looked deserted
The figure lifted its head
But fell, as if beheaded

I screamed with a cracking voice
And sped up my car quickly
My car drove back to the same spot
Going in rounds basically

This went on till the break of dawn
While the figure gave me a meek smile
A pair of rolled up eyes
Looked through me, from a quite mile

A wink from the torn eyes
That's all I can recall
Ripped clothes, nailed to a post
Certainly it was a drastic call

People say, it's a haunted shack
Never travel alone at night
The dummy would get you
And you'll lose your sight...


©sim

You rouse
             ...I fell
You stabbed
             ...I bled
You faked
             ...I broke
You blamed
             ...I revoked
You accused
             ...I fought
You judged
             ...I spoke
You slapped
             ...I shattered
You laughed
             ...I cried
You realised
             ...I left
You loved
             ...I guised
You cried
             ...I ignored
You promised
             ...I disguised
You begged
             ...I smiled
You gave up
                I died...

©sim

I've already been to those cliffs
Which he mentioned earlier
After all my cries and sniffs
I managed to break through the barrier
*
     The limits that are bounded within
     My self restrictions of moving onward
     The ugly scars and my torn skin
     Has eventually led me forward

     One step at a time, reaching to the peak
     Wild winds pushing me from side to side
     As I search for the answers that I seek
     Where in my head is there a place to hide

     Thinking over my past and present thoughts
     Of my importance in his life for once
     A feeling of regret and self pity caught
     Now I realise why he's gone for months

     My ego and arrogance standing like a wall
     Not letting my love and emotions flow
     A last gasp on the edge, before my fall
     He grabbed me suddenly with a blow...


©sim

The stars shine bright
Creating a mirage on the lake
It's a pretty cool night
But my emotions are fake

I see the moon crescent
In the sublime ocean above
Yet thoughts rush to present
Defiling my own love

My ego won't give a way
To reply to his mail
My lips won't utter or say
So everytime I fail

The paths are lonely
As I walk by our favorite spot
He was my one and only
I was stupid, was I not?

An apology I will heartedly give
With promises to soulfully keep
Let off the ego and happily live
As my love for him is very deep...


©sim

...Ek pal ke andhere mein
Kho jaaon maye.
Ek pal ki khamoshi mein
Sabh kahe jaaon maye.
Ek annkahi baat
Jo dil mei chupi hai,
Is chandani raat mei,
Sabh kuch tere naam
Kar jaaon maye...

°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°

Translated:
In a moment of darkness
Let me be lost within
In a moment of silence
Let me just say it all
Words of my past
Hidden in my heart
In this enchanting moonlight
Let me put everything before you...


©sim

Holding my breath
To feel being dead
My pulse kept going
Aches in my head

So anxious to feel
Yet, too scared to die
I must be going insane
Why would I lie?

When I close my eyes
Many reels play in frames
I wouldn't utter a word
I am drowning with shame

Feelings and emotions
Mixed and confused
I wish for a bitter potion
But everytime get refused

I feel empty and high
Like my brain was erased
I often wonder, why
I'm not yet deceased?

©sim

The lights out
Its so dark
I hear a shout
In a distant park
Moon shadowed
Mind freezing
Dark meadows
I hear sneezing
Whose there?
"I called out"
How dare?
"I gave a shout"
A cry of a kid
Lost in park
In fear he hid
From dog bark
He moved close
My heart thumbed
Tears flowed
His voice numbed
As clouds cleared
And lights shown
The boy disappeared
Leaving me alone
Was I sleep walking?
Again a dream!
Was I even talking?
Where's the stream?
How do I get back?
Where am I?
Unrecognized track
Is this a goodbye?
Help me please
For I am lost
Put me to ease
I'll pay your cost
This life is pain
So much seen
Driving insane
Every being
Close my eyes
Let my soul go
The world filled lies
End of show...


