You can sing in a tune of psalm
And make up your qualms
Even after my  moments of salaam
This connection is what you'll embalm.

A little backnote confession
Silent but wanting it to be heard
I don't want to be a nobody
Or somebody unknown throughout his life
I want to to be remembered for centuries
Come drown these doubted words with me
I'll pay for the drink
Let's sooth the fire at the start
So it doesn't get awkward
I'm not better than Mozart or the guy you see it at the Subway restaurant
But I want to be someone who impacts the world
I want something about me to give warmth inside a woman's bones
Where she can't see herself with any other man
Because I'm an open folder that was opened on the wrong page
And I want you to know that my fears are your future problems
And I don't want that
I just want to be a man who is remembered forever
For the world and your world
Ahead of immortality, you're the most important
Making you happy is what removes the dirt from my skin
And cleanse itself instantly
You're the reason I'm not piling up on candy at a Dollar Tree
I just want you to feel independent and free
And satisfied with me
I want that chance for you to be happy
Because you're looking for a certain man
And I just want to fit that criteria

They voted a certain movie to be the best in America
Which is all of them
Quality over quantity?
That applies to you
You're only one but man you make so elated inside when everything else just ***** so bad
I've been praying that this ends like a an embarrassing fad
I can relate to the daughter without her dad
Because I'm by myself on almost everything and it makes me far from glad
Am i the best movie in America?
Most likely not
They just pity me
But somehow i will find solitude
Somewhere i least expect
This is the army of people that won't bother to defect
I have quite a positive effect on people
For being a self-deprecating ineptly minded fool
Do i hate myself?
No
I'm just being honest about what is wrong with me
The golden brass with some class
But has forgotten the purpose of mass.

A woman so clever and secure
She hired bodyguards to keep her guard up
No man is going to deceive as easily as the others were perceived
That sounds like a dream every single man who likes that in a woman would want, shall it proceed?

If she is great with kids
Talks to elderly people like actual adults
And cares for people over money and possessions
Tell her to marry you now
I'm still bursting out of the ****
With a nocturnal howl
So accqainted with the disenchanted and the foul
I almost forgot what anything else was like
You've sent my interests in a hike
I can finally puncture this emptiness with a pike
Wedding bells
Wedding dress
I think I'm part woman sometimes
I like to read between the lines
But only my own
No mixed signals
No swindle
No correlation because you're afraid of being alone
Somebody who burns for me
Like I've burned for them.

Well, it's been fun guys
This is the end of our thirteen year pursuit
It's time to pave our futures
And shape our adult lives
So we can live modestly and thrive
Not being stuck in the Rat's Nest and the Bee Hive
We'll be out of the Nest
Living in free spirit and protest
This is so much for us to ingest
Some of us might feel too trepadacious to move on
But we have to keep going
It will only get harder from here
If you have the right attitude
The world is ours.

I know the world is ours.
Let's not forget that
We're the best
I know it
You just need to bestow it
Suffocate all the obstacles
With mental chloroform and verbal reform
Wash out the deception
Be alive again
Be who you destined to be
Now is our chance
Let our experiences dance
Together, we are one mighty Trojan Horse that cannot be stopped.

We're kind of a big deal, you know?

Nothing wrong with a little fornication
It's much more pleasant than all the allocations
People have daily
But I'm more of a creator
Than a destroyer
So that shouldn't be too shocking
You just got to be smart
Nothing wrong with getting down and low

I'm going to discover a new element
Its called Luv U
I know its not the most clever thing to come up with
But at least I tried

When people win money on a game show and get super excited
I just sit there and laugh
Because of high taxes in the Northern States
***** to ****
You're not really winning too much
Which is very sad
That's why I'm glad
I don't participate in them
You don't know until you try
But I know for sure on this

Little do they know
Love is not something expressed under the covers
But it is patience, tolerance and most of all
Loyalty.

You can carve a million holes into this bark
But nothing will subside my spark
For you

I'm coping with the void
Hoping to avoid
All the issues everyone else had
You make me more than glad
To be alive

Everyone is so quick to drop the baskets
I'm ready to put these stipulations in the casket
Vulnerability within me is apparent and I'm not going to mask it
I want something that's porcelain, not plastic

That thrill of seeing your beautiful eyes twinkle is fantastic.

