With a proper length of time
the temporal problems in your life
the suffering of your heartbreak and
the ****** people who put you down
will disappear
only if you make a firm decision;
whether to stand on your ground and fight
or quit
in between is never an option
breathe, think
use that brain and listen to your heart

if the pain you're feeling is worth it
if you insist that the result will make you happy
then make them all fall down
**** your problems
and stop drying your tears your lover caused you
be happy inside your battle

but if you quit,
I promise you will find something great ahead
you will be happier, better, all the -er
why?
cause you choose yourself
cause finally you're free from those
that makes you feel so small
cause you learn from your past

someone told me that the choices
you made is never a wrong thing
it becomes wrong if you regret it

so choose: yes or no
get the word 'but' out
be that person you want to be
stop trying
*just be

Then he bends down on one knee

Breathe me like the time
you inhaled right before
our very first kiss

The one thing you probably don't realize
is that when you decided to chose yourself
above us—what we had and what we were
I forced myself to choose me, too
and when I did, I was crawling above the damages
of what remains from our love
step by step until I break
cause baby we both know for sure
that if we stay 'friends' or whatever you call it
I'll be the only person who's irrationally staying in love
and you won't give a **** about that
Funny, we are a pair of selfish people
who's saving ourselves by hurting others
yet we're unable to stay together

Value your worth
with or without cloth
how you dress or undress
doesn't define who you are
you are beautiful
in both ways
you deserve to be respected
and treated like the golden rose
fancy, rare, and desirable on display
smack the *******
who ever tell you otherwise

In the most connotative way
he kisses my red nose
and surprises me with the fact
that I actually have options
to stare out at the cold hope
*or to make him my full stop

Is it too big of a favor
to rewind the time

when we were together
in your dark room
with your long stare
deep into my soul
as you sit on the cold floor
with your heart open
while I wore your t-shirt
and listening to the silence
then you circled your arms
around my hips
and use my tummy
for a pillow

and play that one moment
on repeat
in slow motion

After 26 days
I realize that I was not in the right place
to make any decision for both of us
I also realize that being in love with you
is a choice that I keep on making
every single day

I am God's masterpiece of art and
The Queen of my mind and heart

Those tattoos of his
are the visual storyteller
every ink he painted
is a beautiful work of art
same thing happen
when he makes a mess
of my red lipstick

We went shopping
and while queuing
you pulled my hips close
and started to leave traces
on my back with your finger
then you hold me from behind
just like you always do
when we want to sleep
your head was on my right side
as you whispered softly;
"I changed my shampoo
to blueberry and the color
is a bit blue-ish"
I smiled, enjoying your warmth
then I opened my eyes
to another sunrise
and cried

Pardon my idle thumbs
I cannot stop them from typing your name
on my phone screen and pressing
the dial button

To those midnights
and days
and mornings
you acted like
a little child
who is impatient
opening his
birthday gift
when I was wrapped
inside my dress
as I lay
on your bed

Oh my dear Samson
Please, save me
The wicked wizard had
put his black witchcraft
on my heavy heart
—it turned into stone
and drown me deep
into Bermuda Triangle

Isn’t this what you wanted?
Me—gone
Somebody had to make
a solid decision, right?
Cause you cannot keep
on putting an expired food
inside your refrigerator
for it will be rot and appear
a lot awful than the last time
you left it behind

That one person
who is able to make
your past stays
*in the past

On that fullmoon
our body heat rose
above the ceiling
and every voice
turned into moaning
as my saliva left trails
from your lips
to your ears
while you were busy
rocking your hips
onto mine

The lipstick I am wearing
misses the way you ruin it
until it paints the depth of love
I feel for you on your lips
and it marks the truth that
I am solely meant for you

Now I just come to realize
that he is the entire movie
and the rest are advertisements
but wait
I think he's feeling
the exact same thing
*about her

Do what makes you happy, I was told
But what is happy?
Cause I remember eating candies and
I don't know why they taste sweet
until he came and taught me
the flavor of sugar
Then he told me that not being with me
makes him happy
From that day on
I'm senseless to any happiness
cause he's the one that actually
make sense to that

Every taste feels like your tongue intertwined with mine

Tuck in your tired feet
inside the warm blanket we'll meet
i'll blow away your worried minds
with one little kiss i'll leave behind

no matter what happened today
no matter what will happen tomorrow
you should know that i will stay
and things will turned out okay

hey honey let me sing you
a lullabies for all night through
for every frown and smile you do
keep in mind that I love you

now now close those heavy eyes
ready to enter your dream, it's nice
na na na na na sleep tight
na na na na na turn off the light

He invited butterflies when he started
and
turned them into moths when he finished
*using me

If I know where to begin
he is my again

Ah, go ahead
cut my flesh open
let me bleed until I'm dry
and tell me to absorb
all the pain
as I cry my lungs out
then tell me you can't heal me
simply because you're afraid of blood

Its shine twinkling above
amidst the clouds
over the galaxy
reaching out
in secrecy
and
it falls
granting wishes
hearing whispers
lighting up broken hopes

just what I was made for you

Hey, I'm here
Bleeding in the deepest space of your heart
Can you feel me?
Here, come closer
let me whisper you a secret
You see, time doesn't fly in my galaxy
it's frozen after you left me
guess you've cast a charmed
to keep my open flesh unarmed