©sim

A chill ache of fright
I sit here writing tonight
Nothing feels alright
Night is no longer bright

The air seems damp
People crying in their camps
Far away lit are the weak wreckered lamps
Streets overcrowded with empty traffic jams

The night has turned silent
The BANGS! and firings has become violent
The powerful has shown their talent
The leaders abandon with no relent

No rivers flowed in pure
No medicines available to cure
Every epidemic spawn to lure
Death has come upon for sure

Will there be a grave sight?
No one alive to take either flight
Everyone knows the war wasn't right
But weary matters handed in plight

Bloodshed stamped everywhere
Families dismantled from far and near
I myself feel am not getting anywhere
From this graveyard there is no escape to dare

The approach of twilight
The gunning and bombing in daylight
Unpredictable killings and fights
This has dropped the earth from many heights

I see my upcoming death
I feel my stuckup breath
My tears have dried
From so long cries

The world is literally torn
When the evil got born
In its web the humans sown
There is no next dawn

The ground shaking mad
Drowning in the dead
The ink has turn red
I feel the dead wreaths on my bed

Another day left to be
Another trench left to see
Another life left to flee
Another room unlocked with key

All I hear is...
BOOM!!!BOOM!!BOOM!!!
Outside my wretched room
The earth, the humans, the livings, here comes our DOOM!!!
BOOM!!!
Alas!!!


©sim

The night is slowly drowning me, in the sorrows of past
What reason, what religion, what was their cast?
Bullets echo in my ears, painting a horrific vision
Troops so many, assigned on such a deadly mission
Screams and cries, fell on deaf and dead ears
Blown in terror, civilians, hiding with grieving fears
The spirits of war lords have risen from their tomb
Once again to destroy and ****** a mother's womb
Innocent lives matter of that of any living being
But who knew, only lame bodies would be laid and seen
I switch the channels for something better everyday
Yet, the war cries echo in my ears in such a way
As if the pain of the victims, flows down to sink
In the bloodstreams of those that can link
The loss of their beloved ones, families and friends
All ties broken, with one shot and thus life ends
We are the victims, we are the war lords!
Some **** by powerful weapons, some with just words
I hope the humanity by grace rises and ignites,
Every living soul, like glowing stars, on moonless nights...

©sim

Error 500 slammed on my face
When I wanted to post
It raced its pace
And left me standing at the coast

Not the first time to be
Now it's like something's wrong
I am able to comment and see
But then the page load takes too long

Is HP comming to an end?
I hope not, please!
See to this, mend or amend
And put this error 500 on freeze.

Thank you.


©sim

A silent tic toc, is all I could here
Gasping for fresh air
I tried to move silently
In the middle of nowhere

The dried leaves crackled
As if someone was near
Stopping myself to hear again
I started trembling with fear

It was so dark to even see myself
I felt for my pocket to check my phone
My fingers all wet with blood
I could now hear a silent moan

My other hand, a complete numb
Like I could barely recall anything
I dragged myself a bit from my hide out
There, stood someone or something

With not much of energy left
I thought to stay hidden till morning break
What dangers, the night brings
It surely triggers and takes

Day Break
The chattering of birds
Came as a ringing alarm
The night has passed away
With needles stuck in my arm

Clueless of how or what happened
I tried recalling the events
The welcome party bursted
With fire engulfing the tents

A stampede suddenly broke
And some masked men started injecting
They all had needles in hand
No words ailed, just projecting

A hoax invitation, a false party
A preyed group lured in an experimental act
What was injected, is unknown
But many perished as a fact

I must have ran down to the jungle
Falling, hurting and hiding myself
The sun is well up to see
In a distance, someone admiring herself

The scene was shocking
As most leaves turned red with blood
My head still hurts bad
Like am afloat from a flood

The next hours went in abyss
As cold crept through my veins
I am alive or not
Are those,.....my remains?