When they tell me to let you go, I'll shake my head and continue.

Nothing worth having in life is easy.

I want to earn your courtship.

That's something I'll take pride in forever.

Paint me like one of your  beautifully decorated owned homes
Because I'm shutting this down  like a foreclosure
I'm not a rent bill that you can avoid
Don't worry about court, this decision has already been settled
I sentence you life without my involvement
Honesty is the cup of coffee people want to spit out because it's too hot to handle

National Coming Out Day
Out of the House
Out of the Box
Out of the Car
Out of the Hotel
Out of the Hospital
Out of the Closet.

I'm not the type of guy who wants a quick fling and leave dollars on the nightstand for girls to pick up
As they leave the door
I know that i wouldn't be happy with that, i want more
It starts with an R and ends with p
Spell it out for me
You'll figure it out
You're smart.

I can be your Vastile
In your carefully contrived Bastille
While you can accompany me as my Anax
Lovely as the prefix and the syntax
I live in my own world but I'll gladly live like that with you
A world with two
Is better than one
In the future
When one fleets away
Somebody can keep it one
I think I like it that way
Something deeper than us
Who is really making a fuss?
They just don't know
But I can't blame them.

You're girlfriend material, but not for me
You are sweet and gentle as could be, but don't you see?
Everything we build will not last long
Because you're younger
And life would make me leave you behind,
And that's not fair to you at all.
So I'm breaking the pain before it could possibly even start,
I care about you and your feelings inside your heart
I'm not trying to play games and lie to you

Constantly trying to think in a corner
So I don't have to hear the misery of reality

In the deepness of the night
All you can hear is her moans
Not even a single creature was stirring.

I guess I can do much better
But I could always do much worse
Remind yourself that when you're starting your pummeling parade
Upon me

You stick to me
Like tangled headphones
And Elmer's Glue
Without the rest of the area knowing a clue
From the reflection of my eyes
To the very bottom of my shoes
You're a good reason why I'm this heartfelt
I'm no hunter who kills Leopards for their pelt
But I hunt the darkest words in my soul
And I find the nearest ashes
To start again
Since you wanted to know a new me

Let me prove myself
That I'm different
I'll get on my knees
You won't have to say please
My head between
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
Let pleasure you immensely
Until the night is done
Without you doing for me in return
I'd count each blessing as you let out your noises of enjoyment
No other men would want this as bad as me
It's not a sign of weakness
To get down on both knees
And give the lady of your dreams a feeling to remember
It is a sign of respect
Ladies always go first
Even in the sheets
Don't be afraid
To be yourself
That's all I want you to be
You deserve some time to get something so elating
Not the only reason why we could be potentially dating
But it's important to me
That we have a connection beyond physical before we get there.

Girl,i'd rather be critical
Than egotistical
Of myself
Keep my ego up
But don't boost it too high.
I'm not the one who wants to make people sigh
When i'm nearby.

You're so special and comely
That you make Aprohodite jealous
Each part of your personality numbs me
To the point I can't forget what I'm feeling
Seeing is believing
And being with you feels like I'm remarkably achieving

Everyone barrages me with compliments and praise
It seems like I've always had my hand raised
I've doubted myself for far too long
But i think i have good reasons to
Others contradict that theory
But theories can change and be edited
I'm not sure if mine will ever change
Despite the overwhelming abundance of kind words
I still feel like i can only hold two candles instead of twenty
Or ace a test with excessive studying instead of acing it perfectly
Or recite a text after hours of reading
Instead of minutes
Am i genius? Am i smart? Am i something better than average?
The answer to this is pretty transparent
I'm alright. A few bruises and dents, but nothing to be startled over.

One, two three,
Do you see yourself with me?
One, two, three
I really have to ***.
One, Two, Three
Four is being left out
One, Two, Three
You're a fire that doesn't damage but heats me up
One, Two, Three
Million times
To light me up
I like fireworks but you already outdid them
Fourth of June
You left too soon
For my eyes to get used to pure pulchritude and grace.

A new year, a new poem
I'm not sure if everything is new as they say it is.
Things have mostly stayed the same
Just time has moved forward
And that's all.
How much will change before the next new year?