I wish I had been kinder to him
I wish he realizes how devastating I am feeling
I wish I was more careful
I wish he left me earlier than he should be
I wish I can actually stop thinking about him
I wish he didn't take me for granted
I wish I am worth his fight and effort
I wish he would stop treating me like trash
I wish I can stop treating myself like trash
I wish he respects the love I gave him
I wish I can laugh wholeheartedly
I wish he can laugh wholeheartedly
I wish I can understand what's on his mind
I wish he gave me more chances and time
I wish I can find a reason to hate him
I wish he's in love with me

I wish wishes do come true

Can anyone tell me
where is the manual book
for fixing leaking eyes?
The ******* stole it from me
now my pillow and hand
are always damp at night
even in broad daylight
****

Oh boy, that schmuck
looked unbelievably gorgeous
in that blue ocean cardigan
I gave him
and I absentmindedly gave him
a deep long kiss
when he visited me last night
.
.
.
.
in my dream

I will be cuddling inside your pillow chest
Smooching your strawberry hair
Endlessly biting your lower lips to annoy you
Laughing at your gestures and unfunny jokes
Resting my fingers atop yours like braid
Enjoying the love song of your heartbeat
Breathing your absurd laugh
Watching the stillness of your sleep and
Opening my eyes to see the sun rising on your cheek
All of the above are the opposite of  my reality
All of the above are what we were once upon a time
But
There's one thing left that's not the opposite
I am still extremely ridiculously inevitably
deeply honestly and completely
in love with you

Ulala
Those bright green eyes
ridiculously
fit the yellow sunlight
when the sky stopped raining

Oh, Dear, tell me
how to shut my brain
from boiling of anger?
or muffled the cries
from my heart out of
pains and memories of him?
please tell me the place
where he's not there
cause obviously
falling asleep is not working
and waking up is even worse

My oh my
The act of erasing you from my phone
is keeping both my cheeks wet

I could stand on the edge of a cliff
where the abyss of endless despair lays below
above the sparks flies of your smile
and the lie you sew about the chance
I'd find on the other side
Then when you pushed me and I jumped off
there was nothing but a dream
yet
I still shouted how much I love you
until it echoes inside your ears

May you always be reminded
how big of a sin you've made
when you lured angels to fall from heaven
into your despicable loving arms
as you innocently walked away
without any intention to catch them

I'm on my knees begging to God not to cross my footsteps to yours ever again
And I'm asking for His forgiveness and thanking Him because He showed me my own karma—you
Lesson learned and very well noted
You are the best and the worst person I have ever met
And though I meant absolutely nothing to you but you meant the world for me
Iloveyou
I still do
But you destroyed me—big time
All the kisses and the laughs
Our memories and songs
I'm ashamed
Turned out I was just another shirt you're changing
Still
I love you with such respect and honesty
I love you with a big amount of trust and support
And everything that you did
Every single drop of kindness that you did
Was a big fat lie
Therefore the only thing left you can do is to disappear into thin air
You are not allowed to call me
Erase my number and my pictures on your phone
I forbid you to even say that you've ever known me
Don't you dare say hi if we ever meet on a street
I am neither your fans nor your ex not even close to a friend for you
I am nobody—like I have always been
Your existence is invalid for me
Vice versa
You are a very great karma on which I promise myself not to make the same terrible mistake like I did before you
You are the only good in goodbye
I hope not to see you again

Excuse me? I don't get you
I'm sorry I don't speak *******
I can only speak English and
probably a little honesty
and correction, I'm not sorry
so, never open your mouth
in front of my face ever again

Once upon a time
I met an ******* who is fluent
in speaking lies
and acting innocent
I was so caught up in his act
I thought he planted roses
when all he really did was
setting up volcano inside my body
so off he sailed
and blow I did
then the lava destroyed
his faked roses
along with the promises I made
he had burned into ashes

I am a Lego
Build me up brick by brick
Build me strong, build me weak
I could be pretty
Or I could make you sick
But a 4 year old kid
Shouldn’t touch me
Cause he’s not ready
He might as well be chocked
By swallowing me
Or changed his mind
And decided that
He wants other cheap toys
*To play with

*******
Fake
Fantasies
Fantastically
Flowing
Fluently

No, I won't forgive you
Nor forget about how good we were
No, you are not sorry
Nor even get to think you should apologize
No, I don't hate you
Nor have the desire to even look at you
No, you cannot speak my name
Nor get to miss a single thought about me


The last thing you can do to me
is to be vanished from my life
and let me get the happiness
you chose not to give me

Falling for him was her first mistake
The rest? Oh, Darling
They spread faster than venom

I will allow them to cut my veins
and bleed me dry
while I feel the pain rushing
down my cheeks
but I will use my blood and tears
to paint my victory red
on their skin

She might looks so weak and sad
But they forgot that a black mamba
Can **** with one bite and doesn't smile

Be a Queen
Marry a King
Build your empire
Together

Give it time

Every single night
I sleep wearing the black t-shirt
or the other shirts that you left
and wrapping my neck
with your favorite scarf

somehow the convinced me
that you will come around
and your heart is very near to mine

For eleven days
I've been crying
and justifying
your absence

For fourteen days
I've been longing
and wishing
for your presence

On the fifteenth day
I've stopped crying
I've stopped asking why
I've stopped hoping

*And start praying for your sake of happiness

I don't care
how many
full moon
but I left
the door
unlocked