©sim

I have been away for too long
In a solitude, burried with remorse
For I've lost a very close loved one
And the situation got worse

I prayed to be taken away
For my life to end
As soon as possible
Coz nothing much was left to mend

Tears rolled down my cheeks
To stop the negative thoughts
Got taken back many times
To untie the invisible knots

Voices got into my ears
That ached to explode my temple
Closing my eyes eveytime
A picture painted, to resemble

It's you, O'mum...that I can't get over with
Life seems, more like a lego
Feelings that can't be put into words
Every bit pierces through the core

Your smile, your beauty, your essence
Has all been captured by this heart
Now, in troubled weak times
Another scene peeps as an art

How will I ever, comfort myself
That now I am all alone
None that are left by my side
All have fallen and gone

May your soul rest in peace
Exactly, a month today
Missing you heaps in this crowded shell
Hope to meet you, someday...


©sim

Let those tears fall
It is not the end
Construct another wall
Build a castle instead

Smile for awhile
And breath the breeze
Breakthrough the piles
Don't hold that sneeze

Let it go, let it blow
Live your life as you want
Live with past or be slow
But never say, you can't!

©sim

My hands are clipped
My lips are sealed
My eyes they flipped
Was sworn to be healed
The demons chuckle
As my heartbeat slows
My body tightly buckled
As my blood freely flows
The reaper nods it's head
As death was not destained
My soul was grieving scared
While my body all stained
I mediated a silent prayer
For my body was almost dead
Soon came the slayer
To scoop off my head
My flesh now a fresh set meal
For the devil that lays beneath
Satisfied with it's evil deal
My bones lying out of its sheath...


©sim

My shadow, sheaths the sorrow
That breaths in my veins
Who knows, if I'll see tomorrow
With these unbearable pains
I am sure, my life is temporary
Now that,
It's all true...
The tears that shed now
Had waited for a century
You don't have to feel sorry
As I was the one to love you
Just bury me, there
Where no one knew,
That I ever existed
To forever love you...


©Seema Sen, 2020

People
Change attitude
Blame every minute

You
Stay calm
Watch them stray

Love
Separation dictators
Poison your relationships

You stare surprised
Of what
Happened

Loneliness, betrayal succeeded
Left with
Nothing

Expectation ruined everything
Love sank
Life

©sim

I speak the truth
But my eyes tend to lie
My heart beats louder
As I heard your goodbye

You know the truth
As you believe my lie
Smiled away knowing
I would be confused, why?

Is it that hard to confess
That you love me
And I love you
Or is it all meaningless

I guess it's best to let go
As I may be thinking wrong
Else why so much time wasted
Just to get along...


©sim

I will fade away, like a sketch
Gone, torn, broken so far away
Where no one would be there to catch
Not even a word to say

Alone, in this busy world
An identity of an unknown
I'd be forgotten soon
Like a weary leaf, been blown

You promised to be by my side
But instead, you pushed me outside
Dropped from a glass tower
Taunting every minute, every hour

What did I do wrong?
What have I ever done?
You hated our favorite song
The love that shined, now all gone

Perhaps, burry me in your memory
And walk away like a stranger
You'd not stop, even if I tried
And never see the danger

I'd be fine, yes I'll be
Once you were mine
But now on my own, living you alone
I'll be fine

So sorry, I took up your time
That for now, you labeled as wasted
You never told me my crime
But the bitter hate, I tasted

I'd have lived by your side
In the dark days, showing you light
But now, I am fading away
Like a mist, in the darkest night

I should've never loved you
If I'd known, you'd leave my side
While breaking my heart into two
You gobbled up, all your lies

What should I think?
What should I do?
Atleast give me a clue
Of what I should do?

In a blink, you took all away
No reasons, no words, no nothing at all
So I am fading away, yes I am
I cannot hear your call

Coz,
         I
            am
                  Falling
                              Falling,
                         ­             
                                                 Fading
                                                ­            Away....


