I think of the nights in your car. Watching the stars. I pointed out the ones that fell, While you watched me from the driver's seat. One night I saw three, Set ablaze by gravity. I silently wished upon them For it to always be that way. You telling me such sweet things. Making me feel wanted and understood. Sliding your hands through my hair. Fingertips dancing across my skin. You didn't pay attention to The falling rocks, You watched as my heart fell From the sky and right onto your lap. You were the one person That made the world disappear. Now we're strangers. You've hurt me like I've done to others. Past pain floods in my ribs. I suppose the tears Are just the ones I owe.
I climb your wall of infinite disparities I scratch my leg on your thorned stories I cry my tears over your heart that bleeds I'll lift up a thousand stones I'll call you with a million phones I'll give you all of my bones For I smile every time you look at me For I open my doors if this is where you wanna be For I'll be with you whenever you need me
It is hard to tell everyone that needs to know the same thing at the same time. Without sharing it with those that might not need to know. Follow along as I take you on a short ride I care for many. I am friends with few maybe just two. I trust none but my siblings. I would give my last if I thought that you not only needed it but deserved it. We have all had the same opportunities in life. With your extra, you drink, drug and ***. With mine I give to my children. I don't ask you for anything. We don't talk yet you feel comfortable opening your mouth to ask me for something. How dare you. I use to try to understand the thinking of everyone. I thought to myself, how can I help you if I don't understand you. I now understand that you are all about you. Uncaring, greedy and selfish. I am none of those, but I also owe you none of me. This journey has helped me to see that I owe you nothing. Does it hurt me not to help you? Yes! But for the love of my self, I will not. We all need someone sometime. But using people is not the answer. If it is not my sibling, children or real friend...don't ask for nothing! If you desire for things to change you need to change. Build trust, be there just to be there. Not because you have needs. I can't deal with over-grown people throwing their needs on me!
My heart is large but I am not here for you to use.