Even as s single man
I can't stand
Places like Twin Peaks and *******
The only woman that should make me want to peak
In public
Is my wife/girlfriend

I deserve so many apologies
But I'll just stay silent
Cause nobody wants that Nat
To have a large mouth
And watch it gradually grow bigger
And watch the spirits of others dwindle
Down into the epitome of nothing
I will not trigger a nuclear bombing on people's lives like that.

I used to lash out like that and now i stay content.
Content with my own faults
Trying to throw them into the vault
You can't take back everything
But i take all the pointed fingers
And no longer letting the hate towards myself linger
I'm just as big of a culprit as the others
I'm just more cognizant of my faults, i suppose
It's no surprise that I'm here
Hopefully another reinvention is near.

When i think of being with a woman in my life
I plan on being with them throughout life
Or making her a new Mother
But i'm not too sure about kids
They're really cool and all
But am i really responsible enough for them?

I just wanted to enjoy the day
Sitting on the bench
Glad I'm not in the drench
From the heat
Talking to people is so neat
But when you only start a conversation
To get my number
It only makes me feel number
To certain situations
I hate to assume
So that's why I don't easily partake
I'm trying to avert myself from the fakes
When you leave me here
Realizing you only wanted something out of me
It puts me into defeat
It's happened multiple times before
Tired of this deplore
This heart tries to vehemently roar
Positively.
It's definitely a fight

My heart is growing baneful
From all those that caused painful
Memories for me
You might need an enquiry
To figure all of this out
I have have German decent, I'm surprised I haven't been called a *****
It's like they upset me to bring out
The Beast I never wanted to unleash
I earn money like a baksheesh
But one day I'll make it big
Not through an Oil rig
But on my own accord
I tangled by my anger
But I'm afraid that I can't cut the cord
Hopefully my kindness won't be covered in swards

I stand in my way
You stand in yours
Pick up the pressure
By doing what you love anyway
That's not in the story manual for TV dramas
But who cares?
We're doing what we want
I think that's better than senseless fighting for however long
Years and years of wasted time
But I don't plan on wasting any
Some of the ashes are lovely
Because they deserve to be ashes
I don't want to be that ever again
I stand in my way, but I will not be Ash.
I will move myself out
Like the Moving companies
And find a new destination
To harvest my potential

These Burial Mounds
Don't reserve spots
It just is what it is
The dead can't speak
Because they died from physical defeat
In the tides of war
Leaving the mental condition sore.

I love Free Mountain Dew
Its the best thing outside of love you can get

I'm a understanding guy
If you give me a chance, you'll know why
You have bigger fish to fry
Than to get stuck into somebody's web
I'm not here to control you
I'm not here to keep you captured in my cage
You're the other half of me
So I want you to be relaxed
You can do what you want
Im not going to stop your elation
You can play around with other women
As long as you tell me
I don't care
It won't bother me
It you tell me what you're doing
Trust is what keeps things alive
I'm trustworthy with others
So that shouldn't be exempt here
I'm ready to preserve
On being the best for you
Your top ace
Of the lineup
If you show me that you really love me and that you really care, and go the extra mile to prove it to me that you do
I will be grateful forever
You can be free and you
You're not my property
I'm just the man you chose to be with
That special one
You want to spend the rest of your life with
I'm perfectly happy with that
You created a happy man

How could I want the art of poetry to be dominantly white and male?
There's way too female poets of color and white female poets that ate much better than I
I couldn't live peacefully in the old days with that being apparent
My intentions are transparent
I think women are better with their words
I'm just an intimidator I feel
But it only takes one for these lines to congeal
Art is a three course meal
And it should not be overlooked
She fills up my stadiums and gets them overbooked
How could I want poetry to be white and male?
The elitist mindset is *******
There's far too many female poets who deserve a trophy of gold
And their hearts to heal.
And there's also too many male poets who don't deserve the image of elitism.