©sim

Leaning by the window
I saw a cold figure spying
Shadowed by the darkness
Then I heard someone crying

Banned to the public,
This place was quarantined
Many lives lost mysteriously
But it looked well maintained

Wandering towards the direction
Of the awful cry, that I heard
I expected, a lost child around
So counted my paces and went ahead

A church bell rang from a distance
Not quite far from a wretched mansion
What's happening, my minds confused
Grasping high on my tension

A bright day, yet the darkness creeps
From the old mansions near the creek
Alone, I am...lost to trace
My body seems exhausted and weak

I stumbled over something
And caught myself sitting on the ground
Alas...I saw skulls and bones
Scattered all over and around

The brightness dimmed
And the gloominess filled the sky
Sitting with a blank mind
Letting the time fly

Upon darkness, I lay on the ground
Submerged with the earthly elements
Engraved on a stone, my name appeared
With few bones hung like ornaments

Certainly, I am far from home
For how long, I've been here?
I don't know the number of days
But it seems more than a year

Dead...I am, yet another failed experiment
Lost count over the years
For my body is no longer in existence
My tortured soul dwells in fears...


©sim

The thorns are dead, tangled on the fence. The flowers have wilted, above my head. The nature seems tensed with unexplained guilts. What has been planned? In the womb of this earth. Growing slowly, yet unseen. The impact shows on the surface. Such a fool we've been!! Drought, quakes and many forces, unstoppable winds and storm, that **** in and gulp the ships. We listen to deaf bosses, who talk about nature as cheap. They really groan and nigh like horses, wagging their tails on money. Yet nod their head off on many, who seek to retain nature to benefit our coming future. But their hunger of money grows and they come with failed projects!! When mother nature throws her tantrums, that's when, men starts to observe and object. Hence, controlling the failures and making awareness to protect and preserve
Our greenery, our nature, our earth that we deserve...



©sim

I may be a fallen angel
From beyond the skies
Or a broken star
Burying with silent cries

Clutching onto my wings
Bearing many hurtful scars
Deemed from my own realm
While sentenced behind bars

...The conspirators,
Used me for their deed
I was one of them
Sadly, I was only their need...

Widened sleepless eyes
Searching for my freedom
In a world full of lies
I've lost, a dream kingdom

Slowly a step ahead of time
Walks my death in plain
Looking at my shroudful body
Piercing me with more pain

...Rise to my call
O' kind souls of evil
Let this world fall
I call onto the devil...

In grief and dismay
I shall rest in peace soon
My name has been called upon
To be hanged till death, at noon!


©sim

I was always told
There is light after
Darkness
Then why do I
Not see a light when
I close my eyes
It's only witnessed
When I open this
Visionary door
Observing the light
Through these eyes
I see the change
Outside
But when I close
These eyes
Then I see the change
Inside
There is nothing
Except for darkness
No matter how much
I try
To see beyond
I keep falling deep
In my own darkness
Perhaps maybe oneday
I would see a light...

©sim

I see blood red, when I close my eyes
And black falling stars, when I open my eyes
A darting arrow, right across the sky
With my name engraved in the sky

Rain of prickly thorns, brush through my skin
Stretching, brusing, tearing my skin
The strength to lift myself, is no more
The once life filled body is no more

Shattering leaves sing, dead songs
No rhyme or rhythm matches the songs
A distant footstep sheds a little hope
But it seems a delusion, a false hope



©sim

The echoes, reunites shattered realms
Which was ingraved, many years back
Famous for it's soulful infrastructure
Nothing did the place ever lack

Wind brushes away eons of dirt
Rain cleanses the pillars to shine
Vines flourish with glorious flowers
This fantasy is growing in my mind...

Golden sun, beams its rays over the meadows
Where sleeps many bodies from the past
There in the corner, stands, an ancient shrine
Which once, was worshipped by this cast

On top of a pillar, there is an encryption
Blurred with dust, it's hard to understand
Standing on the bare ground, I feel the sea,
So near, as my feet feels the moist sand

I am on the opposite side of the shrine
Admiring the masterpiece of such kind
Wondering why no trace of humans around
This fantasy is growing in my mind...

©sim