I'm a man but many people still think my hand has to be held
What a joke that is
An adult is an adult
No matter what
I deserve some respect as one
I can handle my own
Better than you think
How do you know something you've never given the chance to see?
The logic is absent here
But it's still vibrant here
We're repeating old habits
And I'm trying to move forward
Can't do that when nobody let's you
I'm doing my way and that's final
Adjust to it or accept it
Life's been hard, but that's the way it is
I thought you understood that better than me

You took the Scissors
And cut me out completely
You wanted to forget the day you meeted me
On a tide you didn't want to be in front of
Who could of blamed you?
Nobody should of put shame on you
You did what a normal person would
Be upset

We were a flame that was hard to stay lit
And i constantly questioned myself on most of it
It was all worth it, regardless of the time wasted
Youth is a silly thing
And i'm not that person anymore
Regardless if i still ask myself if i'm a human is besides the point
There was a dozen of gin joints
I could of ended up at
But this one was the most pristine
I'm favorable on trying new cuisine
Because i'm the poster adult for cheap thrills
I really don't like how high these prices are nowadays
Not everyone is rich, you know?
Good moments and good times is all i want bestowed
But even though we're confounded in our woes
I want us to always fight these fires with harsher fire

36 hours, my thoughts persist to keep me up at night.
That's how long the change took
But it feels like 3600 days
Or perhaps even years.

Women
Don't owe me
Anything
Nothing
At all.

The grass is greener on the other side
But is it?
Façades are a tricky maneuver

The sadness is kicking in
I don't want her beautiful soul to feel the tip of the needle
As I delve deeper
I'm a heavy sleeper
On the important
But her happiness
Is also important
I have to drive this out of the tunnel
For us to truly move forward
I do everything for her
I have done everything for her
I don't regret a single **** thing I've done for her.

I'm kinda Crazy
Kinda shy
Kinda artistic
Kinda fun
Kinda spontenous
But im a new bag of sugar
Mix it up into the mess
So you can let the light digest
I'm hard to fully understand and fully congest
But that's what is so fun
Take the chest and run
Run with my heart and protect it
Never let it slip away
Or become dismembered into an oblivion
You are my protector
I am yours
We're all faced with this contempt
But we have to avoid the  forcoming tempest
When you hurt me, I know you never truly meant it
So fragile, just like me

On the streets
We all try to be discreet
Or completely boisterous
It doesn't really stay in one state
Were always on time or late
Its never one event all the way through
I think that's what people misconstrue
Its too common along these parts
Really all the parts

Let your soul extend
Into mine
Never have I met a lady so fine
Pour your wine into mine
Give me that tinted shine
My stars aren't as bright
The sound of the comets keep me up at night
They're so far away
That's how I want it to stay
Like the peak period of the day
I want you be like that when you come my way
Bursting vivacious spirit
It's music if you try to hear it
If you grabbed lipstick and smeared it
I wouldn't change my tone
I wholeheartedly condone
You being yourself
With me, you could be on bookshelves
With your consent
Of course
Let's put the saddle on this horse
And pick off the gorse
In the fields
Yours would be goldfields
Close knit, organized
Unlike me
Messy and reckless
But you seem to ream me back together
That I appreciate the most
You have an issue
Lay it down
I'll take care of it
Nice guy in public
You start crying
I become a fierce warrior

Walk up to a girl
Wherever you're at
Whether it's a club or a flat
Approach her convivially
Don't state any word trivially
Ask if she's the middle of the month
Because she's a ten out of ten
Tell her you dislike the rating system
Later on.
Smoothness is key

Aurora super sweet
Makes my attraction non discreet
Let me have a taste

There's plenty of fish in the sea
I hope that one you choose is me
I can be your Rainbow Fish and your Sword Fish at the same time
My effort and thoughts of you will transcend space and time
Long after the start
My affection and love will never depart
I am a hopeless romantic
Please erase hopeless off of my classroom chalkboard.

I can feel the pressure inside me,
But the wind always seems to guide me,
The storm are only the weak cells,
Hearing the distant sounds of bells,
That's when I realize Hell is upon me,
Making its rounds again.

Most guys gawk over models and ignore their girlfriends by playing video games

I'd gawk over my wife and turn the video games off for her; giving her the attention she needs.

I don't know what we're supposed to write
Why does everything I do feel trite?
Spending my nights binging Nick At Nite
Formulating ideas to get them right
Another sleepless night
Becoming a sleeping day
Lost on what to say
It feels like the whole world will pay
One way or another
Do you feel the same?